memory hole

Xian's brain: "You're still a virgin, aren't you?...I admire your concentration and think your willpower is superior. But unless, there is another possibility, you have never tasted this taste at all. You really are like According to the rumors, is it a monster?"

Deng Yi vigorously knocked Zhong Xian down: "I will throw you out like this, believe it or not!"

Zhong Xian became more and more determined in his mind:

"When Mixiu died, you no longer kept dogs; when Meatball died, you no longer kept cats; and later..."

"Shut up. Do you think you can influence me?"

"You haven't even touched a woman before." Zhong Xian continued to speculate, "It's a pity that you are so perfect..."

the truth

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[do you know?

It's hard being your friend,

I don't want to disappoint you,

[…]

Zhong Xian looked up at the ceiling, he and Deng Yi were lying upright on the hotel bed like two zombies.

He heard Deng Yi humming the melody of this song softly.Like a wisp of light smoke lingering over the memory.

[do you know?

It's hard being your friend.

I don't want to disappoint you.

How should it end this time,

Is there anywhere else we can go?

Can we leave together?  …]

Zhong Xian felt bitter in his heart.

He didn't and couldn't continue to force the other party to face up to the obvious feelings between them.There is obviously a wall in that guy's heart, which cannot be overcome in a short while.

"Not Kaisen—" Zhong Xian looked at the ceiling and sighed, he moved his fingers slowly, touched Deng Yi's hand, and slowly moved it away.

"You are so cold. I officially inform you that I am exhausted."

"You've always been like this, you can't stand setbacks." Deng Yi responded indifferently from the other side of the bed.

Zhong Xian said angrily: "When I let go, we will break up. Are you going to do nothing?"

After a while, Deng Yi said, "Have you done a lot?"

"At least, I've been working hard!" Zhong Xian showed annoyed expression because of his inability to vent his desire.

After being quiet for a while, Deng Yi turned over to face Zhong Xian, and supported half of his body on his left elbow. "This is the so-called 'living for a long time'. Time is a magical thing. If you wait long enough, things will always reverse."

Zhong Xian glanced at Deng Yi: "What do you mean?"

Deng Yi smiled mockingly.

Zhong Xian was puzzled: "Stop playing charades. Regarding the past, I know that I am probably sorry for you. Can't you just tell it directly? Did we know each other before, did something happen? You know I have a problem with my brain, even if you force me, I can’t remember it!”

Deng Yi put one hand behind his head and lowered his eyelids: "If words can make you understand..."

"Could it be that it can't be expressed in words?" Zhong Xian was surprised, "Then what are you going to do, just keep driving me crazy?"

Deng Yi stretched out a hand and unceremoniously pulled Zhong Xian closer: "Make a bold attempt, but there may be unknown dangers, are you willing?... A method that is not a solution." He then took out the previous bag from his pocket. The necklace with the crescent moon pendant.

Zhong Xian has seen the effect of Deng Yi's hypnosis on him. "I can open up to you and you can put your thoughts into my head—you said that."

"My memory can't be forced on you. You have to remember that part of yourself." Deng Yi said. "There are three time points where you can choose where to start. The first time point: 16 years old; the second time point: freshman year of college; the third time point: a year ago."

"Why single choice? I want all of them." Zhong Xian said.

"That way I'm worried that you will be confused." Deng Yi wiped the diamonds on the crescent-shaped pendant of the necklace with his fingers. "Choose - let you follow your own wishes, the effect should be better."

Zhong Xian lay under Deng Yi's arms, looking up at the latter's face: "Didn't you say that you only know superficially about hypnosis."

"It depends on who you are compared with. What do you think I have learned in these years abroad?"

"Aren't you studying EMBA?"

Deng Yi exhaled softly: "That's just a supplementary item. I'm focusing on the study of pathological mental disorders."

"I really don't understand how you spend your energy in so many strange places." Zhong Xian stared at Deng Yi's hand, and the necklace began to swing slowly under that hand.

"Relax..." Deng Yi gently stroked Zhong Xian's hair, and then lightly rubbed his shoulders to make him gradually relax, "Ten years ago in the summer, you entered the first grade of high school, and the new school was in the southeast of the city. A newly built high-rise commercial building is connected to the campus..."

"I remember." Zhong Xian looked at the necklace, the shaking rhythm made him gradually dull, his consciousness seemed to want to break free from his body and fly away, his eyelids became heavy, "New school... I remember, some new village seedlings were planted around, the stadium The grass on the ground looks like a dog has gnawed on it. I am a boarding student, and I often go out to play at night. After the time is up, the school gate is locked, and I have to enter the campus from the second floor of the high-rise residence by climbing over the wall..."

