When the snails have wings

At 12 o'clock in the evening, I walked into "blue".It was a bar, in a dark alley, different from other bars, but very quiet.There are no colorful neon lights, only the word "blue" is drawn in blue neon.The shop is decorated in blues, and the music played inside is not rock, but blues, jazz, which gives people a very nostalgic feeling.

The boss here is my good friend. We have known each other since high school. He is my classmate.We have the same situation, that is, he is also gay.However, he was lucky enough to find his other half.I don't know why, when he graduated from high school, he had the opportunity to enter the Faculty of Law of Peking University, but he gave up and did not continue to study, but opened a small bar.And live with his boyfriend.

For me, I don't think that's a good idea.I think you can only find a good job if you have a high degree of education. Although it is good to open a bar, there is no guarantee that this bar will always exist.Don't know when something will happen.Also, I don't think love lasts long.Hehe, the doctor said that my parents' divorce hit me hard.I do not deny.Because of my parents, I don't believe in love.All love cannot stand the baptism of time.I have many friends who have been in love several times, but which one lasted?I can't say anything about Yangwen.At least they're fine now.I don't know what's going on with them, I can only hope that they'll change my mind.

Walking into the bar, I went straight to the bar and asked the bartender to give me a whiskey - I only drink whiskey.My heart is in a mess.An upset feeling that I haven't seen in a long time is haunting me.Makes me feel bad.Just want to get drunk.Drinking one cup at a time, I'm just wondering why I can't drink so well and can't get drunk all the time.

"When you want to get drunk, you can't get drunk because you think too much." A clear voice sounded behind me, and at the same time a slender hand rested on my shoulder.

"Ah Qing, you're here." I smiled and turned around.A handsome and tall friend with shawl and long hair stood behind me.

"What's on your mind? You haven't been here for a long time. Well, in fact, you haven't been here at all except when it first opened." He said with a smile.

"Hehe, is my mind obvious?" I asked with a wry smile.

"To tell the truth?" Yuqing asked me suddenly and seriously.

"Yes. To be honest." I also answered him very seriously.I want to know what I look like in his eyes now.

"Okay. Then I'll say it. It seems to me that you are trying to suppress something. You look like you want to do something, but you are trying to suppress. I think you want to beat someone. Who is it? Let you be so flustered." The clear voice showed a trace of concern.

"Hehe, you have always been amazingly insightful, and I can't hide anything from you." I said with a wry smile.

"What happened?" Yuqing asked me softly.

"Actually, it's nothing. It's just that a kid accidentally poked my lung eye." I replied lightly.

"...Did he say something that reminded you of that incident?" That's right, Yuqing also knew about that incident.At that time, I was far from the crowd.It was the precleaning that brought me into the crowd again. "Only this incident can make you react so strongly." Yu Qing said with certainty.

"... He said that I am very popular, so good that my friends would betray me." I said the words that made me tremble all over with a blank face.

"... If you want to hit him, tell me. I haven't exercised for a long time." He said easily.Hehe, this is pre-clearing, sometimes, he is really too kind to me.

"Aren't you going to stop me?" I asked knowingly.

"Why stop you? Aren't people living for themselves? Just be happy. Instead of trying to suppress the desire to beat him and make yourself uncomfortable, it's better to beat him. Anyway, his mouth is cheap and needs Teach me a good lesson." A Qing said blankly what even I thought was too much.His personality is completely out of line with his appearance, but unexpectedly attracted me.Maybe, because we are one kind of people.

It was almost 2 o'clock when we came out.I'm on my way home—it's the weekend, and I always go home.When I walked to the small garden in front of my building, someone blocked me.

I looked up, yes. . . . . .Song Yufei?

"What are you doing here?" I asked coldly.

"Hmph! I just came to see how kind you are." He said sarcastically.Under the light, his face was wonderfully bruised and swollen.

"What? You're in a bad mood after being hit by someone? Come here to vent your anger on me?" Is he this kind of person?

"Hmph! Don't pretend you don't know! I didn't even know you were such a worthless person!" He stared at me fiercely.

"What do you mean?" What was he saying?I didn't plant it?Why?

"Hmph! It's fine for you to find me unlucky, but I didn't expect you to find someone to beat me? Heh! I didn't expect you to be such a coward who dare not stand up for yourself and rely on others for everything!" He spat at me fiercely. a mouthful. "Hmph! You're the kind of person! No wonder your friends betray you! You deserve it! You can't do shit! I feel ashamed to be in the student union with you! How can a person like you be the president of the student council? Hmph Everyone in this school is blind! Fuck! I feel ashamed to talk to you! If it weren’t for seeing that you can’t bear to be beaten today, I’d fucking beat you a long time ago! Bah!” After finishing speaking, he didn’t even look back up.

