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The sky is getting dark, and the bustling city has begun its rich nightlife after a busy day.

Today is his [-]th day in New York, USA.

"It's been three months..."

Whispering, Jiang Bai tightened his clothes and walked on the streets of New York facing the snowflakes.

He went through high school and university with Yan Cheng, and entered the society for six years, which can be regarded as his happiest time.

He has been cherishing those times all the time, although he occasionally has greed in his heart, but he has never expected that Yan Cheng will always belong to him, so when he saw Yan Cheng walking around the street with a mushroom on his arm, he behaved very calmly.

Later, when he heard the news that Yan Cheng was going to get engaged, he also behaved very calmly, as if he never knew about it.

But he underestimated himself, he started to run away, he didn't dare to meet Yan Cheng, he was afraid that he would not be able to help questioning Yan Cheng, he was afraid that the line of defense he built up in his heart would collapse in an instant, and he was afraid that he would hear Yan Cheng admit those things It's all true.

So he ignored it, and after that night, like a turtle, he hid in his shell and ran abroad alone.

The crystal snowflakes were falling one after another, Jiang Bai felt a little cold, and somewhat missed the warm embrace from before.

An unknown English song was playing at the entrance of the store. Jiang Bai looked up at the street decorated with lights and banners everywhere, and suddenly realized that today was Christmas Eve—it was also the wedding of that person.

His nose suddenly felt a little sore. Last year at this time he was still shopping with Yan Cheng, but now he is alone in a foreign country.

I remember that he asked Yan Cheng a question at that time, why so many people wanted to be Santa Claus, he thought Yan Cheng would say: because he only goes to work once a year, and he is so popular.

As a result, he just looked at him silently and said, "Go to class once a year, so that I will have more time to spend with you."

It was a bit difficult to breathe because of the heartache, Jiang Bai took a deep breath, and continued to walk forward, but inadvertently saw a familiar figure.

Yan Cheng...

His feet uncontrollably chased after that figure.

"Yan Cheng..."

Did you come to see me?

He was full of joy, but when he saw the face of the man who turned his head inadvertently, he fell into the ice cave—it wasn't him.

Heh, he was delusional, how could Yan Cheng be here, he should be in the distant Z country right now.

Jiang Bai stayed in the same place for a while, but when he came back to his senses, he felt his face was icy cold, and when he reached out to touch it, it was wet. It turned out that his face was already full of tears.

"Why don't you want me to leave me?" A familiar yet unfamiliar male voice came from next to his ear, Jiang Bai's heart trembled, he didn't dare to turn his head, he was afraid that when he turned around, he would find that he had an auditory hallucination just now.

"What? Just now you were chasing and yelling at others, but now that someone is here, you have no courage?" Yan Cheng stepped forward, moved Jiang Bai's body over, and faced himself.

Sweeping across Jiang Bai's tearful face, Yan Cheng looked at Jiang Bai's nose that was flushed red from the cold, frowned indistinctly, took off the scarf around his neck, and carefully wrapped it around Jiang Bai's neck, "You , why can't you take care of yourself!"

There was a man's breath on the scarf, and the residual temperature passed through the skin and passed into the bones, and the thoughts spread in an instant.

"Yan Cheng..."

Jiang Bai looked at the familiar person in front of him, his tears couldn't stop streaming down, he was very wrong, he was reluctant to let Yan Cheng leave him, he didn't want Yan Cheng to be with others, he was very jealous...

"Don't cry, you've become a little cat." Yan Cheng wiped away Jiang Bai's tears pitifully, feeling a little distressed.

If it wasn't for teaching Jiang Bai a lesson so that he wouldn't dare to leave him casually next time, he wouldn't just show up now.

In fact, when he left Jiang Bai and came to New York, he had been following him, secretly paying attention to everything Jiang Bai lived here. Just now he saw Jiang Bai chasing others and calling his name, crying so sadly, After all, he was reluctant and distressed.

After crying for a long time, Jiang Bai gradually stopped his tears, pursed his lips and said hesitantly: "You are not... you should..."

"What should I do? Attend a wedding with someone else?" Yan Cheng watched Jiang Bai's expression and asked jokingly.

"do not want!"

Afraid that Yan Cheng would really go back and marry someone else, Jiang Bai excitedly grabbed Yan Cheng's sleeve, "I don't want you to marry someone else!"

Just leave that woman alone!Whether it is said that he is making trouble for no reason, or that he is selfish, Yan Cheng can only belong to him.

Gently kissing Jiang Bai's ear, Yan Cheng smiled lightly, "All the brides are here, who can I marry?"

Nestled in the broad embrace, at that moment, Jiang Bai felt that the wind and snow in this cold winter were warm.

――Thank you for always being by my side.

The author has something to say: Woohoo, this essay is all over~