Contentment

Shen Leguang's injuries were all skin traumas, which were not considered serious in detail.The main reason was that the stick that hit him at the end was too dark, and it might leave a scar on his forehead.

Men don't care much about scars.When the doctor told him the follow-up maintenance items, Shen Leguang only said "hmm" absently, and didn't take it to heart at all.

What he cared about was that Haitong sent Fangyuan to the airport today.However, one morning passed, and the other party hadn't come back yet.

Qiu Mian asked for a week off for him, and would come to the hospital when there was no class.Haitong still has a lot of data to analyze, so he doesn't have to go to class, but there is no way to entrust these things to others, so he can only stay up late at night when Shen Leguang falls asleep.After a few days, he lost his appearance.

If Shen Leguang knew what he was thinking, maybe he wouldn't feel distressed.But he didn't know, he felt unaccustomed to seeing Haitong's increasingly silent face for no reason.

Haitong came late at noon.The sun was out today, and it felt warm from a distance, but Haitong should have come running over. When Shen Leguang opened the food box, he found that his nose was still dripping with sweat, and his little face was blushing.

"Are you hungry? Sorry, I came back too late."

Shen Leguang discovered something strange on the first day he woke up.

Not only did Haitong keep silent a lot, but he also became more and more polite to him.This made Shen Leguang a little uneasy, he admitted that he liked and even enjoyed the meticulous care brought by Haitong, the sticky feeling of being cared about was the throbbing he longed for.

"It's okay, I'm not very hungry yet." He took the chopsticks handed over by Haitong, but his eyes were fixed on the other's slender wrist.

Haitong didn't notice his gaze, but asked him if he thought the sun was too glaring.

"What?" Shen Leguang was dumbfounded by his question, and didn't react right away.

"You keep looking this way," Haitong walked around the bed and lowered the shade, "Would it be better this way?"

Shen Leguang glanced at the window.

Haitong really lost a lot of weight, and the clothes on her body looked empty.The wind blew in from the window, lifting a few locks of hair on his forehead.Standing in the sun, he seemed to be shining, but Shen Leguang looked at him and felt that he was like a fragile porcelain doll, which was about to fall from his master's hand in the next second.

His heart tightened suddenly, and he hurriedly called people over for dinner.

"No, these are for you to eat." Haitong sat far away from him, sinking into the sofa. "I don't want to eat it yet, I'll go out and buy it when I'm hungry later. Eat quickly."

He didn't even look at Shen Leguang when he was talking, and after turning on the computer, he quietly did data analysis there.

Shen Leguang was a little angry.

But he is not the kind of person who easily reveals his emotions, and such anger is actually very unreasonable.Besides, he still doesn't understand what he thinks about Haitong.

Shen Leguang has never liked anyone in his 18 years of life, and no one has taught him what he likes.The things written in the book are just words, and there is no way to show their strong and beautiful one-tenth of a millionth.

He ate with his head down, thinking about something in his head and suddenly lost his breath.

"What's the matter?" Hearing his coughing, Haitong hastily fetched water and patted his back while helping him.

Shen Leguang drank water with his hand, and his cough gradually subsided.

Haitong's hands are beautiful, with well-defined joints, no calluses on the palms, and beautifully manicured nails.He looked at the other person's hand holding the water glass, and held it as soon as he thought about it.

"What's wrong?" Haitong thought that he was in some discomfort, so he quickly bent down to observe his expression, and his tone became a little anxious.

Someone once said that if you want to know whether a person's life is good or not, you can first look at his hands.

Shen Leguang believed this sentence when he held it up.His own hands were rough, with knuckles thickened by chilblains from childhood.Although the skin is fair, the visual effect is also plain, but in contrast, he is a little panicked.

Some people grow up in honeypots, while others suffer.

Inferiority is like blindly addicting, and it will make people addicted without knowing it.Shen Leguang has always felt that only people like Haitong can have real self-confidence, have healthy parents, have a happy family, and don't have to run around for a living, at least they must have never experienced hardships before.

Only happy children will regard self-confidence as air.People like Shen Leguang, who look arrogant on the surface, are actually just burying their inferiority deep in their hearts.He thought he had forgotten, but at some point it would jump out and point at you and say: Don't bother, you are not in the same world at all.That's right, he and Haitong were never in the same world.

From the time when he was infatuated with the warm feeling brought by Haitong to now, the gap and contrast caused by the pair of hands always reminded him that the past is never the past.

Shen Leguang grabbed the hospital gown by his heart, and felt as if someone had poured cold water on him from head to toe in a trance, washing away all his proud self-esteem and pretense, and his teeth began to chatter from the cold.

It turned out that this was the reason why he didn't like Haitong—it wasn't that he didn't like it, but that he didn't dare to do it from the beginning.

He suddenly wanted to vomit, a little disgusted by himself.Why doesn't Haitong refuse every time he kisses him, is it really just because of "repaying favor"?Or do you say that you are tempted too?

