[1bitHeart] The closed world of you and me

"Hey—take pictures? It's not impossible, but since it's the bouquet you received, Nanaisi, then it's fine if you take pictures yourself. There's no need to drag brother to take pictures together, right?"

It's not that Men can't understand Nanessi's idea of ​​receiving a rare gift that he doesn't usually receive, so he wants to keep something as a souvenir, but if Nanessi wants him to take a photo together, he doesn't think it's necessary.

Although he is not the kind of person who particularly hates or rejects leaving photos, if it is normal, the door will agree, but the problem is that his situation is quite special now-he should not have appeared in the first place. The person at this point in time, and the self in this time and space should not have his appearance and state. Although he seems to be living in the same place as other people in this past world, he is not like a ghost. There is no way to be photographed or something, but when he leaves this world, no matter what method is used, the world will naturally have a set of rules and methods to correct and erase redundant traces.

And more importantly, although I have roughly understood the rules of time and space—otherwise, the door would not be able to make a time machine that goes back to the past, but after all, the world is not such a simple and simple thing as a computer program or the world view of a novel. He understands the outline and main points, but there are still many unsolved points that are too complicated for him to fully understand for a while, and it will take a certain amount of time to analyze and sort out a statement.And ever since he realized that although his inborn ability is very strong and almost omnipotent, it has placed too heavy a burden on his body which is only an ordinary person, unless necessary, he will not spend time and effort to calculate everything All the details are clarified.

The only thing that is certain about the door is that before he leaves, he will not be directly erased due to the automatic correction of the world, just like being poked into the flesh with a thin needle such as a bamboo thorn. Although the self-healing function is not It will not work because of the thorns, but the operation is the operation, but it will not automatically squeeze the thorns out of the skin, unless it is picked up with pliers and other foreign objects and pinched out, it will return to its original appearance .

And the door is also because of the absolute certainty of this point, confirming that he will not be forced to disappear after half of what he wants to do, so he dared to make a time machine and use this to go back in time—otherwise he would have thought about it at the beginning. When he got up and showed a curious look, he wouldn't just warn the other party to be cautious when using the time machine to go back to the past and contact with the "past self", and then said the worst possible future changes that might be caused, Instead, he will directly tell the other party that he does not recommend using this machine to really go back to the past world, otherwise it is very likely that he will suddenly die due to world repulsion.

But other than that, the door is just a rough guess based on the facts he confirmed in more places about the things after traveling back to the past. Although he knows what the result should be, he has more details But he didn't understand, and he didn't intend to burn the last remaining energy of his body, which had been tossed and weakened by the abilities he had for many years, just to figure out those details──so he wasn't sure what he had done in the past world Things, the traces left behind, after his 'foreign object' leaves this world, how will the world rules be corrected and repaired, and is this action so meticulous that even a little detail is not missed, or is it just a big one? After the direction correction, the remaining irrelevant places were left alone, and if the photos he left were physical records, what would happen to them, so I was more concerned about this.

"Does it matter? Although I don't remember if we took pictures together when we were young, but my brother brought me here for so long, it seems that we haven't left a group photo as a souvenir! It's a rare opportunity to take a photo together! Brother shouldn’t have a camera phobia, right? Let’s take pictures together!”

Even though the attitude of the door should be very direct to show that he doesn't want to take pictures that much, after all, Nanaixi doesn't know the reason why the door really doesn't want to take pictures, so he is just trying to persuade him with great anticipation and acting like a baby. Staring at the door with shining eyes, it seemed that he would not give up until he reached his goal.

"...well, if you insist, take a picture together."

The door thought that it might be due to the fact that his perception of Nanaixi had not been adjusted. Recently, whenever he acted like a baby, he had nothing to do with him. Although he was somewhat troubled, but after thinking about it, he changed his mind and agreed.

Just thinking about it, if there is any problem at that time, since it is still unknown what kind of correction plan the world will adopt, whether Nanessi will remember him is another matter, and it will probably be a showdown at that time. Now that his real identity is gone, even if he finds something strange, Nanessi should be able to guess the reason, and he probably won't be able to worry about it if he wants to. It's not a big deal.

Anyway, when there is some small problem left over from the world correction—such as the situation where his memory is lost but the photo remains, it is Nanessi who will be worried about the "spiritual photo" instead of him; But if he remembers his existence but finds that his figure is missing in the photo, it is also Naixi who is troubled by such a supernatural phenomenon, not him——in this case, Naixi really wants a photo of the two of them , There is no loss if the door is shot, anyway, at that time, only the side that stays will have some troubles that do not affect life.

"Great! Then I'll go get the flowers. Brother Men, please adjust the camera app first, and wait for me!"

Seeing Mensong agreeing, Nanessi burst into a bright smile instantly, and said cheerfully, without waiting for the door to respond, she jumped off the sofa and ran to the umbrella stand to get flowers.

It's just taking a group photo, and I'm so happy...

Seeing Nainaxi's smiling face and vigorous action immediately, the door was a little surprised, but he also smiled a little bit. In addition, he had figured it out just now and no longer resisted taking pictures so much, so he called out Exit the shooting APP, and then adjust the settings.

