half paper youth

Tuesday, April 2010, 10, sunny

Because of getting along with Shan Ren, I began to think about interpersonal relationships besides studying.It's like opening a window and discovering the thousands of worlds outside the window.I also gradually understood what Mu Gao was thinking in his heart.I want to apologize for my sluggishness, but I can't think of any other solution other than sorry.Some people are friends for life as soon as they meet, just like me and him.

After running two laps, the two slowed down and walked quietly, admiring the night sky where there was nothing.Shan Ren turned his head to stare at the person beside him. Although this person doesn't talk much and is very boring, sometimes his careless actions can touch his heart or make him happy.He doesn't need someone like himself, a complementary Yi Yuanxin is what he wants.

"To discuss something with you, Zhou Tai already knows about our relationship, and I also know about his situation. I'm thinking, should I tell Mu Gao, I didn't hide anything from him before." The balance in my heart has tilted, and now , Shanren has become his priority, and Yi Yuanxin will always seek his advice on everything related to him. This is the first step in his exploration of love.

Shan Ren was naturally very happy that Yi Yuanxin respected him so much, "You can find a time to talk to him, we are all classmates, we can't always be like this. I also want to thank you for your slowness, which gave me an opportunity." In the dark night, Shan Ren rubbed Yi Yuanxin's shoulder, and the two of them leaned together, whispering something that only the two of them knew, and slowly walked back to the dormitory.

Sometimes life is full of drama. When he was about to confess to Jin Mugao, Lao Ban announced the arrival of the first monthly exam.Maybe it's just an ordinary monthly exam, but the third year of high school has gradually become so busy that they have no self.Even the words he spoke to Shan Ren did not exceed a hundred sentences.

And this matter can't be explained clearly at any point. In this case, he wants to wait until the sports meeting to have a good talk with Jin Mugao.

Another point, Yi Yuanxin also can't understand, no matter how busy they are, there are always some people who have time to quarrel, go to the phone booth and so on between classes.He was curious, where did they find the time to complete the mountain of homework?No, he bumped into Bian Yifeng and Cheng Shiling at the end of evening self-study and broke up. Back and forth, the two had been together for less than two months.He still didn't realize how quickly the "breakup" happened.

Standing in a little embarrassment at the door of the office, he watched Cheng Shiling pass by him, while Bian Yifeng just stood there, indifferent.He didn't know what love was before, but now his little understanding made him open his mouth, "I still have to think about letting her be a little bit more tolerant of each other, isn't it?"

"Director, you don't understand, this time it's not my problem!" When Bian Yifeng thought of the note he just saw, the fire in his heart seemed to burn all his rationality, and his eyes were red.He leaned against the railing, letting the evening wind blow away his impulse, "Director, if you have a girlfriend and your girlfriend still misses other boys, and this boy is her ex, won't you be angry?" He now It's going to be green on top of your head!

Seeing Bian Yifeng's helpless appearance, Yi Yuanxin automatically brought him and Shan Ren in... No way, he believes in Shan Ren, and he now feels that his trust is enough to support these emotional factors. "You have to learn to trust her. Since you love her, isn't the premise that you trust her?" There is nothing wrong with Yi Yuanxin's words, but now that Bian Yifeng is burning with anger, how can he listen to it!Fortunately, he still had the last shred of reason, and said to Yi Yuanxin, "I'll go back and be quiet, and I'll be fine the next day."

Yi Yuanxin can only watch him leave, the relationship is a matter between two people, outsiders like them can't do much.As for himself, he still doesn't know much about it, so let's finish reciting the politics book in his hand first.

The school arranges the examination time two days before the sports meeting, which makes many students more excited.After all, after the exam, you can play at school for two days before going home.As for the senior high school students, apart from immersing themselves in their studies, they are already indifferent.Shan Ren is an exception.

As the vice-chairman of the student union, he lived up to his name. When it came to such a big school event, he was busier than the chairman, and the busier he was, the more excited he became.Not only that, as soon as the exam was over, he even pulled Yi Yuanxin over, pretending to help his deskmate.

"I'd better not go! I'm not from the student union, it's so embarrassing to stay there." Yi Yuanxin kept twisting his body, trying to break free from Shan Ren's shackles, but Shan Ren was stronger than him, walking all the way, Still he was pushing himself forward. "What's the matter? It's reasonable for me to ask my classmates for help! Ann!"

