In your lifetime, stay safe

The world is full of beauty in April, and a public high school is full of people. They are all students in their youth. Their young faces are full of desire for the future and longing for love. People at that time were the most innocent, and they always loved someone. I will confess bravely, but there are also many people who only dare to bury it in their hearts when they like someone, because the person they like is too good, but they only dare to look at them from a distance, and they don’t even dare to go forward and say a word.

"Lu Haosheng, this is your paper." Xu Xi held the paper given to him by the math teacher just now, and said nervously. Although they are classmates in the same class, Lu Haosheng always looks very cold. I only dared to talk to him when handing out papers and collecting homework.

"Thank you." Lu Haosheng took the paper, glanced at it casually, as if it was what was expected, then threw the paper on the table casually, and turned his face out of the window.

Xu Xi still wanted to say something, but finally held back after a pause, and walked to another classmate with the paper in his arms.

Xu Xi is the study committee member and math class representative in the class, and the math teacher is the head teacher in their class. Maybe he is the teacher's favorite in the eyes of others. Only Xu Xi knows that the teacher is looking for an obedient and good student. Do things for him.He has a meek temper, and when most classmates ask him for help, he will agree as long as it is not too much.That's why the students in the class voted for me when the study committee members were elected, because I hoped that I could help them speak well to the teacher, otherwise I would definitely not be able to be a study committee member based on my academic performance.

Although my academic performance is in the middle and upper reaches of the class, there are so many people in the class who are better than me, so in terms of academic performance, I will definitely not be a study committee member.What did I think at that time, when I became a study committee member, I would have a chance to talk to Lu Haosheng, so I would be willing to endure the ridicule of some classmates to become this study committee member who did not deserve the name.

After delivering all the papers to each student's seat, Xu Xi returned to his seat, and was grabbed by Qiu Shuang before he sat down.

"Xu Xi, what should I do? I failed the exam this time. If my mother finds out about it, she will definitely kill me." Chased herself for several streets with a broom, and this time let her know that she didn't have to live.

"I didn't do very well in the exam either." Xu Xi looked at the paper in front of him. The score was 75, which was neither high nor low. I don't understand.

"I said that this great master won't get [-] points again this time." Qiu Shuang looked in Lu Haosheng's direction, after all, scumbags like them still envy those top students.

"Yeah, it seems like I'm still number one in the grade this time." Xu Xi said calmly. In fact, Xu Xi was the first to read Lu Haosheng's paper when he got the paper. Sure enough, the gap between them is not 01:30.

"You said that he is not different from us, why is there such a difference."

"Who told you to only read magazines and not listen to lectures in class every day. When I came here just now, I heard that the head teacher wanted to talk to the bottom ten students in the class. Xiao Shuang, I have some bad news for you. You happen to be the bottom ten. "Xu Xi told Qiu Shuang the news apologetically, and sure enough, Qiu Shuang's face changed. After all, their homeroom teacher is good at everything, but loves to teach people politics. It's not an hour or two, and Qiu Shuang It's that kind of impatient, and now she suffers from it.

"No." Qiu Shuang complained, but seeing Xu Xi's helpless expression, he just became more resentful.

"The teacher has come in." Xu Xi hurriedly said to Qiu Shuang, after all, this class is physics, and the physics teacher has a bad temper, and he is most annoyed when others talk in his class.

Sure enough, Qiu Shuang became disciplined all at once, and Xu Xi couldn't help admiring her changing face.He and Qiu Shuang have been classmates for two years and have always been at the same table.Qiu Shuang's personality is a bit like a boy, but Qiu Shuang takes good care of himself and is a very good friend.And I am also lucky to have such a good friend as Qiu Shuang. After all, he has a relatively withdrawn personality and it is difficult to have close friends.

The physics teacher was talking about the previous papers on it, but Xu Xi couldn't listen to it, and his eyes unconsciously drifted to Lu Haosheng's direction. Lu Haosheng's position was relatively high, and because his academic performance was not very good, Sitting in the back, their seats in the class are selected first with good grades, but Xu Xi doesn't care where he sits, and he can peek at Lu Haosheng without hindrance, watching him seriously listening to the class, or lying on his back. Taking a nap on the desk, just looking up at random is so good-looking.

Xu Xi has a secret, a secret that no one knows. He likes Lu Haosheng for a long time.

The first time Xu Xi met Lu Haosheng was when he had just entered high school. That day he came to the classroom early, and Lu Haosheng was the last to come. At that time, Xu Xi was bored and sat in his seat in a daze. At that time, Lu Haosheng broke into his sight. He was wearing a simple white shirt and slacks, but Xu Xi was a little stunned by such a simple attire, until Lu Haosheng spoke to him.

"Can I sit here?"

Xu Xi quickly came back to his senses and looked around the classroom. It seemed that only the seat next to him was vacant.

