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Today is cloudy and rainy...

Lin Xiaoyuan said: "If you don't tell me, don't even think about going out today."

This sentence was like the last straw that broke the camel's back. It crushed all the emotions Zhuang Shihuai had accumulated in his heart for the past few days. Anger and grievances gushed out like a flood bursting a bank, which could no longer be blocked.

"You want to know, okay, then let me tell you, Zhuang Shikai threatened me, saying that I would abduct minors, and that I would stab them to the newspaper office and sell them to paparazzi. You don't know him, but I understand. He is too daring, he can do what he says."

As expected by Zhuang Shihuai, Lin Xiaoyuan rushed out to settle accounts with him like an arrow from the string when he heard Zhuang Shikai's name.

Zhuang Shihuai held him tightly, his eyes were bloodshot.

Lin Xiaoyuan said: "Don't pull me, I'm going to kill him today! What a fucking thing."

"Don't be impulsive!" Zhuang Shihuai's hands turned white as he pressed him, and Lin Xiaoyuan leaned half of his shoulder against the wall, trying to maintain his last trace of rationality: "You're scared."

Not interrogative sentences.

Zhuang Shihuai closed his eyes, trying to suppress the redness in his eyes.

"Yes, I'm afraid, but have you ever thought about the consequences of rushing over? There's another mess, and it's on the news, can the old man accept it, will the stock price of Zhuang's fall, and how many people in the company will lose their jobs? If I want to go to university, will it be affected? I don’t know. I really don’t know. If you make a wrong move, you will lose the whole game, Lin Xiaoyuan, I am not you, I have no way out."

Every time Zhuang Shihuai said something, it was as if he was poking Lin Xiaoyuan with a small needle, so dense that it hurt him to breathe, but he knew that Zhuang Shihuai was right.

Many things are not black and white. Before thinking of a perfect solution, tearing off the last layer of camouflage will not necessarily make things better.

"He's just talking now, and his baseless slander is nothing but slander. If you make a fuss, others will have thousands of ways to accuse you."

Lin Xiaoyuan kicked the wall fiercely: "What slander? What groundless?" Zhuang Shihuai shut up when he saw Lin Xiaoyuan's face, he knew he had said something wrong.

Lin Xiaoyuan felt it was absurd, he said: "Brother, I want to ask first, what is the relationship between us now? We have done that, even if it is a close call, the relationship is not the same? You say we are innocent? What do you mean?" Zhuang Shihuai said, "I don't mean innocent, I mean he has no evidence."

Lin Xiaoyuan circled around like a headless chicken a few times in the hospital passageway: "Okay, I know, you don't want your grandpa to know, you are afraid that something will happen to him, I can wait, anyway, it's not bad for a few days, but you You have to give me an explanation, and I can’t wait for you to give me the number.”

Zhuang Shihuai slowly sat on the ground along the wall, he felt tired, and the feeling of no direction ahead and no way back made him panic.

Lin Xiaoyuan's feelings are too hot, once the last layer of paper is pierced, he will definitely go his own way, he doesn't care about public opinion or future.

But Zhuang Shihuai was different, the stronger his feelings, the more cautious he became.

He knew he was a coward.

Admitting a relationship is equivalent to giving up the rest of his life for him, using all his wealth as a bet, he has to think about all the ways out, and he wants to avoid all possible risks, unless he feels completely safe, he can seriously take it This person is included in the territory, otherwise he would not dare to continue rashly.

Now, this person appeared, his name is Lin Xiaoyuan.

"I'm in a mess now, can you go back first, we'll talk about this issue later."

The corridor in the middle of the night was very quiet, Lin Xiaoyuan took half a minute to digest this sentence, finally, as usual, he squatted in front of Zhuang Shihuai, calmly looked into the eyes of his sweetheart and said: "Okay."

Then he got up and left without another word.

Zhuang Shihuai leaned against the wall and hugged his knees tightly, slowly rolling himself up.

For the first time that night, he sat in the corridor and wept silently.

Zhuang Shihuai stayed on the accompanying bed in the ward all night, barely closing his eyes. When Zhuang Yirou woke up in the morning, he was shocked to see his red eyes, worried that something happened to him, Zhuang Shihuai shook his head and said, "It's okay, don't worry."

"Then you should wash up and eat something, Xiaoyuan sent a lot of bread just now."

Zhuang Shihuai suddenly raised his head: "Has he been here?" "Yeah, I saw you were still asleep and left, saying I was going to buy you coffee."

Just as he was talking, the door of the ward was pushed open again.

Lin Xiaoyuan put the coffee on the table as if nothing had happened, and pushed Zhuang Shihuai into the bathroom: "Did you not sleep all night, take a look at yourself, can you save people some time?" Sticking to Lin Xiaoyuan's body, thinking of the fruitless argument between the two last night, and the last sentence they said, that he let him go, Zhuang Shihuai panicked a little.

He wanted to say something but didn't know how to start, so he had to take a shower first.

Zhuang Shihuai had never washed so fast before, his ears were always up listening to the movement outside, afraid that Lin Xiaoyuan would leave again without saying a word.

When he came out of the bathroom, Lin Xiaoyuan was chatting happily with Zhuang Yirou, Zhuang Yirou seemed to be in a good mood, giggling all the time.

At this moment, Zhuang Shihuai felt so despicable that he even wanted to be jealous of his own sister.

He pretended not to care and asked, "What are you talking about so happily?"

Zhuang Yirou said: "He was telling me about the things you used to do in China. It was so fun, why didn't you tell me? My brother Xiaoyuan is boring, right?" Zhuang Shihuai really wanted to interrupt and cover the topic, because he From Lin Xiaoyuan's understanding, this person will definitely follow suit, and adding fuel and embellishment to his old story of "love at first sight" is actually nonsense.

