Brother, let's talk about life

It turns out that looking at a person's back is so sad, and the pain is so sad that it cannot be suppressed, and I didn't think about the pain at this second. If it was a trial before, then it is a direct conviction at this moment, as if everything has no power to turn around.

Everyone was still angry when they got home.

Gu Yun comforted softly: "Old Zhou, you haven't eaten properly for a few days, why don't I make you a meal today?"

Without saying a word, he gave Jia Li a look. Jia Li was always in a state of panic, and quickly answered, "Brother, just eat a little."

Zhou Zhi threw off his clothes, turned and pointed at them angrily and said, "I know exactly what you are thinking, there is nothing you want from me, just get lost!"

It's normal for him to be angry, and he has some feelings after being together for such a long time. Gu Yun looked at Jia Li who was a little sad and said: "It's all right now, you have to take care of it, he is not easy to accept, after you catch him I can't run away."

"I don't want to be with him."

"You don't want to? Are you sure you don't want to? Jiali, a while ago, who was crying and saying that he couldn't think of what he wanted, cursing Shen Jingyan, now that it's over, you still want to give up? I think I really healed your illness. "

Jia Li looked at him and said, "Have you ever seen him like this? When did he lose his temper with me or you? Anyway, I will never take advantage of others, and besides, I don't think Zhou Zhi likes men." He is not a person who can like others, he is selfish and heartless, you know it better than anyone else, I never thought of liking him, but it doesn't matter if I don't like it, and others can't like it either."

"Forget it, I don't care about the things between you, you can do whatever you like."

The matter finally got into trouble, and they completely lost any contact with each other. Shen Jingyan's phone was down, and no one responded to his mailbox, even the branch office. The management of the rented residence said that he hadn't come back for a long time.

On the day of the quarrel, Zhou Zhi knew that Shen Jingyan understood everything when he returned to his room and opened his diary, as well as his mobile phone lying on the table.

In fact, Shen Jingyan has been waiting, waiting for him to call, from the anger and heart-piercing at the beginning to the present, he still changes his thoughts.

I suffer from insomnia every day and night, then I take sleeping pills, wake up within a few hours, and then I am silently in a daze. medicine.

His father thought he had a cold, and his grandfather thought he was not acclimatized after going out. The doctor said there was no serious problem, but he was too tired. Although he didn't know why and how, he was kept here to rest. He didn't want to disturb him, but Ran Jue and He Bing asked to see him one by one.

Forget it, Ran Jue, coming here is nothing more than saying some greasy words that sounds disgusting, and looks even more disgusting.He Bing came over to buy some fruit and brought a large case of beer. Of course, the beer was all secretly, because smoking and drinking were strictly prohibited when he was sick.

When he entered the door, he had just finished taking a shower and was sitting on the bed reading a book.

"Are you all right?"

Shen Jingyan leaned on the bedside and sneered: "No matter what happens, it's not your turn to read the jokes. Put your things away, and you can go back."

He Bing sat on the sofa next to the bed, and these few meetings had long since lost the laughter he had before, and said very seriously: "Jing Yan, you have been spoiled so much that you can't accept a little ups and downs, in fact, since you have doubts, you should Ask carefully, it is not easy to find someone who suits your heart in a lifetime, and you can't give up just because of a little misunderstanding."

Shen Jingyan felt like throwing up when he heard chicken soup for the soul, and he was a person who changed girlfriends in a few months, so what qualifications did he have to instill this kind of thing in him.

He didn't speak and continued to read with his head down. He Bing moved and sat beside him: "Jing Yan, if you don't worry about the work, you can leave it to me. I won't charge you a penny more."

"I want to know." Shen Jingyan looked up at him, "Before you really let that pervert come to me on purpose for money, and then you let me drink those things? Could it be that our relationship for so many years is really not as good as that little money?"

He Bing smiled wryly: "Are you making fun of me? I went on a business trip three years ago and got a lot of money. You know I'm still paying monthly here, and I don't even have a house of my own."

