June Ansheng

After I ran out of the building, I realized that the sky outside was the same as when I came back. Time was almost still. The strong wind tore the branches and leaves of the trees like a beast. spin.It turned out that the sky had been gloomy, and I rushed out of the street like crazy, and the raindrops fell "patter-patter", soaking my forehead and hair, and laying wet in front of my eyes.I picked it up a little irritably, but there was a forked road with no direction in front of me.

Where should I go?Where will he go?

I stopped abruptly at the intersection, and the inertia made me take a few more steps forward. Before I stopped, a silver-gray sports car flashed past in front of me.The strong wind brought by the car made me fall behind the car and kneel on the asphalt ground. I wiped a long bloodstain with my palms on the ground, which was quickly washed away by the rain.

will you be there

I lowered my head, gasping for breath with my eyes closed, my brain still in chaos.The cold rain is pouring down, but my head is a little hot at the moment.

With all this rain, I just hope you're home already.

It's nothing, just wait for me at home, I'll go find you.

Stumbling all the way to Liuguang, I pushed open the door, leaned over to prop up my knees and gasped for breath, the rain kept streaming down my body.I've never felt so embarrassed before.

The heavy rain stopped, it was just cloud and rain.

Quan Shizhe sat on the chair and looked at me with condensed eyes.

After a while, he breathed a sigh of relief and stopped looking at me. When he spoke, his tone was full of helplessness:

"What did you do again, why did you become like this again..."

I didn't finish listening to him, and burst into the store with a sigh of relief. When I ran up to the second floor, the door was still open.

It was the door he left for me.I know all about it.

He has done so much for me, how can I be willing to continue pretending not to know.

His home is still a dead white.Walking through the long aisle, at a place where I could just see the balcony, I saw him sitting on the bed in a daze, with his arms around his curled up legs, his chin resting on his knees, terribly helpless.

He also happened to be wearing a large white T-shirt, as if he wanted to blend in with the pure white all over the world.

"Rencan." I stood at the door and softly called his name.

He raised his head, looked at me, and suddenly pulled the corners of his mouth to give me a smile.

"I'm sorry." The dialogue in my heart was preempted by him.I was stunned and didn't understand what this sudden role reversal meant.

"I'm sorry." Seeing that I didn't speak, he repeated it again.

sorry?You say sorry to me?Did you fucking figure out who the person who is sorry for you is!I kissed someone in front of you, shouldn't you just come up and slap me and call me inhuman?I... can't stand your apology.

"Rencan, listen to me, I really..." I was anxious to explain, but I didn't know what to say for a moment.The words turned into a series of confusing Korean words, and I didn't even know what I was thinking at the moment.

"Nangong Xiayun." He called me, I just felt my body tremble, and I couldn't make a complete sound when I opened my mouth.

He looked at me, and slowly stretched his curled up body.

"Play the piano for me again, I haven't heard it in a long time."

He walked to my side with bare feet and approached the huge utensil tightly covered by white cloth.Grab a corner of the white cloth and lift it away.

Fine dust was scattered in the air, under the white cloth was a pure black piano, and above the keys was a cool black and white luster.

"I haven't touched it for a long time, please help it, it needs someone who really understands it." An Rencan stretched out his hand and pulled me to the front of the piano, but he huddled behind me, so that I couldn't see his expression clearly .But when he took my hand, I was already overwhelmed by emotion

"Just let it go, there are no piano stools here."

I frowned, looking at the blurred shadow on the body of the piano, not knowing what mood I should play again.The piano is my mother’s favorite instrument. I was able to play a lot of pieces when I was very young. Until she died and moved to my aunt’s house, no matter how poor the family was, I never touched my mother. That one can sell a lot money piano.

I sighed softly, closed my eyes, touched the cold keys with my fingertips, but finally felt at ease.

Mom, you listen.

"雨が过ぎて夏は青を迷した"

——When the rain leaves the blue sky with summer and loses its trace

"一つになって"

——Only your lonely figure is left

"小さく揺れた私の前で"

——Come to me with a slightly rippling heart

"He Moyan わずに"

- but you never say a word

"I thought I just missed the chance to be with you again, but now I realize that what I missed was all of you. You who no longer call me 'Nansheng', and those who no longer show two rows of teeth when you smile You, you who no longer have love in your eyes, you who have disguised yourself... My only sun has fallen now. Is it me who forced you into this? If so, I only want to make myself He will be hacked into pieces by a thousand swords and executed Lingchi."

"But no matter what, I still love you."

At the end of the song, the surrounding area became even more terrifyingly silent.

I wanted to turn my head back, but An Rencan firmly held me down.

"Close your eyes," he said.

I closed my eyes obediently, and felt his hand grabbing my shoulder slowly slipping onto my arm.The itchy touch made me want to open my eyes, but the endless fear in my heart forced me to close them tightly.His fingers finally stopped on the palm of my left hand, leaving the other hand empty.I tilted my head in doubt, curiosity forced me to open my eyes.

