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What are you doing? It's been almost half a year since I served a dish.Ouyang Yi said loudly.What's your name? There are still a few dishes. You can serve these prepared ones first, Ouyang Yi's mother said.I'm hungry, no, okay, I'll take it.Ouyang Yi said straightforwardly.I can't help but look at Ouyang Yi. He has a carefree appearance, and his personality is kept at a temperature of more than 20 degrees all the year round. Few people can really walk into his heart. The key is the warmth he gives me, like three or nine days. It's just a pity that the warm water bag will cool down one day.Ouyang Yi also looked at me at the same time, I saw my helpless expression in his pupils, he frowned, and when he was about to say something, he was interrupted by Ouyang Yi's mother's urging voice.I really seem to be back in the morning, when I was sitting face to face with him in the early morning, he rested his chin in his hand, staring at me tenderly, and I also looked at him, as if that time was stilled, like being caught frozen fish.

Sure enough, you can't have your cake and eat it too, this relationship has become a deal, and the person who sells his soul and the devil makes a deal, and he will be tortured in shackles all his life.Auntie, I will separate from Ouyang Yi, but my mother needs a good heart surgeon, and my mother is in urgent need of surgery, I said to her.I saw a genuine smile on her face, a smile of success, as if she were trying to free her son from the devil's den.

In fact, I am not the protagonist in TV dramas who give up love and give up my dignity. I am just a coward. If you tell me in advance that this thing is not something I can touch, then just pretend that I have no self-knowledge.The end of this meal is like the end of a century of war, just like a mime actor being squeezed out by a colorful TV series. In the end, the differences between you will be expressed in thousands of details and people's mouths.If I can't have it, then I will end it in my own way.

Auntie, I will go, and you don't need to take care of my mother's affairs.I stared at the text message in a daze.After hesitating again and again, with a swipe of his fingertips, he finally sent it out.When the phone rang, she found out that Ouyang Yi's mother didn't trust me to do this, and was afraid that he and I would resurface.Sure enough, it was like this.Just like you let a person keep a secret, you must give that person some benefits because that benefit is your sense of security. You always think this way, and you won’t announce those things after you get the money.Although this kind of thing often happens in coal mine accidents, from a psychological point of view, this is a sense of security, which is exchanged for money.Auntie, just tell Ouyang Yi that I took your money and left. I believe he won't come to me again, and of course I won't go back to him. Don't worry, Auntie.When doing a ridiculous thing so seriously, there is nothing left but helplessness.

The night before I left, I sat on a chair outside the canteen downstairs and saw the afterglow of the setting sun, but it was still so dazzling, so I blocked the sun with a beer bottle. The sun is huge, but the distance shrinks its size.

I don't know if Ouyang Yi has ever looked for me, or if he wants to.But after he knows the "truth", he will definitely not look for it.I turned off my phone, and I couldn't take Li Yatong to wander around with me, so I had no choice but to send him back to his relatives' home, but he is going to university soon, and he will live in the senior year of high school, so Ouyang Yi will take care of him.Cutting off contact in the current era is actually really simple, just change a mobile phone number, which is tied to Alipay, Weixin, QQ, etc.

The heating in the house in winter not only evaporates the water vapor in the room, but also evaporates those uncertain ambiguities.No one knew when I left. I was like those ordinary people who travel north and south. Everyone sat in a seat with a different number. Everyone had different thoughts, but they were still able to talk freely, maybe It's because I'm too young to do anything, and I still can't see it after all.Maybe they have experienced the love and hate in our eyes, maybe they will be like me, maybe their current husbands are not the sweet first love at the beginning, maybe they have become numb because of the experience It may be too painful, so I don't want to open the scabbed scar again.Watching the train conductor pushing the small truck to sell in the narrow aisle, I closed my eyes, and only heard the train slowly heading south.very nice.It's really good, it's easy because I know it's a getaway with no one chasing me.

