draw a gun and talk about feelings

Ren Xianyang really came to knock on Qiao Yujun's door again at night, and he didn't have time to spare. There were large and small packages of nutritional supplements and delicious food, as well as the imported medicine he mentioned in the morning.

Qiao Yujun slept for a long time, his head was dizzy, when he opened the door and passed the living room, He Xiaozhou was lying motionless on the sofa as if he was asleep, Qiao Yujun sighed and covered He Xiaozhou with a blanket before giving Ren Xianyang opened the door.

If Qiao Yujun really didn't mean to make Ren Xianyang wait, he really knew that if he covered He Xiaozhou with a quilt in front of Ren Xianyang, Ren Xianyang would be furious, so it's better to tell him to wait outside the door. To save him from being unhappy when he entered the house.Besides, He Xiaozhou probably wasn't in a good mood right now. When Ren Xianyang left in the morning, he heard what He Xiaozhou said outside his door, but he didn't reply, and treated him coldly without saying a word.

He Xiaozhou didn't speculate deeply about the meaning of what He Xiaozhou said to him, but he thought a lot about how to answer, and finally couldn't hold back a word, so he just pretended to be dead and didn't make a sound.At that time, he really wanted to say, if I am not with him, there is something that I can't think about if I am with Ren Xianyang, but he can't say this, he really can't think about it, he always feels that it is the same thing to say that , the real selfishness is unwilling to draw such a conclusion.So He Xiaozhou didn't say any more, and Qiao and Junru were granted amnesty.

Ren Xianyang entered the room and stared at Qiao and Jun without looking at anything. Seeing that Qiao and Jun's eyelids were swollen and his head was hairy, it seemed that he had slept too much. Ren Xianyang put the things in his hand on the coffee table in the living room As soon as he stretched out his hand, he went to tidy Qiao Yujun's hair, as if he didn't see anyone else on the sofa.

He Xiaozhou didn't know if he was asleep or awake, but when he heard the movement, he turned over and turned himself into a ball facing the inside of the sofa.Only then did Hou Ren Xianyang realize that there was someone beside him, and he dragged Qiao and Jun to the bedroom, taking in the pile of medicines he had brought along with him.

Once Qiao and Jun entered the bedroom, they took off the medicine cloth with one hand, without saying a word, without raising their eyes, while Ren Xianyang took the medicine out in a hurry.

"This medicine is not easy to take. I searched for someone, and a few more boxes were prescribed from the hospital here. I asked you if it can be used in your hand, and you can use it in the future." What Ren Xianyang said was quite normal, Qiao Yu Jun started to curse in his heart, and scolded a few times, thinking that you can't stop talking about it later, you don't feel ashamed to panic about your feelings.

Ren Xianyang applied the medicine to Qiao Yujun as usual, and the careful and gentle energy was no longer there. After finishing his hands with what he called "the back", he made himself sweaty.

Qiao Yujun also had a big red face, and Ren Xianyang asked Qiao Yujun licking his old face, "Does it hurt, I should be careful."

Qiao Yujun had nothing to say back to him, "It doesn't hurt, it doesn't hurt, it doesn't hurt...why don't you go?"

At this time, Ren Xianyang was a little self-aware, knowing that Qiao Yujun was embarrassed, he reached out to wipe his forehead and wanted to touch Qiao Yujun's face, but Qiao Yujun turned his head away.

Ren Xianyang was not in a hurry either, he thought that Qiao Yujun was still angry with him, but he didn't see that Qiao Yujun's face was so red that it reached the neck, it was not from anger, but from embarrassment.Qiao Yujun couldn't forget Ren Xianyang's sexual intercourse early in the morning. He was thin-skinned, but he couldn't help Ren Xianyang dangling in front of him after applying the medicine to him.

Ren Xianyang cleaned up for Qiao Yujun, said goodbye and left, before leaving, told Qiao Yujun that he bought some food and brought it here, so that Qiao Yujun would eat when he was hungry.

After finally sending away the Buddha Ren Xianyang, Qiao Yujun collapsed back on the bed. He didn’t feel hungry at all, and he didn’t feel sleepy after sleeping all day. He also woke up in the living room, and searched the refrigerator to find water to drink. Qiao and Jun heard all the movement. After a while, He Xiaozhou came in with a box of milk, and put the milk for Qiao and Jun.

