half paper youth

Sunday, November 2010, 8, sunny

It was a bit of a surprise to meet her today. I thought that according to what my classmates said, I wouldn't see her in a short time.When I saw her, I was a little scared.That's right, it's just fear, I'm afraid, one day in the future, will I be like her, the string breaks, floating in the air, with nowhere to fall...

Yi Yuanxin walked back to the classroom slowly. He hadn't eaten yet, but he was used to it. He always had to come to the classroom in the teaching building to feel at ease.It was only after I entered that I remembered—what are you doing by yourself?Just as he was about to take a step back, he bumped into a classmate who was about to enter the classroom behind him. Both of them didn't pay attention, and they were both a little embarrassed by this situation.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry!" Yi Yuanxin apologized before turning around. When he turned around and saw who it was, the scene was unexpectedly blank. He never thought that he would meet Mao Anni so soon—the patient students with depression.

She doesn't look any different from ordinary people, but the subtleties can still be seen - the dark circles under the eyes that the foundation can't cover, and the thin and distinct face.Yi Yuanxin didn't know whether he should look at her or not, he was afraid that if he looked at her, he would pay more attention to her, which would be impolite; but if he didn't look, it would be impolite to talk to others.

"Hi, Yi Yuanxin, long time no see." Compared to his bewildered look, Mao Anni looked more natural. This kind of her was completely different from the depression patient he had imagined.Suddenly, she felt that she shouldn't have this disease.Accompanying Annie is a female classmate, Yan Shuyun, who has the most popular mushroom hair nowadays and wears a pair of glasses, a liberal arts goddess who can't hide her temperament.

Yi Yuanxin's writing level has always been affirmed by Yang Fangxian, but compared with Yan Shuyun, he knows that the word "world of difference" cannot be overcome.In his eyes, Yan Shuyun is like Li Qingzhao in ancient times and Zhang Ailing in modern times. Only those who have seen her writing can appreciate such talents.But Yi Yuanxin will never be able to match, nor can he imitate.

"Go in, pack up early, and go have lunch together." Yan Shuyun smiled sweetly, Annie looked at her smile, and unconsciously followed suit, knowing that the relationship between the two of them was unusual without saying anything.Only then did Yi Yuanxin realize that he was still blocking the door, so he hurried out of the way, let the two of them in, and walked behind.The classroom at the moment is empty.

Yi Yuanxin went back to his seat to get some materials, and he could read while eating later, while Mao Anni asked aloud: "Yi Yuanxin, have you not eaten yet? Let's go together? It's so lively."

Yi Yuanxin raised his head and thought for a moment, but before there was a result, Yan Shuyun said first: "Let's go together, I recommend a very delicious steak restaurant, we can get a discount with our student ID card!" See Yan Shuyun was also so enthusiastic, no matter how difficult it was for Yi Yuanxin to refuse, it was the first time he had dinner with a girl alone.It would be great if Shan Ren was here, I'm afraid he won't be able to handle it.

"Let's go, Yi Yuanxin." He looked up and saw that they had arrived at the door, answered, picked up the study materials, pinched them with his fingers, and finally chose not to bring them.If you bring them, they will inevitably discuss a few times, although they all know that they are not learning for the sake of pretending, since they are eating together, don't think about anything else, he still understands this common sense of communication.

When he arrived at the steak restaurant, Yi Yuanxin took the menu and ordered one directly after looking at it for a long time. He actually doesn't like steak very much and is not used to using a knife and fork. "I'll pay." When the waiter handed over the bill, Yi Yuanxin was about to reach out to take the money, but a piece of Grandpa Mao floated past his eyes first.

"It's the first time we have dinner together today, so let me come. You can invite me back next time." Annie showed eight neat teeth and smiled in a standard way. Yan Shuyun could see that Yi Yuanxin was a little embarrassed , So he helped him out and said: "Okay, Annie is like this, every time you have dinner with someone, you have to treat people first, and you can treat her later. And you, what a trouble!" Yan Shuyun squeezed I just pinched her nose, but she also likes Annie's character, which is real and enthusiastic.

Yi Yuanxin saw that the two people on the opposite side were so natural, so he gave up. Annie and him are in the same community, and there will always be opportunities in the future.After sitting for a while, he was still a little uncomfortable. He didn't know whether it was because he was facing Annie or the girl.The two people on the opposite side often bowed their heads and whispered. He was very envious of such a best friend, and unconsciously thought of him and Shan Ren...

Yan Shuyun looked at Yi Yuanxin with erratic eyes, saw him lying on the table with both hands, and then remembered that he had accidentally ignored him just now, so he quickly found a topic to talk about: "Yi Yuanxin, you and Annie are in the same neighborhood. What?" Yan Shuyun drew his attention back as soon as she opened her mouth, and then replied: "Well, she lives in building 7, and I live in building 6, but they haven't visited each other yet." In the same neighborhood, when I was in the second year of high school, I ran into them by accident when I went out. I didn't know each other before, so I didn't have much friendship.

"That's quite a coincidence, our Annie is a silly girl! Can I ask you one thing? She is going to Shanghai in a few days, and I have already told the teacher that there will be homework materials for her, but there is no I’m from Xiaoshan, and it’s quite far away. I just need to bring it to her home, and her family will give it to her.” Yan Shuyun knew that Annie would not take the initiative to ask for help, and she probably did not. I want to ask myself, but after all, the two families are in opposite directions, so it is obviously more appropriate to find Yi Yuanxin.

