double struggle

It was past midnight when Chu Wendao returned home, and the light in the living room was still on, but his parents had already gone to bed early.He didn't come back until Xu Qingzhou fell asleep. The two had just confirmed their relationship. Chu Wendao felt that it was better for him to fulfill his responsibilities as a lover first.

Tomorrow Chen Shanshan will go back to the United States. Her husband had already gone back two days ago because of a temporary business at the company.Chu Wendao had to drive Chen Shanshan to the airport himself, and took Chen Xintong home by the way.This also means that he will not be able to accompany Xu Qingzhou tomorrow.In this room he was worrying about how to find time, but in that room Xu Qingzhou couldn't bear to see him running back and forth, and insisted on going out for a stroll tomorrow by himself.Chu Wendao couldn't resist him, so he did as he wanted.

Thinking about it now, I still feel a little guilty.

After taking a bath, Chu Wendao went to the wine cabinet to pick up a bottle of whiskey, and took the wine glass to the balcony to drink by himself.

When he's alone, his mind runs wild.

To be honest, everything that happened today made Chu Wendao feel illusory—was it a bit too hasty?He had fallen so badly in the love of the best time, and again, he didn't think he could do better.People get tired after walking too much, and he is the same, so he can't toss about anymore.

Without vigorous enthusiasm, can Xu Qingzhou really stand it in the future?Chu Wendao didn't have much confidence.Xu Qingzhou needs him to accompany him, so let him be with him. It doesn't matter if one day is more or less.When the other party wants to end, he feels that he will also send blessings calmly.

Chu Wendao shook the wine bottle, and the liquid bumped back and forth in the closed space, which sounded very tight.When Father Chu finds out that his treasured whiskey has been stolen by him tomorrow, he will be so angry that he will jump up and down.

The moonlight is just right tonight, so I should have a good dream.

The Spring Festival is coming to an end, and now it is basically the post-Spring Festival period, so Chu Wendao went to pick up Chen Shanshan and his wife four hours earlier.When he arrived, his aunt and uncle had just left the house, and Chen Shanshan wanted to wake his daughter up, so he simply moved a chair and sat by the goldfish tank, counting how many red koi there were.

When the fourth koi was counted, Xu Qingzhou sent a text message.

——Teacher, have you gone out yet?

Chu Wendao looked at the time, it was exactly 08:30 in the morning.Seeing that Chen Shanshan still needed some time, he directly dialed Xu Qingzhou's number.

As soon as I called, the other end was connected immediately.

"Old, teacher..." Xu Qingzhou stuttered.

Chu Wendao knocked on the glass with his fingers, and the school of goldfish that swam over rushed away in all directions.Xu Qingzhou probably only felt shy now, he intended to amused him, but then he thought it was better not to scare people.

He asked softly, "How long do you want to sleep?"

"can not fall asleep."

"Have you had breakfast then?"

"Not yet, I'm going to go out and have a look."

Chu Wendao put his thumb on the goldfish bowl, and slowly slid along the direction of a white koi swimming towards him.In an ordinary morning, he and Xu Qingzhou had the most ordinary chat, which felt very comfortable.

"Turn left downstairs and walk about 100 meters. There is a noodle shop there. The wonton noodles made by the proprietress are delicious. You can try it." He said.

"Ah."

"Have you figured out where to play today?"

Xu Qingzhou hesitated for a while: "I plan to go to the Municipal Museum, and I can get there by subway."

Chu Wendao is happy, Xu Qingzhou should be so eager to learn, he will go to the museum on the first day to play.

"That's fine, why don't I pick you up in the afternoon." He stood up and was about to go to the balcony to smoke a cigarette. He put his hand into his jacket pocket, but what he took out was a box of Meiji chocolates.

He fiddled with the chocolate in his hand, dumbfounding: "Qingzhou, when did you change my cigarettes?" Suddenly there was a vague dropping sound from the receiver, followed by a bang bang bang bang.

After waiting for a long time, Xu Qingzhou replied falteringly: "I am... um, I'm sorry... I think the teacher will definitely not quit smoking on his own initiative..."

"Who asked you to apologize?" Chu Wendao opened the package and threw a piece of chocolate into his mouth.Xu Qingzhou is very clear about his favorite taste, which is not very sweet, but a little bit bitter.

Xu Qingzhou didn't dare to talk anymore.

Chu Wendao caught a glimpse of Chen Shanshan coming out of the bedroom with Chen Xintong in her arms, and saw that his little niece looked dazed and awake, so he ate another piece of chocolate in a good mood.

"You are my boyfriend now. From now on, you will not only take care of me quitting smoking, but also take care of my basic necessities." He said, "I should apologize for making you worry so much."

Xu Qingzhou still didn't speak, Chu Wendao guessed that he was probably blushing.Young people, you can be at a loss because of a single sentence.

"Teacher..." Xu Qingzhou finally spoke, "I want to see you."

Chen Shanshan carried Chen Xintong out of the living room and tied her daughter's hair with a comb.

"I won't go out for dinner in the evening. I'll pick you up in the afternoon." Chu Wendao said as he walked back to the living room, "Come and taste your mother-in-law's cooking skills, you should like it."

Xu Qingzhou said in a panic: "Isn't it good? It's too disturbing to your family. I think I'll just stay by myself."

"That's it. I'm going to go out. I'll contact you later." Chu Wendao ignored Xu Qingzhou's protest and made a final decision.

