fox to the north

The next day, Beili told him to go home and talk to his family about this matter, and he didn't come back until very late. It seemed that he really didn't see Beili's mother and that woman again in the days that followed. Nine Tails was glad, but Since then, Beili has never been in the habit of going home, and even the place of work has changed.

Maybe many people think Kyuubi is selfish, but have you ever thought about it, he has never fought for anything for himself, and the biggest resistance to this relationship is what he said to Bei Li, "I am not wrong ".

Yes, he was right.

What is wrong is the strange eyes of the world.

What is wrong is your intolerant heart.

The signing of Kyuubi became much smoother, and he thanked himself for being discovered, but Bei Li's increasingly busy going out made him clear that that person was resisting the pressure of the outside world for him.

So what's so scary about him?

Why should I be afraid of you.

Beili still went to work on time that day. Because Jiuwei signed a contract with the publishing house, he needed to deliver the manuscript on time every month. Unlike the previous loose writing method, he would spend more time writing things in the future.

I was fascinated by writing, and suddenly felt thirsty, got up and went to the living room to get water, and hurried to the door when I heard the knock on the door.

Opening the door is Beili's mother whom I met five months ago. It's been so long since I saw her that Kyuubi felt a little dazed. She was much haggard, but this appearance can no longer make him feel bad. When he hurt the most, it was that woman. When he was lying in a pool of blood, afterward, there was no more. For Beili's many injuries, it was just the heartache of losing his lover.

If Nine Tails really did what Beili said, he would definitely live longer than him, because his heart was so hard that he was invulnerable.

"Hello auntie."

"Please...please..." The woman grabbed his hand, "please persuade him to go home...please..."

Nine Tails pulled her hand away, "Auntie, Beili is not here, you can contact him when he comes back."

"Please...he hasn't been back for too long...please let him go..."

Kyuubi didn't close the door, but just turned around and entered the bedroom, locked the bedroom door, put on the earphones and started writing a novel, but after putting his hands on the keyboard for a few minutes, he pulled off the earphones, threw the computer aside, and buried himself in the bed .

He was just tired, he didn't waver, he didn't get repelled by the woman's cry outside the door, and he...won't let go first.

mom......

Why should I be the one to go with the flow.

Why should I be the one to back down.

Why do they want to meddle in my happiness.

What are they all for?

He fell asleep, but woke up again in that recurring dream, he shook his head that was about to explode, the woman outside was still crying, Bei Li hadn't come back yet, it wasn't raining, it wasn't cloudy, the weather was as sunny as ever His mood was out of place.

He opened the door, and the woman was still slumped in the entrance hall, and Kyuubi met her suddenly hopeful eyes.

"Auntie, I said that if Beili wants to leave, I will disappear without a trace. However, if he doesn't say anything about breaking up, I can't leave him. I love him. If If you can get your approval, then I am very grateful. If you can’t agree, I will naturally hide from you and hide far away, and I will not interfere with his meeting with you, so please don’t bother me again, I will not soften my heart .”

Because, I have no heart.

"Don't your parents care about you!" the woman screamed in despair.

"Well, no."

Because they are the first to leave me.

Who can say who I live for? If I have not been treated kindly for a long time, how can you ask me to go against myself and treat others kindly? At most, I will not intentionally hurt you, and the rest is everyone Is it good fortune?

Kyuubi didn't come out after that, the woman seemed to have left, and he didn't want to check again, he didn't put down the computer until someone knocked on the door.

It was Beili who came back.

"came back?"

"Well, why is the door open?" Beili stroked his head, he didn't know if these things were worth doing for the person in front of him, he only knew that whenever he thought of him not being by his side, he would be so irritable that his brain would explode Open, so, should be worth it.

"Oh... Maybe I forgot to turn it off when I went out to take out the trash..."

Beili clearly saw the packed garbage in the living room, but he just nodded in agreement.

"What do you want to eat today?"

"Noodles, we need to add two eggs."

Bei Li smiled, I hope I can protect your aloofness from the world.

"Beili." The person who was eating noodles raised his head.

"Ok?"

"It seems you haven't been home for a long time."

"Ah."

"Did you quarrel?" He continued to eat the noodles with his head down, and took a bite of the egg, as if it was not as delicious as before.

"fine."

