half paper youth

There are not many happy times in leisure time. Exams are coming one after another. Counting with your fingers, the test papers that say more or less in this life are about to be finished. While feeling emotional, there is also a lot of pressure.

Being numb to exams doesn't mean you don't care.The test papers are layer upon layer, and what grows at the same time is the seemingly endless pressure.Yi Yuanxin, on the other hand, has already begun to hover on the verge of collapse.Since the third year of high school, his grades have not improved. There are many reasons for this. He also began to have to admit that being in love can be a distraction, which interferes with his original rhythm.

In recent days, not only him, but Shan Ren, who was closest to him, also felt something.Yi Yuanxin began to feel irritable, and sometimes even had small emotions. He began to have emotions like a normal person, and he was no longer that calm fake Taoist priest.He didn't care about Yi Yuanxin's changes. On the one hand, this might be a good thing.

Although he thinks so, Yi Yuanxin doesn't think so.Some people's world collapses only in an instant.

Especially when he saw his midterm exam results, for a moment, he wanted to leave this class, leave the school, and stay away from everyone.For those who have never experienced a trough, it is difficult to accept failure for the first time.Everyone is calm and calm, but he alone is heavy.

When the results were announced on Monday, there happened to be a physical education class that day. Thinking of this, Shan Ren had a plan in mind.He knew that Yi Yuanxin was not in a good mood now, and he didn't expect that Yi Yuanxin would fall out of the top 30, which was almost impossible!But if it has already happened, you must face it, and you can't choose to escape. If it doesn't work, then choose to forget it. One mistake doesn't mean anything.

As long as the sky doesn't fall down, there is no hopelessness.

The physical education teacher announced his dismissal, and Shan Ren looked for Yi Yuanxin among the dispersed crowd, but saw him from a distance, and he was almost walking out of the playground.Shan Ren quickly caught up with him, ran to his side and asked, "Where are you going? Aren't you playing ball?"

"You guys fight, I still have something to do." The tone of minus three degrees made Shan Ren a little frustrated, but he still stopped Yi Yuanxin and said: "If there is anything, we are in class. The women's volleyball team is about to start, and we have to Do your part! Don’t even think about doing any homework, the homework will never be finished, you might as well relax..."

"I said I have something to do, don't you understand!"

For the first time, Yi Yuanxin interrupted Shan Ren impatiently. He looked at the scene everywhere on the campus, but he didn't dare to look at Shan Ren. He tried to calm down and reduce the damage.

"Yuanxin, it's unnecessary." Shan Ren seldom called his name in private, and his gentle tone was unshakable, but he still didn't want to follow in the footsteps of others.Shan Ren looked at him with a stubborn expression, and said helplessly, "Let me help you sort it out, okay?"

Yi Yuanxin's face is still so cold, and even if he diverts his attention, the impulse of that moment still exists, "I know where the problem is, I am already an adult, please let me handle it by myself?"

"You know, the second I saw the grades today, I was thinking about something." Shan Ren looked straight at Yi Yuanxin. The first sharp knife in the hearts of the two, "I'm wondering if the relationship between us has caused some troubles to each other."

When Yi Yuanxin said this, he already felt a little regretful, but he had to continue. His head is really messed up now, and he needs to stay away from everyone.He is very grateful to Shan Ren for the happiness he has always brought him, but these happiness cannot be the reason to disrupt his rhythm, it will be a kind of harm to both of them.

"I'm sorry, let me just calm down by myself."

At this moment, he walked away without looking at that person again, still as unrestrained as at the beginning, Shan Ren was just a lover to him, that's all.

Shan Ren went to sit in the auditorium in a bit of desperation. He couldn't figure it out. He was so happy a few days ago and talked about everything with each other. How could he become so strange today, making it difficult for people to get close.Perhaps he had overlooked the position of achievement in Yi Yuan's confidence all along.From the very beginning, he made it very clear that they should communicate without affecting each other's results, but this time, he ignored the seriousness of the ranking of more than 30 people.

