[War and Peace] Time travel to become a princess

"Then Helen, if I accept it, will you still love me in the future?"

"Of course I will, why would you doubt this?" Helen called softly.

Nikolenka threw away the shovel in his hand, then he stood up, and before Helen asked, he put his arms around her neck softly, leaning his fleshy chin on Helen's shoulder.

"Don't want me, Helen."

Helen wanted to look at Nikolai, but the latter didn't seem to want her to see, so she could only hug him and comfort him.

"Why would I not want you? Little Koko, no matter what happens, I will love you, and each of us will love you." Nikolenka seemed to sniff.

"Really?"

"Yes." Helen thought for a while, and used a metaphor that Nikolaenka could accept.

"You can doubt that the bear biscuits will not be so sweet one day, or that the chocolate will no longer taste good, but don't doubt that we all love you."

"Okay." Nikolenka let go of his hand, and Helen kissed his little nose.

"Then can you tell me why you think so?"

"Because," Nikolai looked up hesitantly, "if you belonged to me alone, you would love me forever, but now, you don't. Grandpa and grandma are two people, Aunt Mary and brother Nikolai It's two people, everyone is two people, now, you and dad will be two people, Xiao Keke, it seems to be redundant."

Helen was speechless, her eyes became moist, she didn't know whether it was their fault or the fault of the war, when a child told him with a confused expression, he felt that he had become redundant At that time, she felt that the whole world seemed to be blaming her, and she couldn't think of a better way except to choke up.

"I'm sorry, baby." She hugged the boy, even though she had never had parents, but her peaceful world, the darkness of the world has never been exposed to her more.But Nikolenka, who once had parents, lost his mother so quickly, and his father, the days he spent with him were too short.In his supposedly carefree childhood, what he saw was war and constant loss.

"Helen," Nikolenka called out tentatively, and asked softly after receiving a response.

"Did Little Keke make you cry?"

"No……"

"He... Lun."

"what?"

"sorry."

What are you sorry for?baby.Do you apologize for being too immature to hide your emotions and thoughts?Or is it because we really haven't taken care of you and made you feel too lonely?

Lonely, Helen closed her eyes and murmured in her heart.Because in this special era, because you have gained too little and lost too much, even if you are lonely, you can’t say anything, right?

When Andre learned what happened in the afternoon from Helen, he was silent for a while, but Helen clearly saw the emotion hidden in the man's eyes.

When the sun withdraws, the night is covered with light veils.Andre came to his son's room.He sat on the edge of the bed, stroking Nikolenka's immature face with rough fingers.

Looking at his son's young face, Andre thought of his childhood.

"Hmm..." Nikolenka murmured, perhaps because the calluses on Andrei's fingertips were too rough, he woke up.

"Father." Nikolenka frightened for a moment, not because of fear, but purely because of the strangeness that he could not get used to.As for his father, although he was not as serious as his grandfather and rarely touched him intimately, he was not as familiar as Helen and Aunt Mary.

He knew about his father, but he also knew that they were strangers, so when he found himself held in Andre's arms, he was really surprised.

"Dad?" he asked cautiously.

"Do you like bear biscuits?"

Although a little surprised that his father would know his preference, Nikolenka nodded honestly, and found that he seemed to be unable to move, so he responded aloud.

"like."

"Will you remember to brush your teeth after drinking hot chocolate?"

"remember."

After these words, Nikolenka felt that he was loosened, but instead, he was picked up and sat on Andrei's lap. The metal buttons on his uniform were slightly skeletal.

"What about it?"

"What?" Nikolinka asked in a daze.Then I saw my own exclusive bear.

"What's its name?"

"Bear."

He heard a soft laugh overhead, and Nikolenka was a little dissatisfied.

"What on earth are you going to say?"

There was no response for a while, and just when he was about to say something again, he heard a sigh.

"I know you like blue, you like to eat sweet things, you like to talk a lot when you are happy, and you never stay alone when you are unhappy. You are very soft-hearted. In fact, you like to cry, but you always hold back. You Afraid of thunder, afraid of caterpillars, many, many, I know many things about you."

"So?" Nikolenka's eyes were a little wet, and he held his little bear tightly with his little hands.

"But you don't know how much I love you, my son. I'm so sorry that I haven't told you this fact since I came back."

Nikolenka's eyes widened slightly, how alike they are, sometimes they are so stubborn, it makes people feel distressed to be sensible.Just like Andrei chose to walk quietly in the manor alone when he lost his mother, while Nikolenka built a small fortress for himself in ignorance.

"We all love you." Andrei hugged his son who was still sobbing tenderly. Then, he felt that the little bear that Nikolenka refused to let go easily was released and fell gently on the quilt. His clothes were tightly clutched.

"Will you...leave...leave?"

"Not anymore."

"You... promise?"

"I promise……"

"You...bad guy..."

"Yes, I didn't stay by your side, I didn't take good care of you, and I didn't make you feel like I have a warm home."

Nikolenka was sobbing, wiping his tears with his small hands, but he was speaking more clearly.Those identical sea-blue eyes looked at his father and said aggrievedly.

"There is no mother, even puppies have mothers, but little Koko doesn't. Helen said I have a father, but I have never seen him. That night, I woke up from the fright, and then I went to Helen, but there was no, I Running around, I want to find Helen..."

"Did you find it?" Andre asked softly, causing the boy to hiccup a little.

"Found it." Nikolenka nodded.

"But Helen is crying, Helen sometimes cries, but she never cries so loudly, I thought, I thought she didn't want me, everyone didn't want me, I have no home, you will never be here, Dad , I will never find you. Grandpa is gone, Aunt Mary is gone, you are never here, I only have Helen, if Helen doesn't want me anymore, little Keke really has no home..."

Andre's body trembled a little. He had suffered many wounds on the battlefield, and he never felt pain, but this time, there was no wound, but it seemed to hurt to the bone.

"Why don't you have a home?" He heard himself say this, seemingly calm, but restrained too much.

"Don't worry about it, son."

In the first half of his life, he dedicated everything to the country, and in the second half of his life, what he can do is to give them a home.

On the wedding day, fragrant orange corollas, white gauze fluttering high, and pink roses bloomed in every corner.

Helen was waiting in the dressing room. She didn't know what Andrei had said to Nikolenka that night, but he seemed to be full of happiness.

"Helen." The boy in the white dress shouted softly, his curly black hair had some pomade applied today, and he looked more energetic than usual.

"What are you holding in your hand?"

Nikolenka smiled shyly, then glanced at her again, as if to say, "How did you find out?"However, he still walked happily, picked up the things behind him, and put them into Helen's arms.

A bouquet made of pink roses, decorated with small goose yellow flowers beside it.

"Helen, do you like it?"

"I like it." She lowered her head and sniffed deeply the fragrance of roses, then said with a smile.When he looked up, Nikolenka was half kneeling on the ground, looking at her with his little face up.

"What's wrong?" Helen wanted to help the boy up, but the boy shook his head.

"Helen, are you happy?"