Just a Bit Unhealthy

At two o'clock in the morning, Jared was still awake, staring at the dark room.After months of living in a noisy city, the quiet English countryside seemed eerie.The whole house fell silent, and even the crying of the baby had stopped not long ago.

That baby is the son of Gabriel and Claire.

Jared didn't know how he did it. Before Claire took the child downstairs, he was able to keep smiling and say nice things.He thought he was ready, but he wasn't ready to see Gabriel's baby in person...not ready to see his woman holding his baby.After dinner, Jared excused that he was tired after flying for so long, and left the room, ignoring Gabriel's worried face.

This was all six hours ago.

After thinking about it for six hours, he still didn't know what he was doing here.

The baby has the same eyes, the same nose and the same square jaw as Gabriel.

"Don't think about it," Jared whispered to himself, thinking about it would only drive him crazy.

The door creaked open.

He looked over there, but couldn't see clearly either.There is no moonlight tonight, and the room is too dark.

There were footsteps approaching the bed.

"Xiao Jia?"

"How do you know it was me?"

"I don't think Claire will come to my room in the middle of the night." Jared pretended to be funny, and he didn't know if he was pretending.

He heard Gabriel stop by the bed, and slipped under the covers.

Jared froze. "What are you doing?"

"Can't sleep," Gabriel said, as if thinking that was reason enough.He rolled over, stretched his arms across Jared's bare chest, pressed his cheek against his shoulder, and breathed contentedly. "Um... it's better this way. Damn, I'm so tired."

"Xiaojia..."

"Hold me. You know, I sleep very soundly when you hold me."

Jared smiled. "You're really spoiled."

"If I'm spoiled, it's your fault," Gabriel said, yawning. "You're the only one who spoils me."

Jared sighed and put his arms around Gabriel's back, forcing himself not to touch the silky skin under his hands.

They just lay there for a while in silence—a silence that only these two people who know the truth can share, comfortable and satisfying, but painful.

"Do you hate Jules?" Gabriel asked suddenly, quietly, circling Jared's chest with his fingers. "What you can hate, doesn't mean you can hate it, it's understandable."

"He's only a two-month-old baby," Jared replied, "I don't hate babies under three months old."

Gabriel snickered, snickering breath tickling his skin.

Jared took several deep breaths to control his voice. "He looks like you."

"Probably," Gabriel murmured, continuing to dig into Jared's shoulders, his ankles wrapped around Jared's legs.The feel of Gabriel's bare legs resting on his was unbearable.

Jared gritted his teeth.He had long been used to Gabriel's feline begging for petting, but now it was too much. "Gabriel."

"Ok?"

"I'm half naked now," Jared said without a hint of warmth, "and you are half naked too. Stop moving and get out of bed."

The atmosphere fell into a brief silence.

"You obviously didn't care before."

Jared laughed. "I already cared about it before, I just didn't say it."

"but……"

"Get out of my bed, now."

Gabriel didn't move. "I don't want to go, it won't matter if we hug each other... this..."

"No way?!" Jared took a deep breath. "Suppose you're lying with the girl you love, and she's half stripped, with her bare boobs on top of you, making you pissed off, and the girl says she just wants a cuddle, how do you feel?"

"Oh," Gabriel exhaled, in a very awkward tone, "that's terrible."

"Yeah, it's bad." Jared covered his face with his hands. "Stop talking. Go back to your room."

Gabriel still didn't move.

Jared felt bad when he heard his silence. He clearly felt that he was thinking about something in his head, which made him very nervous. "No matter what you are going to do, don't even think about it, just go."

Finally, Gabriel moved.But instead of getting out of bed, he raised his body and propped his arms, and kissed the corner of Jared's mouth in the darkness.

Jared shuddered. "Xiaojia..."

"Come on," Gabriel said, "we've agreed, it's okay, we've had two experiences too, I like it."

Jared grabbed the sheets under his hands. "You don't have to do that."