"Don't move, close your eyes." He seemed to have sensed my intentions, swung my head back with his elbow, and covered my eyes to prevent me from opening them: "If I open them, I will return to Korea immediately."

"Don't...don't." I panicked, and then gave up the idea of ​​opening my eyes again.

After a while, a cold hard object was stuffed into my palm.I retracted my hands in shock, but was restrained by his strength and couldn't move. Fear spread in my heart, and the dark world made me feel at a loss.

"Nangong Xiayun...forgive me for not calling you Nansheng anymore." He snapped my fingers, put them on the hard object one by one, and then tightened his grip, "I apologize to you, I shouldn't have come to look for you. your."

"Rencan, don't..."

"Don't talk, listen to me." He seemed to muster up a lot of courage before interrupting me, his voice was trembling, "I was the one who hurt you first, when you said you wanted to leave, you walked with me, did you?" I mentioned breaking up first. I admit that I didn't have you in my eyes at that time, only my ridiculous dream. "

I didn't dare to speak again, so I could only listen quietly.

"It may be too late to say this now, maybe I should have told you before you left. I fell in love with you first, so I lost." His tone was full of sadness, I wanted to speak, but He covered his lips with his hand, "I'm sorry for causing you trouble."

"What nonsense are you talking about..." I couldn't bear it anymore, but it was still too late.When I opened my eyes, An Rencan held my wrist and stabbed hard into his body with the cold hard object in my hand.

I hurriedly opened my eyes, looking at his frowning brows in pain, something just fell out of my eyes, defenseless.Perhaps the eye sockets were full before opening them.

On his lower abdomen, a large area was stained red with blood.The sticky crimson was out of place on his pure white T-shirt, shocking.And my hand was still on the long dagger.

"Kill me... have you relieved your hatred?" His hand covered the dagger, and he pulled it out forcefully, "I shouldn't have let your hand be stained with blood..."

"An Rencan, what are you doing! I didn't fucking come here to ask you to do something..." I watched his body fall limply, and rushed to hug him tightly, "Cheng Meijia and I have already broken up. No matter what...don't die..."

Doubt flashed across his eyes, but I regretted it.

His fingertips had started to feel cold, like I touched the black and white keys of a piano.It's just that the piano will never come to life, and he is dying.

"You... you wait, I will... take you to the hospital right now... oh no... I will... call an ambulance right now!" I only felt my teeth chattering, and my words were broken, "Hold on Stay! Don't die..."

"Don't go..." Seeing my body move, he stretched out his hand to grab my shirt.More and more blood gushed out from the wound on his lower abdomen, and flowed down his clothes to my body, "Stay here with me...I don't have much time."

"Are you kidding! If you continue like this, you will die!" I yelled at the top of my throat, as if the hoarse voice was not my own.You should have heard movement downstairs, the sound of shoes hitting the floor came from the stairs, "How could you leave me alone...how dare you!"

"Forget that I'm sorry for you... okay?" He was struggling to speak, but at this moment he even gave me a big smile, just like I've seen countless times, but his exposed die no longer shines.

"Don't cry."

"Don't apologize... I'm sorry for you! Jump up and punch me... don't do this..." I gritted my teeth, trying not to cry too embarrassingly in front of him: "I'm with you... Quan Shizhe will come up soon, we have to wait until he arrives..."

"It's useless." He shook his head lightly, the corners of his mouth drooping a little, "Next time if you have something to tell me sooner, please? I obviously gave you so many opportunities to explain... No, it's the next life... ...We will be together in the next life... okay?"

I couldn't speak anymore, I could only hug him tightly, trying to warm his body that was slowly cooling down.He is so tall, but he has become so thin in a time I don't know.

"Don't feel guilty about me, I didn't die because of you." His hand covered the back of mine, and he shook it with all my strength, and I hurriedly held him back. "Live well, just watch me act out a farce... Don't be like me, don't draw conclusions for yourself before you understand everything..."

Then his hand lost its strength, and I couldn't hold it for a moment, and his arm just hung down like that, just like those soap operas I've seen countless times.

"Ah—" I hugged him tightly and screamed out.

It was too late, and when he was sent to the hospital, his breath was already very weak.

He was still smiling when he closed his eyes.

"Why do you close your eyes? How do you let me see the stars in your eyes."

Kill me... have you relieved your hatred?

"I'm the one who should say I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry...will you come back?"

I'm sorry for bothering you.

"You left me alone, how can I live a good life?"

To live a good life, just treat it as watching me perform a farce...

"You asked me to kill you with my own hands. This is your greatest revenge against me, right? You took revenge on me and didn't wait for you as promised."

don't cry.

——How can you go, you obviously haven't waited for my "I love you".

The author has something to say:

kill the person you love with your own hands

Will you suffer forever?

I just feel sad when I read this chapter

High abuse should be in the last chapter

Finishing refills for Euterpe