memory hole

The cold air refreshed his mind, and there was only a mixture of late summer warmth and strange smells in his nose.But in the north, it is already the beginning of winter.

As far as the eye can see, the wide CZ Street is on the lower right of him. From this height, the traffic coming and going and the flow of people passing through the zebra crossing are like swarms of ants, which is the peak of commuting.

Look up, there is no chaos in the sky in the sky.There is only one sun sinking in the west, alone but shining brightly, the sky is extremely wide and has no limit.

Looking down, in the afterglow of the evening, the height from the window of his apartment balcony to the ground, like an abyss extending under his feet...

When Zhong Xian continued to lean out, Deng Yi pulled him back from the window.He was unprepared to be pulled from behind by someone. The force was so strong and ruthless that the thin silk T-shirt on his body was almost torn apart.

After Zhong Xian stood firm, he turned around, and Deng Yi was looking at him with puzzled and frightened eyes, as if looking at a lunatic.

"Did you think I was going to jump off?"

"It seems so."

Zhong Xian turned around and walked back into the hall.

"A lot of things are not as scary as you think." Deng Yi said behind him. "Your childhood trauma has affected you, you may just be used to hiding it with lies, I..."

Zhong Xian stopped in front of the wine cabinet and laughed: "What about childhood, it's inexplicable."

Deng Yi said, "I...I want to help you."

"What can I do? It was just a headache, a common occurrence." Zhong Xian sat down on the chair in front of the bar, staring at Deng Yi, "Want to help me?" He laughed, and decided to tease this guy. "First know where my problem is. Don't just focus on the superficial things. If you really follow psychology, it must tell you that most psychological problems are related to sex."

Deng Yi was embarrassed.

"Do you agree with this view?"

"There are some."

"My problem also comes from this." Zhong Xian said maliciously, "I don't have a good feeling in that area. Every impulse has a feeling of wanting to die. Can you tell me why?"

"……real?"

"you can help me?"

"Tell me about your experience."

"Do you really want to hear it?"

"Do you dare to speak?"

"Tch, which time do you want to hear."

"How many times have you had it?"

"Bring a calculator here." Zhong Xian said with a smile.

"You know how to show off, so it's not hopeless. Let's talk about the first time." Deng Yi looked at him.

"First time? It's that old rich woman."

"What does it feel like."

Zhong Xian put on a look of serious memory.I thought and thought. "Forgot." He said regretfully.

Deng Yi stared at him, and said slowly: "... Before you sell to her, you can always find someone who is similar. It will not be difficult for you."

"How can I do that? What people want is a virgin. I must not break my promise." Zhong Xian laughed again.

"What did you get?"

"A BMW."

"I'm asking how you felt. How could you forget."

"I think we've strayed from the topic. If you want to help me, then help me find the reason why I want to die while seeking pleasure." Zhong Xian said.

"Although you choose to say it in a joking way, I also believe that what you say is true."

Zhong Xian said frivolously: "Can't you just try it?"

Deng Yi's eyes averted.

"You can't help me." Zhong Xian concluded. "This topic embarrasses you. How can you help me?"

They were silent for a long time, Zhong Xian looked into the distance, but he could only see the balcony: "I like poetry. Tell me a poem and listen to it."

[I must

experience again,

No hesitation

our way

For a living?Or to die?

No, there is no death, only life.

如果

We can go back to our place, to the land of the soul

I'd love to die one more time--

no hesitation]

Deng Yi looked at Zhong Xian.Maybe you think that something without rhythm is poetry?

"What do you like about this poem?"

"Honestly. I don't know."

"Let's drink some wine." Deng Yi suggested.Probably felt that this kind of conversation really didn't make any progress.

Zhong Xian looked at his watch. "It's time to feed your stomach again. Go to dinner. There's a nice hot pot restaurant downstairs."

75

Just sat down at the restaurant.Zhong Xian received a call from Dake.

"You didn't go back to the company? Everyone is still waiting for your meeting. Where did you go after the negotiation?"

"The meeting is cancelled. Tell me directly." Zhong Xian stared at the menu.

"The quotation has been revised according to the negotiation agreement. You should take a look at it."

"Take a picture on your phone and send it to me."

"Also. Euro Airlines just said that the first batch of goods will be inspected more strictly when they arrive at the construction site. He suggested that we buy big-brand goods and ship them in first. The purpose of the first batch is to prevent random inspections. From the second batch Start shipping our own cargo again."

Zhong Xian pondered for a moment: "Has he produced it yet?"

"Thirty tons is no problem. But he... I can't trust him. I still want to go there myself, what do you think?"