"Yeah." Xu Xi nodded, and when Lu Haosheng sat down, Xu Xi smelled a nice smell, like the scent of jasmine.

That was the only time Xu Xi was so close to Lu Haosheng. At that time, he was too shy to speak to him. Instead, the girl in front always turned around to talk to Lu Haosheng from time to time. Although Lu Haosheng watched He looked coldly, but his manners were very good. Xu Xi watched them talking and laughing happily, but he didn't dare to talk to Lu Haosheng. Until a week later, the teacher adjusted his position according to the entrance results, and Xu Xi separated from Lu Haosheng. Yes, Xu Xi and Lu Haosheng said a few words that week, and after that, it became Xu Xi's great regret.

From the first year of high school to the present, Xu Xi was not sure if Lu Haosheng knew that he was in the class. After all, he was so outstanding. Not only did he have excellent grades, but he also ranked among the best in every exam, and he was also among the top students in the school before. The school grass, sports performance is also appreciated by the teacher, such a person, it is difficult to find shortcomings in him.If you really want to look for him, it's because he's too cold and hard to get close to, but it's not surprising, after all, Lu Haosheng's desk is stuffed with love letters and gifts every day, there should be no shortage of such people Others like it.

"Xiao Xi, why are you in a daze." Qiu Shuang tugged on Xu Xi's sleeve, wondering what this guy was thinking.

"What's wrong." Xu Xi came back to his senses and said in a low voice.

"The teacher asked us to do this question, and said that we would draw someone to answer it later. I don't know it at all. What if I get drawn out?"

Xu Xi looked at this question, as if the teacher had said it before, and Suo Ran himself had a half-knowledge, but it was enough to explain it to Qiu Shuang.

Outside the window, the shadows of the trees are whirling, and there is a feeling of tranquility in the years.

Today is Xu Xi and Qiu Shuang who are on duty. Originally there was only one person, but after class, I didn’t know where to go to be lazy. Qiu Shuang complained, and Xu Xi wanted to comfort her, saying that they were all classmates, so don’t mind these things little things.

"As long as you have a good temper, they bully you so blatantly, why do you endure it?" Qiu Shuang felt that Xu Xi was worthless, those people in the class were not good people, and when he saw Xu Xi's good temper, he pushed everything away When it came to him, it turned out that he didn't even say thank you, which was really annoying.

"Didn't I have you? Who would dare to bully me with you?" Xu Xi said with a smile. He didn't think it was a problem. His mother often told him that suffering is a blessing. Besides, they are all classmates, so don't worry about it so clearly .

"You, I don't even know what to say about you."

"Okay, I'll help you take out the trash."

It was dusk when Xu Xi and the others finished cleaning. Their school only had evening self-study in the third year of high school. Although they will be promoted to the third year of high school soon, they still have the last leisure time.

There were not many people in the school now, Xu Xi and Qiu Shuang were walking on the road, Xu Xi wanted to go back early, but Qiu Shuang stopped him.

"What's the matter?" Lin Jing was curious, Qiu Shuang ran faster than anyone else after class before, why did he stop today.

"Don't talk, come with me." Qiu Shuang pulled Xu Xi to find a hidden place, and then looked at the situation ahead.

Although Xu Xi was curious, he followed Qiu Shuang and hid in the garden, looking at the front, isn't this from their class, that girl is Cheng Na, the art committee member of their class, and that boy is Lu Haosheng.

"Here are some chocolates I made myself, I hope you can accept them." Cheng Na said shyly while holding a small exquisite box.

"I'm sorry, I don't like sweets." Lu Haosheng directly refused. Today, he was supposed to go back with Lin Jing. Who knew that he had waited for so long and didn't wait for him. Only after calling him did he find out that he had already gone back. , I was just about to go back when I was stopped by the girl in front of me.I still have some impressions of this girl, who wears gorgeous clothes every day, but I am not interested in him, I just want to go back quickly to clean up Lin Jing and let him release his pigeons.

Cheng Na was a little embarrassed, she didn't expect Lu Haosheng to refuse so directly, she was always a little embarrassed.

"If there is nothing else, I will go first."

"Wait a minute, Lu Haosheng, can I be your girlfriend?" Cheng Na said in a low voice, there are so many boys under her pomegranate skirt, but she only likes Lu Haosheng, Cheng Na believes that Lu Haosheng doesn't like her There are reasons for those girls, but since he is so good and looks so beautiful, Lu Haosheng probably won't refuse.

"I don't like you, you should find someone else." Lu Haosheng was already indifferent to these farewells, and directly broke her mind, lest she would harass him again.

Cheng Na stood there the whole time, Lu Haosheng had already walked away, she didn't expect to be rejected.

