amnesia

This is the second time that Yan Wenxi waited beside the sleeping Zhang Jingtang until he woke up. The two illnesses were all because of himself, but his state of mind was very different between the two times.Last time he was apologetic, but unlike this time he blamed himself and regretted it, so that he couldn't sleep at night, he could only hold Zhang Jingtang's hand, hoping that he would wake up soon.

This time Zhang Jingtang slept longer than last time, and didn't open his eyes until three or four in the afternoon.At this time, Yan Wenxi's eyes were already red, his face was haggard, and he hadn't even eaten a grain of rice since last night.But as soon as he saw Zhang Jingtang woke up, he immediately stepped forward happily, and hugged him into his arms, his concern was beyond words,

"A Tang, is there anything else you feel uncomfortable about? Are you hungry? Do you want to eat something? Or do you want to drink water? I'll get it for you..."

Saying that, Yan Wenxi wanted to get up and pour Zhang Jingtang a glass of warm water, but was grabbed by the person in his arms.His body froze, but he didn't dare to look at Zhang Jingtang—he was afraid that Zhang Jingtang would think of everything, and from then on, there would be no tenderness, nostalgia, trust and dependence in his eyes, only fear and alienation.

"Why are you so nervous? I've been rambling on a lot, but I can't hear you clearly." Zhang Jingtang said with a smile, "I'm fine, so don't worry too much."

Yan Wenxi was a little surprised, he looked down at Zhang Jingtang, the other party's almond eyes were curved in a beautiful arc, just looking at him gently and with a smile, without any sense of unnaturalness and alienation.

"You...don't your head hurt?"

Zhang Jingtang shook his head and said, "It's just that I'm a little confused after sleeping for a long time..."

After hesitating for a moment, Yan Wenxi asked again: "Do you still remember what happened last night?"

"Last night?" Zhang Jingtang frowned slightly, thought for a while, then shook his head, and said, "I just remember that I fell asleep in the car, and then you seemed to carry me to bed..." Zhang Jingtang was a little embarrassed when he said this , Averting his eyes, he continued, "I'll be here when I wake up again."

Then Zhang Jingtang looked around and asked suspiciously: "Xingzhou, is this a hospital? I don't remember you telling me that you will be hospitalized directly after coming to K City..."

When Yan Wenxi heard this, he also knew that Zhang Jingtang didn't remember what happened last night at all, and he didn't retrieve those lost memories. He thought he went directly to the hospital after coming to K City, and then fell asleep until now.Obviously he should be happy and feel grateful, but for some reason, he felt a little bitter in his heart.

"I don't like staying in the hospital." Zhang Jingtang pulled Yan Wenxi's hand, letting him recover and listen to himself, with a complaining tone, "Xing Zhou, don't you have to be hospitalized now?"

After the first illness, Zhang Jingtang told him that he didn't want to stay in the hospital. Later, Yan Wenxi gradually realized that it was because his parents were treated in the hospital after being seriously injured. Seeing his parents unable to fight for death, he swallowed his last breath one after another. The piercing and persistent sound of the heart rate meter made him unwilling to stay in the hospital any longer.

Knowing this, Yan Wenxi will naturally follow Zhang Jingtang's intention: "Okay, I'll take you home when the doctor comes to check you up."

Then he hesitated for a while, and told Zhang Jingtang half of what happened last night: "I didn't send you to the hospital directly, but last night I was careless and scared you again, making you sick. Had to go to the hospital."

Seeing his self-blaming expression, Zhang Jingtang stretched out his hands to hold his face, leaned forward and kissed his lips gently, and comforted him: "It's not your fault, and you didn't mean it. Besides, this disease just looks scary." , in fact, every time you have an attack, you can get better after sleeping, so don't worry and blame yourself too much."

Yan Wenxi's words of reassurance felt different in Yan Wenxi's ears.It was he who made Zhang Jingtang blind, disfigured, and amnesia, and also fell into such a madness. Now, no matter how sad and self-blaming he is, he can't turn back the time and relieve Zhang Jingtang's pain, but Zhang Jingtang is still afraid of his self-blame and worry, so he turns to comfort him.

"A Tang, A Tang." He yelled twice, holding Zhang Jingtang tightly, not knowing how childish he looked at the moment, all he knew was that he was angry with himself while whispering, "I will definitely cure you, do not worry."

Zhang Jingtang also turned around and hugged him, and responded softly: "Okay."

Feeling the warm body temperature in his arms, listening to Zhang Jingtang's reassuring words, and knowing that Zhang Jingtang didn't think of the memories a few years ago and hated himself, Yan Wenxi finally relaxed a little at this moment, and the fatigue of staying up all night immediately hit him .

