half paper youth

Saturday, December 2010, 12, Rain

I received Shan Ren’s apples last night, and this is the first time I have celebrated Christmas Eve.It seems that I am in love, and in the eyes of people, I can't let go of any festival that can be celebrated. This Christmas has become the first festival after I was with him.I didn't care about these all the time, but I was driven by him, and I would pay attention unintentionally.Counting 365 days a year, there is also a way to spend the rest of your life.

Uh huh, I started to think wildly again, and felt that my thoughts had stepped into the grave again, and it was a little black...

"I may not be able to spend Christmas with you today. My mother suddenly asked me to go home and I don't know what's urgent."

After the third period, Shan Ren told Yi Yuanxin the news when he came back from his old class.In fact, just after class, Yi Yuanxin was preoccupied with thinking about how to live today, but when he was told such news, he felt a little out of balance for a moment.If you don't look forward to some things at the beginning, you won't be disappointed later.

"Ah."

Yi Yuanxin still cherishes words like gold, Shan Ren knew that he was a little disappointed, and immediately said: "Don't be too disappointed, next week's New Year's Day holiday, Zhou Tai and his cousin invited us to Shanghai, will you go? If you want to have fun, you need to book tickets now, and you need to prepare in advance if you want to have fun.”

Yi Yuanxin spent almost all of this semester in school, and he was already a little tired of school life. It would be nice to go out with his classmates, and with the regret of Christmas, he nodded in agreement.Seeing that he agreed, Shan Ren immediately got up and went to Zhou Tai to discuss the specific details, and wanted to make Yi Yuanxin have more fun on the original basis and make up for his broken promise.

During the afternoon vacation, Shan Ren reluctantly left school at Yi Yuanxin's urging, looking like a resentful woman, but it was obviously his problem.Yi Yuanxin sent him away dumbfounded, then turned to face the empty classroom, opened his eyes, and forced a smile.Still as usual, sitting alone in the classroom, living a Christmas that does not belong to me.

Shan Ren hurried home, and the delicious meal prepared by his mother was just a few random bites, thinking that if his mother didn't have any major life-threatening events, he could rush back to school later, he didn't want to break his promise in front of Yi Yuanxin.I promised him to spend Christmas with him earlier, but now I let him stay at school alone, and thinking of the lonely figure last time, I felt sour.

"Mom, why did you come back to me?"

"Are you so anxious to leave?" Zhizi Mo Ruomu, from the expression on Shan Ren's face as soon as he entered the door, he knew that he didn't have much intention to stay at home, "You haven't been home for a month. Mom misses you and wants you to stay at home more." Can't you wait?"

"Okay, okay, if you have anything to do, just tell me, son, I'll listen, hehe."

After dinner, Shan Ren accompanied his mother to chat in the living room, and he didn't show his anxiety, he had to coax people first.Shan's mother was sitting on the sofa, thinking of that incident again, her brows were tightly frowned, worried, Shan Ren thought that something big had happened, and was waiting for her mother to speak.

"Why don't you come home lately?" Mother Shan took Shan Ren's hand and asked gently, Shan Ren still smiled and replied: "Isn't it the third year of high school? I have to hurry up, and I can be better at school Calm down and study." This reason is always perfect, but the single mother shook her head.

"Tell me honestly, are you talking about friends at school?"

Uh... Shan Ren seems to have vaguely guessed what his mother was going to say today, his mind turned quickly, and he replied with a smile: "Mom, your son is so good, he won't fall in love early." Shan's mother pushed Shan Ren's hand away. , turned to the side, obviously disbelieving, and sighed: "You are not telling the truth to me!"

Shan Ren was a little hesitant, but he still chose to be defensive until he could figure out his mother's attitude. Anyway, as long as he didn't admit it, his mother had no proof.It's just...he also wanted to tell his mother that he actually fell in love with someone. He was a man, but he wanted to be with him for life.The blessings of parents are indispensable, and this is what many comrades who are not out of the closet have been expecting and worrying.

"Mom, I'm really not in a relationship, don't worry..."

"Mom is not that rigid person. Mom just wants to know about your situation at school. If you really talk about friends, mom won't object." Shan's mother's tone was sincere, and her eyes were very kind. Shan Ren didn't know why her mother suddenly Concerned about these, but this is undoubtedly an opportunity.An opportunity for him to explain his relationship with Yi Yuanxin in the future.

Tell your mother that you are in love first, and then guide your mother later, won't it be a matter of course?

The two had their own thoughts, and they were silent for a moment. Shan Ren looked at his mother, and the concern in her eyes made him finally nod and admit it.But he never thought that this was just a trap set by his mother.After he finished saying this, Shan's mother took out her mobile phone and pulled up a photo - it was two months ago when he and Yi Yuanxin were kissing in the gazebo during the sports meeting!

