[1bitHeart] The closed world of you and me

"Huh? So... sleep together?"

For a moment, Men thought he was hallucinating, blinked his eyes, and confirmed that Naixi was indeed standing in front of him with a big fluffy and soft white pillow in his arms, and then asked with a smile, hoping that Naixi would tell him That statement was a joke.

"Well, yes! Although the weather is getting hotter, it's not so hot that the two of you will be too hot to sleep together, so let's sleep together, and we can chat before going to bed."

But helplessly, Nanessi's attitude was unexpectedly resolute, and he didn't flinch or hesitate because of the door's obvious rejection attitude. Even in the short few seconds when the door was stunned by the astonishment, he had already climbed onto his bed with a pillow, He skillfully put the pillow next to the pillow by the door, and at the same time said it with a normal face, as if the two of them used to sleep on the same bed as naturally as before.

"Why do you suddenly want to sleep together?"

Although somewhat reluctant, if Nanessi persisted, the door would not feel repulsed to the point of kicking him out of bed, just looking at Nanessi's posture that he must sleep here tonight, the door is more troublesome , I feel a little more puzzled.

Men didn't forget that Nanessi was himself, so he was particularly surprised that he suddenly asked to sleep with him.

When he was young, he was in the countryside, and there was not much else but a lot of land, so the size of the house per household was much larger than the place where people with similar families lived in the city.Although their family is not a big family with a particularly large house, their population is also small, and it is no problem for each person to have a room of their own.

Because his parents slept together, he felt lonely when he was a child. After bumping into his parents a few times, he didn’t know what they were doing at night and had no time to pay attention to him. , not to mention after growing up knowing what parents are busy in the room at night.

And he is an only child, so there will be no brothers and sisters who feel lonely or scared at night to come and sleep together, so as long as he can remember, he is used to sleeping alone in the room, and he has never cultivated who to sleep with at night used to sleep.

"Well, I just thought of it suddenly. It just so happens that the weather is a bit cold tonight, and sometimes it's easier to talk in the dark without being able to see the other person's face. Maybe it's more suitable for small talk. Okay, let's go to bed soon. , Brother Men, you are about to rest too, right?"

Nanessi said in a relaxed tone, got into the quilt, and the gatekeeper still stood still, waving and calling.

So it's for chat?

The door who got the answer was in a delicate mood, but in the eyes of Nanessi who was looking straight at him on his bed with unprecedented firmness, although he hesitated a little, he still turned off the light and lay down according to the original plan. When I got to the bed, it was just that there was an asshole who was not in the schedule beside me for no reason.

... As expected, if you are not used to it, you are not used to it, it feels very strange.

Probably in the dark, although he couldn't see it, his senses in other aspects were magnified instead. He felt very uncomfortable with the presence of a sudden mass around him exuding a warm temperature.

On one side of the face, there will be a feeling of touching something furry on the chin, and at the same time, a faint fruity fragrance that I don’t know what it is, but it is very sweet, will float into the nose—that’s the shampoo I bought , it's not that he particularly likes fruity aromas, he bought that shampoo purely because of the cute design of the bottle, and only after he bought it did he find that it smells as sweet as candy.

Men himself also uses the same series of shampoos with similar aromas, but he doesn’t feel much when he uses them himself. But now he smells the smell from the hair of Naixi, who has just washed his hair, and he realizes the smell of this one. It's so sweet—at least it's not like the smell of shampoo that boys would use.

When buying shampoo or body wash afterward, maybe you should be careful about the choice of smell. Next time, choose some shampoo that doesn’t smell so girly, otherwise it will smell weird...

Thinking wildly, trying not to let myself care too much about the extra person around me.

It's not that he's hypocritical, it's just that he's not used to it.Except when sleeping alone at home, it’s the same outside. He doesn’t have anyone who is close enough to sleep with and doesn’t mind. Even those classmates who used to share the same room with him during the graduation trip would rather run away. Go to another room to share a room with a friend you know, and you don't want to share a room with him on a big bed.

Although it can also be said that it was a blessing in disguise, he was able to occupy a room that was originally reserved for six people by himself—at least he deliberately showed off to his parents with sad eyes after knowing this. 'Special treatment'──but it doesn't mean that he forgot that he was alone in an empty and unfamiliar room at that time. He was also trembling with fright because he thought of some messy ghost stories, and deliberately found various things to divert Concentrate on yourself, and fall asleep because of fatigue until very late.

