Lost Dreams

Guanliang booked an early flight, so Manqing woke up early to see him off.The needed things are sent first, and the international logistics will be collected by the maid.Guanliang and Ziqing also brought two small suitcases to pack some clothes and documents.

Yuqing stood aside and yawned continuously. Because Guanliang left quickly last night, she dragged her to chat all night.Both are very tired.Lin Ziqing stood beside Guanliang in an orderly manner, waiting for him to speak.Man Qing kicked Guan Liang, who was standing crookedly, with a look of hating iron but not steel. Guan Liang faced her, and yawned again, and let Guan Lin tie his loose tie again with his neck up. Only then reluctantly stood up straight.Junzhu also rarely came, and the popular actress in the theater garden in the north accompanied her—Guanliang screamed when he saw her, and blamed her for bringing people to anger him—isn’t he another person who never snatched Junzhu!

When the radio rang, Guan Liang walked away angrily, ignoring Lin Ziqing, and took great strides.Ziqing ran a few steps and failed to keep up. He was very anxious and embarrassed to call him out. After a few minutes, Guanliang finally remembered that there was such a person. He slowed down and waited for him to come forward. , and then left together.Man Qing looked behind him thoroughly, and sighed for Ziqing in his heart—it's not good to fall in love with someone, but he just likes her, a fickle and playful younger brother, I'm afraid he will suffer a lot.At this time, I suddenly thought of myself—isn’t he also a representative of fickleness?With a self-deprecating smile in his heart, he took the rest of the people away.

Man Qingben said that he would go back to Hong Kong after seeing off Guanliang today, but Mrs. Zhao asked to go to Chongqing to play and visit Yuqing's parents, which delayed her for a few days.By the time I returned to Hong Kong from Chongqing, several days had passed since the appointed time.When Man Qing was in Chongqing, he called Ruan Yu again, and when he heard Ruan Yu's disappointed tone on the phone, his heart felt sour and softened.

Man Qing thinks that he is very good to every lover. Although he can't show his heart and soul, at least he is willing to give some of his sincerity.So Ruan Yu really made her feel bad.As soon as she got out of the train station, she saw Ding's car waiting outside.

Ruan Yu sat in the car and watched her, and the driver came to pick up her luggage.Man Qing walked forward slowly, she remembered the movie she and Ruan Yu had seen together, the gray screen, the heroine walked to the hero's car step by step, and kissed passionately.But obviously they didn't have the guts to do so, Ruan Yu held her hand tightly as soon as they got into the car.

Turning a few turns to go home, Ruan Yu only greeted her, and then pulled Man Qing back into the room.She misses her so much.They didn't leave the room all afternoon, just kissing and comforting each other.Ruan Yu just wanted to crush Manqing into her own body - she couldn't stand such a parting.

For the rest of the holiday, they stayed together like conjoined twins until Yuqing came back.Manqing and Ruan Yu's schools start at different times, if Yuqing hadn't sent her a letter, she would have almost forgotten it.Ruan Yu reluctantly watched Man Qing go to school first. Although it was an agreed time to meet in the future, she was not used to being able to stick together so sweetly.But later, when their school also started classes and became busy, they stopped being too anxious.Take the time to come out to listen to a ditty, stroll around the park, it's a date.

Winter came early, Yuqing went to get the charcoal fire from the housekeeper, and let Manqing light it.She is very afraid of the cold, and when winter comes, she asks her family to send all her thick robes.Manqing often laughed at her for being wrapped like a rice dumpling, but she didn't take it seriously.

The cold wind was blowing, and the dead leaves fell all over the ground.Another stray cat that was afraid of the cold broke into the dormitory upstairs, and was chased away by those young ladies.Someone boiled hot water to make tea, but the backs of their hands became red, and they screamed at the top of their lungs.There are birds that have built nests for the winter on the corrugated board, and some professor’s young son boiled eggs and ate them. Later, Junzhu sent a letter saying that it was snowing in Shanghai and it was very cold. The young master had a conflict and was unhappy for a few days.Man Qing was not worried about him, but only thought that he had established a romantic relationship, but he went out to mess around again.Man Qing sang that Guanliang would suffer sooner or later, but he had never heard of it.Occasionally, in the letter, she would reply to each other, which made her angry.It's just that I dare not be too pretentious.