Qiu Shuang almost burst out laughing, he didn't expect that arrogant Cheng Na to be so embarrassing, it really deserves it for driving her crazy and making her feel like she is the only girl in the whole world.

"Let's go." Xu Xi tugged on Qiu Shuang's sleeve, after all, eavesdropping is not good.

"Don't worry, let's watch for a while. Do you think she ran away wiping her tears or squatting on the ground crying? I really want to see both. My mobile phone can't do it. I want to take a picture so that she doesn't get hurt. The next time I show off in front of my mother, I will show her." Qiu Shuang was imagining what Cheng Na would look like when he saw his unlucky appearance, but he didn't expect Cheng Na to see their actions too much. Now Cheng Na is looking at them angrily.

"Sorry, we went the wrong way, we're going back now." Xu Xi hurriedly pulled Qiu Shuang out, it was really embarrassing.

"What are we running for? It's not us who are ashamed." Qiu Shuang said indifferently.

"Miss, she is a girl, how embarrassing it is for us to see her confession rejected."

"Who made her show off in front of my mother every day, she deserves it. But I didn't expect our handsome guy Lu to reject people so simply. You didn't see Cheng Na's face turning red and white just now, it's so funny. "

"Forget it, take your time to be happy. I'll go first. See you tomorrow." Xu Xi and Qiu Shuang said goodbye when they reached the school gate, and walked home alone, thinking about what happened just now. The person Lu Haosheng confessed to was himself, would he also refuse so bluntly?

That night Xu Xi lay alone on the bed and thought for a long time. He liked someone but he couldn't even confess, he didn't have the courage, and he wasn't even comparable to those girls.Just being liked by a boy shouldn't be a good thing.

The next day Xu Xi went to school with dark circles under his eyes, and before he even sat down, he heard the big news from Qiu Shuang that Lu Haosheng was going to Beijing to participate in a competition on behalf of his school, and he would go on Monday next week.If he gets the ranking, the school will recommend Lu Haosheng to take this year's college entrance examination as a sophomore.

Xu Xi sat back in his seat, unable to express what it was like. Lu Haosheng's ability is obvious to all. This competition should not be a big problem for him, but if he participates in this year's college entrance examination, does it mean that they can There are only a few short days left to get along with each other.Thinking of the confession that I have never said, is it buried in my heart forever like this?

Somewhat unwilling, he had liked Lu Haosheng in his heart for two years, Xu Xi didn't want this relationship to come to an end before it even started.He wanted Lu Haosheng to know what he wanted. Even if he was rejected in the end, it would be a perfect end to his secret love, so that he would not feel any regrets.

People in love are always ignorant, always feel that love is better than everything else, if Xu Xi hadn't been so persistent at that time, and hadn't been so eager to give himself a result, the things after that would not have happened.It's just that everything has changed since then, the track that has been moving forward steadily has finally deviated, and then it has come to an end.

It was Friday afternoon, after the last class, Xu Xi and Qiu Shuang said that they still had some things to deal with and asked him to leave first.Then he sat in the classroom and watched Lu Haosheng pack up his things and leave, and he quickly followed, but at a place Xu Xi didn't notice, there was a person who kept watching him, and when he left the classroom, he picked up his schoolbag and left the classroom.

"You've been with me for a long time, what's the matter?" Lu Haosheng put his schoolbag on one shoulder and looked at Xu Xi with his hands in his trouser pockets, a little indifferent and suspicious.

Xu Xi was a little embarrassed, but maybe it was due to his obsession. There were not many people around, so he took out the letter he wrote. Although he felt that it was a bit old-fashioned, it was better than saying it in person.

"What do you mean?" Lu Haosheng looked at him, but didn't take it.

"I, can I be your friend?" Xu Xi still held the letter and said with his head down.

"I'm sorry, I don't lack friends." Lu Haosheng looked at him a little contemptuously. He was not a young man anymore. Besides, he was tired of confessing to him every day. Although this was the first time a boy confessed to him, but in the end The result is still the same.

Xu Xi felt the blood all over his body rushing to the top of his head. He looked down at Lu Haosheng's shadow slowly going away, and the words that Lu Haosheng said just now when he left echoed in his ears.

"Pervert, it's disgusting."

Xu Xi stood there alone for a long time, smiling self-deprecatingly, pinched the letter tightly in his hand, and finally tore it up and threw it on the ground as if discouraged. He thought he could really give up, it wasn't worth it, really It's not worth it.

After Xu Xi left, Cheng Na came out from behind, picked up the letter bit by bit, and added the photos she just took. The last time Xu Xi saw her own jokes, this time I will make you never look up Come on, pervert.

The lonely figure was drawn long by the setting sun, and Xu Xi walked down the road in despair, a little funny and a little uncomfortable.

It turns out that this is what it feels like to be rejected for a confession, I think I understand.