Sighing lightly, looking at the gloomy sky, he felt a little helpless for a moment, and felt a little pressure. The burden came from the same table, so what should he do?

When Yi Yuanxin went upstairs, every floor he walked, he felt a little more regretful. Was his words too harsh?In this world, the person he shouldn't hurt the most was also pricked by his thorn a few seconds ago.And now he only cares about himself, isn't he heartless?

In fact, he did have something to do, but the impulsiveness just now made him forget to explain and just focus on venting.Standing in front of the head teacher's office, he hesitated for a few seconds before pushing the door open.

Yang Fangxian was also a little surprised to see Yi Yuanxin, didn't he tell him to come back after class, so he will come now?But think about it, this kid has always been conscientious and abiding by his duty, and this time's results must have dealt him a big blow.Just like the first time Teacher Luo called him, Yang Fangxian also had the same concerns, fearing that it would hurt the child's self-confidence.

"Come here, sit down, you should know why the teacher asked you to come, don't be too pressured, just to chat." Yang Fangxian put away the lesson preparation book on the table first, took out the summary report of this time, first He smiled warmly at Yi Yuanxin, "Teacher, I won't talk about those nonsense, and I will directly analyze your situation this time. Let me talk about your long-term comprehensive essay first. Look, 256 points are still among the best. That's not the problem."

"However," the teacher changed the subject, and Yi Yuanxin looked at it more seriously, and his heartbeat gradually accelerated, "The test reflects your own learning situation during this period, but it is also used for comparison. This is unavoidable, you have to look at it." Looking at other people, this time everyone's comprehensive essays are generally good, and the teachers of all subjects have responded, saying that everyone is improving faster, which is not good for you in comparison. After all, you are using this item to gain points."

He basically thought of what the teacher said, and he also listened to what the teacher said later, but his heart was not as calm as before. "I'm not criticizing you by saying so much. To be honest, your failure this time will do you more good than harm. The teacher is not worried at all, but if you have such a situation in April next year, the teacher will also panic , everything is fine now. Just to remind you, there is still a chance for everything."

Teacher Yang was watching his expression all the time when he was talking, and he was naturally happy when the child listened, but he couldn't be allowed to receive these negative messages all the time.It is his responsibility as a teacher to clarify the pros and cons for him.

"Don't push yourself too hard because of this. To tell the truth, the teachers, including your parents, and yourself, have high expectations of you. In our class this year, you and the single boy are the only ones. Ren is hopeful to be No. [-] in the city, and even No. [-] in the province. Looking at the big picture, you are the most promising in the two classes. But don't confine yourself to that framework. As the saying goes, you can't eat hot tofu in a hurry. "

The teacher took another sip of tea and tried to present himself to the students in a relaxed state, so that they could talk as much as possible during the conversation, "Tell me about your own thoughts, what do you think is your problem?" He has always said that it has little effect and depends on the students themselves.

At this time, Yi Yuanxin was the most nervous moment. He was not good at words, and he didn't want people to know him too much, and he didn't want to confide his thoughts, so he couldn't answer the teacher's questions for a long time.It is often prevarication with absence or carelessness.

Seeing that he was still the same as usual, Yang Fangxian took a sip of tea silently to cover up his sighs, and could only hope that there would be no major problems in the future. "There is another matter today." Yang Fangxian stamped the report card, changed the topic to ease the atmosphere, "You boys still have a lot of problems this time, I think it is necessary for you, the room chief, to play your role."

When it came to the dormitory, Yi Yuanxin was still concerned, but the pressure in his heart was much less than before. Yang Fangxian asked again: "What do you think of the study atmosphere in your dormitory, to be honest."

Yi Yuanxin rolled his eyes left and right, and said honestly, "Very average." This is also the reason why he sometimes chooses to study in the library. All along, everyone has never regarded the dormitory as a place to study, and they can calm down in the dormitory. Those are all tall people.

