Another day to try to feed my wife

He still doesn't quite understand why, as a mother, there is such a big gap between people.

Fragments about his mother and maternal love in his memory are always missing, and for a while, he even hated his mother.

Why did he choose to die in such a vigorous way, why did he choose to leave this world with him, but he didn't do it thoroughly.

He was left alone to live in this world, bearing the anger and injustice of grandma alone.

Gu Xiuzhi leaned on the bench with his eyes closed, feeling himself in a slumped predicament again.

Recently, it has been a long time since such a situation happened. He thought that he was getting better now, but unexpectedly, because of such a trivial matter, he suddenly collapsed.

There was no one around, Gu Xiuzhi sat for a while, but still couldn't get himself out of this emotion.

He knew it was not good to be like this, now he was in the hospital, outside, not at home, it was very dangerous for him to fall into this kind of emotion.

He tried his best not to think about it, but today Lin Hongxi gave birth suddenly and everyone was busy, so he couldn't make any more trouble.

He came out in a hurry in the morning, and he didn't have time to bring the medicine. This may be one of the reasons why he can't control his emotions now.

He sighed and opened his eyes, only to find that at some point, Lu Ye was standing in front of him.

"When did you come?" Gu Xiuzhi adjusted his tone and pretended to be relaxed, trying his best to keep his emotions in order, not wanting Lu Ye to see the clues and make him worry.

Lu Ye also put his hands in his pockets, and sat on the bench next to him, "Do you have something on your mind?",

"No." Gu Xiezhi shook his head quickly.

Lu Ye sat very close to him, almost shoulder to shoulder, looking a little intimate.

Lu Ye straightened his long legs and sighed, "Son, tell me what's going on, so that I can know what you're thinking right now."

"I don't want to see you like this alone." Lu Ye shrugged his shoulders, "It will make me look very useless."

Gu Xiuzhi turned his head and looked at Lu Ye's side face, bit his lip, "Don't think so, it has nothing to do with you. I just woke up too early in the morning, and I'm a little tired now."

Lu Ye suddenly turned his face away and met Gu Xiuzhi's eyes directly, "You know what? You are very obvious when you lie, you like to bite your lips, and you hesitate to speak."

Gu Xiezhi lowered his head and said nothing.

"Aren't you suffocated by yourself? You can carry everything alone."

Lu Ye pretended to be dissatisfied and said: "I'm in a hurry to be your confidant old sister, can't I?"

"Or it doesn't matter if you are not a person, just treat me like a trash can, or a tree hole. If you say a few words, I will pretend I didn't hear it, and I won't tell other children."

Gu Xixi stared at the ground, "Don't call me a kid, I'm an adult now."

"You said you were comparing yourself to Qi Qige, who is older?"

"In terms of honesty alone, you are not as good as Qiqiqi. Do you think the little girl is lying? If you look at you again, you won't blush when you lie."

Gu Xiuzhi opened his mouth, but did not argue in the end.

"Do you want to take medicine?" Lu Ye patted the pocket of his clothes. His hands had been in his pockets from just now. After saying this, he took out a small bottle of mineral water and a tablet of medicine from his pocket. .

"I didn't have time to take the medicine in the morning, I brought it with me." Lu Ye handed the water and medicine to Gu Xizhi.

He knew that part of the disease was psychological, and the other part was physical, and he had to take medicine scientifically to get better.

Gu Xixiu took his medicine and water, "Why did you bring this?"

"Because the brat is not worried." Lu Ye said concisely.

He knew Gu Xizhi's virtues, so since they started traveling, he carried the medicine he needed to take in each of his clothes. Control the dosage and frequency of his medication.

Gu Xiuzhi took out the medicine and put it in his mouth, unscrewed the bottle cap, took a sip of water, and swallowed it down.

"Okay, give me back the rest of the medicine." Lu Ye stretched out his palm and spread it out in front of him.

Gu Xiezhi returned the medicine to him, "Let's go in."

It's not a short time to go out, and it's time to go back.

Lu Ye stopped him, "Don't worry, we'll wait a little longer."

"Let's go in." Gu Xiezhi insisted.

Lu Ye insisted not to let Gu Xiuzhi go in, "I noticed that something was wrong with you when I was inside just now, if there are people or things that make you unhappy, we don't have to go in."

"Everything depends on your mood. You have to learn to be kind to yourself, and you don't need to do things that are considerate of others."

"You can just be yourself."

Gu Xixi sat back on the chair and remained silent for a long time, "Actually, it's not a big deal. I just got into a dead end and didn't care about other people's business."

"Then do you want to chat with me?" Lu Ye turned to look at him.

Gu Xizhi nodded with difficulty, "I suddenly thought of my mother just now, and I was wondering, did she have a hard time giving birth to me?"

"I've grown up so much, and I don't seem to have any good memories of her for me in my mind. I wonder if I was also held in her arms carefully when I was a child."

Lu Ye was silent, listening to Gu Xiuzhi seriously.

"You know what? I'm particularly afraid of any relationship of an emotional nature. Feelings are so fragile."

