Lose the lights and spend another night

It has been three days since Yingsheng returned to Shen's residence, I thought she would always find time to visit me, but in these three days, she has not come once.The lord's hospitality has never stopped, and I have heard rumors from the people in the mansion. The more frequently the lord comes, the more he pushes me to a fork in the road where I have to make a choice—either become a monk early or become a concubine early.

Yingsheng, how do you think of me now?

I waited for another three days in anxiety, but instead of Yingsheng, I waited for the second young lady Shen Yingyan who had returned home.

"It's you vixen!"

As soon as Ying Yan pushed open the door, she went straight to the bed and slapped me hard.

I didn't resist, just looked at her quietly, stood up from the bed, and knelt down to her.

I have long thought that such a day will come sooner or later.

Yingyan can't vent her grievances on the adults, I am the best target to vent her anger on, even if the adults will feel distressed.But so what?How can an adult say a serious word when facing Yingyan now?On the contrary, the more wronged I suffer in this family, the more I can be forced to nod obediently and become the concubine of this mansion.

"Why are you still alive? Why aren't you dead?" Ying Yan didn't expect me to be so obedient, she couldn't vent her anger at all, "You all lied to me, you must all lie to me! Mother treated me so well , why is she willing to let me get sick? It must be you... You are the one who confused Daddy with nonsense!"

Most likely, the second lady still couldn't accept the mistakes made by the wife.

I lowered my head, neither crying nor fussing, like a stone silently bearing the erosion of wind and rain.

"Speak up! Talk up!" Second Miss was really anxious, she beat my shoulders, but forgot that I was dumb, how could I respond to her?

"Yan'er! Stop!" The adult arrived in time and grabbed Yingyan's fist, "Huanxi is innocent...you can't hit her like this..."

Although the adults' words are warm, but once people have selfishness, these words will only feel false to me.

My lord, do you know that the more you protect me, the more Second Miss hates me, how long will you force me to give up?

"Mother's bones are still cold, and she has not been buried at grandma's house, so you love the new and dislike the old. If you protect this vixen like this, aren't you afraid that mother will come to claim her life at night?!" Ying Yan's sour resentment finally poured out, stirring The lord raised his hand, wanting to slap her.

"You hit me! If you beat me to death, I can go to accompany my mother!" After all, Ying Yan was still a child, and she leaned towards the adults.

The lord's trembling hand didn't dare to hit him, he sighed deeply, no one else in the Shen family would have any accidents, he could only bear with Ying Yan's presumptuousness today.

"Yan'er, go with Daddy." The adult grabbed her hand and took her outside, "Go!"

Ying Yan struggled unconvinced, but still couldn't break free from the master's restraint, so he followed him out of the room angrily.

I heard someone whispering outside the room, looked up, the two maids stopped talking, gave me a strange look, and then closed the door again.

Yingsheng...you don't want me anymore?

My heart twitched fiercely, thinking of this, all the grievances these days were not as good as the confusion at this moment, which made my heart sour, and tears rolled down.

You don't want me... It's okay... It's okay...

I choked up tears, and at this moment, I just felt that the world collapsed in an instant. In this world, what else can I be attached to?

Take another look at Yingsheng...

Yes, just one more look, just one more look.

I finally made my choice. In the 31 years of my life, I have tasted all the hot and cold, ups and downs, enough, really enough.

During the day, there are always two maids waiting outside my room. The adults have specially ordered me to rest here, so I wanted to go out for a walk several times, but they stopped me.

Fortunately, I slept well at night in the past few days, so the two maids gradually relaxed their vigilance towards me at night, and at midnight, they quietly slipped back to the courtyard to rest.

This is my only chance.

But the moment I opened the door, I saw the person I missed the most, walking towards this side with a small lamp.

I stared blankly at her approaching me, and the soreness spread from my heart again. When Yingsheng came to me, I was already full of tears.

"Huanxi..." Without much explanation, Yingsheng just called me out, swallowed everything she wanted to say, and tiptoed slightly to kiss my lips.

I looked at her tremblingly, unable to believe what had just happened, but tears rolled down my face.

"Would you like to wait for me?" Yingsheng stared at me closely, and I realized that, like me, she was full of tears.

How could I not want to?

The grievances and suspicions of these days were completely resolved by Yingsheng's kiss. I couldn't help but hold her hand and nodded heavily.

"Then you come with me..." Yingsheng looked at me with tears in her eyes, but smiled warmly, "I'll take you out of here..."

where to go?

The sky is big and the earth is big, I don't even know where is the place for me and her.

Aware of my hesitation, she held a lantern to illuminate the way ahead, "Don't be afraid... I won't let go... No matter how hard it is..." After she finished speaking, she clasped my hand tightly and nodded to me firmly. head, "We agreed, in this life, no one will leave anyone, I can do it, you are not allowed to lie to me!"

How can I be willing to lie to you?

