you are the minutiae of the world

The days that followed were like a dream, Tan Xunshen was always by Tingxu's side, remembering what he likes, watching the rainy plantains outside the window with him, and walking with him on the small path in the village... Every time Tingxu turned his head, Tan Xu Xun is just a step away from him, and when he sees him turning his head, he will turn his head slightly with soft eyes.

The corners of Ting Xu's mouth could not be controlled to rise, he lowered his head, thinking, maybe he did this on purpose for himself, I'll just wait...

Waited and waited, waited for a year, waited until his body became weaker and weaker, waited until Fu Ya came to the village with a benevolent doctor, waited for the heavy snow to come, and still did not wait for Tan Xunshen to say a word of liking.

He also asked several times, Tan Xunshen's eyes were deep, and he seemed to have something to say, but he didn't say those words. Ting Xu was extremely lost, but he comforted himself when his body became weaker and weaker. Du Shi said, if Tan Xun loves herself deeply, then nothing will happen to her.

But today, he is running out of time, no matter how good Tan Xunshen treats him and how well he takes care of him, so what?He doesn't love after all.

Tingxu's body was getting weaker and weaker, and Tan Xunshen gradually became anxious from the beginning. Looking at Tingxu's weak and pale face every day, his heart felt inexplicably aching. He wrote dozens of urgent letters. Cui Fuya brought the benevolent doctor back quickly, found all the good things in the village, and threw them on Tingxu as if he didn't want money.

But this body, which has cost tens of thousands of dollars to raise, is still panting three times when walking in winter, like an old man who is dying.

Tan Xunshen wrapped him tightly in a thick fox fur cloak, hugged him in his arms, and reclined on the soft couch together, with three or four warm pots beside him.

"It snowed heavily last night, and the snow scene in the mountains is spectacular. I'll treat you well, and I'll take you to see it."

"Well," Ting Xu lazily replied, his eyes were far away, and after a long time, he slowly said: "The snow scene of Kunlun Mountain is also beautiful, stretching for thousands of miles."

This is the first time Tan Xunshen heard him mention Kunlun. Ever since he married into Gulin Villa and was expelled from the school by Yuesheng, Tingxu kept secret about Kunlun and never mentioned it. Now that he mentions it, Tan Xunshen always has something in his heart. It's a bad premonition, but I also know that he is homesick.

"When the weather gets warmer, how about I accompany you back to Kunlun?" Tan Xunshen asked cautiously.

"I remember what I said that day," Ting Xu suddenly said in a wrong way.

Tan Xun was stunned.

"The day you just returned to the village, I said, can't you love me?" Ting Xu turned to look at him.

Tan Xun couldn't help but pat him on the head with his warm palm, and smiled wryly: "I don't love you enough?"

Tengxu smiled, and his tone was pleading: "If you wait any longer, you won't be able to see the most beautiful snow scene in Kunlun Mountains. It is only beautiful in the deep winter. Let's set off tomorrow, shall we?"

Tan Xun frowned deeply and shook his head: "We have to wait for Senior Zhu to come to treat you, stop." Tan Xun touched his cold cheek with deep love and compassion, and whispered: "When you are well, I will accompany you wherever you want to go." So, this time, Senior Zhu will treat you, so you have to be obedient, okay?"

He stopped and lowered his eyes, and said "good" softly.

Two days later, Zhu Geng, a benevolent doctor, arrived in the village, and was dragged by Tan Xunshen to see a doctor for Tingxu without taking a break.

After some diagnosis and treatment, he said the same rhetoric as that year.

I don't know what kind of poison I got.

After listening to Tan Xunshen, he sighed that he was indeed poisoned, and then he was full of eagerness, asking if there was a solution.

"I don't know what kind of poison it is, and I don't know how to detox it, but if you give me time, it may not be impossible to detoxify it." Zhu Geng said carefully.

But everyone knows that maybe what they lack at the moment is time. Tan Xunshen held Tingxu's hand tightly, and his voice almost pleaded: "Tingxu, are you poisoned in Youdao? Poison? What kind of poison?"