At first, he planned to take Xu Qingzhou home for a meal. No matter what the relationship between the two parties was, at least Xu Qingzhou was still his closest student.

Chen Shanshan had heard the content of Chu Wendao's call a long time ago. She knew her cousin too well, so she guessed [-]% to [-]% of it after a little consideration.After getting in the car, she made sure that her daughter had fallen asleep again, and reached out to pat the back of the driver's seat.

"Release?" she asked succinctly.

Chu Wendao nodded: "Take him home tonight."

Chen Shanshan didn't doubt Chu Wendao's quickness at all, there was nothing wrong with it, anyway, it was a matter of time.

"That's good." She smiled gratifiedly, "When I come back next time, let me take a look too."

Chu Wendao was silent for a moment, Chen Shanshan couldn't see his current expression from that angle, only he himself knew the few seconds of blankness in his heart.

"We'll talk about it later," he said.

When going out from home again in the afternoon, Chen Xintong insisted on going out with Chu Wendao, but Chu Wendao called Chu's mother over to help him, and then managed to coax him back.It's just that there was a delay here. Chu Wendao was already half an hour late when he reached the gate of the museum.

Chu Wendao looked around in the lobby, but saw no one, so he took out his mobile phone and called.

"Teacher?" After more than ten seconds, Xu Qingzhou answered.

"I'm here, where are you?" he asked.

Xu Qingzhou was obviously stunned, and said after a while: "I'm at the souvenir shop."

The souvenir sales area was next to the exit on the first floor, and he hurried to the place indicated by the sign.

"Wait for me there."

"it is good."

After all, it is still the Spring Festival holiday, and there are not many people in the museum. Chu Wendao saw Xu Qingzhou standing by the exit at a glance.He also seemed to have quickly spotted Chu Wendao who was approaching, and couldn't help but walked over quickly.When they approached each other, Xu Qingzhou subconsciously wanted to reach out and grab Chu Wendao's sleeve, but after thinking about it, he took it back.

Chu Wendao hooked Xu Qingzhou's shoulder calmly, like brothers.He knew what Xu Qingzhou was worried about, so he couldn't help but scolded with a smile: "Yum wood head."

Xu Qingzhou didn't understand why he was scolded, and stared aggrievedly.The two walked out of the door, Chu Wendao wrapped his scarf around Xu Qingzhou's neck, wrapped it several times, and let go of it in satisfaction until he was sure that there was no gap.

"What did you buy?" He glanced at the gift bag in Xu Qingzhou's hand and asked curiously.

The souvenirs in the museum are more expensive than the common goods outside. Chu Wendao himself will not be fooled, but seeing the joy in Xu Qingzhou's eyes, he thinks it's worth it.

Xu Qingzhou opened the bag and showed Chu Wendao what was inside.Two sets of postcards, one set of commemorative coins.

"I think it looks pretty, so I want to buy it back and keep it." He smiled contentedly.

Chu Wendao couldn't help being stunned. He remembered that Xu Qingzhou's expression before was always indifferent, no matter whether it was joy, anger, sorrow or joy.But now Xu Qingzhou seems to open his heart to him little by little, his expression is richer, and he seems to be more cheerful.

He never knew that he had such a great influence on Xu Qingzhou.

"By the way, teacher, can you take me back later?" Xu Qingzhou's sudden question interrupted Chu Wendao's train of thought.

Chu Wendao paused with his hand holding the car key, and after a while of reaction, he finally understood Xu Qingzhou's words.

He opened the car door and asked casually, "Are you timid now?"

Xu Qingzhou shook his head, looked at Chu Wendao's expression, and muttered in a low voice: "I bought something this morning, and I plan to bring it to Professor Chu and Professor Xie." Seeing that Chu Wendao didn't respond, he quickly added : "I didn't bring anything with me when I came here. The sudden visit was too abrupt, so I had to buy some small gifts temporarily..."

This kid is thoughtful about everything.Chu Wendao wanted to say that his parents were never bound by these customs, but if Xu Qingzhou was not allowed to fulfill his wish, he would feel uneasy throughout the night.

"You..."

Chu Wendao gently put his hand on the back of Xu Qingzhou's hand, and with a little force, he opened his fingers one by one.The weather is so cold, but Xu Qingzhou's palms are covered with beads of sweat.

He gently wiped away the moisture in the palm lines with his thumb, and said, "I haven't told my parents about our relationship yet, so you just go to see the teacher's teacher, don't be nervous."

Xu Qingzhou's fingers grasped by Chu Wendao curled up slightly, and he looked at Chu Wendao fixedly.

"Obviously you chased me first, why are you so timid now?"

In fact, Xu Qingzhou, like him, is still not confident in this relationship.They are now in a situation where they are walking on thin ice. Although they are holding hands, their hearts are still on the other side.As long as Xu Qingzhou doesn't want to, he won't confess to his parents.Of course, whether his shrewd parents will notice it is another matter.

Xu Qingzhou lowered his eyelids and said, "I'm not confident."

"I should be the one who has no confidence." Chu Wendao kissed the tip of Xu Qingzhou's nose, "It's still a long time, we're not in a hurry."

Xu Qingzhou stared at this face that was close at hand, and slowly let go of the anxiety on the surface.Chu Wendao's language has a kind of magical power, which makes him unconsciously believe that their future can reach the distant place they once dreamed of.