jealous tail

The golden leaf elm is back, and I seem to be stuck in a swamp. The golden leaf elm is to the east, and Du Tingwei is to the west. I don’t know who to swim to. One of them gives me love, and the other gives me sunshine. If I am not careful, the one on the other side will be disappointed and leave. Go, and never come back.

I was reluctant to both sides, I became a scumbag, I wanted to put the roses in the bottle, and the moonlight into the window.

But I actually don't want to develop into a situation of mutual delay. I don't want to make Du Tingwei my lover. I just want him to stand clean and bright in a corner of my heart, not to be stained by fine dust, not to be burdened by the world .

And Jin Yeyu is my obsession, he provoked me, when I was almost desperate for this world.

So I had to pinch him, because I was afraid that if I let him go, I would forget the desire to live well that day, the burning passion and madness that rushed from the bottom of my heart.

So whether he likes it or not, whether he likes it or not, I was sure when I saw him for the fourth time, I must get his, I must grab something that I can grab.

Whether it is pain or boredom, I can take whatever he gives, we can quarrel, we can fight, but we cannot be separated, and we cannot be separated no matter what.

He saved a lunatic, he has to be responsible for his random kindness, and I also like him, I probably like him, because even if I am angry, I am lost, I am flustered, I am sad, whenever I think of the heavy rain that day, I think of that day Holding a black umbrella, thinking of the warmth makes my heart palpitate.

It's ridiculous, for one action, one word, to privately decide one's life.

It seems that when the conditions are set, this difficult road will become clear and visible, but I am still afraid of choosing.

The night lights that are always on, the breakfast that is always fresh, the little care that is always there, and the timely appearance that is always there.

Of these two roads, one is approaching dawn and the other is full of dawn.

Because of this hesitant going back and forth, I kept hurting my brain, and I used my brain so much that I basically fell into a coma for a few days after returning home.

Du Tingwei is busy outside during the day, his studio has always been handed over to Sister Yu, I don't know what he is busy with, Jin Yeyu will come to watch over me, but he doesn't speak, just sits on a stool beside him, typing, the keyboard snaps Crackling, my mind was getting more and more chaotic, so I didn't want to look at him.

Du Tingwei will come back at night, wipe my face and arms with a hot towel, then cover the quilt, and go to the living room to sleep. I hurt my legs and feet, and I can’t get on the top bunk, so I stay on his bed, and he is afraid that going up the ladder will cause noise When it comes to me, I sleep on the sofa in the living room.

I'm a coward, I went out to use the toilet, and watched his quilt fall to the ground, but I stopped picking it up for him because I took one more look at Jinyeyu's door.

Before I knew about Du Tingwei's relationship, I could do whatever I wanted, I could act coquettishly and fight with him, I could talk about my liking and love indifferently, I could care for him like a family member and worry about him, but not now.

I'm doing it now, and I'm not belittling myself, I'm insulting them.

I looked at the quilt covered by the moonlight on the ground, and figured it out, I shouldn't tie Du Tingwei up, he should be a soaring eagle, how could he give up the whole blue sky for a small muddy lake.

No, this is wrong, I am reluctant to part with many things, but I am not qualified to keep them all, the more you love me, the less you should be bound by this love.

They are here to rescue me, not to suffer here.

I can tell the whole story from the beginning to the end, and I can also tell the good from the evil.

I went back to my bedroom and slept peacefully in the clear moonlight. I closed my eyes for many days, but I didn't have a moment of sleep. Now my mood seems to be much brighter.

I pulled the quilt that belonged to him over the top of my head, and pressed the pillow that belonged to him into my cheeks. I was absorbing. This world does not allow me to be greedy, but I must be allowed to be nostalgic.

Maybe tomorrow, Du Tingwei will pull his suitcase and leave, like the first time I saw him, as if he had never appeared in more than a year, he was still wearing a motorcycle suit and shuttled across the country, in which county? During the rainy season, seeing a boy or girl worthy of your liking, and setting up a life under the moon, you will fall in love with each other.

I have never been taken care of by him, and he has never cared about me.

I think this is very good, the clock on the wall in the living room is ticking, walking without skipping a frame, I wet the pillow cover before falling asleep.

"The candle shadow on the mica screen is deep."

"The long river gradually falls, the dawn stars sink."

"Chang'e should regret stealing the elixir."

"Bihai Qingtian has a heart every night."

"My name is Xia Yunfeng, and the baby's name is Xia Zhushen. I like babies."

"The baby is too small, so small, so cute."

"Baby, let me look at the sun with your back, shall we go to the yard to turn the windmill?" "Baby, they say I'm a fool, don't play with me, you play with me."

"Baby, why are my mother and Xiaofang's hair straight, but yours is curly?" "Baby, when will Xiaofang come back? I asked my mother and she hit me, and she asked me to ask you, He said you know."

"Baby, why do they say you are a bastard, a broom star?" "Why are you avoiding me? Do you think I'm a fool too?" "Where did Xiaofang go? Find Xiaofang, otherwise I will tell my mother that you are not good and let him beat you."

"You didn't smile at me today, I tore your hair off."

"Whose bastard are you, I will smash him to death."

"Smile for me, you look like Xiaofang when you smile, laugh for me, why cry! Laugh for me!" "I'm going to strangle you to death."

"..." I haven't had this kind of dream for a long time. When I woke up, my hair was soaked, my neck and legs were covered with greasy sweat, and those beautiful eyes were squatting. Looking at me sadly from the side, I looked carefully, only to find that it was not Jin Yeyu, but Du Tingwei.

When I need it, it will always be Du Tingwei who appears.

He touched my forehead over and over again, treating himself as a rag, I raised the corners of my mouth stiffly, I said I dreamed that I was chased by a ghost, and asked him if I was screaming in fright.

He said no, Xiaozhu slept well and didn't make any sound at all.

I really want to ask him, because he used to play instrumental music in my bedroom, there is a huge sound barrier wall, and it doesn’t affect the outside if he plays drums inside. Why are you guarding my bed worriedly in the middle of the night.

"elder brother."

I didn't expect that my throat would be swollen and sore after calling me brother, and I had obviously called it a thousand times with joy and joy in the past.

"here."

I endured the soreness in my nose, "Play me a tune."

He wiped the corners of his eyes for me, "Okay."

He was sitting in front of the black piano, with white and slender fingers, like a noble prince imprisoned under the moonlight, lightly pressing the black and white keys that unlocked the shackles.

No romance, no excitement, calm, as calm as rain in a hollow, neither happy nor sad.

"Brother, what's the name of this song?" I want to buy it for collection, put it in my ear, and play it on a loop when I have nightmares.

"The magic forest in Bach's heart."

Even if I don’t understand classical music, I feel something is wrong. I occasionally recommend it on the music software. Aren’t the big guys playing a string of English, such as flute, piano and violin, and sonata, waltz march, even if it’s translation The name coming here shouldn't be like Andersen.

"real or fake."

Cut, I patted the mattress demonstration.

"What's that called?" He lifted and pressed his fingers from the white keys, like the hot white cheese in toasted bread.

"Happy castle in Xiaozhu's heart."