"You said it yourself is very ordinary. Those boys who have been hovering at the end of the class can be imagined. The teacher is not trying to deprive you of your rest time, but just hopes to pick it up during the trivial time before you rest, not to take it Go do something fancy or play around; just focus on your studies, so that if you add up, your grades in the entire dormitory will also go up."

Yi Yuanxin had already understood what the teacher meant, and after thinking about it in a blink of an eye, it was what he was least good at—communicating with people.

"Let's talk about the most direct thing. I have the average score of each dormitory here. Even if you and Shan Ren are in the men's dormitory, the average score of each dormitory is the bottom of the dormitory. There is still a gap of several points. The kind." Yang Fangxian glanced at Yi Yuanxin, and saw that he was starting to think, which was much better than the simple sadness at the beginning, "I will set a visible standard for you, the next exam, the average score of your dormitory must be at least the same as The gap in the previous dormitory is no more than [-]. If you can’t reach it, the teacher will ask you to blame him.”

Yi Yuanxin nodded, fortunately, he didn't get rid of the last-to-last request.That's what made it difficult for him.The teacher then asked him to leave, and the next second he closed the office door, he sighed in frustration outside the door.Every time I entered and exited this office, my mood didn't change, but my worries changed.

What troubled him was that at noon, he was eating alone in the cafeteria, sitting alone on the cold seat, and there was no one to talk to.Shan Ren is still angry with him, he hasn't seen him since the playground.Three meals a day of white rice, poking for a long time and no appetite, so he got up and went back to the dormitory to think about how to tell everyone about it.

When I returned to the dormitory, I saw that everyone was there, and Shan Ren was leaning directly on the head of the bed, doing his own thing with his head down, exuding a different low pressure from his body.Yi Yuanxin took a few glances silently, and wanted to step forward to show his favor several times, but after moving a few times, he still gave up.

I originally planned to talk to everyone, but because of Shan Ren's actions, I forgot without reservation.He sat on the bed and thought hard for a long time without making any progress.Until Bian Yifeng asked him a question, "Director, what is the difference between intrusive rocks and extrusive rocks?"

"Look at this picture, extrusive rocks are formed when magma erupts and cools, while intrusive rocks are formed when liquid magma intrudes into underground rocks. To put it simply, intrusive rocks are interspersed between different rock layers, while extrusive rocks are a whole piece. Relatively regular." A simple general knowledge question, Yi Yuanxin answered it easily and found a slight change in the dormitory—it seems to be a lot quieter today.

Bian Yifeng understood, nodded and climbed to the upper bunk, Yi Yuanxin looked around again, Yuan Hao nearby was memorizing the outline, hallucination?

Then he figured it out, and everyone started to study at the same time. What is worth complaining about is that they will definitely not be stimulated by this exam, it can only be artificial.

That person, Yi Yuanxin raised his head and looked at Shan Ren again, it must be him.

The more he thought about it, the more he felt guilty. Today, he was too impulsive, lost his mind, and even quarreled with him.Although Shan Ren ignored him now, he helped him take care of things silently, how lucky he was to be his lover.

Yi Yuanxin took out the small book that Shan Ren bought before from the bedside, and opened a few pages, most of which were written by him for himself. In the blank space, he wrote a few words with a pen, closed the book, stood up and walked away Go to his bed and hand it to him.

Although Shan Ren was a little emotional, he would not ignore him after all. When he saw the notebook he handed over, he took it without thinking, opened it, and said: Thank you, and, sorry.

Very dishonest, just these few words... But, it's rare.No matter how few words there are, he will lose his temper.Shan Ren waved his hand and asked Yi Yuanxin to go back to study. He still had some things to do, and this matter was no small matter.Yi Yuanxin pursed his lips, not knowing his attitude, so he had to go back first.At noon, he peeked a few times from time to time, cherishing Shan Ren's figure, it was his unconscious behavior, and his heart that could not calm down for a long time.