Lose the lights and spend another night

"If you take refuge in my Buddha, you can no longer fall in love with the world of mortals. Donor, do you understand?" the abbot of Jingyu Temple asked me slowly. Once the saber in his hand falls, it will not only cut off my black hair, but also my worldly life. All bonds.

I have no way out, I can't do anything except nod.

The abbot sighed softly, she walked behind me, picked up a lock of my hair, "In this case, the poor nun will give you the dharma name Wangchen, and from today onwards, you will no longer be called Huanxi."

I clasped my hands together and nodded reverently.

The abbot finally got his hands on it, and when strands of black strands fell from my head, I felt somewhat relieved.

Buddhism saves people, and this statement is indeed true.

Yingsheng stood quietly at the side, and when all the black hair on my hair fell to the ground, she came over, squatted beside me and silently brushed the hair from the ground together.

"Shen Benefactor?" The abbot looked at Ying Sheng puzzled.

Yingsheng looked up at the abbot, "After all, Huanxi is a caring person who has taken care of me for 16 years. Now that she is a Buddhist, I can't bother her too much. Let me take these hair back and make it Little pillow, if I miss Huanxi, I will sleep on it for a while, maybe in my dream, she can still take care of me as usual."

I resisted the idea of ​​holding her hand to write, and just looked at her blankly——you miss me, you can still dream of me with your pillow, but what about me?I think what should you do?

As if knowing what I was thinking, Yingsheng carefully picked up the hair and put it in a small bag. She smiled and looked at the abbot, "Master, can I borrow the Jiedao?"

The abbot also knows that Miss Shen has been taken care of by me since she was a child, so she is naturally reluctant to part with me.The abbot handed over the Jiedao in his hand, and said: "Be careful of the knife edge."

Yingsheng nodded, and took it carefully, she quickly cut off a bunch of black hair, and handed it to me, "Huanxi, this is for you, don't lose it!"

I received it with red eyes, and the abbot hurriedly said: "Benefactor Shen, this is impossible!"

Yingsheng looked at the abbot in confusion, "Why can't you do it?"

The abbot explained: "Since Wangchen has entered my Buddhist gate, there should be no more things that cannot be let go in the world of mortals..."

"Master is overthinking too much. I just asked Huanxi to pray for me here. This hair is for her." Yingsheng explained, and she looked at me again with tears in her eyes, "Don't be lazy , I want to chant sutras in my heart day and night in front of my blue hair, do you understand?"

How can I not understand?I gripped the lock of hair tightly and nodded heavily.

"Then I'm relieved..." Yingsheng frowned softly, with tears streaming down her face, she took a breath and looked at the sky outside, "Master, please send a letter to my family for them to pick you up." I'm going back."

"Okay." The abbot believed Yingsheng's explanation, and she looked at me, "Wangchen, let's go."

I nodded, stood up from the futon, and prepared to follow the abbot to the backyard.

Yingsheng suddenly grabbed my sleeve, she bit her lower lip tightly, but tears rolled down and dripped on her feet, "Huanxi... Take care..."

A word of care, but I think it is heavier than a mountain.

I nodded, took her hand, and slowly wrote in her palm—seeing a lamp like a heart.

Lights, equally.

I will wait for you, Yingsheng, no matter how long, I will wait for you.

Yingsheng also nodded, finally resisting the reluctance in her heart, and let go of my sleeve, "Huanxi..." She still wanted to say something, but she didn't know where to start?At this moment, she only knew that she should let go, and only if she let go now, would she have a chance to hold hands again in the future.

I smiled knowingly, wiped her tears gently, stroked her face at last, finally let go of her face, and turned away—but at this moment, tears welled up in my eyes Like beads with a broken thread, they rolled down my cheeks one by one.

I finally followed the abbot gradually away, and finally disappeared in Yingsheng's sight.

My lord couldn't find me and Yingsheng all over the mansion. He heard the news from Jingyu'an, so he came in person, but he didn't think it was too late.

The abbot refused my lord's request to see me on the grounds that I had become a monk.

In the end, the lord could only endure all the grievances, and brought Ying Sheng back to Shen's residence resentfully.It is said that my lord got drunk that day, couldn't hold back for a while, and slapped Ying Sheng across the face.This matter is over.

The news that Miss Yi, who was on the cusp of the Shen family, suddenly cut her hair and became a nun in Jingyu Nunnery, quickly spread in Lin'an City, and was soon replaced by the strange events of so-and-so's family in Lin'an City.

This year's New Year's Eve, it was the first time that the adults did not spend time at home, and it was also the first time that he went to the brothel, got drunk and was carried back by the housekeeper.

There is no mistress in charge of the entire Shen residence, and all the housework falls on Yingsheng's shoulders.I have heard a lot of praises about Yingsheng, saying that she manages the family well at a young age, and many children from rich families are vying for her as a wife.Every few days, a matchmaker would come to propose marriage, but they were all stopped by the adults.

The Shen family couldn't do without Yingsheng, and Yingyan was still young. After the young master Yuan Sheng woke up, he was crazy and stupid. Others said that the young master was useless, and the only male in the Shen family was destined to be crazy for the rest of his life. .

