coquettish and clingy

When Lin Zhichuan said he didn't want to leave him, Gu Jingcan realized the unusual significance of this chemistry competition.If he only went to the training camp for a short time, Lin Zhichuan wouldn't say such a thing, maybe he would think Xiaobie is better than a newlywed.But he said uncomfortably that he didn't want to leave him...

Did he shake Lin Zhichuan's long-standing goal?

Gu Jingcan was in a daze, he didn't know how to choose, and he didn't know what advice he could give Lin Zhichuan.

If it was just an ordinary school, Gu Jingcan would not care too much. He cherishes Lin Zhichuan's talent and wants him to get the best opportunity for further study. Going abroad is his best choice.But a top university like Peking University can't help but make his heart move.

Lin Zhichuan can stay in the country with him, or even stay in the same city. They don't have to face separation and jet lag, and they can stay together day and night.Their future is smooth without having to endure the test of separating two continents for four years.

Gu Jingcan stood on the balcony blowing in the air, hesitating for the first time about Lin Zhichuan.He and Lin Zhichuan basically wouldn't have any conflicts. Neither of them is a strong person, and they do ordinary things casually. As a result, this is the first time they are in such a troublesome situation.

Lin Zhichuan said that he didn't want to leave him, so excluding him as a factor, Lin Zhichuan wanted to go abroad, right?Before meeting him, Lin Zhichuan knew that there was a quota for recommendation in the competition, but he still chose to go abroad and worked hard for a long time, so it was Gu Jingcan who stopped him from going abroad.

Gu Jingcan rubbed his eyes tiredly and lay down on the balcony.The night wind was very cold, but he still felt restless.

It's not just that Gu Jingcan wants Lin Zhichuan to go abroad, Lin Zhichuan himself is also hesitating.Even if Gu Jingcan encourages Lin Zhichuan to go abroad, it is unknown whether Lin Zhichuan himself will be separated from him for four years.

When Lin Zhichuan could only go abroad, he had no choice for many things. Gu Jingcan would avoid questions such as whether he would study in conjunction with his undergraduate and master’s degree in the future, whether he would stay in the United States, and whether he would have nothing to say as time went on, etc. and other practical issues.But now that Lin Zhichuan has a good opportunity to stay in China, these problems have been perfectly resolved.

Gu Jingcan hoped that Lin Zhichuan would stay in the country with him, but he didn't want Lin Zhichuan to give up his dream because of him.How could Lin Zhichuan let go of the dream he had worked so hard for so long? He even mentioned his favorite university when chatting, and his eyes were shining at that time.

The back and forth mood made Gu Jingcan restless, kicked the wall annoyedly, and went back to the dormitory to sleep soundly.

Both of them didn't close their eyes much all night. Lin Zhichuan was lying on the table in the morning, and he was in a trance.Gu Jingcan went directly to the art building, holding the violin in a daze.They try their best not to think about it, but they can't help but look for an answer, but it's all in vain.

Gu Jingcan didn't dare to go to Lin Zhichuan, fearing that Lin Zhichuan couldn't help but tell his true thoughts if he was forced.He is selfish, he wants Lin Zhichuan to stay in the country.

Lin Zhichuan began to wonder why he had to go abroad. He used to feel that staying in China was empty and lonely. He was alone, and it didn't matter how lonely he was, and he could get a diploma from a world-renowned school.But now that he has something to worry about and someone who won't make him feel lonely, why can't he give up going abroad decisively?Did he persist for too long and couldn't give up for a while, or did he not really like Gu Jingcan very much?

Thinking of the latter possibility, Lin Zhichuan felt chills all over.

Song Ke soon noticed that something was wrong. Lin Zhichuan and Gu Jingcan stopped eating together, and Gu Jingcan rarely even came back to the classroom.Not only him, but even Wang Sisi began to feel that Gu Jingcan was abnormal.

"Song Ke, where did Gu Jingcan go?"

