Alternative Jianghu Adventures

Once the words of apology were spoken, it was like a stone thrown into a deep pool, making a splash on the surface of the water, and then there was no movement again.

Silence as death.

A piece of silver charcoal stacked in the charcoal stove in the house was about to burn to the end, leaving only a few traces of gray and black, and the scarlet inner core rolled down with a clatter, leaning against the edge of the stove and making a final crackling cry.

Helian Qiu did not respond for a long time.

After a long time, she walked slowly to the edge of the collapse and sat down—then their eyes were finally on the same level.He Lianqiu was about the same height as a four-wheeled vehicle, and when He Lianqiu sat like this, he finally saw Cheng Zhe as an equal with Cheng Zhe's guilt-ridden eyes.

The two regiments are still sleeping.He Lianqiu stretched out his index finger and pressed it against the palm of one of them, and Tuanzi reflexively grabbed He Lianqiu's finger.

She played with the dumpling like this for a long time before she said slowly: "It's twins, the one on the left is the elder sister, and the one on the right is the younger brother. The elder sister's body is a little weaker, but she can be as temperamental as you want, and she is very active, younger brother... "

"Aqiu."

Cheng Zhe interrupted He Lianqiu's words suddenly, without giving the other party any chance to escape or avoid the topic.

"Feel sorry."

The second time, Cheng Zhe said these two words.

In fact, there are many things I want to ask, but all the words are collapsed into these two words when they come to my mouth.

He tried his best to imagine what kind of decision Helianqiu had to lure him into having sex; he tried his best to imagine what kind of mood Helianqiu had to spend the long ten months of pregnancy; he tried his best to imagine what his lover was What kind of hope to give birth to these two children—however, after the end, what kind of despair is there to accept the blow of the only homeland that has been destroyed.

Cheng Zhe found powerlessly that it was not so much that he couldn't imagine it, but rather that he didn't even have the courage to think about it.

Everyone talks about empathy, but how can there be so many empathy?Everyone's experience is so different.

How can a simple sentence of empathy bring over the despair, helplessness, and heart-piercing pain experienced by one person?

Just as Helianqiu couldn't imagine his narrow escape at sea, he couldn't imagine the pain and torture Helianqiu suffered.

Cheng Zhe only felt his heart twitch, and the unspeakable bitterness made him almost suffocate.

It doesn't matter if you can't imagine it, he tried his best to get close.It's just that no matter how much you recall afterward, you can't change the fact that he is not by your side.

There is no doubt that when Helian Qiu needed her most, he was not by her side.

"Feel sorry……"

Cheng Zhe said these two words over and over again, and the tricky tongue he had practiced in front of Lan Sang and others seemed extremely clumsy at the moment, like a child learning to speak, stumbling over every word.

"Why are you apologizing?"

He Lianqiu finally spoke, but it was a rhetorical question.

She tilted her head, a few strands of hair fell to her ears, and her eyes were like autumn water - if she hadn't really seen the two dumplings on the soft couch, she would not be able to connect the person in front of her with a woman with a child.

Although, other women at her age have already married and had children, and the children can make soy sauce.

He Lianqiu smiled softly, "It's not your fault."

Her tone was very soft, "Look, it's me who didn't tell you, and I was the one who let you go out without any grievances. If I didn't know that I couldn't stop Pavilion Master Shen's mouth, you would never know it in my lifetime , why are you apologizing to me?"

"Instead it's me..." He Lianqiu lowered his head to avoid Cheng Zhe's gaze, his ears turned red and his eyes narrowed slightly, "Do you think I'm selfish?"

"Huh?" Cheng Zhe was puzzled.

"...Although they don't say it, I know that I am selfish to the extreme. At the beginning, I always wanted to leave something for my own selfish desires, so I got you drunk. I really really only think about myself... In this way, when I'm gone in the future, you will have some scruples, and you can't pester other people's girls anymore, right? "

He Lianqiu only felt that the heating in the room made his head dizzy, and unconsciously expressed his true thoughts.

"Only a few elders knew that I was pregnant. A few days before the birth, the elders insisted on staying by my side—I could have refused, but because of my selfishness, I acquiesced to their busy preparations. "I didn't expect such a thing to happen in the valley."

He Lianqiu's tone was light, "...For the past six months, I've always wondered whether this decision was good or bad. Although it was because of some people I survived, in fact, at this time, those who survived would probably complain why they didn't Can we go together?"

When it came to the end, Helian Qiu felt a great sense of relief.

Most people’s relief is based on telling the pain and feeling relaxed. They feel that after speaking out, someone can understand and share, so they feel that the guilt is relieved, so they are relieved, and they can regain the courage to face those painful things. memory.

But Helian Qiu is the opposite.

The long-term self-repression made her turn things against each other. On the one hand, as the owner of Baicao Valley, she had to take the lives of so many people on herself, on the other hand, she also had the responsibility for the continuation of her own life.