As for Cao Feng, after Madam's case, he suddenly disappeared like in those years.However, some pilgrims who came from Bianjing mentioned that Mr. Cao has been in the officialdom for the past few years. Mr. Mo, the former minister of the Ministry of punishment, is almost at the end of his life. Many people know very well that the next minister of the Ministry of punishment is likely to be It will be Cao Feng.After all, since the Third Young Master was beaten to death, Mr. Mo has occasionally been in a trance, and he is no longer well qualified for the post of Minister of the Ministry of Punishment.Even though Mr. Mo has an eldest son, but that child is always obsessed with the world, and the third younger brother never came back to see him after his family died. Mr. Mo has already given up on this son.

In the spring of this year, I planted some radishes, cabbage, and pumpkins in the wasteland on the back mountain of Jingyu Temple. I thought that when the harvest came, I would be able to earn the first entanglement with Yingsheng.

Every time I think of this, I can't help pursing my lips and chuckling, looking at the tender green seedlings in the field, I know that those are the hopes of Yingsheng and I, and I will love these seedlings even more.

So, this wasteland became the place where I stayed the longest in Jingyu Nunnery.No one knows why I can't help but laugh dumbfounded in the field. They all think that I am obsessed with farm work, but I know that as long as I stand here with Yingsheng's blue hair on my heart, I can feel Yingsheng around me beside.

People, as long as there is hope, there will be longing, and with longing, life will become more interesting.

In the early spring of this year, I thought it would be the first time I was absent from Yingsheng's birthday, but Yingsheng never gave me a chance to be absent.

In the dead of night, the abbot and other fellow teachers and sisters went to rest, so I couldn't sleep.

In another hour, Ying Sheng's birthday will pass.

I put my hands together, stood in the courtyard of Jingyu Nunnery, looked at the closed gate of the nunnery, and silently prayed—may my Yingsheng be safe every year.

I wonder if the Buddha heard my prayer?I saw a gleam of light outside the gate of the nunnery.

Not long after, a Kongming lantern slowly rose from outside the nunnery—a woman in pink was drawn on the lamp, looking inside with a smile on her face. I could recognize those eyebrows and eyes, who else could it be?

Unexpectedly, in the past few months, Yingsheng's painting skills have grown so much.

I was secretly relieved, looking up at the Kongming lantern, I couldn't help laughing with tears in my eyes.

"Boom boom boom!"

Someone knocked three times on the door of the nunnery.

I ran over quickly, hesitated for a while, and finally opened the door of the nunnery.

"Huanxi." Yingsheng stood beside the carriage with a smile, holding a long rope in his hand, and was pulling the Kongming lantern in the sky, as if he was afraid that the Kongming lantern would drift away.

I miss her!

I couldn't help it, I walked over quickly, just about to give her a good hug, but Ying Sheng grabbed her hand and folded it in the palm of my hand.

"Today is your birthday, Huanxi, I'm here to bring you a gift!" The childishness on Yingsheng's face was gone, and she had grown taller in the past few months. She handed the long rope in her hand to When I looked up at the Kongming Lantern, I didn't forget to give me a wink.

Yes, I am a nun in the nunnery now, how can I hold her in my arms like before?

"I wish Huanxi will be safe every year."

After Yingsheng finished speaking slowly, the little finger quietly scratched my palm, and I carefully felt what Yingsheng wrote - miss you.

These two words are far better than ten thousand sweet words.

I nodded with tears in my eyes, and Yingsheng also nodded with tears in my eyes, and looked at the sky, "It's getting late, I have to go back, otherwise Daddy will be in a hurry. Huanxi, you have to put away the lamp I gave you, listen Are you ready?"

it is good……

I gripped the long rope tightly and nodded again.

Ying Sheng let go of my hand, she touched my temples, these few days I didn't bother to trim my hair, and some dregs came out again, but it was dazzling white.

"Remember what you promised me, don't..." Yingsheng held back her words, and she changed to another sentence, "Look at me, have I grown taller again? I'm trying to grow up quickly, you Well, work hard too!"

Try to age slowly.

I remember that.

I nodded.

Ying Sheng breathed a sigh of relief, clasped his hands together, bowed to me lightly, "Go back."

I shook my head, I want to send her away, I go back, I want to see her more.

Yingsheng couldn't resist me, she took a deep breath, turned around and stepped on the carriage, lowered the curtain, "Let's go! Go home!" The voice was full of strong nasal, I know that she dares to cry wantonly now, It's just that she doesn't want me to see her tears.

The coachman turned the carriage around and whipped his whip, but the carriage eventually went away.

I quietly watched the carriage drive away, grabbed the rope and pressed it tightly to my heart, and knocked three times—I'll wait for you, until we can go home together.

I took down the Kongming lantern, only to find that Yingsheng's portrait was a silk scarf embroidered on the lamp wall, I carefully removed it, and carefully put the silk scarf with Yingsheng's portrait in my arms.

I know, Yingsheng, you are always by my side, I am not suffering, really not at all.

The author has something to say: It’s 23:[-] when I get off work at night. In order to let everyone see today’s update earlier, I’d better write and post it as soon as possible~

The story begins to end~

Vaccination: In one year, Yingsheng will be 18 years old, and death at 18 years old is an abnormal death.