[FGO] Stone is a bad civilization

Facing me who was about to lose my breath from crying, Romani neither sighed nor said any comforting words, but just clung to my hand that was lightly resting on his fingertips, gently pulling me into it. into his arms.

"Okay, okay, don't cry... It's wrong for me to choose to treat you like this."

He patted my back with his hands, trying to make me cry until my convulsed body could relax.

"It's my fault...don't take it on yourself!"

"Okay, okay, whatever you say..."

Romani's tone was full of helplessness towards me, he stroked my hair, raised his hand and pressed my head against his shoulder.

Following his strength, I buried my face in the other's shoulder socket, but my hands didn't dare to make any further movements, so I could only hang stiffly by my side.

Romani didn't speak any more, just helped me to catch my breath every now and then.His movements were gentle and rhythmic, and it didn't take long for me to feel that I gradually stopped crying, and the physical reaction of crying until I convulsed was slowly fading away under the comfort of the other party.

But at this moment, Romani suddenly sighed softly.

"What should I do with you, Xuejian."

There are three points of distress in his voice, six points of helplessness, and one point of emotion that I can't understand at the moment.Because we were so close to each other, I could even feel the slight vibration from our close body when he was speaking.

As soon as I heard this, my tears began to flood uncontrollably again.

Am I letting him down?Is it because of what I have been doing all this time, my arbitrary and reckless actions, that have chilled him?

I didn't dare to think about it anymore, and I didn't have the brains to think about it anymore.

Romani's hand that had been holding me vaguely before suddenly loosened. He grabbed my arms and tried to pull me away from his arms.

What is this for!Are you angry again?Do you want to break with me completely?

I felt as if my heart was suddenly grabbed by an invisible hand, suffocation and pain came from my chest at the same time.

Don't, don't!

At this time, I had completely lost the ability to figure out the behavior of the other party. I only believed in the fact that Romani wanted to push me away. Strong panic and despair quickly occupied my brain.

No, absolutely not!

Can't let go!

I was shocked, and without thinking, I reached out and grabbed the clothes on the back of the other party.Facing such an unstable situation, I no longer cared about distance and boundaries, and only hoped that the current situation would not worsen.

"Romani, please, please..."

I whimpered and mumbled some pleadings that I couldn't understand myself.

"I-I don't know why...but, I just-hope you don't..."

"So, do you remember now?"

Romani's voice came from above my head.

what?

Before I could understand what the other party meant, he pressed hard on the numb point at the bend of my elbow with both hands, and tore me out of his arms at the moment when my hands lost strength.

"Let me ask you, do you remember this feeling of despair?"

Romani cupped my tear-stained face and forced me to look up at him.

Tears were still pouring out of my eyes, and my vision was blurred by too many teardrops, and everything I saw was a mass of color blocks.

There is a gray ball, a white ball, and the closest orange-pink ball in front of you.

I blinked, letting some tears flow out of my eyes faster, and finally saw the other person's expression when he spoke.

There was no anger, no coldness on Romani's face, but there was no smile at all. He just said calmly with no expression on his face: "I hope you can remember the feeling in your heart just now."

He lowered his eyes and said: "I already knew that if I told you directly or scolded you with strong words, you would never take these mistakes to heart. Leave my sight... no , and even said that as long as you look back, you will quickly forget them."

"So, from now on, you have to remember," Romani said seriously, "You chose the right way because of me, because you didn't want me to be angry, and you didn't want me to leave you."

"Respect for the efforts of the staff is secondary, because there will always be accidents in the singularity, and we can only do our best to save your lives. But you must know that the most important thing is always you..."

"It's you, it's you who have to protect yourself seriously and with all your strength... Do you know?"

I looked at the crying self in his eyes, and after a moment of sluggishness, I nodded in a daze.

Seeing that I gave the answer he wanted, Romani finally let go of the hand that had been restraining me, stepped back half a step, sat down on the previous chair, and let out a long sigh of relief.

"It's really hard to play a bad face..." He leaned his forehead and sighed, "To be honest, I regretted it the second I said that cruel word, but..."

"Sorry, see you." He solemnly apologized to me again.

"It must have frightened you like that before, right? But I really can't think of any other good solution. After all, it's not like I haven't told you about this problem before, so in the end, I can only take the best plan out of the plan... "

I stood there blankly, watching Romani, who lost all his seriousness, indifference, and arrogance, and instantly returned to his original useless appearance, feeling a little unacceptable for a while.

"So..." I asked him hesitantly, "You're not angry?"

