half paper youth

Friday, April 2011, 4, Rain

Why do I trust my father? In fact, I have no basis. I just rely on the trust between father and son to make a choice.I don't want to stand on the opposite side of either of my parents. I once thought of helping to redeem it, but I figured it out that day.Now, I just want an answer to unravel the doubts in my heart so that both of us can be well.

Yi Ze was quite shocked. He didn't expect his son to believe in him, which made him a little flattered. All emotions came to his mind, guilt, uneasiness, touch, annoyance... His eyes turned red in an instant, and he turned away, not knowing how to face it. .

In fact, he already knew the answer to his father's reaction. Dad, like himself, would not lie about certain things. These actions and micro expressions are all evidence.

"Dad...why?"

These days, Yi Yuanxin has never shed a tear, but he is a little bit broken at the moment, he is still young, and there are many things that he can't easily understand.That's why Itze didn't talk to him too much.

"Son, all in all, it's dad who's sorry for you. But now, dad can only tell you that dad doesn't have the confidence to go on with your mom, and he's too tired." Itze sniffed, his eyes turned red, "You I still don’t understand, Dad didn’t talk to you about feelings, so I’ll tell you today, don’t be like Dad! Treat a person well, if that person is worthy of your love, you have to accommodate her, and then change for her, don’t Stick to your field."

Father Yi left in a hurry, so he patted Yi Yuanxin on the shoulder lightly, and began to find it difficult to restrain his emotions and not lose control in front of the child.Through a door, he exposed his pain, his heart was in a mess, looking at the familiar living room and every decoration, the once warm haven became his most depressing cage.Forget it, if you can't go back, you should let go completely.

After seeing his father, Yi Yuanxin completely locked himself in the house. In order not to worry his parents, he even posted a note at the door: I just want to be quiet.

Very simple five words, mixed with too many emotions. He was in the prime of his life and had not yet passed any refinement and testing. However, the storm outside and the darkness inside the house made him unable to escape.

Mama Yi was very worried about the state of Yi Yuanxin in the house, but Papa Yi was not disturbed. He also discussed the divorce with Mama Yi very seriously, and Mama Yi calmly accepted it.

The house and children were all left to her, Yi Ce didn't want anything, and half of the company's shares were also given to her, and the other half, when Yi Yuanxin graduated, would also be his.Yi Ce knew that he was sorry for this family, he had no face to ask for anything more, his mood had changed, if he was still the original self, there should be a chance to redeem it.

Yi Ce left the apartment that night, and before leaving, he went to Yi Yuanxin's door to say goodbye and apologize. He is not a competent father.Yi Yuanxin didn't open the door, but he heard it all, his empty eyes dimmed in the darkness.Thinking of something, he turned on his phone and sent a message to Shan Ren: I miss you so much all of a sudden.

After the message was sent, he stared at the screen in a daze again, yes, there will be no reply, he is still in school.I relied too much on Shan Ren, and the melancholy in my heart became more and more intense. After the phone screen turned black, there was no light in the whole room anymore.In the darkness, he no longer had the strength to cry, curled up on the bed, waiting for the cold to cover his whole body.

Obviously physically and mentally exhausted, he was still unable to sleep in the black box, and stayed up all night. When the sun cleared the next day, his room was still hidden under the darkness of the curtains.

Someone opened the door with a key from the outside. Is it because my mother is afraid that he will have an accident?But mother should also know that he doesn't like being disturbed at this time, and sometimes he gets stubborn, just so unreasonable.

The man pushed the door open and closed the door immediately, without disturbing Yi Yuanxin.He looked up and saw only a blurry figure, and then remembered that he was not wearing glasses, and reached out to fumble, only to be held tightly by someone the next second.In the first second of touching, the whole portrait was electrified, with a little vitality, it was he who came.