"Youdao?!" Zhu Geng exclaimed when he heard the words: "No wonder, no wonder the old man can't diagnose it. Youdao is extremely mysterious, and the mechanism's poison is invincible in the world. Little friend Tingxu, you really don't know what kind of poison you've got?"

He stopped smiling, and opened his lips: "I don't know."

Tan Xunshen didn't believe that Tingxu didn't know, but no matter how he asked, Tingxu kept his mouth shut and refused to open his mouth. Tan Xunshen was worn out and saw the tiredness between Tingxu's eyebrows, so he couldn't bear to press him again and coax him Sleeping, I left the room by myself, standing under the dry banana leaves without feeling sleepy.

His brows were tightly furrowed, and the worried expression on his face was undisguised. Zhu Geng passed by and stepped forward.

"It seems that the rumors in the world cannot be trusted," Zhu Geng said.

Tan Xun made a salute to Zhu Geng with a puzzled expression on his face.

"Master Tan cares so much about his wife, so he shouldn't dislike him like rumors do." Zhu Geng explained.

Tan Xun shook his head deeply and didn't speak. His mind was very confused, and he couldn't figure out what was going on in his mind, so he didn't have the time to care about those rumors in the world.

"The old man remembers that when the owner of Tan Zhuang was famous all over the world, his weapon was a keel fan. Why did he use a sword later?" Zhu Geng suddenly asked: "A friend of mine also uses a fan. By chance, he met the owner of the village. The keel fan, I think it is exquisitely crafted..."

Zhu Geng awakened the dreamer, Tan Xunshen suddenly raised his head, his eyes were deep and complicated.

When he was still a child, his master Tan Mo gave him a keel fan.

"Xun Shen, do you remember that this is a gift from the master, and it will be your weapon in the future. Those who practice martial arts on Youdao Island must not leave their weapons. You must carry it with you every day. No one will let you see or touch it. ?”

"Master, won't anyone touch it? Not even the second master?" Little Tan Xun's eyes were full of doubts: "But I saw the second master playing with master's dragon snake whip, master's dragon snake whip and my keel bone. Aren’t fans all Youdao’s weapons?”

Tan Mo laughed loudly, pinched Tan Xunshen's tender white face lovingly, and said with a smile: "What a smart boy, your fan is the same as my whip, you can only touch it with the person you love the most. There is a little secret, when you find someone you like, you can share the secret in the fan with the person you like, of course, you can also let him use your fan," Tan Mo hugged Getting up from the pool to find the depth, he walked with a smile: "This is the rule of Youdao's engagement, you have to remember it."

The keel fan was buried next to the coffins of the two masters before Tan Xunshen left the island.

At that time, he couldn't bear the blow of his most beloved person destroying his Manchu, and vowed never to step into Youdao again, so he buried everything with Youdao, and even ruined the way to enter the island when he left the island.

Tan Xunshen squeezed his hands tightly, and he finally understood why Ting Xu would ask himself whether he loved him time and time again before.

If the guess is right, the secret in the Dragon Bone Fan is the antidote. Xiaoyaozi must have told him that if he loves him, he will be able to save him. Tan Xunshen clenches his fist tightly, why didn't he think of it sooner!

"Senior Zhu, how long does it take to stop?"

Zhu Geng bowed his head in thought, and then spoke after a while: "Maybe a few months, maybe a few years."

"Senior Zhu, please wait for me for a while. I already know where the antidote is, but I don't know when I will return after I go..." Tan Xun bowed deeply, and made a deep bow: "Zhuang's traditional Chinese medicine The materials are used by the seniors, if there are no ones in the village, the seniors can tell Fu Ya to send people to look for them."

Tan Xunshen left overnight and rushed towards Youdao. He didn't say goodbye to Tingxu, he just wanted to come back with the keel fan and tell him the answer. Tan Xunshen was very anxious and scared, and he ran all the way. The three horses finally came to the edge of the long river.

