Women's procrastination can't be said

He Zixia slumped on the chair, his expression not relaxed: "You know, the three of us entered the Awakening Tower to awaken our talents together, but neither Qingwu nor I attended the canonization ceremony."

Song Yuyan nodded.She was very clear about this matter. She had suffered for a long time because of Song Qingwu's leaving without saying goodbye. In the end, she was a little angry when she went to the wild city.

"Your Majesty also said that the two of us practiced outside. In fact, he didn't tell all the lies. We did go to practice, but we didn't go outside." He Zixia closed his eyes and frowned. I don't want to recall.

"Ah?" Song Yuyan didn't quite understand.

"I can't explain this clearly. Only Qingwu knows about it. Anyway, there is a secret room in Song Dynasty. There are two doors inside. The other side of the door is another world different from the world we live in. A white door and a black door. The door, the white door for the two of us to go first."

Is black and white impermanent?Song Yuyan thought to herself.

"There is a very powerful senior in the white gate. He taught us a lot of things. Qingwu learned his spells from him. The days there were boring but very fulfilling. We lived there for three years."

Song Yuyan didn't interrupt him.

"But until one day, a man in black came, he quarreled with the master, moved his hand, I don't know what happened, the whole world collapsed, we woke up again, and found ourselves in a dark and cold world. "

"That, Black Gate?"

"Yes." He Zixia buried his head in his palm, and said in a low voice, "The days after that are something that Qingwu and I don't want to recall in our whole life. We have gone through a lot. The man in the black gate was cruel and ruthless. A lot of people, forcing us to kill a lot of people... and..."

He Zixia choked up after speaking.

Song Yuyan patted him on the back to show comfort.

"Actually, I was very lucky to have a friend like Qingwu. At that time, I was as timid as a mouse and dared not do anything. Qingwu stood in front of me in everything, and no cruel punishment or training would replace me. I'll bear it..." He Zixia straightened up and rubbed his stiff face.

Song Yuyan nodded.Song Qingwu is such a person.

"Do you know? Qingwu was originally an easy-going person. He was still young at the time, but he was very sensible. When he was still in the Song Dynasty, he knew how to make friends, give alms everywhere, and even knew how to hide his edge. The name of Song Yanjun is to give Song Yanjun a good reputation while helping others, and in the future Song Yanjun ascends the throne and will be able to win the hearts of the people."

"But it was the six years in the black gate. I had food to eat, but he didn't. He ate the flesh and blood of the dead in order to survive. I still remember the smell of decay, but I never thought of putting myself I gave him a little bit of food. Later, he had his left arm cut off to save me. We don’t know how to do medicine. There is no doctor in Heimen, and that person didn’t help, so Qingwu operated on himself. Take over for yourself, stitch."

He Zixia said painfully: "These six years have changed him abruptly. After we came out, he vomited whenever he saw food, let alone eat, and only depended on tea to satisfy his hunger. His arms were even more and more serious. The more serious it is, but he refuses to be treated for life and death. He is willing to sprinkle some medicine only when the wound has deteriorated to a serious degree. The queen said that he had a serious heart disease. I found out later that it was because of the wound in the black gate. That person, all the memories in the white gate also brought a lot of psychological burden to Qingwu...he lives in pain every day..."

Song Yuyan's nose was very sore, and she forced herself not to cry.

"We didn't know until we came out that the king had always planned to let him be the heir, and he had the responsibility of the family and the country. Qingwu recovered a little bit, at least he won't vomit when he sees the food. In addition, he rescued Mu Lian later, and we got to know each other. Sister Ziyan, after they understand the situation, they try their best to release him."

"Then why did you mention me, and the shadow left on him by the companion..." Song Yuyan asked this question that had been hidden in his heart for a long time.

"Didn't Zhaiban lead someone to make trouble in Liangyi Pavilion? He almost killed Qingwu at that time. It was because you came and Zhanban distracted Qingwu to escape, but he was hunted all the time and almost died. This incident left a great psychological shadow on him.”

Song Yuyan bit her lip, feeling extremely guilty.She never knew these things, and still let her accompany her all the time, how uncomfortable would Song Qingwu feel?No wonder he was so angry a year ago.

"He almost didn't make it through those six years, but he kept murmuring that you guys wanted to go out to play together, so he survived. At that time, he finally secured his position as the prince, so he hurried to the wild city, but on the way After some delay, he stayed in Jiuyou City first. When he heard that something happened to you, he rushed to the wilderness to rescue you without hesitation. You almost died at that time, and Qingwu wanted to exchange his life for his own. Neidan saved you, but I stopped him. He was in a state of madness at the time, but fortunately you survived..." He Zixia still remembers the scene when he saw Song Qingwu inserting his hand into his abdomen with a blank face , with lingering fears.

If he had reacted a little slower, Song Qingwu might have...

Song Yuyan tilted her head slightly, looking at Song Qingwu's pale face, tears rolled down her face.

"A lot of things happened later, you were seriously injured by Yue Ling and thrown into the river, Mu Lian didn't have time to tell us your whereabouts, Qingwu was busy looking for Mu Lian and you while busy with the wedding, the whole person spent several days and nights He didn't sleep, didn't eat, and passed out several times. To save you this time, he ate something and went with the determination to die. I can't even imagine how he saved you so calmly and fearlessly. Resist eating the most unacceptable food to meet death. There are many, many things, so many that I have forgotten a lot... He is always silently paying for you, and you always don't know."