Between pushing and shoving, they had already arrived at the rostrum, where a group of classmates stood there, and saw their vice-chairman pulling a classmate towards him. "Is it all here? This is my classmate, who came to help me." Shan Ren put away his joking face when he walked in front of everyone, so serious that Yi Yuanxin didn't realize it, "Tomorrow is the sports meeting, today We have to rehearse the phalanx and bunting team for the last time, and the person in charge will manage it well; tomorrow the two students in charge of broadcasting will have to go through the script again, and who are the freshmen who joined the club? Stand in front and show me. This sports meeting is also used to evaluate you, if you do not perform well, you will be brushed off immediately."

After Shan Ren finished speaking, the first-year high school freshmen stood in a row, each of them looked like fresh meat, and Shan Ren lamented how time flies.When he saw Liao Yifan standing in the middle, a second of shock flashed in his eyes, and he immediately looked at the tablemate next to him. Yi Yuanxin had already seen it, and now his face was frosty, Shan Ren could only silently mourn for himself .Why didn't he take a look at the freshman list first!Even jumping into the Yellow River can't clean it up now!

To be honest, the first second Yi Yuanxin saw Liao Yifan, he didn't repel him too much, but for some reason, he secretly observed that person, and the way he looked at Shan Ren was so ambiguous.As time went by, he lost his face; besides, he also wanted to take back what he said to persuade Bian Yifeng a few days ago.Those who trust God, go away!

Shan Ren doesn't have time to explain to Yi Yuanxin now, he just hopes that that person can be more slow, and his jealousy doesn't reach the point of suffocating each other.And when he finished working around, he still found sadly that Yi Yuanxin had disappeared.

Where did he go?

Naturally, leaving this place that would make him look bad, because with one person, one look, he has mixed feelings, this is not the self he knows.Maybe he is also a little scared, afraid of seeing this side of himself, the side that is irrational and only angry.When he looked around the campus, everyone was accompanied by friends, and he felt lonely again.He never cared about these before, but now because of Shan Ren's intrusion, he... is at a loss.

It's better to go back to the classroom, Yi Yuanxin turned and walked towards the teaching building, at a corner, he accidentally saw Jin Mugao who was about to go to the cafeteria.He also saw Yi Yuanxin, they just stayed with each other for a second, and then acted separately.Yi Yuanxin felt that it was necessary to explain, so he walked over and said, "Do you have time now? I want to talk to you about something."

The evening light shone on the two sides, Jin Mugao turned to look at that person, did he still care? "Then go to the cafeteria." Well, he still cares, no matter how late it is, as long as Yi Yuanxin speaks, he will stand in the sunset, waiting for him to say something.

The person in front of him started to eat as soon as he finished cooking. Yi Yuanxin sat opposite him, but he didn't speak for a long time. Jin Mugao was not in a hurry, he ate slowly and enjoyed the little company.

"There is something I didn't tell you. It has to do with Shan Ren." Yi Yuanxin chose his words carefully. To his best friend, this kind of thing is actually a little hard to tell, especially after discovering his feelings for him, "I and Shan Ren Ren...together."

After finally saying these words, Yi Yuanxin only slightly raised his eyes to observe Jin Mugao's expression. The man's eating movements stagnated for a second, and the picture was still for a second before returning to normal.Perhaps, Jin Mugao didn't like him as much as he imagined, and he was a little lucky. Does that mean that he can still be friends?

"can you accept?"

They didn't pierce the layer of window paper, and Yi Yuanxin simply pretended to be stupid to the end.And Jin Mugao raised his head, staring blankly at the bowl of food in front of him that has lost its taste, "There is nothing unacceptable, it is impossible to control who you like." If he could control it, he would not like Yi Yuanxin up.

When he heard Yi Yuanxin's confession with his own ears, his bitterness gradually overflowed, and sure enough, he still missed it.Who can be blamed?He can only blame himself, he has never acted, he actually lives more restrained than Yi Yuanxin.As for the influence Shan Ren can bring to Yi Yuanxin, it may be difficult for him to achieve it in his life. How can the water in the two lakes stir up waves?