Shan Ren hugged Yi Yuanxin tightly, and he hadn't seen him for nearly a week. He missed him very much, leaned against Yi Yuanxin's neck, and frantically absorbed the smell of the other party. Only in this way could he truly feel the other party's existence.

It has never been so long since we have not seen each other. When he saw the message after school, he was already dazed!

"How did you come?"

"Didn't you send a message saying you missed me?"

Shan Ren could feel the weakness of Yi Yuanxin's breath, and his aunt said that he hadn't left the room for a day, and he really wanted to scold him for not cherishing his body, but felt sorry for him protecting himself like this.

"I'm sorry," Yi Yuanxin apologized for no reason, "My parents are divorced, and this is something I haven't said all along."

Yi Yuanxin closed his eyes and finally felt comfortable. He told the truth, tears flowed down his face, and he felt a little relief in his heart.But Shan Ren hugged him even tighter, "I'm the one who should say I'm sorry... I shouldn't have thought about asking you why before you went home, I'm sorry."

He was really shocked by the truth that Yi Yuanxin said, but his first reaction was only about Yi Yuanxin. He couldn't imagine what kind of psychological burden divorce would have on children. , And I am duty-bound!

Yi Yuanxin has to admit that Shan Ren has completely become his safe haven, his fragility is fully exposed at this moment, tears burst down the embankment, the emotions have exploded completely these days, and Shan Ren also puts his heart and soul on his shoulders, just cry out.

"Shan Ren... I think I really fell in love with you."

Yi Yuanxin has never said whether he loves Shan Ren or not. He is a big boy who can't say those nasty words, but now, he must say these words!

"I haven't said it all the time because I'm not sure what level I've reached. Although my parents didn't teach me this, I have been learning from their microcosm of life. My father... is very responsible, although I I don't know why he is like this now, but he taught me to be serious about a relationship. I'm just afraid that if I say love, I will completely lose the initiative. I know you don't like me who is insecure, but... I really I'm afraid, after ten years, I won't be by your side."

Yi Yuanxin talked a lot today, while Shan Ren was silent and didn't interrupt him, such a rare opportunity.

"Fool, you have lost the initiative! If you want to say this, I told you that I love you first, and I have given myself to you a long time ago. We have known each other for nearly two years, don't you know me?"

Today's Yi Yuanxin is extremely fragile, and Shan Ren knows whether Yi Yuanxin can get through this shadow is already up to him.He has wavered before, but this time, he will never let go!

"I know you are in a bad mood now, but I still want to order you to give me back Yi Yuanxin who took the initiative to confess to me! We are all boys, so don't whine! Yes, I don't like you who feel insecure , I have already given you enough sense of security, it depends on whether you dare to pick it up, if you dare, I Shan Ren will follow you to the grave in this life; if you dare not pick it up, I will not turn around and leave, but, you know after."

Before Shan Ren didn't know what Yi Yuanxin was worried about and what he was depressed about, but now that he knew, how could the person who knew him best not know how to bring him out?

Shan Ren didn't give a choice of either one or two, but he also used another way to push Yi Yuanxin.If Shan Ren gave him the option to turn around and leave, Yi Yuanxin would hesitate, because he knew that Shan Ren would not break up so simply.Yi Yuanxin panicked completely when Shan Ren didn't play his cards according to common sense. He didn't want a lover who was drifting away.

"I choose to believe you."

This is the second time that he completely entrusted himself to himself. The first time he was born to give to his parents, but he was injured in the end. This second time, it was a fate that he met later in his life. Compared with family affection, it was unreliable, but he absolutely believed it.

Shan Ren was still holding him, smiling slightly where he couldn't see.His vision is still unmistakable.

"Now you have a good sleep, I will tell my aunt to stay with you, and go back to school with me tomorrow, okay?"

He let Yi Yuanxin lie on the bed, Yi Yuanxin was obedient the whole time, and Shan Ren understood him very well, so he asked him to sleep first instead of eating. Sleeping is the best way for him to change his mood.