"I don't know." He didn't dare to ask Gu Jingcan, and he felt cold all over his body.Lin Zhichuan was so distraught that Song Ke didn't dare to think about whether the two had broken up.He was obviously joking a few days ago, why did it suddenly happen?

Wang Si thought for a while, "He hasn't been with Lin Zhichuan recently, it's so strange, did you quarrel?"

The more Song Ke thought about it, the more he felt something was wrong. Instead of looking for Lin Zhichuan, he went straight to Gu Jingcan, and the two of them stood at the corner of the dormitory.It was cold, and there were few people in the aisle, so it was convenient for them to talk.

Song Ke didn't beat around the bush, and went straight to the point, "Did you break up?"

Gu Jingcan's eyes immediately turned cold, "What nonsense!"

Song Ke has never been cowardly when it comes to Lin Zhichuan, and Gu Jingcan's cold eyes can't scare him, "He's been in a bad state recently, just like a bewitched man, he has been scolded several times by Lao Zhang, and his roar can be heard on the whole floor. I don’t know if Lin Zhichuan set the laboratory on fire.”

Gu Jingcan paced back and forth irritably, he knew that running away would not solve the problem, but he didn't even think about it himself, did he go to Lin Zhichuan and make things difficult for him?Hearing Song Ke's words, Gu Jingcan's whole heart was wrenched. Lin Zhichuan had a worse life than himself, and he was the one who was really tortured.

"You go back first, I'll go find him."

Song Ke watched Gu Jingcan run away after finishing speaking, and his heart was slightly relieved.It's fine if they don't break up, as for Lin Zhichuan's stubborn ass, if they really break up, it's over.

Lin Zhichuan was sitting in a chair in a daze, the eldest and the second child carefully avoided him and bit their ears, "Si'er was in a daze as soon as he came back these two days, as if he had lost his soul, what's the matter?"

The second child didn't know the situation, "I don't know, rely on the third child, don't eat it!"

The third child held the ham sausage Serin Zhichuan, "Eat it."

The boss and the second child didn't know what to say about him. Lin Zhichuan came back to his senses and saw the ham sausage in his hand, but didn't understand what he was doing.Seeing him like this, the boss is very embarrassed, this child cannot be saved!

"Sier, with brother..."

With a "bang", the door was almost knocked open, and it bounced against the wall with a loud noise.The four frightened people looked at the door together, and saw Gu Jingcan walking in panting, grabbing Lin Zhichuan and dragging him out.

Seeing that the situation was wrong, the second child stopped him at the door, with unkind eyes, "What are you doing, where are you taking Jiang Liuer?"

The boss and the third child also gathered around. They knew that Gu Jingcan had a good relationship with Lin Zhichuan, but they wanted to drag him away in front of them in the middle of the night, did they ask the three of them?

Gu Jingcan frowned, "I have something to do with him, I'll be back in a while."

The boss sneered, "Did Jiang Liu'er agree, so you drag him away?"

The third child pushed Lin Zhichuan, and Lin Zhichuan came to his senses, "Oh... yes... we have something to do, we will be back soon."

"Is it really okay, Si'er, don't be afraid, brothers are not afraid of trouble!"

Lin Zhichuan smiled, waved his hands and said, "It's really fine, I'll be right back."

Hearing what he said, the three of them dispersed. Gu Jingcan pursed his lips and led Lin Zhichuan out of the dormitory building, and walked to the back alley of the cafeteria.

"Jing Can, you..."

The rest of the words were drowned in the ferocious kiss, Gu Jingcan hugged him and sealed her mouth forcefully.Lin Zhichuan clung to Gu Jingcan's body tightly, biting his lips almost violently, and entangled the soft tip of his tongue tightly.Gu Jingcan hurt his bones, but this seemed to make him feel more at ease, and his wandering heart finally landed.