Yi Yuanxin agreed without thinking too much about it. It's not a difficult task. Although he doesn't go home very often, his mother should come here from time to time, so just leave it to her.The mothers of the two seem to be more familiar with each other.

"Thank you, my deskmate will tidy up every week, and I will trouble you to bring it home when the time comes."

Annie's smile was as sweet as ever, and Yi Yuanxin watched her say nothing, then lowered his head and slowly enjoyed the plate of food in front of him.Annie will go to Shanghai, probably because of her illness.Although Yi Yuanxin is very afraid of this disease, the more he is afraid, the more he wants to understand the cause. He really wants to know why Anne suffers from depression.Eyebrows raised slightly, and from the corner of his eyes, he watched Annie chatting and laughing with Yan Shuyun like a normal person at the moment, then turned his gaze back, and rashly opened his mouth to expose other people's scars, which is not something he would do.

"How are you doing these days? Will you suffer from insomnia again? I think you still have heavy dark circles." He didn't want to pay attention any more, but Yan Shuyun brought up those taboos, taboos he thought.Annie gently picked up the noodles and took a sip. This question did not touch any sensitive nerves. Sometimes I can still get some inspiration in the evening, and I have written some short essays in the past few days, I will show it to you when I have time, and let you help me modify it and make a review!"

Yi Yuanxin looked at her chatting and laughing, and felt more and more that she was not like a patient, and gradually let go of that guard invisibly. "You, you! If you can't sleep, you have to find a way to sleep and write something!" Yan Shuyun blamed her slightly, Annie was like a child, and then acted like a baby to please her, Yan Shuyun still cared about her emotions, I dare not say more.Annie turned her head and looked at her dinner plate again, smiled slightly, and said to no one: "Thank you. In fact, I am really much better than at the beginning. Sometimes, you are too pretending not to care, and I feel pressure instead. Bigger. My family cares too much, and I am not used to it. Shu Yun, and Yi Yuanxin, it is most comfortable to stay with you like this."

Yi Yuanxin felt a little embarrassed hearing this, his indifference unexpectedly became the most suitable way to treat him, in fact he cared more than anyone else in his heart.He was afraid... that he would go down this road too!

This is not groundless. Since entering the third year of high school, he has been a little at a loss, and he has been unable to fall asleep at night.Although in the eyes of everyone, he is still the same, but in the deepest part of his mind, he has been shaken.I always wondered if I was going to be depressed, and thought it was ridiculous, so I just thought about it in my heart and never mentioned it to anyone.

Originally, if he didn't see Annie, he would still maintain his usual routine, but now, seeing him, that moment was like overturning the calm water in his heart, completely messed up!

"You guys are eating here too!" It was the first time that Yi Yuanxin was so looking forward to hearing this voice, it was low and gentle, and a little unserious.That was when Shan Ren just came out of the private room upstairs, he ran into the three of them.Seeing that Shan Ren wanted to chat with them, Zhongsun Gu went out alone.

Long accustomed to Zhongsun's aloofness and rudeness, Shan Ren took advantage of the opportunity to sit next to him at the same table, and said to him, "I wanted to go back and recommend it to you, so we can eat together next time." After talking with Yi Yuanxin Only then did he notice the two girls, and immediately greeted them naturally.

Sitting next to him, I feel that there is a barrier of peace of mind, separated by awkwardness and alienation.

"Is the squad leader going to wait here for Yi Yuanxin to finish eating before we go together?" Annie looked at the two opposite people with a smile on her lips. Her eyes were so strange that Yi Yuanxin was a little afraid to look at her.Shan Ren was heartless and didn't care about her expression. Looking at the girls passing by with umbrellas outside, he said, "It's hot outside! You can blow on the air conditioner inside. The school dormitory doesn't have air conditioners in the afternoon, so why not Stay here for a while."

Seeing his answer like this, Yi Yuanxin was a little relieved, he was really afraid of the nonsense of this tablemate who didn't know the so-called.He put the last piece of steak on the dinner plate into his belly, and glanced at Shan Ren, who read the meaning in his eyes tacitly and smiled back.

"You don't mind if I take my deskmate away first?" Shan Ren put his palms on the table and looked at them, his eyes were full of calculations, and the two people on the opposite side felt their backs go cold, and they didn't pursue his words Conflicting back and forth, he just nodded.When Shan Ren got the answer, he straightened his chest again, raised his eyebrows and looked at his deskmate, let's go!

But Yi Yuanxin felt a lot more relaxed when the show was going to be a full set, and he pretended to be serious and asked, "Why?" Shan Ren was stunned for a second by this question, followed by another chuckle.Under the watchful eyes of everyone, he directly grabbed his hand and pulled him up, "Let's go! I still don't believe you can't remember!"

With such a tugging, Yi Yuanxin was a little embarrassed, so he had to say goodbye to Annie and the others quickly, trying to break free from his hand, but he didn't expect that his hand was stronger than his own.The students around didn't pay much attention to their movements, Yi Yuanxin still lowered his head slightly as much as possible, looked at the hands he was holding, and tried hard to break free.While scolding him secretly in his heart, he was glad to have a reason to leave the restaurant.

During the few seconds of holding hands, looking at the back of his deskmate, feeling the warmth from his palms, his palms were slightly sweating, and his heart was inexplicably nervous.I also forgot about Annie's incompatibility on the other side.

The author has something to say:

In the past few days, it will be slower to conceive the following content. This chapter has been revised for a long time, and I am still not very satisfied.