"I want to do it," Gabriel murmured, leaning forward so their lips touched. "Come on, Jay. Come on."

The soft lips and light touch made the desire in his body rush out of the cage.The smell of Gabriel made his blood burn in his veins and spread all the way to his lower body.

Gabriel's voice came. "come on."

Go ahead, kiss him, kiss him.

Jared exploded, riding on top of him, eager for them to kiss.Gabriel let out a low cry of surprise, but opened his mouth anyway, inviting his tongue bluntly, and Jared lost control.His tongue squeezed into Gabriel's mouth, the other's soft mouth, the breath between his lips, the lines of his teeth, his lips and his mouth, he wanted to engrave them in his heart.Kiss out all the desires accumulated in the past five years.He wanted to get inside him, ravage him, mark him, fuck him.He had never loved someone so madly in love that he just wanted to be in Gabriel's body and not leave it for a moment.

He kissed him deeply hungrily, and said hurriedly when he parted, "Stop me." His cock was so hard that it hurt, and he began to move his waist unconsciously, his erection rubbing against Gabriel's cock, "Stop me."

"It's okay," Gabriel said softly, stroking his back, as if trying to appease the surging desire in his body, "it's okay..."

No, it does matter, damn it.

Jared rolled off of him and lay flat on the bed, breathing raggedly. "Go," he said hoarsely.

"Can't I stay?" Gabriel asked him, hesitantly.

"It's better for you to leave."

"Jared..." His hand touched his chest again.

"Don't touch me," Jared yelled, pulling away, "If you want to stay, you can, but stay away from me."

It was quiet again.

The sheets rustled and Gabriel turned his back on him.

Jared knew he had hurt Gabriel with his harsh words, but he couldn't help himself.He was burning with desire and wanted to take this unreasonable boy directly, but the other party didn't know to push him away.And it's clear he doesn't trust Gabriel to stop him before he goes too far.

It took a while for Jared to come to his senses.After he calmed down, he pricked up his ears.Gabriel was too quiet and good-natured to be asleep.

Jared sighed, reached for his clothes and put them on.Then he moved to Gabriel, pulling him into his arms against his chest. "I'm sorry," he whispered, burying his face in Gabriel's hair. "It's not your fault." It's not your fault you don't want me.

Gabriel leaned into his arms, and his tense body finally gradually relaxed. "Good night, Jay."

"Good night," Jared said, kissing his neck.His lips were there for a long time, after all, he was a normal person with needs.

Not long after, Gabriel fell asleep.

It took several hours for Jared to fall asleep, holding him the whole time.

***

Near dawn, the baby woke her up.

The other side of the bed was empty again, and the cold bed made her shiver all over.

She fed Jules, put him in the crib, and left the bedroom.

She had no trouble finding Gabriel.

Claire pushed open the door of Jared's room and saw the entangled bodies of the two on the bed.Gabriel was sleeping soundly in Jared's arms, with his head buried in Jared's collarbone.Jared's hands are on Gabriel's waist, and Gabriel's ankles are wrapped around Jared's.They were never naked, they looked so innocent.

However, the pain still welled up in her heart, making her eyes wet.She's been wrong all along, sex isn't that important at all.Looking at them now, she wished she had seen Gabriel fucking another woman.How dare she wish to fight for that breath?

She closed the door, resting her forehead on the door panel.

unfair.

It's so fucking unfair, she's not like the star wives who go to the money and the spotlight, well, with Gabriel she does buy whatever she wants, and the steps go further and further, but these None of it matters to her.It really doesn't matter.

unfair.How can she compare?

Does she still want to fight?

Is it worth fighting like this?

Honestly, she wasn't sure either.A few weeks ago, she had made up her mind to save their relationship, but could their relationship still be saved?Could she really accept that Jared meant more to Gabriel than she and their son?

Disappointed tears filled his eyes again, angry and resentful.For the first time, she hated Jared Sheldon so thoroughly.

So unfair.