Well, when I was young, maybe I was a very emotional guy, and I would believe a lot of strange things... Now, even if I go to a completely unfamiliar place and go to bed alone, I won’t be thinking wildly like I used to, and then I’m afraid to sleep No more.

Unknowingly, I remembered the not-so-pleasant past, but thanks to this, the door calmed down a little bit, just looking at Nanessi, whose normal behavior is quite different from his own, and remembered that the past self had indeed had With such a gesture, he was suddenly a little confused.

Speaking of which, when did I become the person I am now?Or has the nature been like this from the very beginning──it’s just that time has slowly peeled off the original naive and ignorant shell, and now only the ugly core hidden in the innermost remains?

"Brother Men, do you have a girlfriend?"

I don't know what the door is thinking, Nainaxi is probably getting used to the feeling of suddenly having someone beside her, and she asked suddenly after lying down for a while.

This sudden question successfully interrupted Men Piaoyuan's thoughts, he almost choked on his own saliva, coughed a few times, the inexplicable and rare trace of melancholy was instantly blown away, and after he recovered, he turned to Nanessi asked:

"Cough, cough...why do you ask so suddenly?"

"No, I just thought Brother Men is an adult anyway, so he must already have a girlfriend, but why does he feel like he's not used to having people around him when he's sleeping, so I'll ask."

Nanessi answered with an innocent voice, as if she didn't feel that her question was too abrupt.Not to mention a girlfriend, not even a friend, even he would find this question quite harsh. After taking a deep breath, he replied in a gentle and calm voice:

"It's because there is no such thing as a girlfriend. Not every adult must have a girlfriend, do you understand?"

The tone of the door was very gentle, but Nanessi seemed to feel that the emotion in the words was contrary to the voice, coughed twice pretendingly, and quickly changed the subject:

"By the way, are Brother Men and Ms. Le familiar? I have greeted people from nearby stores before, but it seems that only Ms. Le knows you."

"Miss Le? No, it's just a few words, but compared with other people on the street, it's really more familiar, right? But it's just better than not knowing the name."

There is nothing bad to say about these, at least it is easier to answer than asking about his girlfriend, Men replied frankly.And grasping the key point in the conversation, Naixi asked with a little doubt:

"Huh? Brother Men, do you mean that you don't know anyone else in the vicinity except Miss Le?"

"There are still a few people in the [-] tower who know their names and have spoken to them, but because they are very busy at work, and online shopping or supermarkets are very convenient now, so not many people on the street know each other. If it weren't for buying medicine before If you go to the Inari Pharmacy, you probably won’t have the chance to meet and chat with Ms. Le.”

Although I was a little surprised that Naixi actually ran to greet people on the street, but I somehow remembered that I still longed for friends when I was a child, but I slowly gave up after that, so I didn't think much about it, I closed my eyes and didn't continue Looking at the ceiling, while answering, he was more or less used to the feeling of Nanessi lying beside him, trying to start to sleep.

"Then brother doesn't have any friends here?"

"Oh, yes."

Hearing the question that Nanessi was almost sure of, Men answered in a flat tone, with no ups and downs in his mood just like his tone.And Nanessi asked again:

"Don't want to try to make friends?"

"Hmm...not really, it's just that it's not a question of whether I want to hand it in on my own, Nanessi."

Consciousness gradually blurred, but the door still answered patiently, admonishing his past self with his current experience in a gentle tone tainted with obvious burnout.

"But Brother Men, this is not good... If you can, go and try it!"

As if aware of the sleepiness in the door, Nanessi also softened her voice, speaking persuasively.

"try what?"

"Make friends... If it's Brother Men, it will be fine, I can guarantee it. So, don't be afraid or worry too much, just try to talk to other people."

Probably because the door was too sleepy, he felt that Nanessi's tone was unexpectedly gentle and patient, and compared to the 14-year-old Nanessi's tone, the tone was closer to him now.

Is it an illusion?After all, it's me, so if you soften your voice, it sounds very similar...

Zhongmen thought this way vaguely, but did not respond to Nanessi's words asking him to communicate with the outside world, and slipped into sleep along with sleepiness.

