When the snails have wings

10

I'm really not used to it, I had a fight with him last week, but this week the two of them laugh and fight together as if they've known each other for a lifetime.To be honest, I feel weird.

I still gave Song Yufei a lot of trouble and kept him busy all day long.But he seemed to be a different person, coming to the student union every day.No matter how troublesome things are, they will do well.And when he saw me, it was like winning a sports lottery, and he made me laugh. . . . . .Goose bumps all over my body.

Yang Wen said I was dull.But I don't think so.I understand that something has changed since Song Yufei visited me in the hospital.The way he looked at me was the same as that day in the hospital.The thing called favorability may not be just the light of favorability, which makes me feel scared.

I admit I am timid.I don't think that people who have just met each other for a short time, especially those who don't have a good impression of each other, can develop a good impression of each other in a short period of time.I do not believe.

However, obviously my indifference cannot stop Song Yufei.I can always find him around me, whether it's the student union, the cafeteria, or in the classroom! ?He actually chose the same class as me?God knows what he was thinking.Only, I couldn't bring myself to believe that he meant it.Too many lessons and too many disappointments have made me have a huge distrust of this thing called love.I can no longer love anyone with an open heart.

I started to avoid him, I changed the time to go to the student union, and I no longer went to the cafeteria I used to go to, and I no longer took the class he also took.I don't want to face his eager eyes again.Yang Wen asked me what I really wanted.Obviously there is a chance to get rid of loneliness, why give up.He couldn't accept my statement. He said that it is cowardly to give up without trying.I admit, I'm a coward.Then Yangwen would sigh helplessly, ask me with a wry smile, when can I get rid of the past?I don't know either. . . . . .

I started going blue, drinking glass after glass of wine.Depression is bothering me.I know, I want to try it in my heart, but I just can't muster up the courage. I'm afraid, afraid of the consequences that will make me miserable.I know, I'm not that strong, people who can endure a breakup.I'm afraid I'm going crazy and going to hurt people.I know the darkness inside of me is still there and is always looking for an opportunity to break out of its grip.I am afraid.

At first, Yuqing would drink with me, but gradually, he didn’t accompany me very much, and looked at me as if his eyes were about to burst into flames. It seems that Yuqing was also irritated by me. . . . . . .

"What on earth do you want?" The suppressed anger still rushed towards me, and even the question was the same as Yangwen's. He really deserves to be my good friend.

"Me? I don't want to do anything." After taking a sip of my wine, I replied calmly without raising my eyes.

"I know that your parents' divorce has hit you hard, but it's been so many years, can you still not let it go? If you continue like this, you won't be happy!" Yuqing said emotionally.

"...I know that I am destined to never find happiness in my life." I raised my head and looked into his eyes.I believe he can see the pain in my eyes.

"I want to be happy, I really want to, but I don't have self-confidence, I don't want to get hurt..." I raised my hand to stop him who was about to talk, and continued, "I know I'm selfish, but, I It’s true, I’m really scared. Heh, you can laugh at me. I’m really, really useless.” Hmph, who would have thought that the honored student council president would be such a coward?I laugh at myself.

"Xiaotian, if you can't open your heart, you will never be happy, try to accept him, maybe, things won't be as you imagined." Yuqing persuaded me earnestly.

I didn't speak any more, just drank glass after glass, the strongest alcohol.But why am I not drunk?When you are drunk, you don't have to think about so many problems, and you can relax.

"Wine, there is no way to help you. Xiaotian, think about it carefully." Yuqing sighed, got up and left.

I'm still drinking, drink after drink, waiting for the drunk to come.

Late at night, the lights were still on in the house.My mother is still waiting for my unfilial son.I stood downstairs, looking at the lights of the house on the eighth floor, and couldn't help being a little stunned.

Since I was in elementary school, I have always lived with my mother.When I was young, I thought about leaving her more than once and living independently.I don't want to be given a headache by her hysteria from time to time.When I grew up a bit, my mother finally stood up from the shadow of divorce, but her temper was very bad, irritable, and she always lost her temper at every turn.For my studies, my laziness, my relationships at school, my waywardness, blah blah blah.My temper is like hers, except that it is usually suppressed, but it is like a bomb that will explode at an unknown time, dangerous.

I remember when I was hospitalized in junior high school, my mother's eyes were red every day, and tears kept rolling in her eyes.She always told me over and over again, Mom only has you, you must get better.But the man named father in my impression just came over to take a look, and then left in a hurry.Hehe, the warmth and coldness of human feelings.

Mom loves me.When I was in high school, no matter how late I was after school, there would always be delicious and hot meals waiting for me when I got home. No matter how late I studied, there would always be a cup of hot milk on my desk before I went to bed.Mom's salary is not high, but my clothes are always up to date, and my food is always good.Mom said, no matter what, I can't lose you.At the beginning, the impulsive rebellion unique to adolescence has been haunting my body. I contradicted my mother, fought against her, got into fights, and yelled at her from time to time because of trivial things like bad food and bad clothes. .Every time I finish arguing with my mother, I will go back to my own room, turn on the music to the maximum, and do my own things.And in the mother's room next door, there will always be her low, suppressed crying.When I was young, I always found that voice very annoying, so I would often drop the chair, pick up the clothes and rush out of the house, regardless of my mother's life and death, drinking and fighting with friends.

Now that I think about it, I'm really an asshole.I don't know how much harm my childish words and deeds have hurt my innocent mother.During the college entrance examination, my emotions were the most volatile. On the contrary, those few days were when my mother treated me the best.Of course, every parent is like this, for fear that something will happen to their child during the exam.However, I couldn't help but be moved. For me, my mother put aside her work and accompanied me to the examination room every day.God knows those days are her busiest.I don't know what other people are like, but after I finished the college entrance examination, I felt that my mother had aged more than a star and a half. It turned out that her hair was black and black, but after I finished the college entrance examination, I found more than one hair on her head. a white hair.

Since then, I have decided that I will not let her down and that I will give her the best life possible.It's my compensation for her.My sexuality she knows, yes, since I went to college, we haven't had any secrets.Surprisingly, she didn't say anything, she just looked at me, sighed, and said that the person she was most sorry for in her life was me, and as long as I was happy, she would ask for nothing.I cried, and I said to her, in my life, happiness is only by your side.My mother cried too, she was so crying that she couldn't speak, we just hugged each other and cried.In the end, she said to me, don't disbelieve in love, she herself just met people in a bad manner.I was speechless, and she was also speechless. After a while, she told me again that she was sorry for me.Mom, do you know what?I never blamed you.

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This chapter has written a lot of Xiaotian's mood.Um.Everyone must be very depressed, right?It must be very strange, why does a certain wind write these useless things? This is a certain wind's willfulness.This article is written from the perspective of Tiantian. A certain wind wants to describe some of Tiantian's moods, feelings, and the influence of important people on Tiantian.Therefore, it is very irresponsible to write this piece of stuff.This is to let everyone know more about Tiantian.

In fact, most of this article is written about every day, but true love and love are not very important.Everyone, please don't hit me~~~~~~>_<||||I just really like Tiantian, and I want everyone to understand and like Tiantian.A certain wind is wayward, I hope you adults will forgive me.

Regarding Xiao Fei's mood, this article will not describe in detail, but please rest assured that a certain wind will definitely write in the extra chapter.hehe.

I hope you will continue to support us.A certain wind bowed.