Tingxu opened his eyes again, Tan Xunshen was no longer by his side.He looked calm and counted the days quietly.

The spring is warm and the flowers are blooming. I lean on the bed and look at the banana leaves outside the window. It rained all night last night. When I open the window, there is a smell of wet and fragrant soil.

Tingxu heard the noisy voice outside the window, Tan Xunshen came back, before he came to think about it, a man full of scars rushed in, shouting his name loudly: "Tingxu! Tingxu, I'm back !"

His wandering eyes fell on his thin and tired face, and he suddenly smiled.

He saw that he was holding a broken fan tightly in his bandaged hand, he saw him split open the fan bone, found a pill inside and stuffed it into his mouth.

"Jingxu, I found the antidote! You'll be fine! You'll be fine!"

He heard his urgent and panicked voice, and when he got closer, he smelled the bloody smell on his body, Ting Xu suddenly felt sorry for him.

He thought that he might have really found the antidote, but it was too tiring and painful to stop emptiness. He counted the days, and today was the last day.

"Tan Xunshen, I want to eat rock sugar Sydney, can you make me a bowl?"

"You take the medicine first." Tan Xunshen didn't move, hugging him tightly, staring at him for a moment: "Take the antidote, it's all right, I'll make it for you every day."

"You love me," Ting Xu acted like a baby, just like the little boy wrapped in a brown padded jacket back then: "I want to eat now."

Tan Xunshen stared blankly, and the several months of longing made him unable to bear to refuse him again: "Okay, I will do it for you now, stop and rest obediently until you are well, I have a very important message I want to tell you."

"it is good."

Pausing to watch the man leave, he scratched his throat with his fingers, and after retching a few times, a pill appeared in his palm.

He gave a weak smile, held it and fell onto the bed.

"There is nothing right in this world," he muttered to himself, "Tan Xunshen, you don't understand."

"You left without saying goodbye twice...it's time for me to pay you back..."

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A bit of rambling from the writer:

"Can't You Pamper Me" is the end of BE after writing this, but sometimes I feel that maybe Lao Tan and Tingxu shouldn't have such an ending. Lao Tan loves Tingxu, but he is too stupid. Too many things happened in that time. In that era, the cars and horses were slow, whether it was Xiaoyaozi or the chaos of war. BE is optional or not. They are not like "Redemption". Liu Yueming in the redemption has no other way and no other way to go. The greatest redemption for Liu Yueming is to leave this world. Can you have rebirth and repentance, but "Redemption" can't and won't. Liu Yueming is a child abandoned by this world. Being crushed bit by bit by himself, he can't live, and he can't die. "Redemption" is very depressing, because before I wrote it, I met many real depressed people for some reasons. They live in reality, but they are covered with scars. There are some shadows of them in Liu Yueming, who are forced by reality The embarrassment of tearing and beating.But I am not spreading negative energy. On the contrary, I just want to tell everyone that although Liu Yueming has nothing to do with this world, he still meets people who wish him well. In a world full of swords and halberds, there are people who are willing to help him Wipe the blood, I write here, by the way, several chapters of "Redemption" are locked, for the integrity of the article, I suggest you go to Weibo to see the locked chapters (sometimes human nature is wrong to face instinct, throw it away Instinct is the same, but my writing style is really limited, so I may not have written the feeling I want to express), I think that "Redemption" has very little nonsense, and what is locked is also Liu Yueming's state of mind that I want to express. After reading it, it should be more whole.Having said so much, I just want to express that if anyone wants to watch it, I really want the HE follow-up of "Can't You Pain Me", but I feel like I will be slapped in the face after writing the follow-up... Hey ...I'm such a fickle stepmother, I've been rambling a lot, so let's just leave it at that, I'll consider whether there is a follow-up to he, and conceive a new article by the way.Then I may ask for leave tomorrow and the day after tomorrow, thinking about whether to write a follow-up or a new story...