"I feel that family affection has become a... extremely unstable and unbelievable relationship, and other relationships scare me even more."

"The feeling of not being able to grasp it makes me feel very confused. It seems that it will disappear at any time, and it seems that it will only bring harm."

It was the first time for Lu Ye to hear Gu Xiuzhi open up his heart and say so many things. He knew that Gu Xiuzhi had many things in his heart and he was unwilling to confide in them.

"Sometimes, just, it's quite confusing."

"Sometimes it even feels like life is meaningless."

After Gu Xiezhi finished speaking, his emotions suddenly collapsed, he covered his face, and stopped talking.

Seeing Gu Xiuzhi like this, Lu Ye's heart felt like it was being devoured by densely packed ants, and it was painful.

"None of this is your fault, really."

Lu Ye slowly approached Gu Xiuzhi, stretched out a hand, wrapped him in his arms, patted his back lightly, coaxed him like a child, "It's okay, look, you are actually slowly Get better, right?"

"Aren't you trying to slowly accept me now?" Lu Ye kept patting him on the back, "Can you imagine before that you would travel with someone you didn't know for long?"

"You can feel it yourself, you are not the same as before."

"This change is a good start, whether it is fast or slow, but we are all working hard, right?"

Gu Xiuzhi leaned against his chest. He didn't really want to cry. Most of the time, he would hold back his tears. When he told Lu Ye about his thoughts just now, he didn't want to cry at all. It will bring him a dull pain, more confusion and numbness.

But at the moment when Lu Ye took him into his arms, he suddenly wanted to cry without disappointment.

But he still held back.

He lay in Lu Ye's arms, silently without speaking.

Lu Ye saw that Gu Xingzhi didn't break free, so he hugged him even tighter, and slowly followed his back, comforting him like a small animal.

After a while, Gu Xiuzhi broke free from Lu Ye's arms, "I'm fine, I'm fine, I was too emotional just now."

"It wasn't that you were too emotional just now." Lu Ye grabbed his wrist, "Don't try to attribute all the mistakes to yourself. There are many things that you can't do anything about. You are just a victim."

"Don't attribute your normal expression of emotions to being emotional, it's just a way of expressing emotions." Lu Ye looked at Gu Xiuzhi seriously.

"In the future, whenever you have any discomfort, try to talk to someone else, and don't hold it in your heart alone."

"Talking will only make you better and better, don't think it's a bad thing."

"As long as you need me, I'm always there."

"As long as you want to talk, I will always listen."

Gu Xizhi was silent again, and then said: "Thank you."

"Let's go up." Gu Xiezhi added another sentence.

Lu Ye let go of his wrist and planned to go upstairs with him.

The obstetrics and gynecology department is on the second floor. They didn't plan to take the elevator and wanted to go up. When they reached the stairs, Lu Ye suddenly said, "Gu Xiuzhi, you are going to be an uncle."

"Huh?" Gu Xiezhi looked back at him.

Lu Ye held the stairs with his hand, "Didn't you say it before? Let us be the children's uncles."

"I am the eldest uncle, and you are the younger uncle."

Gu Xiuzhi nodded slowly, indicating that he understood, but he didn't understand what Lu Ye meant, so he tilted his head and looked at him suspiciously.

"It's nothing."

Lu Ye really wanted to tell Gu Xiuzhi that he would come to the grassland with him sometime in the future.

It was still the two of them, it was still the grassland, maybe Qiqige had grown into a beautiful big girl at that time, they came back to see if the little nephew had grown into a handsome young man.

What's important is that they were still the two of them at that time, they didn't separate, they didn't go far.

It's better to be the relationship of the other party's boyfriend.

Gu Xiezhi didn't turn his head, took a deep look at Lu Ye, and said dryly, "Lu Ye, what is your capacity to accompany me now?"

He didn't know how much courage he mustered up to ask this question, but looking at Lu Ye's face, he really wanted to ask, even though his hands were sweating now, his heart couldn't stop skipping a few beats.

"Do you really want to know?" Lu Ye also looked back at him deeply.

Gu Xiuzhi swallowed, "Can you answer my question from last night first?"

When he woke up in the middle of the night last night, he was lying on the bed looking at Lu Ye on the sofa, and this question was always circling in his mind. He knew that he asked Lu Ye when he was drunk last night, and he also knew that he didn't answer.

It's very strange, he was obviously drunk and almost forgot everything, but he just persisted in remembering this matter.

"Let me tell you this," Lu Ye smiled lowly, then looked up at him, "I like you."

Gu Xizhi's mind went blank, he had this idea vaguely in his mind, but when Lu Ye said it himself, he had a different feeling.

"Staying by your side was initially as a friend, but gradually I was no longer satisfied with the relationship of friends. I can tell you that I liked you very early on."

"If you have to worry about one time, it's probably when you watch you play repeatedly for countless days and nights."

"All in all, I like you." Lu Ye looked at Gu Xiuzhi with burning eyes.

Waiting for his response.