i think i still love you

Close your eyes.

"Papa~medicine" Xiao Shitou brought the medicine that Xiao Yifan usually drank.

Xiao Yifan opened his eyes, pushed Gu Yifei, and said in a weak voice, "I'm fine, put some clothes on him first, he'll catch a cold."

Gu Yifei didn't dare to let go of Xiao Yifan, and was afraid that Xiao Shitou would catch a cold, so he turned around and pulled a blanket and called Xiao Shitou, "Hey, come here."

Xiao Shishi climbed onto the sofa and got into the blanket, stretched out his little hand and gently touched Xiao Yifan's face worriedly, probably frightened, with a red nose and worried murmur "papa~"

Xiao Yifan's face gradually turned a little bloody, and Gu Yifei's heart dropped a lot. It should be caused by the airtightness of the bathroom and the lack of oxygen due to the water vapor, but he was not completely sure, so he asked Xiao Yifan, "Yifan, it's because the water vapor is stuffy." Yet?"

Xiao Yifan's emotions slowly surfaced, his Adam's apple rolled, and it took him a long time to say, "Old Zhang...he's gone."

Gu Yifei thought of the mobile phone on the bathroom floor, probably because Xiao Yifan had just received the news, and the water vapor and the sudden bad news caused his brain to suddenly lack oxygen.

"Mr. Zhang? Was it an accident?" Gu Yifei still remembered Xiao Yifan saying that he had dinner together when he returned to China.

Xiao Yifan closed his eyes and shook his head, tears slid down the corners of his eyes to his temples.

"Take it easy, take a break, and speak slowly." Gu Yifei was afraid that his heart would not be able to bear any more emotional ups and downs.

In the middle of the night, Xiao Yifan and Gu Yifei recounted the content of Yuan Yagang's phone call, "Mr. Zhang was diagnosed with an advanced malignant tumor a few months ago. He didn't say anything to anyone. He continued to work. The advanced stage deteriorated very quickly. , the person will die within a week after the official onset of the disease."

"In the case of hopeless treatment, Mr. Zhang did not choose meaningless life-extending treatment, and left with dignity. He should have left without regret." Gu Yifei lamented the impermanence of the world.

The next day, Xiao Yifan returned to China, and the goodbye was only more than 60 days, and the goodbye was a yin and yang.Mr. Zhang was full of peaches and plums all his life. Although he had no children to accompany him when he was dying, the students took turns waiting by the bedside, and he was not alone. Before he left, Mr. Zhang signed the body donation letter. He said that he had given all his life. Without medicine, there is no nostalgia for a dead skin.

Although there is no body, the students still wanted a place to pay homage, so they bought a cemetery for Master together. When Xiao Yifan was packing up Master's belongings, Xiao Yifan couldn't help but burst into tears at Master's desk .He has been abroad for nearly 3 years. The displays and items on the master's table are the same as a few years ago. He was a real person a few months ago, and they are gone.

"Why did it disappear...how did it disappear...you said why it disappeared." Xiao Yifan touched the thermos, the pen, and the thick notebook, muttering words.

"Yifan, sorry." Senior brother patted Xiao Yifan on the shoulder.

"Senior Brother Liang, Master clearly said that he would revise my thesis, how could he not count what he said." Xiao Yifan cried out of control.

"When I was an intern under the master, I scolded three times in the morning, noon and evening, and I had to have a supper occasionally. But when the master built this department, I still followed the master, because there was a reason in his scolding, Before Master left, I was chatting with Yuan Ya, because you love to be a moth, and Master still scolded you, Master loves you so much, why...why wouldn’t he revise your thesis for you?" Senior Brother Liang said By the time of the last sentence, the crying was completely uncontrollable.

Brother Liang took out a USB flash drive from his pocket and plugged it into the computer, opened a document, and there were dense red circle notes and characters on it. I'm sorry for the bowl of rice you ate!"

Xiao Yifan couldn't read the content of the thesis, his eyes stayed on the strings of red words, and he imagined Mr. Zhang typing while muttering, tears streaming down his face.

"The teacher didn't finish correcting, and during the two days when his mind was still sober, he told me that he couldn't change it, and asked me to help you correct the unfinished ones, and let him review it after correcting, but it was too late to report to him. Review..." Brother Liang turned his back and covered his face.

"Senior brother" Xiao Yifan's throat was sore and swollen, "I can't bear to part with Master..." Xiao Yifan had a lot of things he wanted to say, but only this one came out of his throat.

Brother Liang turned around and patted him, "I can't bear it, so come back, let's continue what he didn't finish, and pass on his thoughts."

……

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The easternmost cemetery in X City, the rising sun shines on the rows of cold tombstones. In the tomb, there is only a medical dictionary that he rummaged through during his lifetime. There is no name on the tombstone. , and do what a human being should do.”

There are two rows of black clothes in front of the monument, silent and solemn, no crying, no heavy sadness atmosphere, the teacher's wife is wearing a long black woolen coat, and an off-white scarf around her neck, her figure is no longer graceful, but she stands proudly, the morning wind blows Messed up her gray hair, but she was calm.