Zhong Xian didn't bother to pay attention to Dake's rejection of Eurohang.As long as there is an opportunity, the university will always be like this, and if there is no opportunity, it will create an opportunity.

"It's okay for you to check it out. Don't let what you think on your face."

"I know this."

Zhong Xian put down the phone and handed the menu to Deng Yi.Deng Yi ordered some vegetables.

"Eating grass? It's almost like a sheep." Zhong Xian mocked him.

“I have no feeling for hot pot.”

Zhong Xian rubbed his head and remembered that it was Dake who loves hot pot. "Then move the position and eat something else."

"Never mind. No idea about anything else."

The bottom of the pot was served quickly, and it was a gossip-like mandarin duck pot inside.Zhong Xian actually had no appetite, but with an enthusiastic look, he poured all the mutton brought by the waiter into the pots on both sides.

"How much do you charge for a case like Xiao Zhu's disappearance?" Zhong Xian asked abruptly.

Deng Yi froze for a moment. "Are you asking Xiao Zhu, or the fee?"

"Fee. I heard that most of the so-called private consulting and investigations are liars." Zhong Xian smirked, "It's rare to meet someone who is not a liar. I can introduce business to you in the future."

Deng Yi glanced at Zhong Xian: "The fee will be assessed according to the circumstances of the case."

"How much did you charge for Xiao Zhu's case?"

"I don't want to reveal."

"I don't disclose the fee? Then how can I introduce you? I want to find you myself?"

"You? Want to entrust me?"

"Yes. If I also entrust you to find someone. How much do you charge?"

"Who are you looking for?"

Bell String disturbed the bottom of the pot with a spoon. "You talk about the fee first."

"How long have you been missing?"

"Many years. More than five years."

"4."

"Quotation so soon? Guaranteed to find it?"

"No refund found."

Zhong Xian took a spoonful of the cooked mutton with a soup spoon and put it on Deng Yi's plate. "Did Xiao Zhu's parents also pay this price? If you can't find it, will you get a refund? Wouldn't that be a waste of work? Suppose Xiao Zhu died?"

"Just find out his whereabouts," Deng Yi said.

"Meaning, even if you don't find it, it's enough to know where he is. Or know what happened to him, for example, death or something."

"You think he's dead?"

"Assumptions only."

Zhong Xian suddenly remembered that they forgot to order wine again.Then thinking about eating hot pot, it seems that drinking any kind of wine is wrong, so I kept silent.

"Order a bottle of wine." Deng Yi said instead, waving to the waiter at the same time.After the waiter came and reported the names of all the wines in the store, Deng Yi looked at Zhong Xian hesitantly.

Zhong Xian shook his head and said with a smile: "Drink herbal tea. I want to go back to drink after dinner."

Deng Yi's cell phone rang at this moment.The bell was actually the sound of a reindeer, very eerie, reminiscent of the Ringwraiths in The Lord of the Rings. "If you listen to this kind of ringtone in the middle of the night, you won't be scared to death?" Zhong Xian said.

Deng Yi picked up the phone and answered a few words.His expression suddenly became serious.

"...Okay, let's go right away."

"What happened?" Zhong Xian asked curiously.Deng Yi's expression can really be described as horror, he really wants to know what happened.

Deng Yi looked in the direction of Zhong Xian, but his eyes wandered, showing that he didn't pay attention to anyone or anything in front of him.He was in a state of doubt and surprise.

"Yes. Go now."

"Where are you going, if you are in a hurry, can I take you?"

Deng Yi hesitated for a moment, then said to Zhong Xian: "Do you still remember Xiao Zhu's girlfriend?"

"I remember too much. I was almost wronged by her and ruined my innocence. She made the call just now?"

"It's her colleague. She secretly gave birth to a child in the staff dormitory today. It was premature. When it was discovered... both mother and child were in danger."

Zhong Xian was stunned.Suddenly want to understand something.He had only seen the girl twice in total.He never thought about the reason why the appearance changed so much twice.Especially the second time she gained a lot of weight.These changes seem to have found the answer at once.But at that time, the two young men didn't think about that direction at all.

This girl under 20 years old.Keep a terrible secret in your heart and stomach, waiting for your boyfriend to come back to fulfill his promise to marry her.She is so ignorant that she is too ignorant to ask for help.

Zhong Xian only felt a chill down his back.He stood up first. "Let's go. What are you waiting for?"

Relax

75

Zhong Xian didn't even know the girl's name yet.

Every time it is mentioned, it is replaced by "Xiao Zhu's girlfriend".He has never been interested in knowing the life experience of this rural girl.

He can still remember the appearance of the electronics factory where 'Little Zhu's Girlfriend' works.The factory is located in the outer suburbs, and it really cannot be a remote suburb.from Longgang