half paper youth

Sunday, February 2010, 11, overcast

Ask me now to look back at what it was like to get drunk for the first time, and all I can say is, it's blank.I drank too much at that time, except for the taste of the wine, I don't remember anything after that.I am also very grateful to Mugao. When I was in a low point, he was by my side, took me to experience a different life, and let me free myself.Because of him, I thought of that guy in junior high again, and suddenly wanted to know where he is now, and how is he doing?I don't know if we can meet again.How can I say hello naturally when I say goodbye?

Yi Yuanxin got up from the sofa in a daze, and felt much better after a night of sleep, probably because he didn't drink much.At that moment, he swore secretly in his heart that he would never touch alcohol again in his life. It would not be a good thing for him to be broken after drinking.

He leaned on the sofa for a while before he realized where he was. He immediately sat upright, looked around, and didn't know where it was. It took him a long time to notice a person sitting in the corner.

"You... have been sitting here waiting for me?" Jin Mugao sat there motionless and looked at him who had just sobered up. After making sure that he was fine, he moved his body and stretched. Yi Yuanxin looked at his body Action, very owed, said: "I'm sorry, let you bother."

Jin Mugao shook his head and asked, "How is it? Can we go?" Yi Yuanxin stood up slowly and took two steps. When he was all right, he said to him, "What time is it? We can still go back School?"

"It's almost one o'clock in the morning, and it's impossible to go back to school. I'll take you to a place."

It was already one o'clock, and he had slept for eight hours, which was too much for Jin Mugao, so Yi Yuanxin silently followed behind him, following his arrangement.

"Then where are we going now?" Jin Mugao took him out through the back door, the two stood at the intersection and looked at it for a while, Jin Mugao then pointed in the direction, and he took advantage of the opportunity to look - Aegean Sea... hotel!

Well, I must have been accustomed to being influenced by Shi Baishu, and now I can't look directly at the word hotel, and then Jin Mugao said: "Have you been to the Internet cafe?"

In fact, the room at the back of the hotel was what Jin Mugao was referring to.Yi Yuanxin had a brainstorm and didn't react in time. Knowing that he had misunderstood, he hurriedly said, "I've been there!" When he was in junior high school, he was taken in by his classmates, but he thought the smell of smoke was too strong, so he came out within 2 minutes.

"Let's stay in the Internet cafe tonight until tomorrow morning." After finishing speaking, Jin Mugao walked over first, and Yi Yuanxin hurriedly followed.A person happened to pass by the intersection at this time, saw Yi Yuanxin's back, and felt quite familiar, but then saw that this was a bar, it was impossible for that person to come out from here, so he thought he was wrong, and followed his friend Continue to go inside.

After arriving at the Internet cafe, after Jin Mugao asked about the price, Yi Yuanxin paid first. He was the one who invited him to drink just now, and Yi Yuanxin felt sorry for asking him to pay for it.Jin Mugao didn't stop him, so that there would be no burden for each other.

Jin Mugao took the password and walked in, Yi Yuanxin frowned slightly after following a few steps... The smell of smoke was still unbearable.After Jin Mugao found the machine, he turned to look at him, and saw that he was covering his mouth with his hand, so he understood what was going on.

"Slowly get used to it, sit down, do whatever you want, lean back and rest when you're tired." Jin Mugao took his seat casually, completely indifferent to the surrounding atmosphere, Yi Yuanxin listened to his words, He put his hand down and sat next to him, trying to adapt.

He had been in an Internet cafe before, but he only stayed at the door for a while, and he had never seen anything inside. There was a different mouse and a keyboard that glowed, comparable to a TV display.He is like a young man who traveled from time immemorial, everything he sees feels fresh.The discomfort from just now was gone, and he was in this Internet cafe—looking at Conan...

"Actually..." Jin Mugao turned his head to talk to him, but he didn't want to see what he clicked on, and he didn't know how to continue.He thought that Yi Yuanxin would at least play some games, instead of watching anime so simply.

"what happened?"

"It's nothing, I'm just afraid you won't get used to it." Jin Mugao regained his indifference, "I just want to bring you to experience another life." Yi Yuanxin heard his tone slowly and calmly, and took off the earphones Next, listen to him carefully.Jin Mugao looked at the screen and quickly fell into deep thought, and then came back to his senses, today he did not make himself complain, he continued: "When I was outside and couldn't go back, I had nowhere to go, so I went to the Internet cafe at night Overnight. It only costs more than 20 yuan for the whole night here, which is much cheaper than sleeping in a hotel.”

