people outside of time

Due to a sudden torrential rain, the earth has accelerated the pace of autumn.

Lin Yi woke up in the middle of the night and found that he had been wrapped in a thin quilt into a chrysalis, but even so, he couldn't resist the night after the sudden change of seasons. The chrysalis turns into a large chrysalis.

A casual person is too able to feel the pain of insomnia, and when the body gradually warms up, drowsiness also hits... But at the very moment, a sharp cry of a baby pulled him back from the gate of the dreamland .

The lights in the room were turned off, and some dim light came in through the windows. Lin Yi sat up irritatedly, trying to find the source of the sound, but found that no one on the opposite floor had the lights on.

It would be nothing if it were changed to daytime, but it is two o'clock in the morning, what is more frightening than a baby crying besides a cat?

I clicked on my phone, intending to go to 'WeiTa' to find a few people with the same disease as him, but I couldn't find the circular icon by swiping left or right.It wasn't until then that he realized that Qian Duoduo had actually deleted it a few days ago.

So I opened WeChat again. I haven't read the latest news yet, but there is a lot of money.

The last message was sent at 10:30, and the content was: Don't reply if you fall asleep, good night...

Lin Yi wasn't cold, but his teeth were chattering again. He tapped the screen of his mobile phone twice, "Bah, bah!"

Click on Moments, Qian Duoduo's flamboyant face is at the top again, take a look at the content: It's been three years, brother, how are you doing over there?

The update time was just 10 minutes ago, that is to say, at this point, Qian Duoduo has not slept yet.

Click to open the dialog box and enter: Are you asleep yet?

I felt it was inappropriate, so I deleted it and replaced it with: I was woken up by the crying of a child in the middle of the night, and I couldn't fall asleep...

Why did I feel like I was acting like a baby to him, so I deleted it again.

In the end, Lin Yi could only stare at the dialog box in a daze.

Suddenly, at the top of the dialog box, to the right of Qian Duoduo's WeChat name, the words 'the other party is typing' are displayed impressively.Lin Yi immediately jumped up from the bed as if he had seen a ghost. He was surprised and at the same time realized what it means to have a 'twinkle heart'.

After a while, a message came: "I've been typing this for a long time, why, are you planning how to confess your love to me?"

Lin Yi touched his face and found that he was laughing uncontrollably. He quickly typed: "Now this point is really suitable for dreaming."

Qian Duoduo changed the subject inappropriately: "It's so late, why are you still awake?"

"You didn't sleep either."

"Are you caring about me?"

Lin Yi rolled his eyes at the screen: "..."

After a while, Qian Duoduo sent another message: "Wait for me, I'm going to your house now."

"What time is it, are you kidding me!"

He didn't return.

So he said, "You don't really want to come!"

"What are you doing here? It's the middle of the night."

"Fuck you..."

Lin Yi angrily scolded a hooligan at the screen, but his heart did not conform to the will of his mouth, a little ecstasy and anticipation.He left the room and went to the bathroom. After turning on the light, he saw that his hair in the mirror was a little messy, so he combed it with his fingers.

Then he looked at himself in the mirror with contempt: "What are you doing? Be fully prepared and wait for the emperor to flop..."

Gu Fang admired herself for a while, then heard a knock on the door, and all the strange sounds in the middle of the night became an exciting symphony at this time.Lin Yi couldn't hold back the joy inside, and almost opened the door the next moment.

The breath of the people outside the door was a little hurried, as if they were running all the way.He was wearing a black baseball uniform, a pure white T-shirt, and a pair of dark jeans underneath. He looked very handsome, but the extra pair of glasses on his face made him Contaminated with a little atmosphere of college students.

The light from the induction lamp was not strong, and the undefended heart was instantly softened by the too ambiguous light. Lin Yi, who usually wished for a few more thorns, could not say anything harsh at this time.He turned around and took out a pair of new slippers from the cabinet, and threw them at the door: "Come in!"

After changing his shoes and entering the living room, Qian Duoduo took off his coat and threw it on the sofa, then sat down.Seeing the ashtray with dozens of cigarette butts on the coffee table, I couldn't help frowning.

Maybe it's the eyes that are afraid of waking up at night, or maybe it's because they have their own concerns, but the atmosphere at this time is not as hot as it was when they chatted on WeChat before.The lights were not turned on in the living room, and the two sat on the sofa on each side, neither of them spoke first.

After a long time, Lin Yi curled his legs up on the sofa, then took out a cigarette from the cigarette case and lit it.

Qian Duoduo looked at him quietly, his face, which had avoided being chased by time, was flickering under the sparks, and his eyes fell on unknown corners, looking a little empty.

Finally he broke the silence: "When did you start smoking?"

Lin Yi didn't even think about it: "16 years old."

On that night in that month of that year, he had two firsts, the first time he smoked, and... the first time he had sex with a man.

The first mouthful made tears flow, and the continuous coughing filled the entire respiratory system with the breath of smoke.The second mouth felt a little dizzy, and his whole body felt light. He was hugged by the man who had never masked his face, and the heaven and hell in the world appeared in just a moment.

The smoke between the fingers has only burned one-third, which is far from the most perfect golden section line persecuted by tar.He pinched out the cigarette, hugged the back of his head with his fingers, and sank half of his body into the sofa.

He turned his face sideways and found that Qian Duoduo was also looking at him.

Unable to help himself, or just following the order of development of things, Qian Duoduo leaned over after seeing each other, wrapped his hands around the other's waist, and embraced the whole thing into his arms.