Probably because I spent some time talking with Nanessi and slept a little late, so when I woke up, I found that the time was later than before. At the same time, I also found that the two of them were probably in a daze. When they woke up, their postures were A sleeping position with one hugging the waist and the other hugging the shoulders, hugging each other very intimately.

The door was alright, it was just hugging Naixi as a pillow, Naixi was much more unrestrained, not only put his arms around the door, but also stepped on him, his whole body was almost stuck on the door, not to mention, he didn't say anything. He fell into a deep sleep without realizing it, and didn't feel that the door, which was so skinny and barely fleshy, was completely unqualified as a pillow, and slept very soundly.

Sigh, I shouldn't agree to sleep together, this sleeping position is really──the two of them lay on each side before falling asleep last night...

After my head cleared up a bit, I felt a headache when I saw this fascinating sleeping position change. I regretted that I agreed to Nanessi's request to sleep together with the mentality of "it doesn't matter once in a while". I am also glad that I live here The two of them, otherwise this posture is really not easy for outsiders to see.

"Naisi, Nanaxi! Wake up."

In such a state, it is completely impossible to get up without disturbing Nanessi, who is too intimately huddled in the arms of the door, while his hands and feet are still wrapped around him. The door can only move the hand that was not pressed down, and gently Shaking Nanessi's shoulders, he called out.

"Ah, good morning, brother...huh?"

Nanessi didn't stay in bed or wake up. After being shaken a few times, she opened her eyes in a daze. She didn't seem to be awake at first, and said hello in a daze, and then she noticed her posture , After a few seconds of silence, he pretended to be nonchalant and quickly retracted the limbs wrapped around the door, then quickly moved back and opened the distance.

"I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I-are about to be late for part-time work! Brother Men, bye bye!"

After retreating to a safe distance, Nanessi stammered a word, then jumped out of the bed with unimaginable quick movements in his usual physical fitness, and ran away without waiting for the door's response.

Ah, run away.

The door froze for a moment, but this way the hands and feet were freed from the bondage. Among other things, getting up and folding the quilt was the first thing he had to do—probably because he felt that the quilt was too tight after hugging the pillow (← door). It was hot, and Nanessi kicked the quilt into a mess. Although she didn't kick all of them out of the bed, she crumpled up and collapsed on the edge of the bed.

Hey, sure enough, you're not used to sleeping with people, and then face each other when you wake up, right?I didn't seem to say much last night, so what's the point of forcing myself to do something I'm not used to?

After the quilt was folded, Men recalled that just now Naixi blushed for a moment, but she still pretended to be fine and ran away, so she couldn't help but smiled helplessly.

Probably because of experience, neither Men nor Nanessi are people who are not used to overly intimate behaviors. They may occasionally desire to get close to people, but most of them will stop their active steps at a certain distance—and then continue to wait. In your own closed world, quietly looking at the warm scene of people interacting.

The door thinks that Nanessi last night is probably because he can barely be regarded as a family member, so he stepped out of the footsteps that have been standing outside the boundary line, but judging from the results, the door thinks it should not be considered a success, although he does not know what it means to be successful. what it looks like.

Alas, people like us really shouldn't expect to be able to connect with someone and love each other, right?It just seemed that Nanessi still had a glimmer of hope.

Men remembered that before going to bed last night, Nanessi seemed to have been encouraging him to make friends and get in touch with others, and he couldn't help laughing, but inexplicably, there was also a faint coolness similar to loneliness in his heart, and there was also a trace of it that he didn't know where it came from. mercy.

... How long will it take for the child to understand this matter?Be like me now, be like me now.

The door showed a thin wry smile that was so faint that it almost felt like an illusion. He put this sudden sigh aside together with the folded quilt, and didn't think about it anymore.

The author has something to say: As far as my personal understanding is concerned, although Men and Nanaixi are the same person, I always feel that compared with Nanaixi, Men feel more negative—or they are unconsciously self-defeating It feels like, if it is said that Nanessi is slowly moving towards the extreme of self-destruction, but still has a certain degree of hope, then the door may even give up that tiny bit of hope.

But in fact, there are not many descriptions about doors in the game, and I don’t know if I misunderstood something without authorization, but I’m going to follow this feeling in this article, alas, anyway, it’s already OOC in various aspects , so it’s okay to be more unrestrained in O, right?Ah ha ha ha (eyes dead)