She couldn't make an expression of bitterness and hatred in front of the children, and it was also impossible for her to show the joy of life extension without any scruples in front of the survivors.

Numerous responsibilities, morality, and people's hearts gnawed at her heart like thousands of ants—she thought she could get used to it and be calm, but the appearance of Cheng Zhe was like the last straw that broke the camel's back, or It is to cut through the harshness that has been built up.

He Lianqiu's voice became lower and lower, and even in the end, she could hardly hear what she was saying.

Her fingers had unconsciously moved away from the soft bed, and they were entangled with each other a little helplessly, and the arc that was barely drawn sank completely.

"You didn't intend to live in the first place, did you?"

Cheng Zhe read the topic that He Lianqiu deliberately avoided, and asked persistently: "You don't believe that I can find Tianya Haijiao, and you don't believe that Tianya Haijiao really exists. You didn't want me to go at all—— wrong?"

"I don't want to be your constraint." He Lianqiu looked away and answered irrelevant questions.

"But you still left a way out for yourself," Cheng Zhe said aggressively, "You think I'll find someone else after you die, so you just use this method to tie up the rest of my life, making me die no matter what. There’s something you can’t let go of.”

"……Yes."

He Lianqiu nodded, and met Cheng Zhe's eyes without hesitation, a trace of sarcasm flashed in her eyes, and she said, "Look, I am such a duplicity person, for my own selfish desires, regardless of etiquette, regardless of consequences, obviously don't know what to do. Will die at any time, but always greedily want to imprison something.

Cheng Zhe, I am such a selfish and greedy person, why did you choose me? "

At this time, Cheng Zhe had already pushed the wheelchair slowly to the front of He Lianqiu, and suddenly burst out laughing when he heard He Lianqiu's last rhetorical question.

He put Helian Qiu's shoulder lightly, and pulled him into his arms under Helian Qiu's astonished eyes.

A strange but familiar smell immediately lingered on the tip of their noses.

He Lianqiu's whole head was pressed by Cheng Zhe in her arms, and then she heard Cheng Zhe asked her back:

"Then tell me, since I was a child, I have amassed money crazily for medical treatment, and the only thing I love in my life is those stinky copper coins. Xia Yun always scolds me for being stingy, greedy for money, and petty.

...Who told you that your family is rich, but why did I share it with you? "

The originally heavy atmosphere was relieved a lot when Cheng Zhe interrupted it like this. He Lianqiu couldn't help laughing softly in Cheng Zhe's arms.

"Is it funny?" Cheng Zhe wrapped his hands around Helian Qiu's waist, patted her on the back like coaxing a baby, his tone seemed a little bit aggrieved.

"Hmm." An indistinct answer came from his arms.

"Probably either stupid or blind." Cheng Zhe answered the question speciously.

"Yeah." He Lianqiu slowly grabbed Cheng Zhe's skirt, getting tighter and tighter.

"...Is it uncomfortable?" Cheng Zhe suddenly asked without warning, and seeing that He Lianqiu didn't respond, he continued: "Cry out when you feel uncomfortable, and now no one can see... because I hid you , this opportunity is once in a lifetime.”

He Lianqiu clenched the skirt of his clothes even tighter.

Then, Cheng Zhe felt that the fabric on his chest was slowly soaked with warm tears, like a beast that fell into the deep sea, and felt that his whole heart was soaked in the salt water, suffocating with bitterness.

There was a restrained and suppressed cry faintly in his ears.

After a long time, He Lianqiu slowly raised his head from Cheng Zhe's arms, his eyes and nose were still red, but there was no trace of tears on his face.

"...you stained my clothes." Cheng Zhe opened his mouth and complained.

"Who told you to put me on..."

Before the word "ha" was finished, He Lianqiu's lips were grabbed by Cheng Zhe who suddenly approached.

She stared straight ahead blankly with wide-open eyes, and what she saw was blurred.She is no stranger to Cheng Zhe's taste, but before that, she deliberately used medicine and wine to ensure that she could succeed in one go. The memory of that night is more about the smell of medicine and wine lingering on the tip of her nose.

But never had such a passive and pure feeling.

"Close your eyes." Panting heavily, Cheng Zhe patted the back of Helian Qiu's head lightly.

He slowly kissed the corners of her mouth, cheeks, eyebrows and eyes.

It didn't know how long it took before Helian Qiu heard the sound of his own heartbeat again.

The vivid sense of life spread from Cheng Zhe's question to Siku, He Lianqiu opened his eyes, and met Cheng Zhe's serious eyes unexpectedly.

"Aqiu, let's get married."

He Lianqiu's heart skipped a beat, and then she heard her unconscious answer:

"it is good."

The author has something to say: The progress of the deputy cp seems to be on a rocket

Obviously not cruel at all!There's even a touch of sweetness!

(good rhyme...)

... I took a glance at the word count of this article and it turned out to be 40??? I obviously only planned to finish it with a maximum of 30 at first... The feeling is that I can really water :)

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