memory hole

Then pass the cup to Bellstring.After Zhong Xian took a big sip, he glanced at Deng Yi, it was a look of horror and helplessness.He didn't want to spoil the evening.He obviously still felt the warmth and the joy of getting closer just now.But now he couldn't go back a few minutes ago, his heart seemed to have fallen into a glacier.The silhouette of Deng Yi sitting opposite is like a cold white sun far away above the glacier.

Why.Zhong Xian said in his heart.You still want me to confess.You still have to get to the bottom of it.

"Did I say something I shouldn't have said?" Deng Yi looked at Zhong Xian.

"I don't remember this song." Zhong Xian said. "Even if there was, I have forgotten why I wrote it at that time."

"Forget it. I just think it sounds good. You eat too little. At least drink the soup."

Bell nodded.He couldn't help but recall that when he was in the hospital, he agreed to Deng Yi's request and sent him the URL of his songs.At the same time, he also gave the other party unreservedly a few songs that he had collected on his mobile phone.

But he was sure that the song Deng Yi mentioned just now should have been deleted a long time ago.It was a song he didn't want to keep.

Maybe he remembered wrongly, maybe he missed it.This song still exists, in his URL?or elsewhere?Anyway, Deng Yi heard it.

He had forgotten what was hidden behind that song.But still remember that feeling.

"Do you think it's... how should I put it, it's a bit nonsensical for me to open a detective agency, especially if it's still online."

"Uh." Zhong Xian came back to his senses and tried his best to get himself back into shape. "There is one thing. After all, it must be in China. Detective agencies and the like are not officially allowed occupations."

"It has been allowed." Deng Yi said. "It's just that it has not been taken seriously. In fact, it has not even received the lowest attention. And no industry regulations have been revised."

"Then can you make any money through it? How much do you usually charge for cases like missing persons?" Zhong Xian instead took the initiative to bring up the topic related to Xiao Zhu's case.

Deng Yi smiled awkwardly. "When it comes to making money from it, I really have no face to talk about."

"It's fine if you don't want to say it." Zhong Xian didn't force it. "You don't open this detective agency to make money. Maybe you have to pay for it."

Deng Yi nodded. "In a few years, when I am no longer so young and energetic. Maybe I won't want to do these things."

"If this is your point of interest, just keep doing it. There is no need to be swayed by the eyes of the world, and you are not a person who can be influenced."

Deng Yi nodded: "You are right. It is very clear that you persuaded me. You should not give up."

Knowing that Deng Yi was referring to the guitar again, Zhong Xian smiled back.

"I'll bring you the guitar next time." Deng Yi said.

Bell Strings was noncommittal.He has mixed feelings. "That guitar isn't cheap. You..."

"Can I stop withdrawing money?" Deng Yi said. "You measure everything in terms of money. How about relaxing tonight? Let's change the weight and measure. From now on, we'll talk about everything, only in terms of interest or liking, shall we?"

Zhong Xian smiled with a slightly embarrassed expression.

Deng Yi emphasized again: "For example, do you like this restaurant? Do you like the food on your plate? Do you like the person in front of you? Only use the degree of your liking to rate. If measured by money, I always feel that I It's of no value to you."

"Got it." Zhong Xian smiled again.

They didn't continue any conversation after that, because Zhong Xian put down the fork and proposed to go back.He chose to end the meal.There is an inexplicable sense of despair in my heart.He felt he was once again expecting too much.But the problem is not entirely on Deng Yi.But he did not expect that he had so little courage.He didn't have the courage to confess himself at all, and even wanted to avoid related topics.And the other party is clearly guiding them skillfully.

Deng Yi has been trying to see his true face.He has been actively telling Zhong Xian about his past, exposing his true self.

Zhong Xian originally planned to try to tell about the unbearable things he had done.

Even if he only picks out one thing and tells Deng Yi, it can be regarded as an act of sincerity—he is also trying to take off his mask.

However, Deng Yi made a fatal move.He brought up the song.It was something that even Zhong Xian thought did not exist.He has tricked himself into forgetting and thinking things that don't exist.Deng Yi showed his talent as a detective again, he directly found Zhong Xian's past pain points.That was the turning point of Zhong Xian's life and personality fission.

It was never recalled in Zhongxian's memory.

He hastily finished dinner, and he wanted to go home.Alone, to sort out his head.Lick his wounds.Find a way to stop the pus and blood flowing from my heart.