I stayed where I was, trembling all over.

OK, bastard!You provoked me time and time again, and you wronged me to find someone to beat you!Hehe, you call me a coward?Very good, I'll show you the fucking coward once more!

Taking out my phone, I dialed the pre-cleared number.

"Ah Qing!" My voice was trembling, "I want to beat him! I will fucking kill him!"

"...Okay. Where, do you want me to call someone?" Yuqing asked me slowly.

"It's enough for you and me. I want to let him taste that life is worse than death!" I said fiercely.

"Okay. The time is up to you. I'll be there when you call."

"Okay." After I finished speaking, I hung up the phone.

I was shaking with rage.Song Yufei!I want you to know that I am not easy to mess with!

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In this episode, Xiaotian was suppressing himself and didn't want to make things big.But who knows that Xiaofei misunderstood Xiaotian later.He thought it was Xiaotian who found someone to beat him.Of course, it won't be my little boy.The specific who will be in the next episode or the next episode will be explained by Xingfeng.Xiaotian couldn't stand stimulation, so he finally decided to beat Xiaofei.So, how will Xiaofei fight back?Hehe, please look forward to the next episode.

Regarding pre-clearing, he is the kind of person who doesn't care.He looks gentle and handsome, but he turned out to be a gangster in high school.It's just a bastard who studies well.hehe.I will write about him and his husband when I have a chance.hehe.Have the opportunity.Um.But is there really?Hmm~~~~~~

As for Xiaofei, because he is the No.1 name, so Moufeng can't describe his psychology. In fact, he is not as jerk as he looks.I'll write a side story about him.hehe.

☆, (extra story - the ghosts of the past)

When the Escargot Has Wings Extra Story - Ghosts of the Past

I think everyone can't understand, right?So, this time I will explain Xiaotian's past.Um.Not a good story.However, it should help you understand Xiaotian.

I hid in the room, I didn't want to hear the sound from outside.Although to be honest, they don't make that much noise.Only, it was "discussing" about my situation.That man, my dad, said he didn't want me.Hehe, how ridiculous, why did you give birth to me if you don’t want me?Don't want me, why not just get rid of me while you can make up for this "mistake"?Just yesterday, you said that you love me the most and that I am your most precious treasure, but today, you actually said so firmly that you don't want me, and said what you said would affect his career.hum!cause. When I was 10 years old, I hid in a dark room.Hiding in the quilt, I tried my best to avoid the voice that made me sad.

After the divorce, my mother took me with her.Actually quite happy.She spoils me with everything.It's just that sometimes they beat me indiscriminately.But it's nothing, she's in a bad mood.After all, during the divorce, she kept insisting that she wanted me.It's just that the man gave me to her without any struggle.When I'm at home, I mostly hide in my own room and do my own things.Listening to the sobbing sound from next door from time to time, I was indifferent.what can I do?Besides increasing Mom's rage.For my face that resembles that man.

At school, I am not popular.Everyone avoids me and despises me.Is it because I am the teacher's child?My memory of that time is not very clear.It should be intentional, deliberately not to remember the time that made me sad.However, there are always some things that I want to forget and can't forget.That face-to-face thrashing. . . . . .

"Who do you think you are? Don't you rely on your mother to become the class monitor? Why do you let us do this and that?" Primary school students, hehe, these are the words of primary school students.By my mother?Well, you don't have to choose me.I remember that during the election, I was the highest voter in the class.Are you jealous that I'm the class president?How stingy.

I quit my job.Interesting?I, a fifth-year elementary school student, told the teacher in front of the whole class that I resigned.I just remember there was booing from below.Since then, I have been alone.However, this is also good, at least, no one will speak ill of me to my face anymore.Although, one feels nasty.

I'm in a slump.According to my mother, I was hysterical at the time.She is scared.The only son has become like this, and I am her future support.So, when I was very young, I was sent to the hospital.What I saw was the Children's Hospital. I am dealing with children's psychological problems.The doctor chatted with me for a while, and then told me to play well in the house, and then went out to talk to my mother.Of course, I couldn't be so obedient, so I quietly followed the doctor and hid behind the door to eavesdrop on their conversation.

"Your son is very fragile mentally. His mental quality is not good. It may be that the divorce between you and your husband has stimulated him too much. Now he has a sense of fear of people and cannot believe what others say. In addition, in school His interpersonal relationship is not very good, and he has closed himself up now." The doctor sighed, and then said: "He can't stand any stimulation now. A little thing may stimulate him to hysteria. I suggest that it is best to give He changed schools. It might be better for him to change his environment. It would be better to let him make some friends and help him trust people again."