Unexpectedly, Lin Xiaoyuan didn't continue to talk today, but only smiled and replied lightly: "It's okay."

Okay, okay, lackluster.

Zhuang Shihuai felt a pain, as if an invisible big hand was grabbing hard on the tip of his heart.

He carefully looked at Lin Xiaoyuan's expression, trying to see the slightest clue from it, but Lin Xiaoyuan continued to talk and laugh with Zhuang Yirou as if he didn't see it.

After breakfast, Zhuang Shihuai wanted to go back to the company to deal with a lot of things that had happened in the past few days. He wanted to ask Lin Xiaoyuan to go with him, and he could also send him to school by the way.

But Lin Xiaoyuan said: "I can go by myself, don't you have a meeting, hurry up and don't be late."

Zhuang Yirou whispered to Zhuang Shihuai: "I'm still worried that you two had a fight yesterday, is it okay?"

Yes, it seemed that nothing had changed, Lin Xiaoyuan was still considerate and thoughtful, flawless from expressions to movements, but only Zhuang Shihuai knew that some subtle things had changed.

From the corner of her eye, Lin Xiaoyuan saw Zhuang Shihuai who was hesitant to speak, and felt distressed, and wanted to catch him again and hug him like every time before.

But he didn't move, because hugging doesn't solve everything.

Lin Xiaoyuan actually didn't leave last night, he quietly hid at the other end of the corridor, watching Zhuang Shihuai sitting on the ground crying, his heart was broken from crying, before that, he didn't even know that "heartbreak" could be a concrete concept.

In his memory, when Zhuang Shihuai was shy, when he was furious, he was also embarrassed and at a loss, but most of the time he was calm.

Lin Xiaoyuan had never seen him collapse, and the tears pouring out couldn't be stopped, like a flood that had opened its gates and poured thousands of miles away.

Lin Xiaoyuan realized that he dug the embankment with his own hands. He pushed Zhuang Shihuai to a desperate situation. He couldn't help him solve the problem, but forced him to show an attitude.

How can I be so selfish.

Lin Xiaoyuan recalled that when she came to the United States, she was full of ambitions to be with Zhuang Shihuai, and she made up her mind to protect him for the rest of her life, just like the dream that all young people like to dream, to be Zhuang Shihuai's unrivaled hero, and to step on colorful auspicious clouds to bring him to life. marry home.

But in the end, he not only failed to protect him, but also made him cry.

If there were outsiders today, even if the whole world pointed at him and said, you shouldn't be together, Lin Xiaoyuan would not frown.

The problem is all their own fault.

Lin Xiaoyuan thought, why is it so difficult, why things are always unsolvable, why he has worked hard for so long, but still can't do his best, he feels that he has failed unprecedentedly, and he can't see where the direction ahead is.

He couldn't even remember how he got out of the hospital last night. When he realized it, he had been wandering in the street in a daze for an hour.

Later, he had a severe headache, and fell asleep in a hurry when he returned home. He didn't wake up until this morning when the first rays of sunlight dazzled his eyes.

He lay on the bed and asked himself, Lin Xiaoyuan, before you can completely guard him, can you retreat, retreat to the most comfortable position for him, if he wants you, go there, if he doesn't want you, just stand by the side , you are not allowed to deviate a single point, Lin Xiaoyuan, can you do it?You have to do it.

He doesn't want to see his sweetheart cry anymore, it makes him feel like a failure, it's so fucked up.

Zhuang Shihuai tugged at his chest uneasily, and asked again softly: "Do you want to walk with me?" Lin Xiaoyuan sighed, wiped her face and got up silently.

Without saying a word, Zhuang Shihuai walked behind him with his head bowed, like a lost child, hesitant and at a loss.

At the entrance of the hospital, Lin Xiaoyuan stopped, and Zhuang Shihuai bumped into his back unexpectedly, crying with pain.

"Brother, don't worry."

Lin Xiaoyuan didn't turn around, Zhuang Shihuai stood in the shadow behind him and couldn't see his expression: "I like you, whether you promise me or not, it won't change in this life, but I won't force you again, you Just pretend I haven't said anything, let's take our time, shall we?" Zhuang Shihuai choked, and the coolness spread from his heart to his limbs.

Five years ago, Lin Xiaoyuan plunged into his life like a little sun, circling around him, and couldn't drive him away even with a whip. He never thought that Lin Xiaoyuan would retreat, as if this option didn't exist in the first place .

Lin Xiaoyuan took a deep breath and continued: "I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable.

Can you tell me what is your safe distance?I retreated 10 meters away two years ago, how much is it now? 50 meters?Or 100 meters?You tell me, and I promise not to overstep the threshold and make you feel uncomfortable. "

Zhuang Shihuai felt pain, every petal of his heart ached, he wanted to grab Lin Xiaoyuan's clothes corner, and told him that's not the case, can you not let go, I like you too, and I want to act like a baby to you, I I'm so tired, I'm really tired, Lin Xiaoyuan, let's run, don't worry about everything, let's elope.

But he can't.

He can't say anything.

When Zhuang Shihuai reached out his hand, Lin Xiaoyuan had already opened the car door and sat in the driver's seat: "Get in the car, I'll take you to the company."

After finding nothing, he curled up his fingers and slowly put them down.

I first offer 1000 durians and my knees.

In fact, I have revised this chapter many times today, including the direction of subsequent revisions, but I still want to hear your opinions.

No intentional abuse, all thinking and handling methods serve the plot.

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