"Xingzhou?" Zhang Jingtang sensitively sensed Yan Wenxi's change, he pushed Yan Wenxi away, carefully checked his face, saw that his eyes were red, his eyes were light blue, and his face was haggard, so he said in surprise, "Why are you so tired? Did you not sleep all night?"

After all, Zhang Jingtang hurriedly moved back, vacated half of the small hospital bed, and then pulled Yan Wenxi, wanting him to come to bed too, and persuaded: "If you are sleepy, just sleep here for a while, don't get tired gone."

Yan Wenxi didn't move, and only said: "Don't you want to leave the hospital early? I'll call the doctor right now, and I'll rest when I get back..." I can't go back to my place for the time being, and now I can only bring Zhang Jingtang back. Let's go live in the Yan family's main house for a while.

"It takes a lot of time to run around, so you can just sleep for a while." Zhang Jingtang insisted, and said, "I don't hate this place so much, let alone you are here." Said Finished, he pursed his lips and smiled.

Hearing that Zhang Jingtang cared about him so much and relied on him, Yan Wenxi was naturally happy in his heart. With Zhang Jingtang's good intentions, he was really tired now, so he stopped insisting, took off his shoes and lay on the bed.

Because the hospital bed was single-person size after all, it was a bit crowded for two grown men to lie side by side, so he took advantage of the situation and hugged Zhang Jingtang tightly beside him.Almost half of Zhang Jingtang's body was lying on him, and his head rested on Yan Wenxi's chest, feeling the regular vibrations in his chest, and his sleepy brain was a little confused again.

Zhang Jingtang, who was about to fall asleep again, murmured in a low voice: "Sleep, when you wake up, take me home..."

The word "going home" is really wonderful and warm. Listening to Yan Wenxi, a feeling of warmth flooded into his heart, as if he had erased all other troubles from his mind. He gradually relaxed his body and consciousness. The sound of breathing, also fell into sleep.

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This hospital is a private hospital opened by the Yan family. Apart from receiving guests who are willing to exchange high prices for more attentive services, it is also responsible for the medical support of the Yan family, especially those wounded who are inconvenient to go to the public hospital when the black part of the Yan family fights. Of course, high-quality private medical services will also be provided to the Yan family and those on the VIP list.

When Yan Wenxi woke up, it was already night. Since there was not much time left, the doctor simply gave Zhang Jingtang some physical examinations and allowed Zhang Jingtang to be discharged from the hospital.As for other examinations related to Zhang Jingtang's treatment, the hospital will arrange experts to be invited in the future, and then give Zhang Jingtang a more comprehensive and detailed examination.

The two bodyguards had been guarding the corridor, and Yan Wenxi followed wherever he went. At this moment, Yan Wenxi was about to leave the hospital and go to the Yan family's main house. One of them immediately went to the underground parking lot to drive the car out, and picked up at the entrance of the VIP passage of the inpatient department. They got together and drove to the villa area on the outskirts of the city.

Yan Wenxi called the main house on the way, and first ordered the housekeeper to let the kitchen cook some light food, most of which were Zhang Jingtang's usual favorite dishes, and also specially ordered to cook two bowls of ginger soup, and then asked someone to transfer the call to the elder brother's place study.

Hearing that Yan Wenxi was going to bring Zhang Jingtang to live in the main house, Yan Wenhao was indeed a little surprised, but he didn't ask the reason immediately, but asked him to come to the study alone to find him after he came back.After hanging up the phone, Yan Wenhao immediately dialed the internal line again and asked the housekeeper to put an extra set of toothbrushes, bath towels, pillows and other utensils in the second young master's room. He also specially confessed to put a box of condoms and lubricant in the bedside table.

I am really a good brother who takes care of my younger brother.After Yan Wenhao put down the phone, he thought proudly, and then picked up the last quarter report of a certain subsidiary of Yan's and looked at it.

And when Yan Wenxi took Zhang Jingtang home, hot food had already been set up in the dining room, light vegetable and egg flower porridge, accompanied by some appetizing side dishes, even Zhang Jingtang ate two or three bowls.After drinking the ginger soup, Yan Wenxi took Zhang Jingtang back to his room on the second floor, and asked him to go to the bathroom attached to the room to wash up before going to bed, while he turned around and went to the study at the end of the corridor.

He knocked on the door twice, and when he heard Yan Wenhao's answer, he opened the door and walked into the study, then closed the door and locked it.Looking at his posture, Yan Wenhao guessed that he should have something to discuss with him, so he put down the documents in his hand, got up and poured Yan Wenxi a cup of tea, and then sat with him on the sofa by the window.

