last love

Wen Ke was stunned for a moment, and he suddenly raised his head: "You, you know? How do you know...?"

Han Jiangque turned around. He looked at Wen Ke, his eyes turned a little red: "During the third year of high school, the school officially reported that you cheated by writing small notes in the examination room, and everyone believed it, but I didn't believe it. I don't care about others. Say something, but you can't—Wen Ke, you can't and don't need to cheat."

"At the time of the preliminaries, Classes AB and Class O were interspersed with seats arranged in the auditorium, and Zhuo Yuan sat behind you."

Han Jiangque gritted his teeth and continued: "I checked later, Zhuo Yuan's grades in all the quizzes fell in that month, only the last preliminary exam was the best. Wen Ke, the preliminary exam results are brought Wasn’t it always Zhuo Yuan’s idea to apply for foreign universities?——Zhuo Yuan is the one who cheated.”

Han Jiangque went to the bed and sat down, stared at Wen Ke, and asked again: "It is Zhuo Yuan who wants to copy your answer, right?"

Wen Ke's hands under the quilt trembled violently.

At that time, no one believed him anymore. During the days of the cheating turmoil, he was like a dumb man, and he didn't refute a single word to himself.

He remembered the last time he went to class to pack his things, and everyone looked at him with weird and unavoidable eyes.

He left the school as if he was running away.

Since then, Wen Ke never went back, not only to school, but also to that small northern city.

Changed the number, almost cut off contact with all high school classmates, and soon got engaged to Zhuo Yuan, and moved to City B with Zhuo's family.

That's it, he made a complete cut with Wen Ke in high school.

So he didn't know until now that Han Jiangque believed him.

Han Jiangque was the only one who believed in him from beginning to end.

"I..." Wen Ke exhausted all his strength to keep himself calm. He didn't look at Han Jiangque, but said lightly: "It's all over, I don't care anymore."

It seemed to be speaking to Han Jiangque, but it also seemed to be speaking to himself.

"But I care." Han Jiangque said, he picked up the shirt from the side and put it on hastily.

Wen Ke couldn't help but looked up at Han Jiangque's face in a daze.

He was very close to Han Jiangque, so close that he could clearly see the short, hideous scar between Han Jiangque's eyebrows and eyes.

It was the wound he smashed with a chair. It should have been deep. It can be seen that several stitches should have been stitched at that time.

They were all too young at that time, and most of the time they relied on instinct to deal with the world, but sometimes instinct was too weak to solve problems.

Wen Ke looked at it, thinking of Han Jiangque's appearance when he stretched his neck and said to him, "I only know how to fight", and felt very sad.

16-year-old Han Jiangque wanted to help him, but he could only think of beating Zhuo Yuan up.

He didn't want Zhuo Yuan to be beaten, and he didn't want Han Jiangque to get into trouble, so he raised his chair and imprinted a permanent ugly mark on this face that he dreamed of.

He blindly wanted to forget, but Han Jiangque still remembered.

It's been ten years, and the scars of his cheating incident have not only left on Han Jiangque's face, but also in Han Jiangque's heart.

"Even if it's cheating, it can't be a matter of one person. I hit Zhuo Yuan because I wanted him to admit——he copied your test paper, and he forced you to agree to help cheat. As long as he says, you You won’t necessarily be fired.”

Han Jiangque looked at Wen Ke, with sadness and anger in his eyes, and said stubbornly: "As long as you are not expelled, you will still have a chance. You can still take the college entrance examination and go to the university you want. Wen Ke, Why don't you fight for yourself?"

"Han Jiangque... don't talk about it."

When Wen Ke said this, he almost felt that he was going to collapse. He covered his face, trying to hide his emotions, but felt his palms were wet immediately, and he choked up and said, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, don't say it. I was originally Just cheated, I cheated for whoever it was - I shouldn't be in college, I should be expelled, please, stop bringing it up, sorry..."

He still collapsed in front of Han Jiangque. In fact, getting fired for cheating ten years ago was a huge blow far worse than getting divorced today.

No matter how much he wanted to play a mature, calm adult, he still couldn't face it.

Han Jiangque's eyes were red, and he suddenly stretched out his hand to hold Wen Ke tightly in his arms.

Wen Ke wanted to struggle, but the adult Alpha's arms were as solid as a city wall, and he couldn't escape at all.

"Wen Ke, you are always saying sorry to others."

Han Jiangque buried his face in Wen Ke's shoulder and said hoarsely, "But you are most sorry for yourself."

……

Han Jiangque is right, every word is right.

Memories, one after another like a nightmare, Wen Ke hasn't thought about it for a long time.

He never mentioned that matter to anyone, and he kept it a secret for ten years, not only for Zhuo Yuan, but also for himself.

That was his deepest nightmare, the most painful wound.

After Zhuo Yuan marked him for the first time, perhaps it was the young man who tasted the forbidden fruit for the first time, thinking about it almost all the time, and the demands on him were so strong that it was almost unbearable.