Yi Yuanxin breathed a sigh of relief again, "Are we still friends?" This is also the focus of his conversation today, he doesn't want to lose Jin Mugao as a friend, at least until their third year of high school is over.There are too many uncertainties in the future, even with Shan Ren, he has never conceived the future.

"Yeah." A simple answer, with a heavy back, he didn't want to say more with others, "I saw you just now, were you in a bad mood?" Talk about other things, and divert your attention for a while.

This problem aroused Yi Yuanxin's troubles again. Fortunately, there was Jin Mugao at this time, maybe he knew the solution.

"I don't know what to say. When I see Shan Ren with others, I feel uncomfortable. This should be called jealousy, but I seem to care too much, which makes me very uncomfortable." Because of my own reaction, let He denied what he believed in before. He knew that emotions were dominated by sensibility, but this was far beyond his own assumptions and disrupted his rhythm.

Jin Mugao understood all of this, he didn't want to give substantive suggestions, but as a friend, he couldn't help but say, "You should know the saying that it's hard to break housework with an upright official, and you have to figure out things by yourself. Don't worry." Confine yourself to the you of the past, people are always learning and progressing through groping, no matter which direction they are heading. If you believe in him, believe in yourself, just wait for him to explain, and then you can make a decision.” Jin Mu After taking the last bite, Gao added: "It's still the same sentence, let yourself really release, and be a sensual you."

They came out of the cafeteria. Coincidentally, they saw Shan Ren who was looking for someone in the blink of an eye. Jin Mugao looked coldly at the man who was at a loss, and took a step back silently: "I have to go out of school to buy paint for tomorrow. , you can do your work." He walked very gracefully, Yi Yuanxin didn't have time to look at him more, and his and Shan Ren's gazes intersected in the next moment.Before Shan Ren's qi was smoothed out, he ran to Yi Yuanxin's side, supported his shoulders, and gasped for breath.

"You...you listen to me...explain!"

Yi Yuanxin put his hand on the man's back, and patted him on the back, telling him not to worry, but Shan Ren didn't realize it, why is it different from what he imagined?At this time, shouldn't it mean not listening, not watching, not talking?Yi Yuanxin was so plain that he felt that he was just worrying blindly, and he felt a little lost!

"I didn't read the list of freshmen before, and I didn't know that Liao Yifan would join the student union. Don't worry, I will keep a distance from him. We are really just the relationship between the junior and the senior!" He still wanted to say. He said that he didn't want to create a rift with each other because of this matter, maybe Yi Yuanxin thought the same way, so he didn't lose his temper with him.

Yi Yuanxin walked with him on the tree-lined path, watching the sky getting darker, he nodded slightly, he had to learn to cherish these few years, and he only understood half of Jin Mugao's words.The two shadows, parallel to the ground, did not intersect until they disappeared, and Shan Ren looked at him without any waves, with mixed joy and sorrow.

After leaving school, Jin Mugao, who was alone, began to be confused again. He will be alone in the end.Walking to the nearby stationery store, he put aside his intertwined emotions. He remembered that there were Winsor and Newton paints sold here. Naturally, good paintings need good paints.

When he walked around the store but didn't see it, he came to the counter and asked, "Hello, do you sell Winsor and Newton paint?" The clerk looked up and replied, "Sorry, the last box was bought by this Mr. Wei bought it, and the newest ones will arrive tomorrow."

Jin Mugao turned his head to look at that person, and he also looked over, and they met each other's eyes, a trace of surprise flashed in Jin Mugao's eyes, it was him!

"In this case, I'll leave it to this little brother. I'll come back tomorrow." The gentleman took out the box of paint from the bag and handed it to Jin Mugao, but Jin Mugao didn't take it. Besides, we are just using it to draw class posters, so it doesn’t need to be so good.”

"It's all about painting, and every painting deserves the best. If you are in a hurry, I will give it to you first. Okay, goodbye." The gentleman smiled softly, said goodbye to him, turned and walked out the door, and never saw him again. His back.Jin Mugao looked at the watercolor in his hand and smiled knowingly. The gentleman just now was his idol, March.

It is no coincidence that there is no book, and I will meet him here, an eclectic painter who paints everything.