I'm not a scumbag

……

When Xie You sat down deeply, both of them snorted, Xie You's snort was especially captivating.

步城呼吸都有些不畅。

这个姿势体位，他肖想了许久。

谢游调整呼吸，双手懒懒地搭着步城肩膀，看着他笑，一颦一笑都是风情，跟平常完全不一样。

步城心里骤然有个想法，以后他哥喝酒，他再不拦着了。

"Don't think I don't know what you're looking at, you think I can't find it if it's encrypted, huh? Ah Cheng?" Xie You moved slowly, teasing Bucheng while enduring his discomfort.

Bucheng's face was flushed by what he said, but he was like the one who drank.

"As a birthday present for you." Xie You whispered in Bucheng's ear.

Bucheng held back his breath, "Brother, you are drunk, today is your birthday."

谢游起来一点，似乎才反应过来，“啊……是，搞混了，没事，都一样，那下次你回送我吧？嗯？”

步城已经说不出话了，谢游细微的动作磨的他心痒极了。

Xie You is not good at this thing, nonsense, how could he be good at it, from 1 to passive 0 and now to active 0.

步城电脑里那些玩意他也看过，自觉应该也能浪到那个地步，但是他高估自己了，都不知道那些人怎么做到的。

太难耐了，倒也不是难受，就是不敢大幅度动，疼。

虽然疼过之后会爽，但是他就是狠不下心折磨自己。

Xie You put his arms around Bucheng's neck, intertwined with others, their breaths intertwined, listening to each other's ears can especially mobilize emotions.

“这玩意还有点难。”谢游说。

Xie You was too cautious, but Bu Cheng couldn't help it, grabbed the man's waist, and pressed down hard.

谢游猝不及防，下意识仰头，脖颈拉直了线条，大口地踹着气，步城看着眼前微微暴着青筋的脖颈，想都没想就上前啃住了。

谢游总觉得这人想像吸血鬼那样咬死自己，颇有些哭笑不得。

在步城的帮助下，谢游好歹上手了些，但是依旧不得章法，弄的步城也有些燥，慢，太慢……

Like a feather scraping over an itchy spot, Bucheng became more and more unbearable, panting heavily, and directly knocked him down in this posture.

体位颠倒。

Xie You lay on his back, looking at Bucheng.

步城也在看着他，眼里的雄狮呼之欲出，谢游笑，啧，他家小狼崽快憋坏了啊~

双腿熟练地交缠住人的腰身。

“算了，游哥学艺不精，还是你来吧。”

步城再忍不住。

A charming room.

……

Xie You was carried to clean up, then carried back, spread out on the bed, not wanting to move at all.

I took a look at my phone and suddenly remembered something.

He propped himself up and looked at his phone. It was 32:[-]. Fortunately, it was not yet time. He almost forgot something. The fans' birthday benefits were not distributed.

最敷衍的情况应该也要有个自拍啥的，谢游显然忘了。

粉丝已经哭了。

——宝贝儿你失踪一整天了。

——呜呜呜怎么回事？回家跟步总搞事忘了吗？

--How could this be!The step is always the step!Fans are fans!How could Brother You do this...

——呜呜呜，还有半个小时，撑住。

After he got dressed, his neck was covered with scars, Xie You frowned, went to get a scarf, put it on, and took a few selfies.

Fans exploded, feeling that Brother You still loves us, and there are a bunch of people below who call us Zizai, Brother, Husband, and Baby.

但是那条围巾过分引人注目了，明明谢游几乎都没怎么拍进去。

——What kind of scarf does the baby wear indoors?Very suspicious~ [funny]

——What do you know, this is a kind of etiquette that is friendly to both parties.

——What etiquette?

——The necessary etiquette when going out to meet single dogs after "things".

……

After another 10 minutes, a comment with tens of thousands of floors suddenly popped up.

——那个杯子！杯子反光上是啥？

Xie You's heart tightened, he zoomed in on the photo and took a look.

Xie You: "..."

几乎没穿衣服的步城……

I can't see clearly at all, but I can clearly see the outline of a person, and I know that the person is not wearing clothes.

Xie You quickly deleted the photos, and took another set with the white wall in the background.