When I arrived in City W, I changed my new number.Go directly to Liu Feier.Although I haven't seen him for two years, his appearance is still fixed in my mind with the cuteness and handsomeness of his childhood.When I arrived at his house, I was not polite either. I went straight to the living room, opened the refrigerator, took a bottle of beer, found a cup, poured it into the microwave, and twirled it in the microwave for 2 minutes.Nested on the sofa, picked up the glass of warm wine.Smell the wine across the throat, as if the body came alive again.Yu Yi, are you okay?Fei Er looked at me with twinkling eyes. The winter in City W seems to be more difficult than the summer. The north is dry and cold, but the south is really cold.Fei'er turned on the floor heater, and said, Yu Yi, auntie, is about to die, even if a good doctor comes this time, because the complications in her body are getting more and more serious, so the doctor said to,,,.Before he finished speaking, I said, I understand.Yi, while Auntie can talk now, let's go see her tomorrow as soon as possible. After Auntie enters the ICU, she won't be able to get in.Alright, Feier, I understand, thank you so much these past few years.Yu Yi, if you have something to say, you can say it, after all, we used to, so it's better.Feier, I know birth, old age, sickness and death are inevitable, but all I need is time.The one you like?Feier asked me.separated.I simply answered.Fei Er stood up and patted my back.I smelled the fragrance of Fei Er's body.The people I like can never escape two points, one is the eyes and the other is the taste.Fei'er's eyes are rare and deep, it's just that he has that kind of fluffy hairstyle that looks parted in the middle.Unlike Ouyang Yi's warm smile, Fei Er is like the sun in winter, while Ouyang Yi is the scorching sun in summer.I am a child who cares about gains and losses. I have been caressing since I was a child.When I was a child, because I accidentally heard my parents talk about the word divorce, I stood on the bed all night and stayed up all night.But I got up early and went to school.What I need is always to be ready for the loss. When I get it, I have to be ready to lose it. I have to think about the expression I should make when I lose it. When I get someone or something I don’t want to lose, I will become cautious. , speak carefully.That's why I live so tired.What I envy is not the life of those rich kids, what I envy is the attitude of those who live in misery but still have such an optimistic attitude.

Feier, I'm tired.I grabbed Fei Er's hand that patted my back, and then pulled him down into my arms.He looked at me blankly, a little at a loss.Yu Yi, it's not your fault.I know, Fei'er, it's never my fault, but it's always my fault.When I saw Fei Er's white teeth and red lips opening and closing to comfort me, I couldn't help kissing him.When my tongue drove straight into his mouth, he blocked it with his teeth.I didn't care, just like this, Fei'er finally realized it, and opened his mouth, our body fluids were exchanged, but I felt more and more empty.I slowly backed out, seeing Fei Er's red and swollen lips, I smiled foolishly.Said, Feier, I just wanted to kiss you like this at the beginning, just like this, but you were like this kiss from the beginning, I was timid, so I left.I smiled and laughed, and the tears flowed down unknowingly, and flowed to my ears.Feier, are you crying?I asked him.Yu Yi, cry, it's fine if you cry.Fei'er, I didn't shed tears, but you did.Feier, why are you crying?I raised my hand to touch Fei Er's face, but it was dry.I was suddenly frightened by myself, and I heard Feier say, Yu Yi, since you can't let go, why not go find him.I can't go, I can't go to him, you don't understand, I don't love him, I shouted at Feier hoarsely, then grabbed the unfinished wine glass and threw it on the ground, suddenly I fainted When I passed by, I saw many figures shaking in front of me.