I laughed softly with tears in my eyes, I didn't care about the tears coming out of my eyes again, took a deep breath, and nodded heavily.

I am not even afraid of death, what else am I afraid of in this world?

no... i'm afraid...

Afraid that Yingsheng would forget me...afraid that Yingsheng would let go of me...

"Then follow me." Ying Sheng's voice was like a curse, even if my heart was in a state of confusion, I couldn't tolerate my disbelief, and I couldn't tolerate my disobedience.

So, I followed Yingsheng all the way to the back door of Shen's mansion, where there was a carriage prepared by Yingsheng.

She helped me into the carriage, hung the lantern on the side of the carriage, and followed her up, only to hear her say to the driver of the carriage: "Uncle Wu, please take us to Jingyu Nunnery."

"Okay! Eldest lady, sit still!" The coachman whipped his whip and rode his horse towards the outskirts of the city.

Is Yingsheng busy these days?

I also have an impression of Uncle Wu, and I secretly regret it, why do Yingsheng treat me so suspiciously these days?

As if aware of my guilt, Ying Sheng suddenly stroked my cheek, she rubbed it lightly with distress, and said softly: "I'm sorry..."

I shook my head, how could Yingsheng be sorry for me?I covered her hand, pressed it tightly against my cheek, and slowly wrote on her arm with the other hand - it's good that you come.

"I know Daddy won't let go this time..." Ying Sheng said in a deep voice.

My movements froze, and at this moment, I didn't know how to comfort her, nor what to say.

"Huanxi, let's take a bet, shall we?" Yingsheng hugged me tightly suddenly, and she whispered in my ear, "Bet they will let go this time..."

Ying Sheng was talking about them?

I thought about it carefully, in the past few days, Yingsheng should have asked everything clearly, including the hostile conversation between Cao Feng and the lord that day.

The servant girl in the mansion is very discerning in the relationship between men and women, how could she not see that Cao Feng's gaffe that day was all because of me?

"You'll wait for me, won't you?"

Yes, how long I will wait.

I listened to Yingsheng's whisper and nodded heavily.

Yingsheng hugged me even tighter, as if she was afraid that I would suddenly disappear before her eyes, "Huanxi...so good to take care of myself..."

Take care of yourself?

I heard Yingsheng's implication, I nervously opened the distance between me and her, and looked at her in fear.

Yingsheng pinched a bunch of my hair distressedly, and said slowly: "Hair, cut off all the knots..." After a pause, she looked at me seriously, "Just don't cut mine, don't!"

Still come this far...

I nodded, this is the path that Yingsheng chose for me, and it is also the only path that Yingsheng and I can take.

Before my lord finds out, I will become a nun tonight in Jingyu Nunnery. As soon as all the dust settles, my lord and Cao Feng, even if they are unwilling, how dare they offend the dignity of Buddhism?

But, without me taking care of Yingsheng in the mansion, what will she do?

"I'm not a child anymore, Huanxi..." Yingsheng always understood my hesitation. She looked at me with a smile, and her smile was as warm as ever. My younger sister is getting better, and my younger brother is getting better, so I will come to Jingyu Nunnery to take you away."

Two years, waiting for the lingering smoke and the hairpin, it will take two years.

This is Yingsheng's promise to me, I am willing to wait for her for two years.

After such a change in Shen's residence, it is reasonable for your lord to rely on Ying Sheng to keep her here.

Perhaps, this is the only chance God gave us because of pity on Yingsheng and me, and because the eldest lady loves Yingsheng.

Yingsheng is working hard, how can I just stand by and wait?

That’s right, there is still a wasteland on the mountain behind Jingyu Temple, I can grow some things there, and when the harvest comes, I sell it and save the money, which will be a lot of money after two years.

As long as today I can be safe and sound.

After this step, there will be a reunion in the future. I am willing to bet this with Yingsheng!

The night wind was very cold, it seemed to be caught in a snow wind, and it was biting.

But I know no matter how dark the night is, no matter how cold the night wind is, there will be a day when the sun will rise tomorrow, I will wait!

Getting closer and closer to the Jingyu Temple, I seem to be able to see the other side of the sea of ​​suffering—I would like to lose my hair, but I don't really want to convert to Buddhism; I want to be born, but I don't really see through the world.

My Buddha is merciful, please allow me to be obsessed this time.

The carriage finally arrived at Jingyu Temple. Uncle Wu jumped out of the carriage first, turned around and raised the curtain, and looked at us, "Miss Shen, Jingyu Temple is here."

"Thank you, Uncle Wu!" Ying Sheng nodded with a smile, and helped me to walk down.

Uncle Wu smiled and said: "It's rare that you have such filial piety, and you came here to burn the incense sticks to pray for your family. I just did it with a little effort."

"It's almost dawn, Uncle Wu, you'd better go back quickly, lest your family worry."

"it is good!"

The author has something to say: Is it the end of the road, or is it a bright future~ Let’s see the breakdown later~