memory hole

drink wine.The music is too loud to speak.In the second round, Deng Yi didn't leave, which made him somewhat strange.Although she has been drinking with them all the time, Deng Yi is like the only white plant in the dense forest.He is awake and not engaged.

Deng Yi interacted a lot with Dake and raised his glass frequently.Gradually, as the drunkenness grew stronger, Zhong Xian's senses became clearer, and Deng Yi was always paying attention to him.Even just focus on him alone.

Even under the changing light, those eyes would sparkle, looking over meaningfully.

Zhong Xian once thought that he really drank too much.

"Aren't you feeling well? Do you still want to drink?" Deng Yi whispered into his ear.The breath tickled his neck.He had to dodge a little.

He answered something that he didn't even hear himself.

Time went faster than he thought.Dake roared loudly in his ear, and the voice came clearly between the music. "……room card!"

Before Zhong Xian could respond, Dake touched Zhong Xian's trousers pocket, and with the other hand, he was holding a woman with long hair and short skirt. The woman couldn't tell her age. Effectively concealing the features of her skin, she couldn't even stand when she drank.After Dake found the hotel room card, he hugged the woman contentedly and squeezed towards the exit of the bar, shaking their buttocks to the sound of music while walking.

Deng Yi appeared in front of him and pulled Zhong Xian up from the sofa.The time on the watch has passed midnight, Zhong Xian took out another room card in his pocket and handed it to Deng Yi.

There was only one thought in his mind, how would Deng Yi react, would he say he wanted to go home.But Deng Yi didn't say it, so it's not considered puzzled.

All the way in a daze, staggering, talking and laughing, Zhong Xian hasn't felt this way for a long time.Not too bad actually.His head didn't hurt as much either.

After entering the hotel room, he ordered another bottle of wine, and Deng Yi and Deng Yi fell on the bed, exchanged glasses and continued to drink.The music is gone, and the world is quiet.Only the strange and inexplicable feeling inside is left.

"You...you drink well."

"I can't compare with you."

"Humility equals pride at this time...why are you so quiet?"

"Shouldn't it be quiet?"

"You should know that guy from Dake is next door." Zhong Xian glanced at Deng Yi with a smile.

Something imperceptible slipped across Deng Yi's face. "You booked two rooms in advance. If I'm not here tonight, you'll bring a woman back."

That's natural.I can take it if you are here, but I am not in the mood today.

Zhong Xian wanted to answer like this, and it seemed normal.But he suddenly wanted to tell the truth.

"I want to sleep well. I hope I can sleep."

"To sleep? Why don't you go home and sleep?"

Zhong Xian couldn't answer.

Deng Yi smiled slightly: "If this is the purpose, what role can I play here..."

"Chatting with you can hypnotize you."

"yes?"

They rarely look at each other.Talk one after another.The lights in the room were dimmed, and most of their faces were facing the windows and the TV.The TV was barely sounding, and a technology program was playing.

"Three years ago, what were you doing?" Deng Yi half-lyed down on the other side of the bed.A black tray was placed on the bed between them near the end of the bed, on which stood a whole black wine bottle.

"Three years ago?" Zhong Xian shook the wine glass.

"You have been in this industry for three years. Before that, what were you doing?"

Zhong Xian took a sip of the wine, and simply lay down on the bed with the glass in hand. "Forgot. Maybe prostitution."

Deng Yi didn't hear a sound for a long time.Zhong Xian turned his head, the guy was looking at him seriously.As if staring at it like this can see through his past.

Zhong Xianqian got up and drank the wine in the glass in one gulp. "Are you serious? Have you never had a sense of humor?"

Deng Yi smiled. "For some reason, I think what you said is true."

"KO!" Zhong Xian sat up straight.

"You have this capital."

"You have it too, young and strong, why don't you sell it."

"Three years ago, you worked in an industrial company with automobile and fire-fighting products as its main products, and the boss was a rich woman in her late [-]s."

Zhong Xian felt a spasm in his stomach. "You investigate me..."

"Don't worry too much. Because of the case, I have checked the details of all your colleagues. I just said it out of the way when I talked here today. I didn't specifically investigate you. I happened to be investigating the boss you had three years ago. I heard from time to time that she took care of subordinates born in the 90s..."

Zhong Xian laughed.

"It's impossible for you not to have heard of it." Deng Yi stared at him.

"I never cared about other people's private life." Zhong Xian also stared back at him with a pair of half-drunk eyes.Not dodge.

"is that you."