That period of life had a gray tone. Wen Ke remembered that she would often fall asleep exhaustedly doing papers in her mother's ward, and then being taken away by Zhuo Yuan who sneaked in, and they would return to Wen Ke's deserted, Constant sex in the shabby little house.

With such madness, even Wen Ke would feel worried about his own grades, not to mention Zhuo Yuan was not considered the strongest top student in the first place.

Before the pre-examination, Zhuo Yuan was terrified. Perhaps it was because of the way the seats were arranged that Zhuo Yuan saw a glimmer of hope. He hugged Wen Ke and kept saying that he always wanted to study abroad. The results of the pre-examination did not affect the college entrance examination, but But he wanted to use it to apply for foreign colleges and universities, and said that if he failed the exam this time, his mother would beat him to death.

This repeated entanglement and pleading finally made Wen Ke dizzy.

He has been an honest student since he was a child. No matter how much he cares about Han Jiangque, he has never done a cheat sheet for Han Jiangque; Zhuo Yuan also made this request to Wen Ke.

If he hadn't met Zhuo Yuan, Wen Ke would never have thought that one day he would be fired for cheating.

Wen Ke is a very clumsy cheater, while Zhuo Yuan is a very greedy plagiarist;

Passing a cheat sheet was not enough, Zhuo Yuan kicked the corner of Wen Ke's chair several times from behind, and asked for answers several times.

When the fourth cheat sheet was passed, Wen Ke was finally caught on the spot——

Holding the small ball of paper that he hadn't handed out, he was twisted out of the examination room by the ashen-faced teacher.

The memory after that was like a random scene edited together by a clumsy director.

He remembered that his palms were covered with sweat, his vest was covered with sweat, and above his head was the dim yellow light that was constantly flickering because of a broken light bulb.

Like a prisoner, he huddled and squatted in the dean's office, surprised by his head teacher and scolded him bitterly.

At the beginning, they all asked who he was writing the cheat sheet to, and no one believed that Wen Ke would be the one who cheated, but he never said anything.

Until now, it is difficult to understand myself at that time.

Later, the teachers let him go home and asked him to think about it again.

Zhuo Yuan brought him back to Zhuo's house, and he shivered in Zhuo Yuan's arms all night, his mind seemed to be circling many thoughts, but it seemed to be blank.

He really freaked out.

And Zhuo Yuan kissed his ear repeatedly, saying "Xiao Ke is sorry", he comforted Wen Ke and said, "It's just cheating in the pre-examination, not the college entrance examination, it won't have much impact, at most remember Greater than."

Wen Ke cried that night, and Zhuo Yuan couldn't help crying. He kept begging Wen Ke not to confess himself, saying: If this matter is discovered, he will be finished. If he is finished, the family will not He, that way he can't help Xiaoke, and he can't help Xiaoke's mother either.

Wen Ke was in a daze, and he hadn't figured out what to do, but within two days, the school's punishment came down swiftly——

He was fired.

Being expelled at that time has completely bid farewell to the possibility of taking the college entrance examination.

No one ever asked him if he was being asked to cheat, and it seemed like overnight it didn't matter.

The teachers who believed him before didn't ask any more questions, and he was severely punished like never before.

In the days that followed, he almost seemed dead.

When others were actively preparing for the college entrance examination, he would lie in bed all night long in a daze, watching the dirty window turn from night to day, from morning light to dusk.

I thought about dying more than once, but I didn't do it in the end, probably because of cowardice.

Zhuo Yuan is the only person he can rely on.

The Zhuo family probably knew the details of the whole incident, and quickly transferred Wen Ke and Wen Ke's seriously ill mother to City B, saying it was to let him relax.

A few months later, Zhuo Yuan was admitted early by his dream overseas university by virtue of his excellent pre-examination results.

The entire Zhuo family was overjoyed. On the night of family celebration, Zhuo Yuan put an engagement ring on Wen Ke, and said: Xiao Ke, I will love you forever.

Three months later, Wen Ke's mother's cancer recurred again and she also passed away.

Everything that year fell to the ground.

……

What does regret feel like?

Wen Ke is too clear.

In the past ten years, when he thought about cheating and being fired, the pain made him unable to sleep. He could only close that memory immediately, relying on fantasy——

Fantasy holds a knife and cuts his wrists again and again, until the blood is dripping, so that he can gradually calm down his mood.

It's punishment, by killing oneself in the imaginary space, to gain the courage to live.

This is remorse.

Without being expelled, his life is open, with countless crossroads in front of him, and his future is unlimited.

But being fired, those exciting possibilities were closed, the future was closed to him.

On the road of life, a person always has to face many, many choices.

Some choices may feel very small at the moment, but in fact, looking back many years later, you may find that an ordinary day at that time was the turning point that finally changed your life.

Just like that day, Wen Ke stepped into the examination room apprehensively, the sun shone warmly on the back of his head, like a most ordinary morning.