Jin Mugao said this not to arouse his sympathy, but to state a fact. After hearing this, Yi Yuanxin immediately replied: "I will do the same in other places in the future. This is a good way!" Yi Yuanxin smiled slightly, and the two People with their own sad things use their own ways to make each other forget those pains.Jin Mugao recorded these bits and pieces one by one, and when he has the opportunity in the future, he will write on his pen to describe the colors he brought to himself over the years.

After staying in the Internet cafe for a few hours, Yi Yuanxin took advantage of the gap between video jumps and glanced at Jin Mugao who was next to him. He had already fallen asleep.The whole person leaned back on the soft chair, with his hands clasped in front of his body, as if protecting himself in it, even when he fell asleep, he was still on guard.He could imagine the days when he was out and about by himself.He seldom asked about it before, where Jin Mugao would go every holiday.The restaurants he saw during the summer vacation may be just the tip of the iceberg, or maybe he presented himself with the best side, while the other hard work, the more unbearable ones, were all hidden in the corner by himself.

At six o'clock in the morning, Jin Mugao woke up on time, saw that Yi Yuanxin was still watching the video, and asked, "You haven't slept all night?" He took off the earphones and didn't hear what he asked just now.The two looked at each other for a few seconds without speaking to each other, Yi Yuanxin moved his eyebrows, but Jin Mugao laughed for the first time because of his move.

Yi Yuanxin looked puzzled, although he didn't know what happened, but when he saw him smile, he also smiled for the first time this day.

"Let's go."

When they walked out of the Internet cafe, they thought they could see the sunrise, but they didn't want it to be a cloudy day, but this didn't hinder their mood. "Have you ever been to the mountain behind the school?" The two walked on the sidewalk, and Jin Mugao casually found something to talk about.And Yi Yuanxin shook his head, he didn't go out of the door, he didn't know much about it.

"Shall we go there for morning exercise?"

"Not counting morning exercises, just take a walk. From here, you can go back to school from the back mountain." Yi Yuanxin remembered that they took a half-hour car to get here yesterday, but they didn't expect it to be just another mountain.

After walking for nearly half an hour, Yi Yuanxin could already see the school at the foot of the mountain where he had stayed for almost three years.Jin Mugao saw that he was in good spirits, so he felt relieved to look around. The scenery here is quite good.In a big city, people who live here should be very happy to have such a place close to nature.

Every few steps, there are small villas built against the mountain. Each family has decorated the small courtyard in front of the door in a decent way, and planted some flowers and plants to match the hill.It was early morning again, and some pedestrians could be seen running and exercising everywhere, passing them, going up and down the hill.

That person passed by him, Jin Mugao didn't dare to look directly at him, and didn't say hello, watching him slowly running past.When he passed by, he pretended to look back unintentionally, and saw him stop in front of a house, and opened the door to enter.It seemed he didn't remember himself.

Yi Yuanxin saw Jin Mugao walking with his head tilted, so he pushed him, "Look at the road, what's the matter, what did you see?" Jin Mugao turned his head back, still thinking about that person just now, no Answering Yi Yuanxin, he just shook his head selfishly.Yi Yuanxin didn't pay much attention and continued his jogging.

After returning to the dormitory, after the two changed back to their school uniforms, Jin Mugao hurried out again. Yi Yuanxin asked where he was going, and he stood at the door and said, "I didn't go anywhere, I just remembered something and didn't do anything, hurry up and sleep Once I wake up, I will call you back later."

Seeing him leave in a hurry, it was important to think about it, Yi Yuanxin took the washbasin to the bathroom and wiped his body again, it was full of smoke smell, but he still couldn't stand it.

There is currently no hot water in the dormitory, so he soaked in cold water, wet the towel, and slowly wiped his body. Hangzhou in November was already a bit cold, and the biting ice water made his tired spirit tremble again.Staying alone in a dark bedroom can't help but make people cranky.Originally with Jin Mugao by his side, he would not think about what happened yesterday, but now when everything is calm, those messy thoughts crawled along his heels and filled his skin.

He supported the washstand, his eyes were empty, and he couldn't take it anymore, so he stuffed his whole head into the washbasin, let the clear water be cold, and just wanted a moment of peace.After a few seconds, he got out of the water again, and the water stains on his face flowed down. He was refreshed, but even more embarrassed.