"Of course there is," Romani said, "Very angry, very angry, very angry. Even if Magic☆Merry was seized, I wouldn't be so angry."

"I wanted to hang out with you for a few days, but..." He pointed to the water stain on his shoulder, his expression softened, but he didn't speak.

"In short..." He opened his collar and fanned himself with his hands.

"Romani..."

I interrupted him suddenly.

"Ok?"

Romani's fanning hand paused in mid-air, and then was slowly lowered.

"I..." I bit my lip, and my eyes stayed for a few seconds on a nihilistic focus beside Romani.

"Even when I was squeezed out by other people in the clock tower, I never felt so uncomfortable, but..."

Having said that, I stopped and took a deep breath, trying to straighten out the turbidity that had accumulated in my chest because of crying, and also trying to give myself some courage so that I could convey the next words to the other party smoothly.

"However, I'm afraid that Romani will ignore me and ignore me... I'm really afraid, even in my family... No, I've never been so afraid."

I moved my eyes to him with some distaste, and continued to the stunned person: "I don't know why, maybe it's because Romani, you are the first person besides my mother...my parents , who will correct me over and over again.”

No one has ever repeatedly used his sense of existence to remind me all the time that you are not a special case outside the incident, and your existence is cared about and meaningful.

I have received care from my own parents, and I have placed my emotions on my own, but there has never been a moment that made me feel, let me feel...

I covered my mouth, feeling the faint moisture in the corner of my eyes again.

"Romani..." I blinked, trying hard to hold back the tears in my eyes.

"Can I, hug you?"

Although it may seem strange for a man to ask another man for a hug, at this moment, I don't want to take into account the common sense and common sense that have been valued in the past. I just want to follow my instinct and heart , a brief capricious return.

When Romani heard my request, he was taken aback for a moment, and then stood up immediately.

He pulled his sleeves somewhat awkwardly, blinked his eyelashes twice nervously, and opened his arms to me.

I took a step forward, hugged each other tightly, and let my tears wet the other's shoulders for the third time.

Afterwards, things were very simple. After applying a wet towel to my eyes, I continued to return to the cooking table, absent-mindedly prepared the supper for the two of them and a few servants, and shared my share with Romani. After finishing, accompanied by the other party, he returned to his bedroom with a pile of food.

"So there is really nothing wrong with the results you checked at Leonardo's, right? I haven't had time to ask her today."

"It's no big deal," I walked side by side with him, "except for some minor problems with the magician, it's just a little disordered body function."

I paused, afraid that Romani would think that my speech was too indifferent to myself, so I added a sentence later: "It's no big deal to listen to Da Vinci, but if you care, I'll go see her again tomorrow.

"This... If it's purely a dysfunction, don't you need to go to her?" Romani looked around and laughed, "I asked her to help with the performance, ahem, it was enough to ask her to help Please trouble her, let me do the simple health management."

I nodded, and didn't pursue the flaws in the other party's words.

She even went to Da Vinci as a trustee... No wonder she scolded her so badly before, I thought with sympathy.

However, if Da Vinci hadn't been so aggressive, maybe I haven't realized the seriousness of the problem until now?Or maybe it's impossible to reconcile with Romani so quickly?

Anyway, I shook my head. Apart from the lack of objective conditions, as far as I am concerned, the reason why Romani is angry is indeed an issue that is very important to me and to the entire grandorder.

Even if this fluke is forgiven or ignored, in future missions, such hidden dangers will still erupt at specific points in time, right?If you think about it or save it at that time, you should really regret it.

I sighed, pulled away from my thoughts, looked at the road, and was just about to say goodbye to Romani, only to hear a sudden violent explosion at the end of the road...

"what happened?"

The shock wave from the explosion shook the entire corridor, and Romani looked at the top of the two of us in horror. A lamp hanging there flickered and flickered under his gaze, Went out.

"That direction is..."

At first, my reaction to this was calmer than Romani, but after thinking about the direction of the explosion, I immediately froze my body.

"Ah, Master, you are back..."

Just as I was still hesitating whether I should immediately drop the things in my hand to confirm the safety of my room, Young Jill walked out from the thick smoke of the explosion.After choking twice in a feigned manner, he raised his head and smiled apologetically at Romani and me.

"I'm sorry, master, because Joan of Arc was too noisy, so we accidentally demolished your bedroom, master."

I stood there dumbfounded, blinked, and blinked again, still unable to believe what I just heard.

"so……"

Young Jill sighed, smiled helplessly, and spread his hands towards me.

"I'm afraid...you have to sleep somewhere else today, master."