They took a few photos in this way, according to Nanessi’s wishes, each photo was taken in different poses, although some photos are a bit funny, but fortunately, this is a private photo, and if there is no accident, it should not be leaked Go out──After finishing these things, the takeaway was almost delivered, and it was only then that Men remembered that he hadn't asked Nanessi about the text conversion rules used in notes.

Forget it, there is no rush, let's talk about it later after dinner.

After thinking about it for a while, he didn't rush to ask. Instead, after finishing the delivery with Nanaixi, he saw Nanaixi who was sitting on the back of the sofa after eating and wandering, not wanting to move for the time being, so he asked. this matter.

"By the way, Nanessi, when I was chatting with the girl where you worked a little earlier, she said that you seemed to be taking notes on your hands when you were at work?"

The door didn't ask him directly what he wanted to ask as soon as he opened his mouth. Instead, he smiled first and asked in a chatty manner.

And Nanaisi was stunned for a moment when he heard the words, but he was not sure if his reaction was because he was greedy and ordered an extra bowl of sweet red bean soup tonight, and he ate it all with a lunch It was only after he finished that he realized that he had eaten too much, and his stomach was very uncomfortable, so he paused a little bit slowly, because he didn't show any hesitation or ambiguity, so he nodded and admitted it simply.

"Well, yes. Because when I was busy making coffee for office workers before work, looking down at the notes on my arm was faster than opening the note window on the BitPhone, and it didn't hinder the movement, so I didn't fully remember it. Before making the drink, I made a cheat sheet in my hand and peeked at it.”

"It turned out to be like this. I read the note that the girl copied down. You should be using the code conversion method I usually use, right? It seems that you have almost perfectly cracked the rules. Why don't you tell me What about one sound?"

Seeing that Nanessi said frankly, it didn't seem like he was deliberately concealing him, and the door relaxed a little, but he still cared a little bit about it, so he smiled softly, trying to make his question not feel like he was talking about it. Asked, asked in a soft tone that matched the smile.

"Ah, this one──Although I should have fully grasped it, I want to further confirm whether there are any omissions. Besides, I want to surprise my brother by saying it suddenly one day! For example, on my brother’s birthday in September, I used this rule to write puzzles that hint at where the cake is as a digital note, but I didn’t expect my brother to know it first, and I might have to change it to something else to create a surprise. way."

Mentioning this, Nanessi blushed a little bit shyly, and explained with an embarrassed smile.

"Birthday...so that's how it is, but Nanessi, although I'm glad you have such a heart, it doesn't matter if you don't celebrate my birthday. I'm not very keen on celebrating my own birthday, and I haven't celebrated my birthday for a long time , Maybe someone suddenly gave me a gift on my birthday, and I might not immediately think of it as something for my birthday, so I don’t need to make special preparations for birthday celebrations, I’m always happy if you behave better.”

Hearing Nanessi's birthday in September, the door didn't react at once, but he immediately remembered that when he forged the information of the person "Aisakamen", he made up some random information, as if his birthday was directly related to his real date. It was filled upside down, so it was misunderstood by Naixi who had seen the information on the Bitphone, so he braked immediately before he almost asked the exit, so he didn't make a slip of the tongue.

In addition, he was a little surprised that Nanessi wanted to surprise him on his birthday, so after a pause, he declined Nanessi's idea politely.

Although Men doesn't dislike celebrating birthdays, and he is also very happy if someone is willing to celebrate his birthday, but let's not say whether he is still in this time and space until September, but strictly speaking, he has not had a serious birthday celebration for a long time. The word "birthday" is a bit unfamiliar—in recent years, he either studied abroad or started working outside after graduation. It just so happened that he couldn't go home when he was on his birthday. , I usually still have work to do, anyway, it's not appropriate to drop everything and go to him just for birthday celebrations, so at most, I can send him a blessing on the day or make up a gift afterwards.Besides, there is no one around him who is willing to bother about his birthday, let alone expecting any special way to celebrate his birthday or receiving any gifts.

And after the 'management program' he made caused the social situation to deteriorate rapidly due to the abuse of the upper class, people who knew his identity did not curse his existence and hoped that he would not be born in this world. Not to mention that no one would be happy enough to smile and bless him for his birth in the past. At that time, even his parents were worried about his affairs and were not in the mood to congratulate him.

As far as Men himself is concerned, at most he was not very interested in celebrating his own birthday in the past. Although someone is willing to hold an event for him because of this, he will happily participate and feel happy, but in fact, the birthday itself It didn't mean much to him—and after he found out that the "management program" he had created with good intentions had turned into an irreparable and serious mistake, not only people outside the world hated his existence, but he himself began to doubt his existence. Is there any need for a person who was born in this world and has survived until now? Going back to eight years ago is just his last atonement before ending his life. He wants to correct his mistakes before leaving this world forever── ─As a result, birthday celebrations don't mean much to him anymore.