The moment he saw Deng Yi in the parking lot tonight, he thought it was a lucky moment.The guy was sincerely waiting for him to show up.Even if he didn't come as promised.He had thought that they would have a start.He imagined even more.

However, at this time.He just wanted to escape alone.

When they walked out of the restaurant, Deng Yi already felt that something was wrong, and she was sure that something must have happened.

"Did I say something wrong?" He confirmed to Zhong Xian again.

"No." Zhong Xian replied perfunctorily. "I'm not feeling well, so...want to go home and sleep."

"That……"

"I will go for a review tomorrow. There is no need to remind me again." Zhong Xian quickened his pace.

"Xian." Deng Yi suddenly grabbed Zhong Xian's hand.Zhong Xian froze for a while, then turned to face Deng Yi. "What happened." Deng Yi confirmed to him.

"You are not..." Zhong Xian said with a little excitement, "You are not...or, you are not just to get to know me again, what starts with sincerity, you...you investigate me? Why?"

Deng Yi looked at Zhong Xian suspiciously.

"That's right. I made a mistake. I covered up that mistake with countless lies. I threw myself completely into lies and falsehoods. That's right. I'm a sinner. What is Xiao Zhu's disappearance? And the one I had Wrong comparisons are nothing. You know that. You don't know me now, do you? You come from my past?"

"What are you talking about?" Deng Yi looked confused.

Zhong Xian almost tripped over the steps in front of the door, Deng Yi hurried forward to help him.

"I'm a murderer. You're waiting for me to admit it." Zhong Xian said.He let go of Deng Yi's hand.Turn around and leave.His heart was twitching.He thought that he might have waited for hope, but now he realized that it was really his illusion.

He didn't know how he got home.With scattered steps, he walked back along the street in front of him.Of course, this restaurant is not far from his apartment.

He is in the cool street at midnight.Dragging his broken body.

He knew that he was wrong about many things, thought wrong, and did wrong.But if he was asked to do it all over again, he still didn't know what was right.

He forgot, he tried desperately to forget the difficult problem.Kill it in memory.

But Deng Yi actually knew.

He suddenly found that all his previous expectations were ridiculous.He hoped that Deng Yi would bring new life to his spirit.But he found that this hope was also based on his falsehood.

The way Deng Yi wanted was to expose everything about him.

It was beyond his bounds.

Rao really had a good hope waiting for him on the other side, but he didn't believe it.How could a person who could see his past still have a good impression of him.

Deng Yi finally came here because of the nature of a detective, approaching in order to spy on other people's souls, like a tiger approaching its prey.Zhong Xian finally found the answer.

When entering the elevator.Turning around, I found Deng Yi following in.Zhong Xian was taken aback.His back hit the mirror of the elevator.

"I don't know what?" Deng Yi looked puzzled. "What did I say? Why did you say you killed someone?"

Zhong Xian rubbed his eyes with one hand, in fact, he was avoiding looking at Deng Yi. "I drank too much. I drank foreign wine with a client before. Maybe the alcohol suddenly broke out. Did I just say that I killed someone? It was my drink, I just go back and take a rest."

"I'll take you up."

"Do not."

"You just wanted me to accompany you."

Zhong Xian remained silent, he did ask Deng Yi to help him.Only that was two hours ago.His state of mind had changed dramatically.

The elevator quickly reached the top floor.Zhong Xian recalled the scene when Deng Yi came to his apartment for the first time, it was just like now, he had racked his brains desperately to drive him away.In the end it was futile.

This seemingly gentle person, in fact, always insists on what he wants to do.

"If I said something wrong, I apologize to you." Deng Yi said sincerely in front of Zhong Xian's apartment.Zhong Xian was silent for a moment and opened the door.Put this person who claimed to be a policeman at the beginning but is now a private detective into his own territory again.

If that song wasn't mentioned.The moonlight tonight may bring a lot of expected feelings and beauty.Now it's completely changed.

After removing a mask, it was found that there was still a mask behind it.This is how the clock strings feel at this moment.

Desperate, with no way back.

There is no savior.

"Forgive me." Deng Yi apologized again.Although he really looked like he didn't understand anything. "I don't know where I'm going wrong. Perhaps, you can tell me."

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Light reflected on the windows.

A charm made of long and short slender cubes of wood.Shake in the light.Form many gaps of light and shadow.

The body is as tired as duckweed, stuck in the sofa, as if floating between reality and thought.

I can still hear that