"What's the matter with you?" Haitong saw his reaction suddenly became louder, and also became anxious. "I'll go to the doctor." After finishing speaking, she wanted to ring the bell, but was hugged by Shen Leguang.

"I'm fine, just thought of something."

His action made Haitong very uncomfortable, but he didn't refuse.

After some time, Shen Leguang let go of him, helped him smooth the hair on his forehead, and said with a serious expression, "I'm sorry."

Haitong was a little stunned, and quickly replied: "What are you talking about, I should be the one to say I'm sorry. I caused you to be hurt—" The other party covered up the rest of the words.

Shen Leguang's lips were a little pale, and now he was biting his lip, Haitong could clearly see how it turned red little by little.

Once a person's thinking is scattered, it is difficult to take it back.He suddenly thought that when he kissed Shen Leguang a long time ago, the other party looked like this too, like a rose with dew in the flowers and leaves in the morning, fresh, delicate and thorny.

Shen Leguang let go of the hand covering Haitong's mouth, lowered his head slightly and said, "I apologize to you for what happened before."

"You take good care of me. The winter vacation at your house may be the happiest time in my life. But your feelings," Shen Leguang paused, not knowing what to say, Haitong next to him heard this But began to tremble. "Looks like I'm lying to you, so I'm sorry. But now I—"

"No," Haitong retreated to the bed next to him and sat down, he hastily interrupted Shen Leguang's words.When looking at each other, there is a smile on the face, but the expression is very sad. "You don't need to apologize. In fact, I should say sorry to you. I take things for granted, but maybe it's not love at all.

"You know it," Haitong pointed at Shen Leguang's face, "You look very good-looking. For more than a month, I have been thinking about what my feelings for you are. After thinking about it, I found that When I was young, I liked the most beautiful girl in my class. But that doesn’t count as liking, right? I just like pretty things. Although it’s embarrassing to say this, I’m really sorry for the trouble I caused you before, and I hope you can forgive me. Haitong stood up and bowed down to apologize to him, fingers sticking to the hem of his trousers pinched his palm tightly.

Shen Leguang was dumbfounded and didn't speak.The wind in late spring was actually a bit cold, and the gust of wind that blew in made him shiver.He smiled slowly, and gave Haitong a soft "hmm".

Haitong let out a sigh of relief, and stretched out his hand to him, "Then can we still be friends in the future?"

Shen Leguang looked at him with a relaxed look on his face, as if he had solved a big problem.So his smile deepened, he stretched out his cold hand to hold Haitong's, and replied: "Of course."

It turns out that this is liking, Shen Leguang thought, it really is the cheapest thing.

After recuperating for almost a week, Shen Leguang was discharged from the hospital.In fact, the first two days were almost fine, but Haitong was worried and forced him to wait for the full holiday before being allowed to leave the hospital.

The fee was paid by Fang Yuan, after all, the incident was caused by her.The gangsters were beaten up by the people called by Qiu Mian and sent to the police station. Although they would still be released, Haitong really had nothing to do about it.

This matter passed away so quietly, and the only thing that caused a sensation was Shen Leguang's "disfigurement".

Doctors are not lying when they say it will leave scars.When Shen Leguang removed the gauze, the pink wound hadn't healed yet, and it was entrenched on the smooth forehead like a centipede.In addition, his hair was cut short for treatment, so the whole academy knew that he had an accident.

Rumors were flying all over the sky for a while.There are those who portray Shen Leguang as a scumbag, and there are also those who portray Shen Leguang as an affectionate character.In this way, the time slipped to the end of May in the whispers of others, and the weather in Hangzhou was so hot that it was almost breathless.

Haitong would come to see Shen Leguang occasionally, not often, but every time they met, he would talk about why his hair grows so slowly, and also bring him some health products and snacks sent by Fangyuan.

In the eyes of others, the relationship between the two of them has become what it was at the beginning.They can be regarded as good friends, eating together and going to the library together, as if the previous estrangement never existed.

Shen Leguang has also changed a bit, he no longer smiles miserly, and becomes gentle and polite to girls who show affection to him.Qiu Mian and the others joked that there was another one in the army of leaving singles in their dormitory.

Haitong also laughed, but he felt a little sad just by smiling.As for what is sad, it may not be clear in a few words.The trajectory of the development of things will never be guessed by others. If you let him recall, Haitong doesn't even understand how he and Shen Leguang came to this point.

He almost forgot the mood when making the decision, but again, can he really change the way?Not necessarily, if it wasn't what he is now, then he wouldn't be Haitong at all.

It's just that the words are nice, and it's enough to comfort myself.Seeing Shen Leguang showing a shy smile to other girls, Haitong still felt a little bit unwilling.But he thought again, in the eyes of others, this could be regarded as a marriage made in heaven.

Isn't that what you thought at the beginning?Don't bother Shen Leguang's life anymore, let him live like most people in the world.Being able to be friends with him is already a gift, what more could one ask for?

In fact, Haitong planned very well, but if he was braver, so many things would not happen later.