memory hole

What nonsense are you talking about? Who killed whom? Why are you pointing at me and what does it have to do with me?"

"Whether it matters or not, you know it in your heart." Dake raised the keel in his hand, and knocked on the marble bar next to the wine cabinet, the bar unexpectedly shattered, and stone chips fell on the ground.

"Stop!" Zhong Xian roared.

Dake knocked on the wall with the keel, and the wall fell off, revealing the splicing of inferior gypsum board and cement board inside.He continued to tap the ground, and the tiles made a hollow sound. "Because...because...because it's all fake, because you can do anything for money. Because he is the one who blackmailed you..."

Zhong Xian jumped up from the sofa, trying to escape in panic.He didn't want to face this horrific sight again.

Then he found himself pinned down on the couch. "Wake up, wake up." Dake was shaking him, and tried to pour the bottle of black drink into his mouth.Zhong Xian stared at it, and saw that the wine cabinet and the bar were intact, it was another hallucination just now.But he couldn't relieve himself from the panic, and he didn't know whether the Dake in front of him was still a hallucination.

"You, have you been on the sofa without moving?" He confirmed to Dake.

"Of course. You scared me to death. What are the side effects of this medicine? I thought it was sweating and a rash or something." Dake looked even more terrified than he was, "Screaming and jumping too It's scary, drink this up."

Zhong Xian took a big gulp of the bottle of black potion.He looked at Dake.Still an expression of incredulity.

Dake looked at him in bewilderment. "You just kept yelling to stop, what's going on?"

"I... saw you, smashed my house... smashed the bar, and the wall."

Dake turned his head and glanced in the direction of the bar. "I have hallucinations. No wonder. Don't take this medicine in the future. It will make you crazy if you take it."

"You are holding a keel, a steel keel." Zhong Xian felt it was difficult to breathe, only to realize that Dake's hand was pressing on his chest. "Don't, don't press me, I'm fine."

"Go on, did you see me holding a... keel?"

"Yes, and said it was the weapon that killed Xiao Zhu. Let go. I can't breathe because of you." Zhong Xian tried his best to get rid of Dake.Only to find that the latter jumped up and held him down again.

"What did you say?" Dake stared at him. "what are you talking about?"

"Don't hold me down. What are you going to do?"

"You said Xiao Zhu...you saw Xiao Zhu dead in a hallucination?"

"Let go of me. Are you crazy too? Are you trying to strangle me?"

"You speak clearly once and for all. You see..."

"I saw you standing over there. Holding the bloody keel, I said it was a tool to kill Xiao Zhu. Is this still an illusion? Why are you looking at me like this? Let it go, okay? You still say that Xiao Zhu is I killed..."

"Take another sip." Zhong Xian was given another mouthful of black liquid by Dake.The heaviness on Zhong Xian's body eased, and he no longer had difficulty breathing.The hallucination did not reappear for a while.He gradually realized that he was not strangled by Dake, but Dake was just holding him carefully.

"I seem to be crazy." Zhong Xian was frustrated. "I can't tell the difference between illusion and reality." He looked in the direction of the balcony, wanting to run there and end everything.He didn't want to really be a lunatic.

"This medicine is not good. Don't take it in the future." Dake was still in shock. "You actually said that you killed Xiao Zhu. It's too scary. What can the police do if they hear this?"

Zhong Xian closed his eyes wearily.

"In the drawer of the wine cabinet, there are sleeping pills. Give me some. I want to have a good sleep. You can go back."

"I have to stay with you. Can I go like this?"

"Go quickly." Zhong Xian was very sad. "Leave me alone. For a person like me, death is not a bad thing."

"Why do you say that?"

"I've lived alone since childhood. Constantly hurt. I want others to feel that hurt too. I've been a total disservice to others and to society. Life hurts me, I hurt people, and spreads the hurt as much as I can. I'll always If I can’t get what I want, I deserve it, but am I really unworthy? Even if it’s only given one chance... What’s the point of such a life.”

"The depression you feel now is the side effect of the medicine. Your depression is committed."

"Even if it's depression. That's how I really feel."

"It's not that no one cares about you. You can't feel it." Dake held his hand. "I've been waiting for you to ask me. Ask me why I have so many pinhole cameras in your room. You never ask. Why don't you."

"You finally said it. Well, well...I'm actually afraid to hear the truth. I don't want to lose you as a partner."

"There is no truth that you need to be afraid of. I installed the camera out of concern. I don't worry about your mental state. I'm just worried about you. Who knew that guy Deng Yi misled you and made you not trust me. He divided us, it was his trick, he wanted to kill us."