How can there be this photo?

then……

Shan Ren had no clue, and he didn't dare to look at his mother anymore. This was irrefutable. Although it was vague, it was indeed him.

"Mom, since you already know everything, why bother to talk to me?" Shan Ren was a little flustered at the moment, although he was usually frizzy, but he was calmer than Yi Yuanxin, except for this moment.Shan Mama seemed to have been sucked out of all her strength. She leaned on the sofa and said in a trembling voice, "I... just don't want you to lie to me again. I..."

Before Shan's mother could finish her sentence, two lines of tears flowed down the first step. When her son confessed, she had already collapsed.The tears couldn't stop flowing, Shan's mother was unable to continue talking, Shan Ren gradually returned to reality from the original panic, seeing his mother crying so hard that he couldn't help it, he also felt distressed.

He never thought that things would be exposed so quickly, and he had no preparations at all. Even a few minutes ago, he was still thinking about how to spend his first Christmas with Yi Yuanxin... This photo has already captured all of his life. Plans and fantasies were shattered.

"Mom, don't be like this...I beg you, I feel bad when you do this." He couldn't give up on Yi Yuanxin, and he didn't want to see his mother heartbroken. He had experienced this dilemma in advance, and he suppressed it to the point of suffocation!

Shan's mother looked at Shan Ren with tears in her eyes, and asked him with sobs: "Since...knowing that my mother will...be sad, why do you still do this! Do you know that this is wrong!"

"Mom, you don't accept my understanding, but you say I'm wrong, and I don't agree. Mom, it's always been right between the same sex; I think you've always been a very enlightened..."

"I don't think I'm old-fashioned, but it doesn't mean I support you." Mom tried her best to restrain her fluctuating emotions, and explained the truth to Shan Ren, "Don't talk to me about those big truths, listen to mom. One point, the meaning of marriage from ancient times to the present is the process of marriage between a man and a woman. This is all summed up by the predecessors, and this is normal, you..."

The single mother felt a little headache thinking about it. Ever since that person sent her a photo a week ago, she has been on the verge of collapse. She never thought that such a thing would happen to her son in her life!

"Then I think this meaning should be changed." Shan Ren is also a little bit concerned about his mother's mood now. He is still too young and has no way to deal with this kind of thing. "I just want to know one thing now. Who gave you this photo?"

Shan Ren wanted to divert her mother's attention by asking this question. It is not suitable for them to discuss this matter now. No one will back down. That is a deadlock.He now feels that there is no need to rush to a conclusion, he has the patience to fight a protracted battle with his mother.

And Shan's mother obviously didn't want to turn this matter over simply, "Now it's not about who gave me the photo, I just want you to answer, and you still want to be with him?" Facing his mother's question, Shan Ren was silent for a while, very Sorry, "Mom, don't ask such old-fashioned questions..." The promise is bound to hurt your heart.

"This kind of question is old-fashioned? Then tell me, what is novelty? You made such a thing...is it new?"

Shan Ren turned his head helplessly. He has no way to convince his mother now. He can understand that the older generation cannot accept it quickly. He is also very irritable now, and all the negative emotions come to his heart for a while.He had to get out of here before he broke out, he didn't want to hurt anyone.

Mom, he cares, and Yi Yuanxin won't let her go.

Shan Ren got up to leave, and Shan's mother hurriedly asked, "Where are you going?"

"I don't think we can stay together now. I'll go back to school first, and I'll come back to talk to you when my mother feels better." Shan Ren slammed the door for the first time, but he still couldn't stop sending Fire up.And one second after he went out, Shan Yiyi ran out of the room, and the mother and daughter looked at each other awkwardly for a second, then she hurried out and stopped Shan Ren in front of the elevator.

"Brother, don't be too desperate. Mom has me here, and I will try my best to help you talk. Mom has always had a good temper. After a long time, it must make sense."

Finally feeling good to have such a younger sister again, Shan Ren patted her head and pushed her back, "You don't have to worry about it, I will take care of it. Besides, this matter is not as easy as you said." Mom She looks easy to talk to, but she won't compromise on some things, and I'm a bit like her in that.Speaking of it, both he and Yi Yuanxin were a bit stubborn, and it was uncertain what would happen in the future.

"Do you know where Liao Yifan is?"

"Well, he probably didn't go back to the apartment today, brother, what do you want from him?"

"It's okay, you go back quickly, I'm leaving."

Yi Yuanxin held an umbrella and came to the gift shop next to the school. Shan Ren was tightly glued to him. He had no spare time to buy New Year gifts. On the other hand, he hadn't actually thought about what to give yet.Apart from volleyball, Shan Ren has no other hobbies. He thought about buying a volleyball as a gift, but he always thought it was too perfunctory.