You're gay, you're the murder of a high-spirited college student.You killed someone, so shameless.Then there is the scene of Yu Yi's mother crying.Such pictures have been running back and forth in my mind like a revolving lantern.No, it's not my fault, it's not me, it's them, those people posted it online, it's not me.I waved my hands desperately and struggled.Yu Yi, Yu Yi, wake up, I heard Fei Er calling me and shaking my body.I stood up suddenly, it turned out to be a dream.Feier, what's wrong with me?I saw me lying on Feier's bed.You were emotionally unstable last night, and you fainted when you got up.My mood has slowed down.Feier, I want to see my mother, Feier, I want to see my mother, can you take me there?I took Fei Er's hand.Feier looked at me with firm eyes and said yes, I will take you there.After getting in Fei'er's car, I forgot to go to the hospital. Fei'er, we don't seem to be going to the hospital this way. I saw Fei'er driving the car to the suburbs.Until one of them said Haiyuan Cemetery in large characters.It turned out to be a cemetery.Fei'er, aren't you going to see my mother?Well, Fei Er responded.I saw that Feier's eyes were full of sympathy.I didn't dare to look into Fei'er's eyes, as if I opened my mouth but couldn't open it.It wasn't until Feier took me to my mother's grave that he hesitated to ask Feier, did my mother die when I was in Beijing?Feier said, Leyang, don't you remember?My aunt passed away four years ago.I looked at Fei Er in shock, you are lying, this is fake, this is not my mother, my mother is in the hospital, I want to see her.I turned around and was about to run away, but Fei Er stopped me.Said, Li Leyang, how long are you going to escape.Li Leyang?Li Leyang?I?I'm Li Leyang?Suddenly I felt like my brain was about to split open, and I fell to my knees.My head was dizzy, and I opened my eyes to see a person standing on the roof. That person was wearing a white T-shirt, turned his head to me, smiled at me, and fell down.Don't, don't, I yelled, Yu Yi, don't, I ran downstairs, hugged Yu Yi who was lying in a pool of blood, and yelled hysterically, begging others to save Yu Yi.Can you save Yu Yi, please?As long as you can save him, I promise I won't love him anymore, okay?But what he got was ridiculed by others. If it weren't for you, he wouldn't be like this. Homosexuality is so disgusting, it really hurts others and yourself.At that time, my mother rushed from work and took me home.I dreamed that Leyang would cry to me again, and the more she cried, the more fierce she became.But I can't touch him.I just chased after him, and when I found out about the roof of my house, I wanted to accompany Yu Yi.So at that point, I'm going to jump, yes, I'm going to jump.But my mother heard the sound of the gate, and chased it out until she found me on the roof. I stood on the fence and whispered to my mother.Mom, it's not my fault, it's really not my fault.Son, mom knows it's not your fault, so mom won't force you, so mom will call your dad right now, didn't you like playing with dad the most when you were young?Mom doesn't stop you from falling in love with boys, as long as you come down, okay, kid.No, Mom, I have to find Yu Yi, he will be lonely.Son, you haven't thought about your mother, what will you do if you are the only mother?Mother.You have a father, but Yu Yi is alone.My child, my mother has no father, and my father has passed away because of illness.Because Karma told you that you were afraid that you would be sad, so I told you that your parents divorced. You have been sensitive and sensitive since you were a child, so I discussed with my father to hide it from you.When I heard this, tears were like the rain in the sky, and I shed them like a boy without an umbrella. I sobbed and screamed loudly.Can the child come down, I will accompany my mother in the future.Mother.Hey, son, good son, come down quickly.Mom, I want Dad, I want Yu Yi.I yelled.In the end, I was about to jump, but my mother came running like lightning to hold my back, but the center of gravity had already fallen outside, and my mother pushed herself down.There is already an air mattress prepared by 119 below, but because my mother is afraid that I will not fall on the safety cushion because the angle is wrong, finally.Even though she fell on the air mattress, my mother died because of the crushing injury caused by my gravity.

Leyang, get up.I stood up tremblingly, and saw a butterfly flying past my mother's grave. I pointed to the butterfly and said to Feier, Feier, do you know?The butterflies that fly here and there cannot fly over the sea.

Fei Er didn't even look at it and said, where do the butterflies come from in winter, today is your time for inspection, let's go.

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This chapter is the end chapter.For those who have been following my posts, no matter whether you leave a message or not, I can feel a kind of silent comfort and honor from the number of hits.No matter how well written or not, it is always over.But my creative journey will not stop.Many times I just want to express what I want to say in my heart.But it is always impossible to tell clearly.

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