Recalling the reunion that day, she knew that Master would not last long, but she still let Master drink. She said, "One must live happily in one's life, follow one's heart, and leave without regrets." Master said, "If you live alone in your heart for a long time, Even the heart is hers, and the only thing I miss is her."

After bowing three times, the teacher's wife turned around with her usual calm expression, "Okay, children, go back. Your master rests in peace."

The relatives left with the teacher's wife on their arms, and the crowd walked to the gate of the cemetery and scattered in all directions.

Xiao Yifan got into Yuan Ya's car, and the magnolias were in full bloom along the way, spring was here.

"Open the sunroof, it's a bit stuffy in the car." Xiao Yifan said.

Although the wind in spring was strong, it was not as fierce as in autumn and winter. Xiao Yifan poked out his hand from the skylight, and the wind slapped on his hand, which was hard to grasp and was real.

Yuan Ya turned his head to see that Xiao Yifan's face was not looking well, and asked, "What's the matter? Are you feeling unwell?"

Xiao Yifan took a deep breath, frowned slightly and said, "Stop by the side of the road, I seem to be a little motion sick."

Yuan Ya pulled over and stopped slowly, Xiao Yifan got out of the car, took a few steps, put his knees on the side of the curb, and spit out the milk he drank in the morning.

Yuan Ya took water from the trunk and handed it to him, "I didn't remember you were motion sick before."

Xiao Yifan took the water, took a sip, and began to retch again, his throat burning with stomach acid.

"Is the milk expired in the morning?" Yuan Ya asked while rubbing his back.

Xiao Yifan raised his head and rinsed his mouth with water, and asked Yuan Ya, "Is it May now?"

"Ah, that's right, what's wrong?" Yuan Ya asked.

"Oh, it's okay, let's go." Xiao Yifan stood up, put the remaining half bottle of water, which was very unscrupulous, under the curb, and walked to the car.

"How is Little Stone? Can you sleep at night?" Xiao Yifan had a voice call with Gu Yifei.

"I didn't get used to it on the first day. I cried to find you, but I got it done the next day. It's you, are you okay?" Gu Yifei was still worried about Xiao Yifan's body and asked.

"I'm... fine. Don't let Xiao Shitou get too tired from playing. If he's too tired, he tends to have a fever at night." Xiao Yifan instructed.

"Don't worry, I will take good care of him, when will you come back?"

The call was silent for ten seconds.

"Gu Yifei, I want to stay...... Are you willing to come back for me?" Xiao Yifan knew that Gu Yifei had been busy for several months and the company in the United States had just begun to improve.

"Yifan, wherever you are, home will be there, and wherever home is, I will be there."

"Dad, Iloveyou" came a crisp cry from the microphone.

"What was your name just now? Say it again, Little Stone." Xiao Yifan was pleasantly surprised.

Gu Yifei could be heard whispering on the phone, "Dad asked you to say it again, speak it carefully, and pronounce it well."

"Dad~Dad, Iloveyou!" Xiao Shitou repeated it word by word again.

Xiao Yifan covered his face on the other side of the phone, and then called out in a thick nasal voice, "Gu Yifei, how many fucking times did you make my son call you daddy."

The other end of the phone said with a smile, "Isn't this teaching him pronunciation, besides... it's not an advantage."

(46)

The phone rang twice, and when it rang for the third time, Xiao Yifan squirmed to the bedside, wrapped up in the blanket like a caterpillar, and picked up the phone to answer.

"Hello?" Xiao Yifan's lazy voice.

"Didn't you come to report today? You really think of you as a foreign expert. Come here quickly. Director Liang called your mobile phone twice and you didn't answer." Yuan Ya said in a low voice on the other end of the phone, saying After finishing these, the voice was suppressed to a very low voice and said, "The dean will come to Corey for a meeting in the afternoon, and the matter of your post may be settled today, hurry up."

"Well, I got it." Xiao Yifan squinted his eyelids.

……

The meeting system of the Second Court is the same as before, Xiao Yifan hid behind the notebook and yawned non-stop, Yuan Ya poked Xiao Yifan's thigh with his hand underneath.

"Are you jet lagged yet?"

Xiao Yifan kept his lips still and muttered "Spring sleepiness"

At the end of the meeting, the matter concerning Xiao Yifan was settled. He must be on duty at least 10 days a month, and he will be hired as an external employee. After half a year abroad, he will officially start working full-time.

This kind of tolerance is also rare in the Second Hospital. Brother Liang must have used the face of Mr. Zhang. Although Mr. Zhang passed away, he is very respected in the hospital.

Foreign clinics have been idle recently, and Xiao Yifan took advantage of this stall to go to the 10 days of this month in a row. By coincidence, he also met an old friend when he came here. He was in charge of delivering the first child. The interns he brought were not standardized and caused him to bleed profusely.Now pregnant again, and also want him to be the attending physician.Xiao Yifan felt guilty in his heart. The other party did not pursue responsibility for what happened back then. Although it was not Xiao Yifan's mistake, he would not be able to escape responsibility if he were to be held accountable.