So, after graduating from the fifth grade of elementary school, I transferred to another school.However, after I transferred to another school, I was still very lonely. Others have been together since the first grade of elementary school. How could I, the one who took the last bus, make friends in the last year?Today's primary school students are also selfish and exclusive.

junior high school.Thanks to my good grades, I entered the key city.New classmates, new life.Fortunately, I met Yangwen.It was my neighbor before I moved.It's like a childhood sweetheart.We played together until I moved in the first half of my fourth grade.But after I moved, there was no contact.After all, in that era when telephones were not popular, it was very inconvenient to get in touch.

It is a joy to have the junior high school accompanied by Yangwen.Yang Wen is the kind of person who is very cheerful, has many friends, and is very loyal.He introduced me to his friends and took me to join them.This young man who knew about me used his shoulders to support me who was on the verge of despair.Gave me new hope.Gave me the courage to start over.

Slowly, I made many friends.Maybe in junior high school, everyone has grown up, and their thinking has matured a lot.There is no longer the kind of child jealousy and vindictive thoughts.Because there is a girl in our class, and her mother is also a teacher in our school, but she has many friends.

In the second year of junior high school, I had a very good friend, not as good as Yang Wen, but in my heart, he was considered the second.But Yangwen didn't like him, and told me to be careful with him.why?Does he want something from me?I don't know, I don't want to doubt him.He is very famous in our whole grade.Not only is it good for studying, but also for sports.Sunshine boy.My little doubt was put aside like this.Until, that day, that happened.

That day, the weather was fine.I am also in a good mood.I also did well on the exam.After the final exam, I think I can definitely enter the top 10 in the class.Just as I was tidying up.I heard the girls next to me talking.

"Have you heard? Our exam has been exposed!" A girl said mysteriously to her friend.

"Ah? Really or not?" My friend asked in surprise.

"That's right! I heard that people in our class exposed it!"

"Ah? Who? Then how did he know the question?"

"I heard that it was only discovered today. Someone copied the test questions. Maybe they accidentally dropped them, and who knows, the teacher discovered them!"

"Ah? Who is so bold? To steal exam questions?"

"Who knows? Anyway, he is really capable!"

"No! . . . . . . "

I am no longer interested in listening to the latter.It doesn't matter to me anyway.Just when I was about to go home, the livid face of the head teacher appeared at the door.

"Luo Tian, ​​come with me." After finishing speaking, she walked out.

For some reason, I followed her into the office.Inside, my friend—Xin Like was already standing.

"Tell me! What's going on here?" The head teacher asked me with a livid face.No, it should be said to be yelling at me.

What's going on?What's wrong with me?I looked at the class teacher blankly.

"Don't play tricks on me! This is taken out of your schoolbag!" The head teacher waved the paper in his hand, and what was written on the paper was. . . . . .exam questions. . . . . .

"I don't know. I haven't done it!" I yelled innocently.

"Don't pretend to be confused! Xin Like found this out of your schoolbag! Tell me! When did you copy the test paper?" The head teacher slapped the table with his hand and asked me sharply.

"...!!!" I looked at Xin Like in shock. "Why? Why are you doing this to me?" I yelled out of control.I trust you so much, why?Why betray my trust?

Xin Like turned his head and didn't look at me, but he opened his mouth:

"It's you. You told me before the exam that you found the place where the teacher put the test papers, and asked me if I wanted to steal it with you. I refused, so you left. If it weren't for me today when you went to the toilet I saw something that looked like a test paper in your schoolbag, and took it out to have a look, I didn't know you really went to print it secretly."

Why?Why?When I regard you as a good friend, you want to betray my trust?The psychological shadow expanded.A dark thing gradually controlled me, and I gradually lost control of myself.The body trembled.I sink deeper and deeper into the darkness.

"Teacher! He lied! I have been reviewing with Luo Tian at my house for a month. If you don't believe me, you can ask my mother!" At this moment, an angry voice broke in.At the same time, a pair of arms hugged me tightly, bringing me warmth.However, there is not enough power to take me out of the darkness.I, still in the dark, at a loss.

Things are over.In the end, Xin Like admitted that he wronged me and was punished by the school.But what's the use?Everyone's punishment will not be recorded in the file until the university.My anger has no way to vent.I need to do something.I kept saying to myself in my heart.I must do something.

In the evening, I waited on his way home.Far from his house - I wouldn't be stupid enough to hit him near his house.

When I got to him, I rushed up and kept waving my fists like crazy, trying to hit him like he was going to die.I punched and punched, but my heart was blank.It's just mechanically doing the beating action.