After a long time, Gu Jingcan finally left Lin Zhichuan's lips.There was a bloody smell in his mouth, and he couldn't tell whether it was Lin Zhichuan's or his.Lin Zhichuan put his arms around his neck, unable to see his expression clearly.

"Zhichuan, go abroad."

Lin Zhichuan bit his lips tightly, his voice trembling, "I don't want to."

He didn't want to leave, he didn't want to leave this person, the person who held all his warmth.

Gu Jingcan held his face with both hands, groping his eyebrows and eyes with his fingertips, gently and carefully.How could he be willing to let Lin Zhichuan leave, but he had no choice. Compared with his own selfishness, he wanted Lin Zhichuan's life to not leave any regrets, especially this kind of encounter that cannot be repeated.

Holding him in his arms, Gu Jingcan said in his ear, "Listen to me, Zhichuan. I don't want you to go, I want to be in the same city with you, I want to see you every day, I want to cook for you and When you go shopping, you want to stay by your side every festival."

Lin Zhichuan made up his mind and stopped hesitating, "Then I won't leave, I won't go anywhere!"

"No, Zhichuan."

Lin Zhichuan looked up at Gu Jingcan with grievances, and there was still anger in the grievances, "What do you want from me, I finally made up my mind, can you listen to me! I decide on my own, and you don't need to worry about it!"

As soon as he said this, Lin Zhichuan regretted it.That's not what he meant, he didn't want to get angry at Gu Jingcan, and he didn't mean to blame, but irresponsible words just came out of his mind.Lin Zhichuan panicked and froze.

Gu Jingcan's lips pursed even tighter. If it wasn't too dark at night, Lin Zhichuan would have noticed that his eye circles were red, and a thin layer of tears was forced back.

Lin Zhichuan was already in a panic, and he couldn't follow the chaos.

"Zhichuan..."

"I'm sorry, Jing Can, I didn't mean that!" Lin Zhichuan hurriedly said, "I...my mind is too messed up, I don't know what to do. But Jing Can, I really don't want to leave you! "

Gu Jingcan hurriedly hugged Lin Zhichuan who was panicked, and really felt the torment he was suffering.It is he who wants to give up his dream, and he is the one who wants to cross the ocean. No matter what decision he makes, Lin Zhichuan is the one who suffers the heaviest consequences.

"I know, Zhichuan, I know you don't want to leave me, and I don't want to leave you either."

Hearing such words, Lin Zhichuan calmed down a little, "Then let me stay, okay?"

He figured it out, it wasn't scary to stay in a foreign country for four years, what he was afraid of was that the long-term separation would cause the two of them to go further and further apart, eventually unable to bear the consumption of time and distance, and finally had to separate.These days, he suddenly has no confidence in himself, not even in Gu Jingcan.Only by staying by his side can he not worry about gains and losses like this.

He used to think too naively, he thought that Gu Jingcan was willing to wait for him, and it would be no problem for him to return to China in four years, but this long four-year severance was the most fatal problem.They met different people in different time zones in different countries, made different friends, spoke different languages ​​and looked at different scenery, and when they met four years later, they were no longer the same people they were before they separated.

Do they feel lonely?Do you feel strange looking at each other?Will there be nothing to say because the life circles have no intersection at all?

too frightening.

Lin Zhichuan hugged Gu Jingcan tightly, as if if he let go, those worries would come true, "I won't have any regrets if I don't go abroad, Peking University is also a famous school. I used to think that there was nothing in China that was worthy of my nostalgia, but now it's different Now, I have you, so I have a reason to stay."

Gu Jingcan gently stroked his hair, "Thank you, Zhichuan, for letting me know that people care about you so much. But Zhichuan, you didn't go abroad because you wanted to go abroad, it was because your dream was there."

Lin Zhichuan was stunned, he let go of his hand and stared blankly at Gu Jingcan, "Dream?"

"Yes, it's a dream."

Want to go to a university abroad, is that a dream?

He always thought it was a place to escape, and also where his dream was?