There was chaos in Zhong Xian's head.He looked at Dake and didn't know how to answer: "What you said is true? Are you just because you care? You can see me every day, and you still monitor me? Do you want to grow on me?"

"It's because I care too much. I'm with you." Dake said sincerely. "In this crowded and cold city, who really cares about your life or death. Only me. And me, I am the same. I finally found someone I can rely on and trust, and that is you. Whether you are a friend Or what. In order to keep you, I can do anything. If you were not bewitched by Deng Yi, I would not be so worried and make you suspect that I have ulterior motives. If you just changed your taste and started to like looking for excitement. I I don't mind sacrificing something, just to make you happy."

"Get out." Zhong Xian pushed Dake away. "Go home and go to bed. I'm going to get a good night's sleep, too."

"I'm definitely not leaving tonight."

"You can't speak well, do you have to speak like a confession? Is it disgusting?"

"Maybe my way is wrong. Then tell me how Deng Yi makes you feel at ease. I will learn from him."

"Enough. Get out."

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When he woke up the next morning, Zhong Xian was extremely annoyed.Especially seeing Dak in his room.

This kind of anger gradually shifted to Deng Yi.He was angry with Deng Yi.

On that day, he worked normally in the company.Sitting in the office and not going anywhere.I can't lift my spirits.

In the evening, at the request of Mr. Hong, Zhong Xian rushed to the seafood restaurant to accompany Mr. Hong with the customers.After arriving at the restaurant, he found Mr. Gao's Mercedes-Benz parked in front of the restaurant, and he was a little surprised.Sure enough, one of the big clients Mr. Hong entertained tonight was Mr. Gao.

Since he signed a big contract for the last project, he hasn't seen Mr. Gao very much.Because Mr. Gao went abroad to take charge of a new project.This time when he met Mr. Gao suddenly, he knew that he had to act like a newlywed after a long absence.

Zhong Xian took a few antidepressants in the car, adjusted his state to extreme excitement, and then got out of the car and walked into the restaurant.During the meeting, he cooperated with Mr. Hong and made witty remarks, entertaining the customers very happily.

As he expected, after drinking for three rounds, Mr. Hong had pushed him and Mr. Gao into a corner to sit together intentionally or unintentionally.Mr. Gao squeezed his thigh under the table.These were as expected.And what he wants to show is both forbearance and longing.This kind of flirting ability, he had practiced in the torture a few years ago.

During the years of being taken care of by a rich woman, he has found a way to have intimate contact with any insensible things-that is, rich imagination.Use your imagination to find excitement and dilute the reality in front of you.

But now, every time Mr. Gao pinches him, the shadow of Deng Yi will appear in his mind.But he didn't want to imagine Mr. Gao really as Deng Yi.Just like he didn't want to think of Dake as Deng Yi last night.

He found it difficult to feign joy.

He began to hate Deng Yi again.

His teeth itch from hatred.

"Why are you so cold? You have a new lover." Mr. Gao said with a smile.The tone made Zhong Xian uneasy.

"I haven't exercised for a long time, I'm already rusty." Zhong Xian joked with a smile, raised his glass, looked lightly, and Mr. Gao began to pinch his thigh vigorously again.

"It's like this. At such a young age, one minute shouldn't be wasted."

Zhong Xian drank the spirits in the glass in one go, using alcohol to stimulate his excitement.

In the VIP parking lot after midnight, President Gao got up from him, turned on the interior lights, and wiped the sweat from his face.

Zhong Xian hid in the shadows and remained motionless. "Uh, I forgot to say just now that I have opened a room in the imperial court..."

Mr. Gao buttoned up his shirt and sighed: "Hey! I am the same if you are not enjoying yourself, but my wife is pregnant with a second child. I have to go home tonight."

"Uh...it's good to be old." Zhong Xian lowered his head in frustration.

"My wife is young. She is 16 years younger than me. However, you are going to attend a meeting in Hangzhou next month. You can go with me. I have asked Mr. Hong for instructions on your behalf. Mr. Hong promised to send you to the meeting for a week. It's time, Yihehe, I finally have the opportunity to teach you something new. This time, I feel that you have become more and more like a pure student, but I like it..."

"One week? I'll have to check the schedule. What meeting?"

"Real Estate Layout Policy Research Association. Several big landlords in SZ have gone."

"Which ones are there?"

"Excellence, Huangting, and HQC are all participating. I am going on behalf of the YT board of directors. I will introduce them to you. If you get one of their projects, you will become a star. What is the schedule for this opportunity? What schedule is more important ?”

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Zhong Xian invited Mr. Hong