@谢游：大家晚安，早睡早起~

Escape also seems to go offline.

第二天他都有点不敢看热搜。

结果没想到被顶上热搜的并不是昨天那几张照片，而是另一个截图。

谢游点进去看。

@aBCXYz：别想了，他不穿衣服把我摁在床上的样子更帅。

下边一堆头头是道的分析，“姐妹们看我发现了什么？还记不记得这条评论？先不说别的，我们看看这个id，发现啥了没？BC是谁？XY是谁？当然这个有点绝对了，我们再看……”

一大段线索细节。

"In short, the conclusion is that this is Xie You's trumpet!"

谢游由衷佩服。

下边虽然很多人嗑糖，但是也有很多理智发言，“过度解读了吧？”“我们还是不要太浪，说不定不是呢，我们这样会影响他们。”

After 1 minute, the analysis blogger received a like.

"Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa therefore so arrogant!"

“卧槽卧槽卧槽，正主亲自下场证明！”

"It's too much!! How can there be such a show of affection!"

步城从身后走过来，“在看什么？”

Xie You told him the ins and outs.

步城就笑笑，“你别又被人家抓着辫子黑了。”

谢游摇摇头，他现在和步城基本算是公开了，其实上个年底那事一闹，也不是完全没有好处，如果不是那件事，他们现在估计还是小心翼翼，如履薄冰，憋屈地维持着地下恋情。

After being forced to make it public like that, not only did she not lose her fans, but instead gained a wave of cp fans and sympathy fans.

There's nothing better than being able to show your affection in public!

Five days passed quickly, Christmas was over, New Year's Day was over, Xie You's birthday was over Bucheng's birthday.

他两生日的时间很凑巧，从某种程度上来说，本质一样，恰好是某个民族一年的开端和结尾。一个是中方新年前夕，一个是西方新年前夕，你看，多巧，天生一对。

谢游看着步城的后脑勺发呆的时候这样想着。

步城倏忽回了个头，似乎是想找他哥。

Xie You smiled at him and motioned him to go.

xx台的元旦文艺汇演，谢游把步城也带上了，他家宝贝在元旦这一天终于不用加班。

可惜两人没法坐在一起。

谢游要坐在表演席，靠前一些，步城在后边的观众席。

全程几乎无交流。

摄影师几乎不用刻意去找步城，照着谢游的视线总能找到，不管人在什么地方。

就像五年前，步城第一次从台下俯视谢游，谢游只一眼便能把人群中不动不闹的步城挑出来。

就像几天前，谢游也能一眼看见几乎被摄像机淹没的步城。

就像是现在，千千万万的观众，他也能一眼发现步城的位置所在。

Suddenly remembered that Bucheng once asked him why.

谁都孑孓独立，倥偬前行，但是总能遇上向你伸手的人。

Xie You is different, he is self-confident, he is self-righteous, he meets countless people, rubs shoulders with countless people, thorns are all over his body, and he doesn't even bother to say sorry.

Until Bucheng, who was a little different to him, reached out to him.

他好奇，又退缩。

He turned around and left.

他感慨，没什么不一样的。

Until the people behind ignored the thorns on his body, hugged him stubbornly, and stubbornly declared, 'You are a coward!Stinky idiot!You obviously like me to death. '

The two-way piercing hurt both.

步城强迫着他转身，于是他看见了光。

那是他在人群里捡到的宝贝，哪能一眼看不见？

·

At the end of the party, all the performers came to the stage to sing New Year's Eve in chorus and send blessings to those around them. They are still 1 minute away from zero.

“10，9，8……”主持人激动地倒计时。

In front of the stage, every TV station, every network platform, every city, every small town, every village, every mountain, river, sea, every sun, moon, and star are waiting for the first sound in the first year of the 21s. The ringing of the bell.

Xie You looked at Bucheng, who was tens of meters away, and Bucheng was also looking at him at that time.

He raised the corner of his mouth.

Open the lips and pronounce the first syllable.

舌头微蜷，顶着上颚，两排牙齿咬合，发了第二个音节。

·

“3，2，当————”

The New Year's bell rang on time.

