double struggle

Chattering discussions sounded in my ears, one after another like playing music.Chu Wendao rested his chin and looked out of the window. He was glad that he was sitting by the window and was able to pass the time by observing the situation.After staying up for two hours, the phrase "Ming Mingde, being close to the people, and striving for perfection" was still repeated in my ears.

Although Chu Wendao has a high degree of education, he has the heart of a scholar.Even though it was an exchange meeting, but you kept talking to each other, and you got blushed in the end, which was really disappointing.His personality is actually not suitable for being a famous scholar. His former mentor also said so, and he smiled and didn't care.If he could choose, Chu Wendao also hoped to take a path that suits him.He has many hobbies - being a photographer, or a pianist, or a tea merchant, is much more interesting than it is now.

But there are no ifs in his life.

"Mr. Chu, are you going to eat?" Teacher Li, who was traveling with him, touched Chu Wendao's shoulder and asked.

Chu Wendao glanced at his watch and shook his head: "I have an appointment with a friend, you go."

"Okay, see you tomorrow."

"Well see you tomorrow."

Chu Wendao sighed secretly, it was undoubtedly torture for such an extremely boring exchange meeting to last for four consecutive days.Having stayed at M University for several years, he is familiar with every detail here.There was still an hour before the time agreed with Xu Qingzhou. After thinking about it, he walked to the teaching building where Xu Qingzhou was in class.

After the vernal equinox, the green and tender colors on both sides of the boulevard extend to the sky, the road surface is wet, and the heels of shoes will rustle when stepped on.Spring in the south is like a layer of tulle covering the top of the head. The wind will come in through the gaps, but it can't blow away the heavy shoulders.

Chu Wendao stepped into a small pool of stagnant water, and he lowered his head subconsciously.The narrow space seemed to contain the mortal world, and under the shadow of the swaying tree was his thoughtful face. In a trance, he seemed to feel that there was someone beside him.They have walked through the tree-lined avenues countless times in such seasons, and have witnessed the mottled years by a small water beach like a mirror.

Then, he actually saw the familiar reflection in the water.If possible, Chu Wendao would not choose this path even if he was killed.But he chose to go this way, and then happened to run into Zhang Zhiyuan who hadn't seen him for several months.

At this time, he finally felt that M University was not in Feng Shui with him.In just a few hours, he longed for a total of two "ifs".Of course, for the third time, Chu Wendao decided not to set foot in M ​​University again.

Chu Wendao felt that Zhang Zhiyuan's expression looked extremely funny at this moment, as if he was looking at a monster, his eyes were rounded, his face was full of disbelief and bewilderment.He touched his face, this morning Xu Qingzhou couldn't understand his decadence for a few days, so he shaved his beard himself, and now he should look good.

Zhang Zhiyuan took two steps forward, then stopped suddenly.He stared at Chu Wendao, and asked stiffly, "Why are you here?"

It sounded a bit questioning, so Chu Wendao couldn't help laughing.

"Come to the academic exchange meeting." He shook the folder in his hand symbolically, and answered concisely.

"Oh... I know that." Zhang Zhiyuan lowered his eyelids, still seemed confused, "I didn't expect you to come."

Chu Wendao didn't answer, he hesitated for a moment and continued to move forward.For students who have more time between classes, the two teachers standing in the middle of the road are too eye-catching. He doesn't want to become a discussion figure in the students' circle of friends after leaving the job.

"Let's talk in a place with few people." Zhang Zhiyuan said when he passed by.

Zhang Zhiyuan and him don't need much time, enough time to arrive at the agreed place before Xu Qingzhou leaves get out of class.

There is a small golf course in M ​​University, which is located behind the engineering building. It is relatively remote, and often only scattered students will come here to play.

Zhang Zhiyuan sat at the stone table next to the golf course, staring casually at the backs of the students swinging clubs in the distance.Chu Wendao watched from a distance, still holding the drink bought from the vending machine in his hand, stood for a while, and walked out from the alley.

"How are they playing?" Chu Wendao gave the pulse to Zhang Zhiyuan, while he kept another bottle of fruit orange.

Zhang Zhiyuan glanced at the drink that Chu Wendao had put away, his eyes rolled over, and then back again.

"Not good." He commented indifferently.

Chu Wendao nodded. According to his years of knowledge, there is no sports that Zhang Zhiyuan is not good at.If so, it should only be swimming.From his amateur perspective, at least the student's skills seem to be very good now.

"Is aunt well?" he asked.

Zhang Zhiyuan was stunned for a moment, and put down the pulse after drinking: "It's pretty good, my health has improved a lot."

"My mother recently bought some good Ganoderma lucidum, and I'll send you some to make soup for your aunt later." Chu Wendao paused suddenly, and raised his lips mockingly, "Of course, if you want it."