Kyuubi is not good at caring for others, simply asking is already the biggest step forward, and it is impossible for him to ask such a thing, so he didn't ask any more, and ate noodles quietly.

"My mother has been here?" Beili broke the sudden silence.

"Yeah." He didn't intend to lie about it.

"What did she say again?" Bei Li frowned, looking unhappy.

Kyuubi shook his head, "I was hiding in my room listening to music and writing a manuscript. I didn't hear what she said. She only stayed for a while and left. She probably came to find you."

"Nine Tails, don't lie to me."

Kyuubi raised his head, with a bottomless smile, "Do you think I'm the one who would wrong me?"

"All of this is my own choice and has nothing to do with you, so don't make any compromises on it."

Otherwise my efforts will be in vain, you understand.

"Beili, don't you feel sorry for her?"

"It hurts, but it's an unequal deal, so I won't compromise."

"I love you Nine Tails."

"I love you." Beili said.

Ridiculous is ridiculous, compared to their obstruction and disapproval, spending this life with you is what I care most about.

So, let him be.

Jiuwei has never felt that the three words "I love you" have such a great magic power, but now the three words heard from Beili's mouth calmed his restless heart.

Seeing that the man calmed down, Beili felt relieved. Just be that stubborn cat and let me tame it. Don't fall into someone else's trap.

I thought that Beili's mother was in a bad mood yesterday, so she thought of this to vent, but she never thought that his mother would appear in the same way every day after that, and during the time when Beili was not around, or at home. Scolding, or sitting quietly, Jiuwei knew what she was thinking, and didn't intend to pay any attention to it, and didn't mention it to Bei Li again.

Kyuubi thought that he would get used to it after a long time, and Beili's mother would be numb, but no, she disturbed and tortured more and more unscrupulously, completely disrupting Kyuubi's life, unable to write manuscripts, and often insomnia at night When he felt that he was going crazy, he took advantage of Beili's mother's absence to pack his simple luggage and left without notifying Beili in advance.

Of course, he didn't compromise so easily, he just wanted to find a clean place to catch up on manuscripts, that was his job and couldn't be mixed with his life.

But his sudden departure made Beili panic.

When Beili came back from get off work and found that the house was empty, and Jiuwei's frequently used luggage bag was not at home, he turned the house upside down like crazy, and finally calmed down and thought of making a phone call.

The phone rang a few times before it was picked up, it was not Beili's familiar voice.

"Hey?"

"Nine tails?"

"He's taking a shower. I'll ask him to call you back later."

"who are you?"

"His friend."

Looking at the hung up phone, Bei Li's anger seemed to crush the phone.

It's that man, the man in the bar, it's him again, Kyuubi, why did you go to his house again?What's the reason why you need to stay there to take a shower?

After sitting in the living room for a few minutes, Kyuubi called.

"Where are you?" He knew it was a bit of a knowing question, but he wanted to give him a chance to explain.

"A friend's house."

"What are you doing at your friend's house?"

"Writing a manuscript." Naturally, he knew that Leah's answering the phone must have angered him, that man who felt less secure than him.

"Go home, I miss you, Kyuubi." He is not as sensitive as a man now, the pressure of work, the pressure of family, and now he has to bear the pressure of losing him at any time, he feels that he cannot afford to lose.

"Wait for me, I'll be right back."

Lia stared blankly at the door that the man closed, could it be that my existence is just your occasional safe haven?

Jin Tuo, I like you too.

But, if you didn't dare to tell him, you have already lost a complete defeat.

When Kyuubi entered the door and saw the man looking at him with scarlet eyes, he suddenly felt sorry, yes, sometimes he was too egotistical, and at the age of 20, sometimes he was so reckless that he blamed himself.

The man walked towards him quickly and hugged him tightly in his arms.

"Kyuubi, don't leave me, I only have you."

He comforted the man one after another, only at this time he could see his fragility, and he even thought despicably, whether this could be regarded as grabbing his weakness.

"I'm sorry, I forgot to tell you, I won't do it in the future."

"Is my mother here to disturb you again?"

Beili's mother has been showing up for a month, but Kyuubi has never told him about it. Today's abnormal behavior must have made him suspicious. He didn't intend to tell Beili in this way, he just wanted to take advantage of Beili. Before Li's mother came, she fled here for a while, but forgot the person who should be notified the most.