He came to a shelf full of postcards, and one of the swaying postcards caught his attention. The postcard was very similar to the style that Shan Ren sent himself. He opened the whole box below, and as expected, he found the same postcard. one of.Slowly pulling out the others, looking at them one by one, thinking about the words he wrote on that postcard back then, which postcard would he send every year in his mind?

The thing seemed to have happened, and there seemed to be traces on the postcards, with dates written year after year, until the one he couldn't turn over.Standing in front of the shelf in a daze, thinking of the years to come, he would smile unconsciously, and when he looked out, he happened to see Shan Ren passing by.

He thought he was hallucinating, and felt dazed for a moment, but later he woke up and walked out to look in the direction he left, only to realize that it was the real him.Didn't you say go home?How would it appear here?

Seeing that Shan Ren seemed to be in a hurry, he disappeared at the school gate after a while, and Yi Yuanxin was a little puzzled standing opposite, thinking that maybe he came back to find him, so he didn't go back to pick up gifts, and went back to school as well.After entering the campus, he didn't see any trace of Shan Ren. He went to the teaching building first, but when he got to the classroom, he was not there.I went back to the dormitory again, but I didn't see anyone. Is it really a hallucination?

He stood in front of the dormitory building and wandered around for a while, really wondering where Shan Ren would go. At this time, someone came out from inside, saw Yi Yuanxin and walked over and said: "Are you Yi Yuanxin? What you want to see is in the bedroom directly opposite the stairs on the fourth floor."

Yi Yuanxin has some impressions of people he has met, but he is sure he does not know this person who suddenly appeared.After the man finished saying this, he left directly, with an unexplained smile still on the corner of his mouth.

Yi Yuanxin had a hunch that what he said was something he wanted to see but could not believe.He looked at the dormitory downstairs, his eyes were full of confusion, and the beating of his heart that was hidden in the depths accelerated uncontrollably, prompting him to take that step.

Yi Yuanxin had never been to a dormitory building before, he felt very strange, and he was once again unfamiliar with this campus in the past two years.Walk very slowly and carefully, basically without any sound.When he reached the third floor, he swallowed nervously, and then went up, even needing to hold on to the handrail before he dared to move forward.

In the end, he still didn't go up to the fourth floor. It was enough to see the open bedroom door in front of him and the two people sitting inside on the stairs on the third floor.Only one corner could be seen: Liao Yifan, who was shirtless, hugged Shan Ren who was sitting there with his back facing him.Although Yi Yuanxin was shocked by the picture in front of him, he didn't have the impulse to believe what he saw.He still believed in Shan Ren.

Yes, he believed it.Except for the notes with him, Shan Ren spends most of his time with himself, and doesn't have the time and energy to develop other relationships.This is the judgment he makes.As for his mood, he can honestly describe it in two words: sadness.

I can trust you no matter what, and still break my heart because of you.

Yi Yuanxin turned and left slowly, he didn't embarrass the three of them at the same time, if Shan Ren would explain to him later, then he was willing to listen, if not... then forget it.

Shan Ren gently and decisively broke off Liao Yifan's arms around him, put him back on the bed, he got up and was about to leave, although what happened to Liao Yifan, he still decided not to contact Liao Yifan any more.

He rushed here a few minutes ago in a rage, and saw Liao Yifan being raped. At that time, he was very surprised and acted quickly. He directly pushed the person who was pressing on Liao Yifan away, and pinned him to the ground.

The man seemed to know him, and when he saw Shan Ren, he smiled and said, "So, you really know how to control him! Hahaha...how about it, now you can see this bitch clearly. He deserves to be fucked by me." !"

Shan Ren directly kicked the man out, but the man didn't stay, and left with a proud face, leaving the messy scene behind.Shan Ren's original anger dissipated a little, but he still looked at Liao Yifan indifferently.Liao Yifan sat there crying silently, and was not in a hurry to explain, until Shan Ren sat beside him, he couldn't help but hugged him.

Shan Ren didn't push him away directly, it was his last sympathy for Liao Yifan, the friendship accumulated over the years of acquaintance, has been completely wiped out in this day!

When he was about to step out of the dormitory, Liao Yifan was finally willing to speak: "Are you really going to treat me like this? I need you... I'm afraid that person will find me again... I, I, no one is there anymore. We can ask for help."

"From the moment you whistled, you should know that I will not contact you again, and I can't even be a friend!"

As for what he encountered today, whether it was a play or a fact, it had nothing to do with him.At the beginning when he said that he liked someone else, he foolishly believed it, but now that he was raped by the person he liked, he would not pay any more attention.The purpose of today was to question clearly, but it is unnecessary.

On that rainy day, no one could really show their smiles again. They all carried more or less troubles, fell on the bed and cried in despair, walked on the road irritated and helpless, and leaned on the edge of the bed in a silent daze... each other has Unforgettable thoughts, drizzle staggered, mixed with dust, muddy.