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When my parents divorced, I was only four years old. They thought children didn’t understand anything, but I did. I remember how they quarreled and threw bowls and bowls. I remember being scared and hiding under the table, wanting to cry but not In the afternoon of crying and trembling, I remember that when my mother led me out of the gate, I looked back and saw the haggard father.

But do these matter?Their grown-ups wanted me to forget, so I deluded myself and pretended I never did.

My mother got married again soon, and the father she found for me was a good character, he was also very kind to me, and he always responded to my requests.

I also changed my surname, and my mother's surname is Ye.

I believe my mother is happy this time.

Later, when I was six years old, I had a younger brother, surnamed Gu, named Mu Ye.

Although he is a half-brother, I still like him very much. I lay on the corner of the bed and watched him sleep peacefully in the small bed. At that time, I secretly swore that I would take care of him for the rest of my life.

I looked at it for a long time, my mother was in confinement, at this time my father called me to eat, probably the sound of my promise disturbed Xiao Muye, he pursed his mouth, raised his hand and waved it, but his eyes were still closed with.

I was so frightened by his movement that I held my breath, for fear that he would wake up and cry.

Unexpectedly, he suddenly spit out a milk bubble, then opened his eyes and smiled silly at me.

"I like him, he is my younger brother, and I will take care of him for the rest of my life." I repeated it in my heart.

My father is very busy at work, and my mother also has a job, so he often leaves us alone at home, so his first speech and first walk were all completed under my witness.

I taught him to speak, teach him to walk, and when he grows up, he will become my follower - every child has unlimited energy and curiosity about the world, and little Mu Ye is no exception, he follows me I have visited every corner of the house, dangerous places that cannot be walked - such as stairs - he opened his arms and asked me to hug and carry, and every time I hugged that body full of milk fragrance, it seemed like Embracing the happiness of the whole world.

I have a separate room. He shares a room with his parents. His parents sleep on a big bed, and he sleeps on a small bed with guardrails beside the bed.My parents would take me from my room to theirs every morning before they left for work so we could see each other as soon as we woke up.I often wake up earlier than Xiao Muye. When I wake up, I support my head and wait for him to wake up. Then I change his clothes, wash him, and carry him downstairs for dinner.

Of course, I also have to go to school, so my dad will leave work early in the afternoon from Monday to Friday, and bring him to school to wait for me after school.Before he even started kindergarten, he was stumbling and running round and round on the playground, as if he had endless energy. When I was in the classroom, I could see the villain outside the window when I looked up. When the class appeared on the side of the playground, he would rush over and crash into my arms, leaving me with a transparent and bright smile.

I watched him grow up, and I grew up at the same time.I watched Xiao Muye grow from a milk doll who could only smile foolishly into a cool little doll, and slowly growing into a skinny boy like a monkey, who would never chase after him foolishly again. Behind me, instead, I always ran after him, worried that he would be bullied, worried that he would get into trouble and no one would clean up.

I remember when he was ten years old, he was blocked in the alley behind the school, holding back tears and going home, closing the door and crying and then hiding the soiled clothes - he is really not very good at hiding things, and I It was easy to find out, the next day I dragged a steel pipe to beat those bastards, my head was broken and my mother was beaten and scolded, and I almost got a penalty from the school.

I still remember one time when he sneaked to an Internet cafe while his parents were away, he got into a fight with someone there and was taken away by the police station.He didn't dare to call his parents, so he found me. When I rushed over between classes, he squatted in the corner aggrieved, and begged me not to tell my parents on the way back when I led him back——I agreed I couldn't bear it, so I told my parents that I skipped class and went to an Internet cafe to fight. I was almost beaten to death by my dad. In the end, he cried and said he did it. Behind him, he was only hit with a stick, and the rest of the sticks hit me.

But I'm going out to study.When my parents took me to the airport, he had to go to class and couldn't come, but no one thought that he would skip class so openly, took a taxi to the airport to find me, hugged me and cried a lot.

—Why are you crying so much?I asked him with a smile.

-Leave me alone!He wiped his eyes and yelled at me fiercely.

—Hey, well, brother will be back soon, you can cry less, brother is not here, no one will take the blame for you and help you fight.I patted him on the shoulder.

-knew!He glared at me again.

After I got on the plane, I was very worried. I turned on my phone when I got off the plane, and sure enough——

—Fool Mu Ye: I was beaten [crying] [crying]

I can't laugh or cry.

— Who told you to skip class, it’s not like I won’t be back.

He replied in seconds.

—Fool Mu Ye: If it were you, you would also be absent from class.

I was speechless at the time because what he said was true.I had to type-

- You know it hurts, apply the medicine yourself, there is a blue bag in your drawer, and the medicine is in it.

—Fool Mu Ye: Brother, how do you know where the medicine is?

—Idiot, of course I know that I put the medicine, the label is on it, look carefully, don’t apply it wrong.

—Fool Mu Ye: You are an idiot.

—Whoever is a fool knows, go to bed early at night.

—Fool Mu Ye: Fuck, I got it.

After studying abroad for a year, when he came back, he picked up the plane and wore a black windbreaker. He was so tall that he almost caught up with me.

"Mom and Dad are cooking at home and waiting for you." He strode over, the hem of the windbreaker raised an impatient arc, and he hugged me, "Brother, why did you come back?"