Ruan Yu got along very well with her, but the sweetness was too bland, and Man Qing gradually became bored.Ruan Yu always looked enthusiastic, after all, she hadn't experienced it too much—or she loved Manqing too much.When I didn't meet Ruan Yu this semester, Manqing followed Yuqing to the dances of several young masters, so we chatted naturally.Now she felt that she might have lost interest in Ruan Yu.She is very bright in her heart, knowing that she may not love anyone except Yunzhu, but she also feels a little guilty. After all, Ruan Yu treats her sincerely, and even calls it cherishing, but she herself is not willing to do this, and always wants to find some excitement. , I don't like plainness.

In December, Manqing's school offered several public places to the UK.Mister Wu, who teaches English, appreciates Manqing, and specially reserved a spot for her. He just waits to communicate with his family and sign the contract before he can go out.Naturally, the Zhao family has no objection, it just depends on Manqing's own wishes.She didn't seem to care, Ruan Yu didn't think she was concerned about her, as for Yun Zhu - she couldn't see her in Hong Kong at first, so going abroad was nothing.Come and go, it's settled.

When she remembered to tell Ruan Yu, it would not be long before she left the country.The schedule is after the Spring Festival.When Ruan Yu heard this, she was naturally angry—the decision made half a month ago was only told to her now!I really don't care about her.Regardless of the fact that the two of them were in the teahouse, they put down the cold teacups, slammed the door and went out.The high-heeled shoes stepped hard, and quickly pierced a hole in the floor.Man Qing firmly believes that she is still a child at heart, so she doesn't try to coax her.The two actually fought coldly until the festival.

Naturally, I have to go back to Shanghai for the Spring Festival.Without Guanliang this year, Mrs. Zhao was a little uncomfortable, and she mentioned that Manqing was going abroad soon, and sighed for being so deserted.Junzhu left after paying homage to the New Year, and left a message saying that he would go to the temple to burn incense with him tomorrow, and then go to worship the ancestors together on the second day of junior high school.I don't know the taste of a meal, so it's not as festive as in previous years.It's still that the old man couldn't bear to watch it anymore, so he took people to the theater after dinner, so that the atmosphere could be eased.

In the middle of the night, Zhao's family suddenly received a call, and the maid got up cursingly. There was a cold voice over the phone, Ruxue, saying she was looking for Man Qing.The maid answered, put the phone aside, climbed upstairs, knocked on the door carefully, and Man Qing was reading a novel inside: just waited for the old man and they fell asleep, she is not sleepy yet.The old man dragged them to play cards at night to the fullest, and he didn't care if he lost tens of thousands, just treat it as a red envelope for the younger generation.If it wasn't for Guanlin watching him too late and fearing that his body would not be able to bear it, he persuaded him to go to bed, and planned to fight until dawn, so Man Qing could rest.In the past, during the Spring Festival, Guanliang always dragged the big guys out to watch the fireworks. This year, he didn't mess around, so he felt a little uncomfortable.

When the maid knocked on her door and told her there was a phone call, she immediately thought of Ruan Yu, put on a coat and went down.Sure enough, it was Ruan Yu, sniffing at the microphone, looking very cold.Man Qing turned on the small light, and in the entire dark room, she was the only warm yellow.She suddenly remembered that in Xia Tian, ​​she also called Ruan Yu in the same way, but she was the one who called.At that time she could still be regarded as barely loving her, but now she was tired of it.

"Hey." Ruan Yu said softly, a little afraid to speak out.

Man Qing thought to herself that she might still have lingering fears about being angry with herself, so she softened her tone and showed her usual tenderness.

"Hey," she replied, "you haven't slept yet?

"I can't sleep." Ruan Yu said, "It's the holidays, and I miss you a little bit. After all, it's my fault. I shouldn't lose my temper with you at the beginning, but I can't hold back when I think of you leaving soon."

"It's okay." Man Qing expected that this call was also made to apologize, so naturally he forgave her.She was not angry at first, it was just a matter of a few words, she has never been so stingy with her lover.

"I'm also in Shanghai now." Ruan Yumo said, "I'm back for the Chinese New Year. Are you free?"

"Not in these two days." Man Qing said, "Those who go to the temple tomorrow will go to worship the ancestors the day after tomorrow."

"Then how long will you leave?" Ruan Yu seemed to sigh and asked her sadly.

"About ten days later." Man Qing said, "There is always time. I will come to you after offering sacrifices to my ancestors."

"Then we are safe and sound?"

"Could it be that Miss Chengding wants to get angry with me?"

"Of course not! I'll give you an address! You can come here to find me after offering sacrifices to your ancestors the day after tomorrow, okay?"