阿城，听到了吗？

记住2020年的第一声祝福，是游哥给的，以后的每一年，也都会是游哥给的。

一祝我家阿城，生日快乐。

Second, I wish my family, Acheng, a happy new year.

三祝我家阿城大宝贝，岁岁欢愉，年年胜意，此生诸顺，来世安康。

游哥爱你。

———End of the text———

【作者有话说：终于，写完了，长舒一口气，开心。

给你们说一下心路历程：最初的结局安排是这样的，谢游抑郁症真的复发了，挡也挡不住，我前面有提到过，他最见不得自己或者别人狼狈摊开在众人面前。但是他表面依旧平静，还安慰步城，结果真的准备自杀……

The news of Xie You's death was spread all over the Internet. Everyone finally knew that their online violence had killed someone, but the heat dissipated within a few days. (In fact, I want to satirize the matter of cyber violence)

但是谢游其实没死，那天被步城拦下来了，步城抱着他哭，两个一起哭，特惨那种，然后两人商量退圈好了，谢游假死，两人过普通生活，（因为娱乐圈确实有这种，假死），有人在发布会上还大言不惭，步城上前，别人以为他又要动粗，结果步城只是当着所有人的面弯腰，鞠躬，很卑微地说了句“我求求你们了。”全场安静。

Since then, Zhao Zekai finally couldn't take it anymore (he thought Xie You was really dead at that time), and he couldn't see his two brothers being so wronged, accusing the unscrupulous media and keyboard netizens.

然后过了个把月吧，有人爆出来那个视频了，五年前的aurora演唱会，大家这才知道这对情侣多可怜，网友们又开始喷无良营销号了，都怪他们害死了谢游和步城。（总之就是想表现网友们各种丑恶嘴脸）

The final ending is that a few years later, Xie You ran into his fans on the road, and his fans hesitated. At this time, Xie You already had the attitude of looking down on life and society after all the vicissitudes of life. He smiled, "You guys are wrong, Xie You is dead."The fans also felt that they had made a mistake. Just as they were about to leave, they turned around and saw a man coming out to pick him up. The two looked at each other and smiled.The man was Bucheng, they recognized it, but the two young ladies kept it quiet for them.

我感觉这种结局也很有味道啊！但是感觉这个安排有点太憋屈了，我本质是甜文！！莫名其妙变成讽刺社会现实的沉重文学了，所以就用了另一个结局，也就是你们看到的。

其实我私心喜欢写出来的这个结局，显得游哥比较坚强积极，可能是最近心情比较好，看啥都比较积极，之前想出那个结局那段时间估计周围事情都不太顺心，人有点阴暗了哈哈哈。人还是要乐观向上啊！要有打不死的小强的精神！

总之谢谢一直看到结尾的人，这个追夫故事到这里就结束啦！！

It’s the first time to serialize an article so seriously. The outline and details are fully arranged. I don’t know how many times I changed the outline during the period. I feel a sense of accomplishment after writing paragraphs. I feel that it should be regarded as a pure sweet article. There are no big twists and turns, are you satisfied with the judges? !You can put forward more suggestions, urgently need spurs.

It's over here, there may be one or two small episodes.About the side effects of antidepressants (it’s not serious to look at sexual dysfunction hahaha), about childhood, about Yang Shuchen.In fact, I also want to write a surreal extravaganza. Now Bucheng travels back and grows up with his brother step by step, filling the vacancy in his brother's growth.

然后推一下另一本连载文呀，求个月票收藏啥的（因为在新科打榜）

《他渣他刚好贱》，非常规渣攻贱受文吧，想写一写先虐受后虐攻的狗血套路。

攻就是渣起来非常渣，苏起来非常苏，受吧蛮可爱也蛮励志白甜应该不算傻。

Shou is the unbeatable little strong sun struggling out of the mud, and Gong is the vicious snake and scorpion hiding in the gutter. To a certain extent, Shou is Gong's salvation.Anyway, if you are interested, you can take a look.

全文总结起来就是，【我家尧小猫，这次是真的不要我了吗？——某渣攻说的】

Finally, take a bow.

Thanks again.

提前祝大家春节快乐！

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