[1bitHeart] The closed world of you and me

The author has something to say: Recently, I was struggling with how to write the end of this article, but I realized that I had written a lot before, but I didn’t post it because I was afraid that I would have to overhaul it later. I almost forgot about it. After thinking about it, I decided to post it first. Anyway, I don’t have the time and energy to review the previous article recently, and there are only a few chapters left until the end. I really want to revise the article after a big deal.

When he got back home, although it was said that the sky was darker in summer than in winter, when the sky was already a little dark, he saw that the lights had not been turned on at home, so he knew that Nanessi had really gone out to play again today, but he didn’t know He went to play with someone on his friend list again today.

Speaking of which, it's been a long time since I checked the changes in Nanessi's friend list──Let's take a look.

Speaking of this, Men paid attention to this matter. Before that, when the child came, assuming that the friends Nanessi had made during this time did not break up with him in the end like before, he would consider taking Don't try to make friends with people again──It's just that too many things happened afterwards, and even he almost forgot about this idea at the beginning, so he didn't peek at Nanessi's friend list for a while.

Although the current door is about making friends with himself, after calming down and thinking about it, he still needs to think about it again—after all, after he realized that the gap between him and Nanessi in the past eight years was bigger than he imagined Afterwards, apart from the field of programming, he didn't have much confidence in whether he could do what Nanaishi could do──but he wouldn't lose interest in how Nanaisi got along with his friends because of this, why not On the contrary, it made me even more curious.

There is no reduction... It is better to say that there are a few more.

Using the temporary guardian authority given by his parents before, he opened Naixi's friend list again and looked at the list of names. Compared with the list some time ago, he couldn't help but feel a little complicated when he realized this back door.It wasn't too surprising, but at the same time, it wasn't that she wanted to be happy for pure Nanaixi, but she didn't feel unhappy because of it, she just felt a little bit inexplicably emotional.

'Myself who is good at making friends'──This title seemed absurd to him in the past, and it may also be ironic, but now it seems to be an exact title for Nanessi, making him He always felt a little weird and wonderful, and seeing Naixi like this didn't seem like a past version of himself who had failed in this aspect, and now he could be said to be a marginalized person in society, so he couldn't help but sigh with emotion.

Is there such a possibility for 'myself'?Or is it just because 'Nai Naixi' did it?

He couldn't help thinking about this question from an angle that he hadn't thought about before, and this thought once again stirred up small waves in his heart that he didn't know how to name.

If it was normal, he would probably subconsciously let go of his attention and not think about what the feeling in his heart is, but after the consultation just now, he got the suggestion of "face up to his true inner thoughts", even if he really doesn't Being good at doing this, he still followed the advice of the other party, calmed down, and tried to feel the feelings in his heart.

It was somewhat similar to the rainy day when I realized that my impression of Nanaixi was no longer dispensable, and I didn’t feel any sense even if I sacrificed it, but the lonely feeling that almost engulfed him at that time I feel that this time it’s not that deep, it’s more like when I ran the 2 time test in the physical education class of elementary school, when I found that everyone had already run ahead of him, and he was the only one who was left far behind because of the lack of physical strength. At the end, he looked at the back of the classmate No. [-] from the bottom who was gradually going away—the kind of emotion that he would feel when he tried to catch up but couldn't use his strength, so he had mixed with a little anxiety, a little anxiety, and a vague feeling. Feelings of panic, feelings like this.

But why is there such an emotion?Could it be that I also did not want to be unilaterally distanced by Naixi, and did not want to be left behind?

Coming to this conjecture, even Men himself was a little surprised, and after thinking about it for a while, he couldn't help showing a wry smile—it seems that even if he claims to be indifferent to the fact that he can't communicate with people for a long time, it seems that he should still be subconscious I hope that there is another heterogeneous existence in the world who is like me and is rejected by others as a "companion". It might seem that Xi has to be a normal person, be enviable and make friends with people in an ordinary way before she can feel this way.

But Men always felt that there was something inaccurate about such inferences, but his ability to analyze and judge himself was always weaker than ordinary people—although his ability could understand the current state of others through the analysis of the numerical values ​​he saw. What is the specific mood, but he can't see his own values, he has to judge by the way he feels, which he is not proficient in, and he has rarely understood any situation about himself in this way before. Especially the detailed emotional state changes in his heart, so he didn't know what was wrong.

Hmm... It wasn't necessary before, so I didn't think about it, but it's really troublesome that I can't see all my "values" when I need to know about my own affairs. Do you want to find a way to solve it?

Menzheng is not sure whether to make a program that can collect all kinds of data related to himself like he sees everything around him, so that he can analyze it accurately and understand what he should be now. When he was thinking about something, there was a slight sound of the machine lock being unlocked from the door. It should be that Nanessi had returned to the apartment.

"Wow! Brother Men, are you at home!? Why didn't you turn on the lights? You scared me!"

It seemed that she didn't expect anyone to be at home. Naixi who opened the door didn't shout "I'm back" energetically as usual, but was startled by the door sitting on the sofa and meditating, and turned on the power switch next to the door. At the same time asked a little surprised.

And when the door was said by Nanessi, I noticed that the sky outside had already darkened at some point—and it’s no wonder that he didn’t open the beautiful but power-hungry projection animation on the window when he came back today, and directly reported the sky outside Nanessi was so surprised to find that he stayed in such a dark room without turning on the lights, and even he was a little surprised when he found out.