"Enough! Enough! Don't fight anymore! If you continue to fight, you will die!" A person tried his best to stop me.Drag me away from him.

"Let me go! Let me go! I'm going to kill him! I'm going to kill him!" shouted madly, struggling.In the end, someone punched me in the stomach, and I passed out from the pain.

When I woke up, I was already lying on the hospital bed.My whole body is covered with injuries—Xin Li is not a soft-legged shrimp.It's just that he's not as crazy as I am.I stayed in the hospital for half a year, but not just for physical injuries.The physical wounds have healed long ago, but the psychological wounds cannot be healed.The doctor tried to open my heart and free my closed soul.But I know it's useless.I don't trust people anymore.Later, the doctor told my mother dejectedly that he could not untie my knot, and he suggested that I receive psychological counseling.My mother refused to let me live or die, and insisted that I go back to school.

That incident was suppressed by Yangwen's father.His dad was a man of great power.And the cause of this incident was Xin Like, so all the troubles were solved with money.Xin Like also transferred schools.

And I, except Yang Wen, never talked to anyone again.Again, I closed myself off.

My grades did not drop.Therefore, I still passed the city's key high school.This time, I didn't want to hurt myself again, so I decided not to make friends anymore.

However, there are some people who are so cheap, sticking their hot faces to other people's cold asses.This is my first impression of the preclear.Who knows that others hate socializing, but also intentionally attract others to hate them?However, under his long-term unremitting "effort" and Yang Wen's persuasion, I still decided to take another risk.Fortunately, this time, I succeeded.

He brought me into the crowd again.At the same time, teach me not to surrender my sincerity to others, as long as I maintain superficial friendship, it is enough.Following his method, I found that I can have normal conversations and jokes with others.It's very simple, just pretend to be happy, and pretend to be nice to him.Neither hurt nor hurt.hehe.In this day and age, who really makes friends with you?Friends, two or three are enough.Others, that is, you use me, I use you, nothing else.

Therefore, I am like a bird breaking through the bondage, releasing my youth.While being the top student in studies, I, Yuqing, and Yangwen also became well-known delinquents in our high school.During that period, I made my mother worry a lot.Although I didn't seem to be 10 years old like when I was admitted to the hospital, I still sighed all day long.However, because my grades have not dropped, my mother can only think that I am the opposite of everything.Anyway, she finally stopped worrying about me not being able to step into society.Although, only me, Yang Wen and Yu Qing knew that I was just putting on a show, deep down, I still didn't trust people and couldn't stand stimulation.Because, I often resort to force because of trivial things, and therefore, no one dares to provoke me at school.I'm like an overlord.Come to think of it, who wants to get into a fight with someone who looks like he's crazy?Madmen are not afraid of death.

In our last year of high school, to be precise, in the last three months, Yuqing met his current boyfriend, and I also confirmed my sexuality.

After the college entrance examination, we went out for a drink.Right at the pre-cleared bar.That time, we were drunk.When I got home, I looked at the white hair on my mother's head.I burst into tears.Mom, I really, have given you a lot of trouble.Looking at my mother's anxious but tired eyes, I decided that no matter what, I must not let my mother down again.I want to find a good job so that my mother can live in happiness for the rest of her life.

When I received the admission notice, I decided to give up the old way of life and start anew.Be a man who doesn't let his mother worry about him anymore.I decided to grow up.Bury the dark part of me deep in my heart, suppress it, never let it appear again.

Originally, college life was peaceful.I successfully became the president of the student council, and successfully established my image of being approachable and energetic.Although Yangwen made me feel lonely after having a girlfriend, I never thought about having a boyfriend or a girlfriend. After all, I still don't believe in love, even in people.Even if I will be lonely, I will endure it.

But, who knows, someone has uncovered the deepest scar in my heart.In an instant, the darkness in my heart seemed to break through the barrier and fly straight out.Gradually, it took control of my heart.I, like returning to that night in junior high school, the darkness kept rolling, increasing sharply, and oppressing me.I, can't control my want to vent, want, explode. . . . . .

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Xiaofei uncovered Tiantian's scars more than once, once saying that he was betrayed by a friend, and once saying that he relied on others to get ahead.After coming down twice, even if Tian Tian wanted to suppress the darkness, it was impossible.So, Tiantian decided to hit someone.He couldn't take it anymore.Tian Tian is actually very fragile, he has been suppressing his dark side.If there is no Xiao Fei, his whole life should go on like this, but, without Xiao Fei, who will take Tian Tian Fei with him?

Also, a certain wind looked at it, and suddenly felt that saying "betrayal" didn't seem very image.However, adults, let's just watch it together.Just think of those people as betraying Xiaotian's trust.hehe.A certain wind is running away~~~~~~~