Even on this year's birthday, when the door casually thought about it, he didn't have any special opinion other than 'this is a special day where you can celebrate and receive gifts' as before, but it would make people already start to doubt He felt that the need for his own existence seemed to be reminding him that he had wasted the resources of this world for several years, and he couldn't help but feel a little depression piling up on his chest.

But looking at Nanessi who doesn't know anything about the mistakes he will make in the future, and who is still looking forward to celebrating his birthday, even if he hides the part that Nanessi shouldn't know now, the door is not easy to grasp. This kind of thing is said, so I just prevaricate it by saying that I don't like birthday celebrations, and cut off the idea of ​​​​Nai Naixi, lest Nai Xi really spend a lot of time secretly preparing for his birthday celebrations, but after knowing the truth later Only then did I realize that my efforts were wasted.

"Huh? Does my brother hate birthday celebrations? Why?"

As if a little surprised by the door's answer, Nanessi tilted his head on the sofa to the side, hit the shoulder of the door next to him lightly with a 'boom', and then raised his head slightly to stare at the door's reaction , asked.

Looking down at Nanessi's curious face with open eyes, the door considered for a few seconds whether to gently push the head of Nanessi's leaning away, but after thinking about it, with the tilted posture of Nanessi's slightly oblique angle, this way Pushing him to move, maybe Nanaixi accidentally slipped to the waist when adjusting his sitting posture, so he didn't do it, just pretending that he didn't notice that Nanaisi's movement was a little too intimate, so he naturally looked away. replied:

"I don't hate it, I just find it quite troublesome, and because of people like me, I feel very sorry for letting other people be so busy and troublesome for me."

"But the people who want to celebrate my elder brother's birthday should also be those who like and value elder brother? I want to do something for the person I like. No matter it is not a burden for anyone, it is a kind of fun! So Brother, you don't need to have such a heavy psychological burden on other people celebrating your birthday, since you don't hate it, just accept it happily when someone celebrates your birthday!"

Probably because it is different from the door after all, the current Naixi is still young, and his thinking is more optimistic and positive, and he still believes in many beautiful fantasies and theories. It seems that he thinks that the door is worrying too much. He laughed and said briskly, then seemed to think of something else, and changed the subject abruptly:

"So, what flavor do you want the cake to be? Do you want it to be pure chocolate? Or is it the same as the little cake you ate before?"

It's almost July now, have you already started thinking about the cake for my birthday in September?

For Nanessi, who seemed to be looking forward to it more than he himself, and asked about it with a happy expression, seeing his innocent smile and shining clear eyes, even if he didn't fully agree with Nanessi's theory, he really did. He didn't have the desire to be celebrated by others, but he didn't have the intention of denying it directly. He just smiled helplessly and said half-jokingly:

"You are so active, you don't want to buy a bigger cake to eat slowly, but you are afraid of being scolded, so you take this opportunity to buy it? Let me tell you, although you want to buy a big cake to eat, it doesn't matter. But the refrigerator here is not very big, and the shelf life of this kind of thing is not long, so don't buy a cake that is too big."

Although before he said it, it was just a joke deliberately shifting the focus, but the more he said it, the more he felt that this idea might be the real reason why Naixi wanted to hold his birthday for him so enthusiastically, so he said in a serious way .

"That's not the case. I'm seriously planning to celebrate my brother's birthday! Besides, I have to buy a big cake for my birthday! It feels like celebrating a birthday, doesn't it?"

Slightly puffing up his face, Nanessi tried to defend himself a little bit, probably because his neck was a little sore after maintaining this posture for a long time. After he finished speaking, he said "hey", straightened his body in one breath, and let his head leave Men's shoulders, no longer leaning on him like this and looking up at him.

"Yes, yes, I got it. Well, it's getting late, and we have class tomorrow, right? Let's go to rest early."

It's not that the door can't understand the various expectations for my birthday at this age, but because of many reasons, even though Nanaixi seems to be looking forward to buying a big cake for his birthday and making another scene, he still doesn't quite mention it. He got interested, but looked at the time and found that it was a bit late, so he stopped discussing with Nanessi, and ended the topic on his own initiative after perfunctory.

The author has something to say: Recently, the windows are rattling when the wind is blowing, and I always feel a little uneasy... Speaking of which, I have been practicing for a few days, and I still don’t have much confidence in whether I can become a regular. The problem is that in reality, I am not very good at getting along with people. When I think of working with other people, I feel very painful. Even though I have to work alone, I feel uneasy and feel very conflicted.

In fact, the writing of this article has not been very smooth recently, and I have considered whether to make a turning point, but firstly, I have no special ideas, and secondly, I am afraid that this kind of writing may really get out of hand, so for now I still keep this idea and continue my daily life.......It means that the last few sections I wrote are honestly not very satisfactory. If there are new ideas in the future, there is a certain chance that I will choose to delete and rewrite.

In short, although it is still uncertain, but first have a psychological preparation, maybe it may be directly from daily life to the end.By the way, I suddenly want to ask, if you are the ones who write the follow-up, how will this article end and end?Let me refer to it after telling it, otherwise I really can't think of a reason now, and I am having a headache.