Song Yuyan recalled the last time they met ten years ago, Song Qingwu asked her out to play with lip words, and she agreed, but he didn't expect that he remembered this agreement for so many years, and he still took it as a belief to support himself to live.

She cried aloud, and said: "Since I don't know, why are you telling me? How can I, I, He De, let him treat me like this? I have been causing trouble for him, if it wasn't, if it wasn't for Mu Youhuai Tell me the truth, but I still think that he is a scumbag... What's the use of me?"

He Zixia concealed the pain in his eyes, and returned to his gentle and refined appearance. With a gentle smile on his face, he said, "I tell you, it's just to repay him. I give up He Guo's fine clothes and food, Following him is to make up for my mistakes and my stupidity at that time. You are the person he cares about the most. If I tell you this so that you can treat each other with sincerity, and you can always be with him no matter how the world criticizes you, then I will It can be regarded as making up for it.”

"Yeah." Song Yuyan gently held Song Qingwu's hand under the quilt, with tears streaming down his face and a smile on his lips, "Don't worry. Just give him to me, don't worry."

He Zixia smiled, looked at Song Qingwu's pale face, wanted to say something, but hesitated: "You must remember what you said today. There are still some things I can't tell you, but if you know in the future , You can't give up on him even if you go up the mountain of swords or go down into the sea of ​​fire."

"Hmm." Song Yuyan couldn't find anything to say, and just kept saying "Mmm, um".

No words can express her guilt and emotion, she will spend her whole life to prove it.

She put her face into his hands, with a nostalgic expression, and said softly: "I knew I was right about you. You have been dependent on me all your life..."

He Zixia walked out gently, leaving the place for them.

He was the luckiest person in his life to meet Song Qingwu. He gave up He Guo's fine clothes and food, and made all preparations to go through fire and water with Song Qingwu for him, but Song Qingwu gave him a better life and let him live freely. And happiness, the respect Song Guo gave him, made him unforgettable forever.

Why did he pay anything?In the end, it was Song Qingwu who paid for him.

At the door, Jiban was still carrying the snack bag, standing under the sun and waiting silently.When He Zixia saw him, he frowned slightly, but he still went up to greet him: "Master Li, who are you waiting for here?"

Li Ban said shyly, "Wait for the wild goose."

He Zixia guessed it a long time ago, and smiled perfunctorily: "I don't think the leader of the gang should wait." After speaking, he walked towards his military tent.

The companion watched him leave without knowing why, and continued to wait.

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Song Qingwu woke up again in the middle of the night, Song Yuyan stayed up all the time, held his hand, looked around, and found a set of clothes for him to fold beside the bed.

The long eyelashes were lifted greatly. Seeing that he opened his eyes, Song Yuyan immediately moved closer to him and lay face to face with him on the edge of the bed.

Exhausting the greatest tenderness in her life, she blinked and said, "Are you awake? Are you okay? Hmm... get up and get dressed? Do you want me to dress you or do you do it yourself?"

"You..." Song Qingwu stepped back in horror as if he had seen a ghost, but unexpectedly there was the edge of the bed above his head, which bumped loudly.

"..." Song Yuyan's swaying expression froze instantly, if she hadn't pressed him down, Song Qingwu would have jumped out of bed in fright.

Revealing her bandaged body, Song Qingwu's expression changed, she pushed Song Yuyan away forcefully, pulled the quilt to cover herself, and looked at her warily.

Song Yuyan couldn't see his appearance as a little daughter-in-law, so she said helplessly, "Don't force yourself, the wounds are all open."

Song Qingwu moved his lips, wanting to say something, but he still didn't say it.

Song Yuyan sat down on the edge of the bed and said, "Don't worry, I didn't see anything."

Song Qingwu's hand holding the quilt loosened slightly.The next second, Song Yuyan suddenly held his hand.

"Just because I didn't see it just now doesn't mean I don't want to watch it. Now I can tell you with certainty that I like you, and I really want to see you all... Anyway, you like me too, so let's try it?"

Song Qingwu was stunned for an instant.

"Don't try to hide it from me, I know everything." Song Yuyan quickly gagged his mouth without waiting for him to speak, "Actually, I don't need to ask you, it's settled like this."

Song Qingwu looked at her, and his breathing became obviously rapid: "You...I..."

Song Yuyan suppressed the shyness in her heart, and stared at him: "What about me? What about you? What you should do now is to heal my injuries. I don't want to be with a disabled person."

Song Qingwu licked his lips, his eyes darkened slightly.

She still hates...

Song Yuyan understood his thoughts instantly like a human being, and ran to the door of the military tent a little nervously: "I, what I mean is that when we go out to play in the future, you will not perform well. You have to be cured. When the time comes, When the time comes—hug me!”

After she finished speaking, she ran out.

But soon came back: "You put on your clothes, and I will bring Sister Ziyan over at dawn!"

Song Qingwu was in a daze the whole time. After Song Yuyan left, there was only the sound of his rapid breathing in the military tent.

After a long time, he finally realized what happened.

He kept patting his chest, and felt a stream of heat spreading from his heart to his limbs, and felt that his surroundings seemed to have turned pink.

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This chapter can be regarded as a concise summary, and I will introduce it in detail in Qingwu Juan.