I patted him: "I'm back, get up."

His face was still buried in my neck, and his voice was unreasonable: "No."

I sighed in my heart—why did I cry again, it was so big, how much I must have been wronged.

When he was 16, I found a love letter in his schoolbag.

At that time, I was trying to start a business with someone else, and I was very busy every day. It was his rebellious period, and meeting him was always full of sex.

That love letter made me extremely uncomfortable, although I know that it is not surprising for a good and handsome boy like him to receive a few love letters, and it's not like I haven't received them before—but I just feel uncomfortable.

That was the first time I quarreled with him, and I got very angry—the previous quarrels were just petty fights, basically one-sided, he yelled at him, and I listened to him and then calmed down. Mao coaxes people.

As soon as he closed the door with a livid face, we started a cold war.Only then did I know my possessiveness towards him, I was afraid that he would not want me, and that he would be with someone else...but I couldn't do anything, even if I took care of him till now, even if I made up my mind to take care of him for the rest of my life.

I smoked a cigarette on the balcony that night, and I was on a business trip the next day.

Stay away.

I tell myself.

He didn't come to see me off.All I had with me was my luggage, because my parents had to go to work and I convinced them they didn't have to come see me off.

Originally, I expected to work in other places for more than a month, but in the middle of the circle of friends of a school girl, I learned that Mu Ye was injured in a school sports meeting and had a fractured right leg. Hurrying back, I didn't close my eyes for two days and one night, and when I appeared at the door of the house, I was embarrassed and sloppy.

My parents looked at me in surprise, Mu Ye almost jumped up, but was held in place because the hardware conditions did not allow it.I walked over with a gloomy face, read the medical report and checked again, and I was sure that there was no serious problem before I recovered a little.

He stared at me, and I stared back unceremoniously: You idiot, be careful and you will die.

My parents asked me, what about work?

I called someone to do it.

Why are you back?

Seeing that Gu Muye was injured in other people's circle of friends, he bought a plane ticket and hurried back.

Didn't tidy up?

Too late, is there anything to eat?

I'll cook for you.

No need, pour me a glass of water, I'm going to sleep for a while... I haven't slept for almost two days...

Gu Muye sat beside him heartlessly, looking at me with complicated eyes, but I just didn't want to pay attention to him.

How funny, my parents didn't tell me about his broken bones, and he didn't look for me like he used to. Finally, it was because of a circle of friends of a school girl that I found out.

He used to be such a crying person, he wanted to be strong, and he always acted like a baby when he was wronged.

When I wake up, we'll be back together.This awkward little wolf cub still looks aggrieved, as if I did something wrong.

Forget it, he said yes.

Anyway, I can't escape.

When I was 25 years old, my mother asked me to go on a blind date when she saw that I was not in a relationship, saying that if I didn’t, I would be a leftover man.

I am speechless.

When I arrive, I will be the fifth diamond king.

I had to use work as an excuse to escape the abuse from menopausal women.

When I was 27 years old, Gu Muye was 21 and fell in love in college. The other party was a short, round-faced little girl who was very delicate and cute.

My parents didn't know, it was Gu Muye who told me first.

I calmly wished him that he finally gave his first love, and then I went to my friend's bar to drink all night after get off work, and my friend finally couldn't stand it anymore, so he called Gu Muye to pick me up.

At three o'clock in the morning, when I got home, I went to the toilet and vomited.

Idiot, my surname is Ye, you are such a fucking idiot, Gu Muye, who still thinks about Gu Muye every day.In a daze, I laughed at myself fiercely.

When I woke up the next day, I had a splitting headache, so I simply relaxed and lay on the bed for a whole day, until I was about to die of starvation before getting up to find something to eat.

I've had stomach problems since then.

Isn't that right, working overtime on weekdays is a dog, eating irregularly for three meals, and always socializing and drinking, that time when I heard that Gu Muye was in love, I went to the bar and drank all night, I forgot that I hadn't eaten for almost a day... Su After getting drunk and eating cold food on an empty stomach, it's no wonder that there are no problems.

What an idiot you are.I took the disease report card and sneered at myself unceremoniously.

When Gu Muye was 23 years old, he took the girl home and said that the two of them were serious and wanted to keep going and get married.

I looked at the two of them with a smile, my heart was sour, bitter and sweet mixed together, I almost broke my heart and liver.

He plans to marry his first love, and I don't even have the chance to say "It's okay, I'll take care of you" domineeringly when he is broken in love, and I don't even have the chance to quietly move away and touch him with my lips when he's drunk and crying because of love. His brow—I don't even have a chance to live the rest of my life with fantasies and great comfort.

I knew that I was destined to be a witness at their wedding.

Indeed, Gu Muye got married at the age of 25. During the wedding, I wore the same suit as him, but instead of standing next to him, I stood beside the stage - I did become a witness.

I stopped almost all the wine that other people poured into him that day. He just blushed and led the bride's hand into the bridal chamber while everyone was booing and watching him off. Maintaining my demeanor—with red eyes, I watched them enter their happy place, and I just smiled, and without help, I called a valet and went back to my small apartment.

The day he married his first love was the day my first love died without a problem.

As memorable as it is worth celebrating.

Ye, you are a fucking idiot.

I laughed and fell on the bed, and took out two identical rings from my pocket.

That's it, tomorrow, I can go on a blind date without burden.