He looked at the unsettled water and was in a daze for a while. After thinking about it, he decided to forget it. He poured out the water and prepared to go to sleep.Walking to the washstand, facing the window, he looked at the dark sky and the quiet campus, wondering what he was doing?It's almost seven o'clock now, he should still be sleeping, and thinking of his lying in bed, he smiled unconsciously.

He realized that he was laughing, maybe he was dazed, so he folded the towel in his hand again, put it in the washbasin, and glanced out again.Although he couldn't see the school gate from this angle, he could see the situation in front of the dormitory building. For a moment, he fantasized about whether Shan Ren would appear around the corner not far away, but this was just a fantasy.

But sometimes, the moment you turn around, you may encounter a miracle.

Shan Ren stood at the door, as if he had been watching him for a long time, as motionless as a mountain, which made him a little unbelievable. "Why are you here?" He watched Shan Ren walking towards the light, and felt for the first time that his appearance, with a different background, that expectation turned into reality, illuminating the small space.

"Do you want to hear the truth or a lie?" Shan Ren walked up to him and asked, and before Yi Yuanxin could speak, he continued: "The lie is that I can't sleep without you by my side; the truth is, I want too much is you."

Shan Ren stretched out his arms to hug Yi Yuanxin, holding him tightly in his arms, resting the tip of his nose on his neck, absorbing his scent, sure enough, it made people feel at ease and at ease.Yi Yuanxin had never hugged anyone before, especially him, which made this feeling even more shocking. He couldn't say it, he only knew that his mind was blank at the time.

Shan Ren also stopped talking, he actually arrived at the dormitory very early, just when Yi Yuanxin walked to the window to look at the scenery outside.When I first came back to school, I met Jin Mugao, and only then did I know that he was in the dormitory. Jin Mugao said that he wanted to accompany him to have a good sleep, but he only said this sentence, which made him uneasy for a long time.Did the deskmate stay up all night?

When standing at the door, seeing Yi Yuanxin standing in front of the window, that lonely figure made him suddenly feel distressed.It turned out that he was alone, such a scenery.

Shan Ren could see a part of his thoughts at that moment.The fool!Obviously caring about him going to meet others, but still pretending to be generous, thinking that she is the Virgin Mary!

It was this loneliness, this concealment, that made him feel even more distressed at this moment.

"I love you."

The three words that came out of nowhere were the truest thoughts in his heart, not confessing for the sake of confessing, but just declaring that in this life, he is doomed to fall.I don't want to see your lonely figure anymore, and feel sad alone.

From the very beginning, Yi Yuanxin didn't expect every word he said today, from the shock at the beginning, to now when he heard these three words, his heart was as still as water.I don't know how to deal with it, how to answer his three words.Although parents also love him, they won't talk about these three words.Others say that doing is more important than talking, but for lovers, sometimes talking is more straightforward than doing.

Only then did Shan Ren let go of Yi Yuanxin, wanting to see his reaction, but he didn't want to see his red eyes. He didn't care about the man's lack of response, but cared: "Why are your eyes so red? Are you really angry?" Didn't sleep all night? What did you do yesterday?"

His series of questions finally brought Yi Yuanxin back to reality. Yi Yuanxin just shook his head, not daring to look into the man's eyes. It still smelled like cigarettes. Yi Yuanxin had never smoked, so he must have concealed many things, but he didn't tell, and he didn't ask. It was his own fault in the first place.

"Let me sleep with you. I'll call you at ten o'clock, and we'll go out for dinner together."

Yi Yuanxin nodded, followed him to his bed and sat down.After Shan Ren made the bed, he didn't get down, but sat beside him, and he asked, "Are you going to sleep too?" Shan Ren helped Yi Yuanxin to lie down, "You didn't sleep well yesterday, and I told myself If you can't sleep without you, let's rest together."

Shan Ren closed his eyes first, Yi Yuanxin looked at his slender eyelashes, and stared at the corner of his upturned mouth, leaned over slightly, and left a kiss on the corner of his mouth, which was regarded as a response to those three words.Those three words are too precious, he hasn't decided whether to say them to him or not.If these three words are said easily, he doesn't know what changes will happen in the future.

With his eyes closed, Shan Ren's smile grew stronger. He knew that Yi Yuanxin still had some scruples, and he would wait until he completely entrusted himself to them. At that time, they would have no more problems.