It's hard to say who took the body temperature from whom, but they all felt that this hug came too timely.It is not the effect of shaking the soul that can only appear when the passion bursts out, but the brightness and vitality that slowly rises like the spring returning to the earth, and the indescribable darkness in the clay is all dissipated in this embrace.

"Let's... try to talk!"

Lin Yi hugged back, he said, "What are you talking about?"

A deep chuckle came from next to my ear: "What are you talking about, of course it's about falling in love."

He pushed the person away violently, and said in a somewhat puzzled manner: "I can only do love and never talk about it. If you want to play such a boring and low-level game, you can find someone else. I don't have the energy to accompany you." Wasted."

Qian Duoduo's face did not show the loss after being rejected, and the more frustrated he became, the more courageous he said: "Then let's level up, you run in front and I chase after, how about it?"

"I'm not a woman, why should you chase after me?"

Qian Duoduo supported the wall of the sofa with one hand, and held the other's hand tightly with the other hand. First, he joked, "Why would you get tired if you don't chase after you, and why would you be willing to stay by my side if you're not so tired?" : "Don't reject me in a hurry, I'm telling you very seriously."

Lin Yi sneered: "So what if you catch up, do you plan to marry me or have a baby with me? There is no result and you pay attention to the process, naive or not."

"Tomorrow isn't the end of the world, why are you so pessimistic?"

"There is no end in the world, but I have an end, and this end is called 'If you fall in love, you will die without a place to die'. To put it bluntly, I am too lazy to play house with you people who are full of love."

Qian Duoduo looked at him with a complicated expression, and the color of his eyes gradually changed.

He continued: "Living is already tiring enough. It's not best to be able to do whatever you want? If you feel like it, play it if you don't feel like it, then break up. Why bother to find those high-sounding reasons to bind others..."

"Shut up." Qian Duoduo let out a low voice, already a little annoyed.

"Why should I shut up? Could it be that what I'm saying isn't the truth? Don't try to use your scale to weigh me. That's just how I am. If you feel uncomfortable, leave immediately."

"I told you to shut up." At this moment, his face was already terrifying.

Lin Yi was never afraid of force: "If you don't shut it up, don't shut it down, what can you do to me..."

Before he could finish speaking, Qian Duoduo picked it up on his shoulders and went straight to the bedroom with the lights on.

After being thrown on the bed, Lin Yi touched his belly that was hurting from his shoulders: "If there is any disagreement, do it. If you have the ability, let's see the truth in your mouth. It's amazing to have strength! You are a bull."

Man Niu ignored him for the time being, just closed the curtains casually, slipped his shoes and got on the bed.

Lin Yi was waiting to be crushed by this man, he took off his shirt consciously, and raised his chin provocatively, as if to say to him, 'Come on. '

Qian Duoduo pulled the quilt to cover him, and pulled a pillow to lie down with his head against his head: "Forget about today, let's do it another day!"

It is rare for someone to be directly rejected like this. His face was a little uncomfortable, so he said indiscriminately: "Why, I have no interest in Lao Tzu after I have done it once? I am not interested. Why do you come here in the middle of the night? You are full. Do you have nothing to do or plan to set fire and leave?"

He looked at the red-eyed rabbit because he couldn't eat grass, and the heavy heart he had bred for this special day was gradually released.Why do you want to come?He also didn't say clearly, maybe he didn't want to be immersed in such an atmosphere, or maybe he wanted to say something to the person in front of him, to let go of some sadness that he couldn't show in front of his parents.

"My big brother..."

He hesitated to speak, and the people next to him shut up after hearing the sound.

Lin Yi suddenly remembered the circle of friends he posted not long ago.

Qian Duoduo was facing upwards, and the pattern on the ceiling lamp wall was magnified several times and turned into a shadow falling on his face. At this time, he had taken off his glasses, revealing his tall and deep facial features.What he wanted to say seemed a bit difficult to export, he paused for a moment, and saw his Adam's apple sliding up and down a few times.

Long Jiu: "Today is the anniversary of my elder brother's death. In the afternoon, my family went to the cemetery to sweep the grave. My mother was crying when I came back. My dad and I stayed with her until midnight, and she just fell asleep at the time I sent you the message."

Lin Yi tilted his head and stared at his side face: "What's wrong with your elder brother..."

"He died in the line of duty."

"Oh."

"He was an armed policeman, and was later assigned to the fire brigade. During an emergency firefighting operation, he went in and never came out again. People in the army said that he gave an oxygen cylinder to a person trapped under the collapsed object. After the fire was extinguished, The man was alive, but he died from lack of oxygen."

After Qian Duoduo chuckled, his eyelashes trembled violently. He turned his head and asked Lin Yi, "Tell me...is he a hero?"

Lin Yi said, "Of course."

He shook his head: "But I don't think so. In fact, he is a selfish ghost who wants to achieve his own personal heroism."

"I often wonder if he can see, see the pain of a complete family caused by his departure, will he regret his original decision, will he give up his life so boldly, so as not to go Heed the despair of those of us who are left behind."

The confidant often has the power to talk to himself, and the confidant often racks his brains and cannot think of words that can comfort him, and after many years, no matter what he says, it will seem superfluous.Lin Yi could only listen quietly, listen to him vent, and listen to his complaints caused by caring too much.

No matter how good a speaker is, he can't bring the emotions of the bystanders into line with his own. Lin Yi is even more incapable of pain and suffering. He just pretends to empathize as much as possible, keeps silent when he should be silent, and asks questions when he should be silent. time to ask.

The pain of others is actually a burden——