"Don't worry, you are the most difficult thing for me to give up."

When Jiuwei said this to Bei Li, it seemed to be hinting at himself.

But the man's sudden relaxation made him firmly believe that this sentence could be a good medicine.

Then hold on tighter, I don't want to compromise.

Later, for unknown reasons, Beili's mother did not appear again. His ideal state is that his family approves or acquiesces in their relationship. If not, then this kind of life without interfering with each other is what he wants most.Time passed quickly, his book began to take shape, and Beili's work seemed to be gradually getting on the right track. When he put on the sweater he bought last autumn, Jiuwei realized that it had been a year since those farces up.

The love between him and Beili, the estrangement between Beili and his family, his relationship with the publishing house, and his friendship with Leah have all passed for a year.

His book is about to be published today, so I wanted to have a drink with Bei Li, but that person is discussing a big project recently, and he always has to work overtime from time to time, just now I received a text message from him saying that he will work overtime, Kyuubi is also used to it , but he didn’t want to miss this memorable day, so he called Lia to confirm that he didn’t work late today, and then went to his house to buy a bunch of food and a dozen drinks. Can't help but ask if something good happened, Kyuubi, who usually doesn't like to talk to each other, answered for the first time that he was going to publish a book.

The driver couldn't help sighing, "So he is a cultural person!"

Kyuubi laughed and stopped talking.

When he arrived at Lia's residence, the man had already cooked the noodles, and Kyuubi shook the big bag in his hand, indicating that he was going to have a big meal today.

When Leah saw the dozen of beer behind him, she knew that this man was really happy. After all, he didn't like to drink, and he didn't hold a lot of alcohol. If he could buy such a dozen of beer, he probably didn't want to get drunk. .

"Really so happy?" Leah took a sip of beer.

"That was quite a pleasure. The first pot of gold I earned in my life was my first capital to kill those who occupied my house, hahahaha..."

Leah knew that he was not a good drinker, but after drinking a bottle and a half he became so confused, which made Leah think he was really cute.

"Jin Tuo."

"Huh? Well... Jin Tuo is me... Kyuubi is also me... Hahahahahaha..."

Leah's heart was hit by the way he liked to speak with a long voice after he was drunk, and he quickly drank a sip of wine to suppress the strange emotion.

"Aren't you going back today? It's nine o'clock."

"No...it's okay...he works overtime..."

"He always works overtime..."

When Leah heard his previous sentence, Leah thought it was just a scene he faced occasionally. After all, that person seemed to really love him, but when he heard his last sentence, he realized that there was something in his self-anesthesia. A lot of grievances he has suffered.

But even so, you still love him very much, you still only love him, right, Jin Tuo.

Seeing the wine bottle that the man finally put down, Leah got up and helped him up, put him in the room where he lived before, wiped his face with a towel, covered him with a quilt, and tidied up in the living room without any further movement. At that time, Jiuwei's phone rang, and it was Beili.

"Hey."

"Is he with you?"

"Well, drunk."

"I'll pick him up."

Leah glanced at the room, then turned her attention back to her phone, said "whatever," and hung up.

About half an hour later, Beili arrived. Lia helped Kyuubi out of the door and handed him over to Beili. She wanted to close the door, but she couldn't help but say, "Today is the publication of his book. day."

After hearing this, Bei Li looked at the drunk man again, and the apology in his heart expanded infinitely.

In fact, sometimes you don't have to take me into consideration, and occasionally be selfish. I also want to find a reason to persuade myself to put down my work and come back to accompany you.

But you are too self-improving, so self-improving that you don't seem to need me anymore, which makes my efforts less reason.

I don't like this state.

After washing him, he put him on the bed. After covering him with the quilt, Bei Li planned to take a bath, but just as he let go of his hand, he was caught by that man.

He said, "Leah... Leah..."

The repeated name made Bei Li annoyed, he let go of the man's hand and walked quickly into the bathroom, so he missed what the man said next, "he always works overtime".

Maybe before you leave, I should reflect on whether I am too possessive of you, but my concern for you is out of proportion. If I had been more patient at the beginning, would it have saved us from being displaced later on? What a pity There are never ifs in love.

Just like if I love you, there is no if.