Ruan Yu's tone contained a bit of pleading, Man Qing felt soft-hearted, and agreed.Although she no longer loves Ruan Yu, she can still regard her as a good pastime object.After all, the appearance is according to her heart, and the rest is not too big for her.If it weren't for boredom, he would be a very lovely person.

"Okay." Man Qing quickly agreed to her.Write down the address on paper.Hearing her reply, Ruan Yu looked very relieved, and then hung up the phone.Man Qing turned off the small light and went upstairs in the dark.Everyone in the room was asleep except her, and she walked amidst their breathing.

After worshiping the ancestors, Man Qing followed the agreement and went to the place agreed with Ruan Yu - a small empty mansion, where she was the only one.The servants were elusive, if not for the pot of tea that was brewed, Manqing would have thought that there was no one else but Ruan Yu.

Naturally, they agreed tacitly and did not mention the quarrel anymore. The two of them sat in the living room, chatting about trivial matters. They called and stayed here at night. When they fell asleep, they hugged the bed: Man Qing never resisted. These.

Later, Ruan Yu said that he would send her off, and she naturally agreed.At the airport, Ruan Yu finally saw Jun Zhu, her obviously immature face made her a little jealous.Although she didn't know exactly what Manqing was thinking, at least she knew that Junzhu had a different status in Manqing's heart, which was enough to make her jealous.Yuqing also came. During the last holiday, she officially recognized Mrs. Zhao as her godmother, and Manqing was her older sister.Reluctantly saying goodbye, he let her go.

After Manqing arrived in the UK, she quickly found a new love partner.Ruan Yu sent her a letter, full of thoughts, of course she replied, with sweet words, simple writing, and no need to spend too much effort, just perfunctory.Ruan Yu was not angry at all, after all, she took her perfunctory sweet words as sincerity.Man Qing thought, she was really too stupid.

In the next few years, there were always correspondences, but during the period of correspondence, Manqing's lovers were never missing.Ruan Yu was still in Hong Kong, watching her alone, and when she saw the words "I love you" and "I miss you too" in the letter, she burst into tears of joy.Junzhu also wrote to Manqing, still living a perfunctory life as before.During her stay in the UK, she also went to France to see Guan Liang. Lin Ziqing was not at home for a few days, so she happened to make room for her.Guanliang is still romantic, after listening to him, he knows that he has a relationship with Ziqing, but he often does things that make him angry.Before Ziqing finally came back, Guanliang immediately pretended to be sensible and obedient.Man Qing cooperated with him, preventing Zi Qing from seeing any clues - even though the two of them had been having a good time these two days.

Ziqing has changed a lot, her hair has been brushed up, and her gold-rimmed glasses have been replaced with dumb silver ones. She looks more heroic than before, and she no longer has that soft and weak look.Man Qing thought to himself that Guan Liang forced it out - otherwise Guan Liang wouldn't have pretended to be obedient.In the past, he never concealed his flair in front of his lover.But Guanliang refused to tell him the story, but his words revealed a little unwillingness. Manqing guessed that he was deprived of the initiative and was very unhappy.

When he returned to China, Manqing hadn't replied to Ruan Yu's letter for a month.Six months before returning to China, she was finally completely tired of Ruan Yu, and she was no longer willing to even perfunctory.Ruan Yu seemed very unwilling to believe it, and kept sending letters, looking very sad.Man Qing replied as usual, but Zhang Zhang expressed alienation, or told her that she had met a new lover.She is tactful enough, not to mention her flirtatiousness, only to say that in the days when she missed her, someone took advantage of her and let it go.Ruan Yu couldn't bear to hate her.

When Manqing returned to Shanghai, Guanlin and Yunzhu came to pick her up.Yuqing wrote her a letter, saying that she would come to Shanghai to play with her when she came back.Said to accompany her, it seems that he wanted to come to play.Naturally, Man Qing didn't poke it.Ruan Yu also knew the date of her return, so she sent the letter to the Zhao mansion, but Manqing was still fickle, and only replied one or two letters when she was really bored or suddenly missed her.During the time they fell in love, after all, only Ruan Yu loved her with all her strength, but she only enjoyed this love.

Man Qing thought that she might still love Ruan Yu at first, at least, when she was sitting in the dark room and calling Ruan Yu on that cold night, she loved her very much.At that time, there was still the sound of mahjong upstairs, and the servants were all asleep.She was sitting alone in a small circle drawn by the yellow light. At that time, Ruan Yu was the only one in her ears, mind, and heart.