"Junjun, you haven't eaten, why don't you drink a can of milk." Qiao Yujun sat up and nodded at He Xiaozhou but didn't really pick up the milk.

He Xiaozhou looked at Qiao and Jun not moving or leaving, as if he wanted to talk to someone, but before Qiao and Jun opened his mouth, He Xiaozhou started to find a topic, "Do you like him?"

Qiao and Jun opened their mouths to say something, but swallowed it back for some reason, and finally said "I don't know..."

The ambiguous answer of "I don't know" is the most annoying, and both the listener and the speaker are upset. After Qiao Yujun said it, he felt confused.

He Xiaozhou had an air of reluctance, and followed this sentence and asked, "Do you want to be with him?"

Qiao Yujun raised his head and looked at He Xiaozhou. He knew that He Xiaozhou knew his sexuality now, and he had suspected that He Xiaozhou knew his feelings before, so he was not afraid of He Xiaozhou asking him questions about it, but He Xiaozhou The questions were all about Ren Xianyang, he really didn't know how to answer, if he had an answer in his heart, the words just now wouldn't be those three words, and this time he didn't have any novel answers, it was still "I don't know."

"I've made up my mind. Now that I'm back in China, I'm going to start again. Junjun, can you help me?" After hearing He Xiaozhou's words, Qiao Yujun only felt relieved, and he didn't have any mentality if he didn't talk about Ren Xianyang. Pressure, when Ren Xianyang was mentioned, he felt like he was standing on the edge of a cliff and being forced by a knife. He insisted on admitting the strange feelings in his heart that he didn't want to reveal, but He Xiaozhou, who made him always nervous at the beginning. Things, now let him feel easy to handle.

It is not difficult to agree to He Xiaozhou's request, that is, to borrow extra food, which is not a big deal in Qiao Yujun's view. Such a thing is even more relaxing than meeting Ren Xianyang's eyes.Now it doesn't matter for him to share the residence with others, but whenever he and Ren Xianyang look at each other, he gets flustered, always afraid of being exposed, and also afraid of falling.It is self-evident what was exposed and why it fell, but he just felt that there was no real point for him to really think through, just like a ball of wool can’t find its end, no matter how clear the texture is, it can’t be untied. Pimples together.

He Xiaozhou didn't say anything to Qiao Yujun, and went to the living room with his eyes downcast. He watched the TV all night without changing the channel, and he was still staring at the commercial time. He was suddenly very disappointed. The first time he said he didn't know, He Xiaozhou knew that Qiao Yujun didn't like him as much as before.

Qiao Yujun was upset listening to the sound of the TV outside the house, his mind was full of questions to himself, did he ever get angry when Ren Xianyang treated him badly?Was he angry when he wanted to take care of him like a young master?What about when you fooled him, tricked him, bullied him?What about when you force him and treat him violently?As I asked like this, the question began to change. Did I forgive him when he treated me well?Has he changed?What is his status in his heart?Do you like him?Want to be with him?

Qiao and Jun thought about it all night, they were all asking questions without answers, and if they had to answer, they didn’t know the three words. At five or six in the morning, Qiao and Jun were dazed and their eyes glued together like a shallow sleep. He Xiaozhou knocked on his door.

He Xiaozhou's mother was abroad and was found to be suffering from uremia. He was already in the hospital when he called He Xiaozhou. He Xiaozhou had no symptoms before returning to China. He planned to try to find a place to find a job before returning to China. He took his mother back, but the news frightened him. He asked Qiao and Jun for help. One was looking for psychological support, and the other was the most realistic. He wanted to borrow money.

Qiao and Jun listened to He Xiaozhou's anxious narration. He was actually in a hurry, but to be honest, he didn't have much savings. He was not afraid to lend it to He Xiaozhou, but it was indeed far from the amount He Xiaozhou told him. Knowing that He Xiaozhou was in a hurry, he was also in a hurry. When He Xiaozhou asked him for help, he was struggling, and finally called Ren Xianyang.

Ren Xianyang was very happy when he received Qiao Yujun's call, but when he picked it up, he heard Qiao Yujun say: "Ren Xianyang, can you lend me some money?"