"Yes." Deng Yi's voice seemed to be attached to Zhong Xian's ear, low and hoarse. "You always come back late. What you don't know is that there is a window facing the school on the fifth floor of the new building, and there is a small black astronomical telescope in the window... There is a person behind the telescope, who is at that time every day, Watching you climb over the school wall into the campus."

Zhong Xian nodded in a daze, vaguely seeing his 16-year-old self galloping across the campus like a bird.

"With an afro on your head, you jumped over the wall, like a Samoyed dog that has transformed into a human..." Deng Yi's voice gradually blurred.

Zhong Xian closed his eyes, some distorted and discolored pictures gradually pieced together in front of his eyes - he saw himself carrying a guitar, got on the elevator, the elevator stopped on the fifth floor, and he knocked on the room number 508.

A tall man came and opened the door.

"I'm a tutor." He heard his voice clear and crisp, and he even saw a cute smile on his childish face.He was taken to the inner room by the adult, and a slender boy sat on the ground with his back to him, facing a picture of a dog on the wall.

The person who sent him into the room then backed out, and the door of the room closed behind Zhong Xian.

"I'm here to teach you how to play the guitar." Zhong Xian said happily.

The boy didn't respond.

Zhong Xian put down the guitar, looked around, and chose to sit on a soft stool. "Your family is rich." Waited for 5 minutes.Seeing that the boy didn't respond, Zhong Xian stood up from the stool and looked around. There was no one else in the room, so he boldly approached the boy for a look, then grabbed the boy's ear and made him turn to look at him.

"You're not dumb, are you? How to teach a dumb person? Isn't that embarrassing me?"

The boy's hair was long and covered his eyes.Zhong Xian pulled out his hair, revealing beautiful eyes, staring at him like shining stars.

Zhong Xian was stunned for a moment: "It's not dumb. Could it be that it's not polite? Say hello to the teacher when you see it. Has no one taught you?"

The boy stared at him and said, "You are not as old as me..."

Zhong Xian continued to teach him: "Stupid, what's your name? If you don't speak, is it... what, no name? No name teacher, let me give you one. I just watched a movie, there is a line in it, Anton Is the silliest person in the world. It suits you. This is your name, how about it? You can call me Mr. Nicky. There is also a line in the movie - Nicky is the most handsome man in the world. Now follow me Say, teacher Nicky is the most handsome, and Anton is the stupidest. Say it again."

"That's not your name."

"Do you understand this is called a stage name? You are very bad. If you don't learn guitar with me, I won't get any money. If your parents don't give me money, I'll make a trip for nothing. I'd better beat you up." Zhong String waved his fist. "Do you want to learn?"

The boy watched Zhong Xian stand up slowly, actually half a head taller than Zhong Xian, Zhong Xian took a step back: "Wow, spare me."

The boy sat down again, this time not facing the wall, but staring intently at the bell.

Zhong Xian obediently sat back on the soft stool: "Even if I sit here for two hours, you still have to pay."

"Just sit down..."

"You really are an idiot." Zhong Xian laughed.

"You sing a song."

"You think I'm here to sing? Unless you add money."

"...will you do anything as long as I give you money?"

Zhong Xian crossed his hands indifferently: "Although it seems bad, but I am. It depends on how much you are willing to give."

"How much do you want." The boy took out a wad of money from his pocket.Zhong Xian's eyes gradually widened, he had never seen so much cash at once.

His expression became very obedient.

"How much... what do you want me to do?"

……

Zhong Xian woke up.He stared blankly at Deng Yi in front of him.The latter was also looking at him.

Under Zhong Xian's puzzled gaze, Deng Yi shook his head lightly: "I can't see your memory, so don't expect me to give you the answer. Next, let's try the second time point - the first year of college... ..."

"Ten years ago... what did you ask me to do?" Zhong Xian was unwilling to interrupt the first memory here.

Deng Yi shook his head again: "You have to find your memory... It seems that the progress is good, and you will slowly remember."

……

Zhong Xian was hypnotized again.This time it was relatively smooth, and he quickly recalled the playground in his first year of college.

The sunlight on the day of the entrance ceremony was too strong, Zhong Xian was sweating on the top of his head, and suddenly felt dizzy and fell down.There were screams all around.Someone picked him up.

He woke up in a hospital bed.I saw a boy with a sad, pale face.

"You saved me? Which department are you from and what's your name?...Thank you."

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