Yan Wenxi drank tea slowly, looking worried, but kept silent.Yan Wenhao was not in a hurry to urge him, but waited patiently. He remembered that Yan Wenxi was like this when he came to talk to him about Du Mo several years ago.

A cup of tea was drunk to the bottom by Yan Wenxi, and Yan Wenxi put down the cup. After thinking for a while, he decided to get straight to the point: "Brother, do you still remember the first time Du Mo took another man home to fool around a few years ago?"

Yan Wenhao raised his eyebrows. He didn't expect Yan Wenxi to mention Du Mo at this time. He was a little surprised, but he still nodded and said, "You asked Ah Heng to investigate this matter. He told me. Why, is there a problem?"

"The one he brought home..." Yan Wenxi paused, he really couldn't say the word MB, so he changed his subject, "The bar master is Zhang Jingtang."

"That's it." Yan Wenhao responded meaningfully, "So?"

Yan Wenxi scratched his hair irritably, with a tangled expression, he said, "I don't know... I've always felt wronged for A-Tang, he's so good, why did he encounter these things, and now I realize that it's all my fault..."

Then he babbled about Zhang Jingtang's story, how he saved himself who was injured and comatose, how he got along with him in the small town, how he comforted himself when he was desperate... how gentle he was to himself when they were dating Nostalgia, how much I feel sorry for him - but in his lost memory, I am the violent bastard.

"Brother, I dare not tell him the truth. I am afraid that he will hate me and alienate me if he finds out." Yan Wenxi finally supported his forehead and said helplessly, "I don't want to lose him..."

Yan Wenhao had been listening to him silently, until then, he said, "Wenxi, I don't think it's a good idea to hide it from him."

Hearing the elder brother speak, Yan Wenxi raised his head in a daze, as if Yan Wenhao had said the same thing many years ago, but unfortunately he didn't listen to his elder brother's opinion at that time, and insisted on going his own way. Now that he has been taught a lesson, he couldn't help but want to obey his elder brother's words, he asked: " Do you? You think I should tell him the truth? But I..."

Seeing that he was so worried about gains and losses, Yan Wenhao knew that his younger brother really cared about Zhang Jingtang, so he said further: "Back then you could take all the responsibility on yourself, why don't you even have the courage now?"

Hearing this, Yan Wenxi compared the current life with the good life of the past, and finally shook his head and said: "It's been so many years, I probably have changed, maybe I have really become a coward emotionally."

"Do you really think this can be kept a secret for the rest of your life?" Yan Wenhao continued, "If you find an expert to treat Zhang Jingtang, what if he remembers it during the treatment? Do you think it's better for you to tell him yourself, or to wait? Does he remember well?"

Without waiting for Yan Wenxi to answer, Yan Wenhao continued: "If you say it now, the initiative is in your hands. If he thinks about it, you will be passive. What's more, he is interested in you now, and he doesn't remember what happened at that time. His heart is more likely to be biased toward you."

Listening to his elder brother's rational analysis of the pros and cons, Yan Wenxi didn't know what to say for a while. After a long while, he said, "That's not how it works... If he can't remember it all the time, that would be better. Why bother..."

Yan Wenhao sighed, interrupted him, and continued: "When did you become a lucky person? Then I won't analyze it rationally with you, but just talk about feelings. You also know that you can't forgive him, and you can't help him." You blame yourself and regret it, but if you hide it from him, even if he can't remember it for the rest of his life, will you be worthy of him?"

"I……"

"Since you have a heart for him, you should tell him the truth. If you choose to hide it, then you will never be forgiven by him, and you will feel more guilty for lying. Tell me, you really want to respond with such feelings Him? Living a 'good' life with him in deception?"

Being speechless by Yan Wenhao, Yan Wenxi looked at the elder brother in front of him, and finally laughed at himself.

"Brother, thank you, you taught me the right lesson." He said, "Actually, it's not that I don't know these truths, but I care too much about it, and I don't have the courage to tell him."

"Okay, think about it carefully, what you do in the end is up to you, and I won't say these words again." Yan Wenhao patted him on the shoulder and said, "Since you have something on your mind, I won't take anything else. I have something to bother you. But I only give you three days, no matter what the result is after three days, you cheer me up, I still have business to discuss with you. "

"En." Yan Wenxi responded, finally showing a little smile.

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Sorry for being suspended for a few more days_(:3」∠)_

This week's English term exam and defense are coming together, so there is not much time QAQ

Finally found time to write a chapter hehe~