After Shan Ren helped him cover the quilt, he went to the living room to say hello to Yi's mother. Yi's mother agreed to his request without thinking too much. From the first time she met Shan Ren, she knew that the two of them had an unusual relationship.She always felt that she had missed something, but she couldn't think of anything strange, so she asked Shan Ren to stay.

Shan Ren has been sleeping next to Yi Yuanxin for a long time, and only wakes up slowly in the morning of the second day. He has no dreams all night.

Every time he wakes up in the morning and sees Shan Ren, Yi Yuanxin can't help smiling and staring at his sleeping face. Most people can't stand long-term observation, but Shan Ren is almost perfect.

"Do you think you made a profit by hooking up with such a handsome guy?"

In fact, Shan Ren woke up a long time ago. He is not in good spirits like Yi Yuanxin, who has been up all day without sleep, and Yi Yuanxin is probably because he just woke up in a state of confusion, so he boldly turned to Shan Ren, "What is hooking up? !"

"Hey, this is your house. I don't care if you set the fire on fire."

After finishing speaking, Shan Ren pushed him up, and Yi Yuanxin could definitely feel the growing momentum beneath him.But he moved unhurriedly to the side of the bed, and said, "I didn't do anything! I just passed by."

Yi Yuanxin smiled lightly and was about to leave, but Shan Ren turned over and pressed him under his body, Yi Yuanxin was fascinated by his evil smile.

"Since passing by, then pay some protection fees."

"I'm hungry……"

"Then I'll feed you first."

……

The shameless conversation was hidden under the quilt, and it was already half an hour after the two came out of the room.

What?Only half an hour?

In fact, Shan Ren compromised in the end. Although Yi Yuanxin wanted it very much, he also had to consider his body. It made Shan Ren feel distressed to starve people.

Seeing Yi Yuanxin coming out with a smile, Mama Yi was very surprised. When the three of them faced each other, Mama Yi quickly averted her eyes and tried to talk to them calmly.During breakfast, she also paid more attention to Shan Ren, and she suddenly remembered Yi Yuanxin's good classmate in junior high school.At that time, that classmate also had a decisive influence on Yi Yuanxin. Because that classmate was too stubborn, she intervened. Now Shan Ren, she can't find fault, but she is also a little uneasy.

At noon, Yi Yuanxin went back to school directly with Shan Ren as agreed, "Sing a song for me." On the bus, Yi Yuanxin said, he hadn't heard Shan Ren sing for a long time.Shan Ren came as soon as he said, and hummed directly:

I am most afraid of the sudden silence of the air

Most afraid of sudden concern from friends

I am most afraid that the memories will suddenly roll over and colic and not subside

I am most afraid of hearing from you suddenly

……

It's still Mayday's song, although it doesn't fit the state of mind of the two of them at the moment, as long as it sounds good.Shan Ren's voice was just right, and Yi Yuanxin listened to his songs all the way back to school without headphones.Everyone has their own romance.

"This is your week's homework. I've organized it for you. You have one afternoon to finish it. I'll accompany you."

Not too much, not too much, just a ten-centimeter-thick paper, pure test questions without adding long-form materials...

"...can you not do it?"

"No."

Shan Ren took out a test question from there, it was a math question, and he drew circles with a pen, "Well, actually, the teacher didn't ask you to make up for it, but you won't be so low on yourself, right?"

Shan Ren circled all the test questions to be done and handed them to him, which was the most important thing. With him as a "good teacher", Yi Yuanxin couldn't laugh or cry.

Yi Yuanxin was driven by Shan Ren, and in just one afternoon, he switched directly to the test preparation mode. Nearly a hundred test papers picked out the key points, and all of them were completed.

After the end, the setting sun also entered the classroom on time, Yi Yuanxin stretched his waist, and smiled at Shan Ren. For a long time, he hadn't felt such a pleasure in doing the problem.

He recalled that he was a high school student, and his name was Yi Yuanxin.