He said softly: "Your parents' old house was sold casually for tens of millions, and they said they had no money."

"What's theirs is theirs. Besides, it's not certain when that place will be demolished. I don't want to go back."

Shen Jingyan sneered and said: "Why, this is also on my head?"

He Bing looked at him: "No, I knew at that time that you really wanted to go and stay. I have been there, and you would disdain or disbelieve many things. You also know that your father had some private conversations with there, whether it was because of Whether it is a private matter or a business matter, I really want to apologize for this result."

"Yes, each of you has a reason for doing things, and I will never blame anyone." Shen Jingyan smiled for a moment: "Although he lied to me from the beginning, only now did he realize that he is the best person for me. With these days, I can do anything for him."

He Bing said: "You've never cared about someone before, if you really want to stop, go talk about it."

Originally, he wanted to waste himself like this, but what He Bing said made him up his mind. When he wanted to meet people, his whole body was refreshed. The next day at noon, his aunt cooked a large table of dishes, all of which were his favorite.

He wanted to go out, the old man agreed directly, it would be good to stay at home for many days without going out for a walk.

In the afternoon for the plane ticket, there was no one at the door of his house.

It was a bit cold, he was wearing a windbreaker and leaning against the gate, the leaves at the gate had fallen and piled up, and it was deserted.

After waiting for a long time, I heard footsteps.

Shen Jingyan stood upright and looked up, the two slowly looked at each other, Zhou Zhi nodded and took out the key to open the door.

"Why don't you call me?"

Shen Jingyan walked in slowly, leaning against the wall, the two of them were silent for a long time, and the lights in the room were not turned on.

"Zhou Zhi, you can explain to me, even if you came here with a purpose before, I didn't care, what about the process in the middle? Now, do you still think that way now?"

Zhou Zhi still said in a flat tone: "Actually... I want to show you the cards after this matter is over, and each return to his own life. Now that you have found out, I can't say anything."

Shen Jingyan only felt that there was a choking breath in his throat, and he couldn't breathe even if he wanted to. He wanted other answers, or to speak differently. In the past, he felt that the cells touched by this person were warm. It's so difficult to say a word you want.

He has never experienced this kind of feeling before. It is not heart-piercing or wanting to cry unbearably, but like tens of thousands of needles piercing the heart at the same time. It is not pain but paralysis, like a scarecrow being stabbed crookedly It's about to fall down.

Even the tone of his mouth was floating: "The person you asked me to help, do you like him?"

The man on the opposite side couldn't take his eyes off, seemed to think for a moment but said firmly: "I liked it. But there are many emotions in people, and liking doesn't necessarily mean having and being together."

Shen Jingyan leaned against the wall and lowered his head. He didn't know whether his expression was embarrassed or embarrassing at the moment. He kept trying to take out a pack of cigarettes from his body. The smoke poured into his throat like the smell of dust for a long time. Only the tobacco Taste can relieve anxiety at this time.

Zhou Zhi looked at him in a daze and took a step forward: "Actually, you don't have to do this. Did you really want to spend the rest of your life before us? I want to get something from you, but after such a long time, don't you also want to get something from me?" Find comfort in yourself, I have given you all the things you lack, why do you have to do this now?"

He supported his body and said in a low voice: "I don't want to pester you. How can we think about it for a lifetime after we have known each other for such a short time? I am just an idle dude who knows nothing and understands everything."

The man stretched out his hand to comfort him, but in the end he didn't go on. He said in a calm tone: "Shen Jingyan, we are all adults and not children, and there are some things we all understand. We think it's very simple to meet purely. If you make a call, I'll be there anytime." You can come here."

"If this matter is over, do you want to throw away that mobile phone, so that I will never be able to contact you again."

Zhou Zhi glanced at him and didn't speak.

Shen Jingyan wanted to ask if he really wanted him for a moment when they were in bed, did he do it only if he really liked him, and did he ever love him?But what's the point, he wants to say that he doesn't care if he likes others, can he start from the beginning, can he never do it once?