"Ah Sir," Zhong Xian suddenly became annoyed.He laughed and said, "Are you interrogating me?!"

"Do you have a sense of humor?" Deng Yi imitated Zhong Xian's tone and said.

"Just ask what you want." Zhong Xian stared at the person in front of him and said, "Why do you have to pop out a little every time like squeezing toothpaste. If you have any doubts, just ask."

"I don't doubt anything. It's unexpected that you are so excited." Deng Yi showed embarrassment.

"Even if I have something to do with the rich woman, it has nothing to do with Xiaozhu's disappearance!"

The two were silent for a moment.

Zhong Xian turned his head and looked at Deng Yi: "Are you really here for Xiao Zhu? Are you really here for his disappearance?"

"Otherwise?" Deng Yi said softly.

"Do you think it's me? The one sleeping with the old woman."

"I don't want to think that way. With a woman who is nearly 50 years old...Of course...It doesn't rule out that you may be true love."

"I haven't touched a woman for a while..."

"go on."

"Maybe... don't like women anymore."

Deng Yi was silent for a moment and said, "But you have indeed dated a lot."

"Can't I fucking have enough? Now I don't want to. Okay?"

"You don't like women?"

"In this way... I am innocent."

Deng Yi shook his head lightly and smiled.

Zhong Xian put the wine glass on the bedside table next to him.Avoid eye contact with Deng Yi.

"I won't ruin your interest tonight." Deng Yi stood up and put the tray on the bed onto the TV cabinet.Then he looked at Zhong Xian who hung his head silently, "Should we continue to chat? Or do something."

thorn

34

If a person is crazy,

Everything seems to be easier.

No more careful thinking, no need to tire your mind like a dog.

But there is a price to be paid for crazy talk.

Zhong Xian has already entered a half-drunk state, when he could have been ecstatic.Deng Yi's actions made him feel like a stone was blocked.

He admitted that he likes to chat with Deng Yi, listening to him muttering.But he didn't like hearing him talk about the case.Or just don't like hearing what part of himself he might suspect.

He may even like to hear him deeply analyze himself, say that there is a problem with his personality or psychology, whichever is fine.

Deng Yi is different from the people and things in his world.It seemed that the surroundings were muddy swamps, but Deng Yi was a clean rock beside him, he could climb up to enjoy the clear night sky for a while.

That's how he feels.

Even though they haven't known each other for long.Some feelings can arise from the very beginning.

It's an absolutely pure feeling.

Not as he had inadvertently channeled it.

Now it seems he's steered this in a different direction entirely.As a result, Deng Yi looked at him with very dangerous eyes, and that guy actually looked at him with very meaningful eyes.

Zhong Xian felt incapable of explaining, even though he didn't explain a single word.I feel disappointed in my heart.It seemed as if the swamp was swallowing up the only clean stone.No one is immune.

"...do something?"

Zhong Xian put the wine glass on the bedside table.I tried to stand up but found that I was more drunk than I thought.

He rubbed his forehead,

He tried to stand up again, leaning on the wall to go to the bathroom.He was afraid that Deng Yi would follow in, but luckily that guy didn't.

Bathing is not to start, but to calm down.The longer you use it, the more it will cool down your enthusiasm.Bell did that.When he came out after putting on his cotton bathrobe, Deng Yi had already disappeared.

I don't know when that guy left.He didn't even hear the door open and close.

Zhong Xian stood in the empty hotel room for a while, the alcohol in his body no longer made him feel ecstatic.The feeling of loss is worse than the disappointment just now.

He drank the rest of the wine in the bottle in one go.Enduring the possibility of throwing up, I climbed into bed, covered myself with the covers, and waited to get so drunk that I forced myself to sleep.

But now this bed is like any other bed in the world.

Same big, comfortable, beautiful bed in his apartment.

Beneath the soft mattress is a hard, restless loneliness.

Like a thorn piercing every corner of his body.

If you start your life all over again.Will he be so desperate and give up everything just to pursue his goal?

but,

There is no way to do it all over again.

His guitar has long been broken by him and thrown away like garbage.He no longer sings, much less writes songs.

He had written and sung the last song to the old woman.

Against his will, he felt that he had done the most correct thing.

He traded his first car, a BMW X5, with that song and his virginity.

When he could buy another car with his own money, he dumped the one-year-old luxury car into the used car market like garbage.

"Damn it!" He turned over and got up, grabbing the pillow with one hand, and punching his chest with the other hand into a fist.The blanket over his head made him breathless.