Zhang Zhiyuan was silent.

Chu Wendao was most afraid of Zhang Zhiyuan's eyes like this, as if he had suffered a great injustice, but also seemed to hide deep pity.Facing Zhang Zhiyuan like this, he felt that the pores all over his body were constricting, and he was so depressed that he wanted to go crazy.

"Zhiyuan, don't look at me like that." Chu Wendao avoided Zhang Zhiyuan's gaze and said calmly, "Don't you feel unhappy?"

Cheers came from the golf course, it should be another goal.

"I don't know." Zhang Zhiyuan said hoarsely, "When I see my mother happy, I feel that everything is worth it. But every time I see that the person next to me is no longer you, I feel very uncomfortable."

Chu Wendao stood up and sat beside Zhang Zhiyuan.Their backs are against the golf course, and the laughter and laughter are behind them.

Chu Wendao raised his thumb to wipe away the wetness from the corners of Zhang Zhiyuan's eyes, and sighed vaguely.Zhang Zhiyuan seldom cried, at least in his memory, no more than three times.Once Zhang Zhiyuan's father died of liver cancer at an advanced stage, once Zhang's mother was hospitalized when they were in college, and this time.

Chu Wendao used to be afraid that the person he loved the most would be sad, every drop of tears seemed to break his heart.He wished he could ward off all the catastrophes, and only hoped that his Zhiyuan would be happy and free from illness and pain every day.But time passed, Chu Wendao could no longer do anything for Zhang Zhiyuan, and in the end he sighed helplessly.

"Zhiyuan, you know—I want you to be happy, whether it's the past, the present, or the future, this has never changed." He looked at the branches above his head, and there were exquisite buds on them, "Remember Did we first meet in high school?"

Zhang Zhiyuan was stunned for a moment: "Remember, when we played basketball between our two classes, you and I were both forwards."

Chu Wendao turned his face away and blinked slyly: "Neither Sun Hai nor I told you that I am not on the basketball team, and I was just a substitute that day. Our striker went crazy for some reason. He had a fever the night before the game. When the monitor saw that I usually played basketball well, he randomly reported my name.”

"But I went to the basketball team to look for you later, you weren't..."

Zhang Zhiyuan opened his red eyes in disbelief, and then bit the back of his hand.

Chu Wendao lowered his eyebrows. This was the beginning of him and Zhang Zhiyuan, and it was also the little secret he had kept for so long.

"I signed up for the basketball team immediately after the game, and you know what happened afterwards." He showed a familiar smile to Zhang Zhiyuan, "I don't blame you, Zhiyuan, that's my willingness. But there are some things that cannot be changed. I can't go back, and I don't want to touch my bottom line. So be it, okay?"

Zhang Zhiyuan shook his head hoarsely, he couldn't speak at all.Chu Wendao squatted down in front of Zhang Zhiyuan, and held up Zhang Zhiyuan's face blurred by tears. His heart still hurt, but he just stabbed it lightly, nothing else.

"Is that man nice to you?"

After a long time, Zhang Zhiyuan asked him in a vague voice.

Chu Wendao didn't know what he thought of, and smiled softly: "Very good."

When Chu Wendao went to the classroom, the get out of class bell just rang, and Xu Qingzhou was surrounded by groups of female students asking questions.He looked interesting, found a seat in the front row and sat down, picked up his mobile phone to play match [-] games, and looked up from time to time.

After three rounds, Xu Qingzhou was finally liberated, and sat down with Chu Wendao on his shoulder.

"The big star is finally free?" Chu Wendao put away his phone and teased.

Xu Qingzhou rolled her eyes: "Teacher, don't laugh at me...Have you waited for a long time?"

"Not long ago, I just arrived when you finished class." Chu Wendao hooked Xu Qingzhou's finger, "Where do you want to eat?"

Xu Qingzhou looked around and found that there were only the two of them left in the huge classroom, so he was relieved to let people hold hands.

"You decide? I can eat anything." Seeing Chu Wendao staring at herself with raised eyebrows, Xu Qingzhou thought for a moment in embarrassment, "Go home and eat?"

Chu Wendao didn't have any opinion on this, and when the two walked to the parking lot, he heard Xu Qingzhou add in a low voice: "I want to eat the one cooked by the teacher himself..."

"It's only been mentioned once, and you've remembered it for so long?" Chu Wendao said funny.

Xu Qingzhou flinched and blinked: "Is it not possible?"

"Yes, of course." Chu Wendao squeezed Xu Qingzhou's proud face while there was no one around, "The acting skills are perfect, and we can make our debut."

Xu Qingzhou covered the place where she was pinched, the tips of her ears were red, and the corners of her mouth raised happily.