"It's nothing. I just thought about some problems. I was too focused so I didn't notice the time. Nanaisi, come back so late today, have you eaten first?"

Not wanting to let Nanessi have a chance to ask him why he was so focused on what he was thinking about, he changed the subject and asked after the door explained—but he really wanted to know this, because the two have an unwritten habit, that is, when they reach a certain point The time will automatically default that the other party has already eaten, and the person who will handle the dinner by himself will not wait for the latecomer. The current time is just around this time point. Although the door did not order the meal on time today, it is only now that I think of having dinner. But he was not sure whether Nanessi had eaten before coming back.

"Not yet, I wanted to come back earlier today, but something took longer than expected, so it took a little longer, and I felt a little tired, so I came back without going to dinner."

Originally, the door guessed that Nanaixi probably went to eat with someone on the friend list again, but Nanaixi shook his head unexpectedly, and said, after finishing speaking, he was carrying a small box that looked familiar to the door "Hey yo" put it on the armrest of the sofa, and then said:

"By the way, have you almost drunk all the nutritional supplements I gave Brother Men before? I went to Mr. Zhi's to get new ones today. After finishing the previous ones, open this box and drink?"

"...I still have to go get it again. Although I know that my health is not very good, but it has improved during this time, so I don't need to worry about it anymore, Nanessi."

Although I honestly drank the medicine according to the time during this period, but the door is holding the idea of ​​'after drinking it quickly, there is no need to continue to drink it', so I endure the strange smell that I am not used to after drinking it many times, and drink it every day. Originally, after drinking yesterday's portion before going to bed last night, when he looked at the empty medicine box, he felt a sense of relief that "the end is finally here", but he didn't expect that Nanessi would come back with a new medicine immediately today.

Thinking of the experience that Nanaisi insisted was a 'nutritious product', but no matter how you look at it, it looks like the first thing in a fantasy drama. Even he himself can feel the effect, and the current Naixi has no reason to do so, and he may suspect that giving him this medicine is entirely Naixi's deliberate revenge on him.

Therefore, at the moment of the bad news that he still had to continue drinking that stuff for a while after hearing the bad news, the feeling of depression in the door was dispelled without a trace before Nanessi came back, even knowing that Nanessi should be good intentions , but he still sees if he can tactfully prevent Nanessi from making him take this medicine for a long time.

"It's okay! And even if it has improved, my brother's health hasn't improved enough to be worrying, is it? And I'm drinking it myself, so I just take it together, no trouble!"

I don't know if I didn't read his true meaning from the expression on the door's face when he said this sentence, or if he guessed it, he pretended not to notice and ignored it. 'A normal smiling face──If it weren't for this sentence, his current smile can be said to be extremely cute, but now it doesn't look cute at all when paired with words.

"Then at least how about changing to something else? You have to keep drinking the taste of this medicine. I always feel that there will be problems with the taste before the body gets better."

Seeing this, Men also simply stated the reason why he rejected that nutritional product──Since Naixi also said that he was drinking it, then he believed that Naixi should also know what he meant.

"Ah! This point! This time, the taste of the medicine given by Mr. Zhi seems to have improved, and it is not as scary as before. Although it has a little side effect, it should not hinder life much—new medicine Drink it before going to bed at night, I will put my brother's share in your box later."

Hearing what Men said, Nanessi replied with a smile and said such a sentence. Although he didn't take back his intention to let him continue to drink the medicine because of this, but hearing that the taste would improve made Men feel a little relieved.

"If that's the case, there's no problem. But Nanessi, what's the aftereffect? ​​Are you sure it's really all right?"

I opened the door casually to the box not far away, and looked at the medicine inside. It is true that from the normal appearance color to the value I saw, it is different from the previous one, although it can be roughly analyzed whether it has any effect on the body. Harm, but after all, he is not a professional in medicine. The values ​​of these medicines are not as simple as fruit juice or ordinary drinks. He can't see the reason for the impact on the body in more detail, so he asked a question.

"Well! No problem! I won't even give my brother what I dare not drink myself, so don't worry!"

Nanessi assured this with a smile, and Menyi thought the same. With their personalities, if it is really harmful to people, or if the harm outweighs the benefit, they will not easily give it to other people to use, and they will There is a basic sense of crisis without principles, and he will not try dangerous things casually, so he deduces that it is probably okay to believe Nanessi's words.

"Then I'll trust you. If you want to order takeout on holidays, you will have to wait a long time. Is it okay to have cup noodles today? If you are really hungry, I bought a cake earlier and put it in the refrigerator. If you want to eat, you can eat that first. "

So the door smiled, and stopped talking about nutritional supplements, remembering that Nanaixi and himself hadn't eaten yet, so he asked, and stood up from the sofa at the same time.

"Okay! Then I'll take out the cake and my brother's portion first!"

Nanessi had no objection either, and said so after nodding her head in agreement.

Tonight they settled it with cup noodles and small cakes that were divided into two halves. There was nothing special about it later. After ordinary chatting and talking, after dealing with the little things left over from the morning, they drank Nanaixi Xinna Nutrients, ready to take a bath and go to sleep.

The taste of the new medicine is the same as what Nanessy said, and it doesn’t make people shy away. Although it is not very delicious, it is just like the common cold medicine, which belongs to the point where you can barely drink it. After drinking it, you suddenly feel very sleepy. I don't know if this is the little sequelae that Nanessi said.

But due to the sudden sleepiness, the door didn't bother to delve into it, so it continued to complete what it was supposed to do and went to rest.