Fast time travel, if you leave the protagonist, you will be critically ill

When Qin Yu was a child, he heard a story called "Secret Garden".The little girl in the story lived in a big gloomy house. She accidentally found a hidden rose garden and led her friends to cultivate it. Not only did the rose garden come back to life, but it also attracted many animal friends.

Qin Yu also lived in a big house, but there was no rose garden or small animals throughout his childhood.His parents are both high-achieving students at the University of Pennsylvania, so they have high expectations of him, and the requirements are naturally very strict.Moreover, Qin's mother has a serious obsession with cleanliness. Not only is Qin Yu not allowed to raise small animals, she is even forbidden to invite kindergarten children home as guests.

The words Qin Yu heard the most when he was a child were: Don't fight with children, don't cry and laugh, don't express likes and dislikes in front of others, but speak softly, elegantly and modestly.

Maybe many parents would ask for the same from their children, but Qin's mother wanted to be exact.When he was a child, Qin Yu was most afraid of doing something wrong.There is an unused study room at home, where his father’s old books and work materials are piled up. Every time his mother is dissatisfied with him, he will let him go in and reflect. There is only a small desk lamp on in the whole study room, and his shadow is magnified on the wall , like a monster.The children in the kindergarten really regarded him as a monster. At that time, the children often played "one two three, wooden man". One day, a chubby little girl he liked suddenly pointed at him and called "wooden man". Since then, all the children started calling him a wooden man. He didn't want to go to kindergarten. His mother said: "Qin Yu, I'm so disappointed in you!"

Later, when he grew up and went to elementary school, people around him still secretly called him a wooden man, and even his favorite teacher told his colleagues behind his back: "Qin Yu in our class looks like a doll, but his personality is a bit strange. .”

Why is this so?He stood in the dimly lit study room, looking at the shadow on the wall and asking himself.The shadow seemed to be rushing towards him with teeth and claws. Qin Yu covered his head and crawled under the desk, not daring to cry loudly.

I will not enter this study again, never again.He gritted his teeth and said to himself in his heart.

Later, when he really grew up, everyone began to envy him and praise him.Hearing too many compliments is as worthless as dung. The only thing that makes him happy is that he doesn't have to go into that study room again.

But why is life so lonely?He went to read, read Kafka, read McCullers, read George Orwell.But none of them knew the answer.

I met Lu Leke in high school. Qin Yu looked down on this boy very much. He was always submissive. When he was bullied, he lowered his head and shed tears when he was laughed at. I don’t know who started calling him a sissy. One day Lu Leke walked away from him. In the past, the boy with his shoulders suddenly yelled sissy, and the voice of the fat girl when he was a child suddenly appeared in Qin Yu's mind.

Sissy!

Blockhead!

Qin Yu patted the boy's hand away, pretending to be nonchalant and said, "Why are you so childish!" Then he put his hand in his school uniform pocket and went into the classroom.

He didn't see Lu Leke turned his head and glanced at him quietly.

In the third year of high school, he changed his deskmate, but he didn't expect that the person next to him turned into Lu Leke.Qin Yu is very easy-going, but for some reason, when he saw Lu Leke, he remembered his childhood nickname.So the two sat at the same table for more than half a year, and could count the words they had said with one hand.

A girl studying art confessed to him during the sprint stage of the third year of high school. After he refused, the girl flicked the pen in her hand and filled in a line of color on his T-shirt. Qin Yu tried hard to control himself so that he didn't get angry on the spot. In the end, he went to the toilet to clean When he was in school, he actually saw Lu Leke flirting with the gangster in the next class. He was already angry, so he directly pissed off the two of them. He didn't expect that he and Lu Leke would have more interactions since then.

When did you fall in love with Lu Leke?Qin Yu himself didn't know, maybe it was when he helped himself to blame, or maybe it was the famous line of Hrabal.

He secretly rented a house by mistake, and raised that Fat Coke who looked very much like Lu Leke.Then he confessed in a strange way.Lu Leke seemed to be frightened, his eyes were wide open, and he saw himself in his eyes.

When his mother took him home, she only said one sentence: "Qin Yu, you let me down so much."

Yeah?I also feel disappointed in myself.Even more disappointed in you.

He was locked in that study again, this time the shadow on the wall did not make him feel lonely or afraid.Because that lamp reminded him of the night when Lu Leke asked himself if he was happy.

But Lu Leke didn't say he liked him.

The second time he left, he left with the attitude that he would never see him again.

His mother said: "Qin Yu, sneaking away is not bravery, it is a stupid thing for immature boys, and a man who has grown up will only hold his head high with honor and the ability not to be influenced by others go back."

Lu Leke, I will definitely work hard, a hundred times, a thousand times harder than before.

On the day Britain announced the legalization of homosexuality, Qin Yu was drunk and impulsively ran to a jewelry store to buy a ring. In a foreign country with an eight-hour time difference, he held up the ring and leaned against the street lamp and asked, "Lu Leke, would you like to be with me?" Do I live together?"

On the phone, Lu Leke softly called him: "Qin Yu..."

But he can't go back. If he goes back, he will be a coward, and his previous efforts will be wasted.

After seven years, Qin Yu still couldn't forget Lu Leke, he could finally control himself, and he decided to go back.Before leaving, his mother still only gave him one sentence: "Qin Yu, you let me down so much."

Lu Leke is getting married, how can he let Lu Leke get married.Qin Yu felt that the ring on his chest burned his flesh and penetrated into his heart.

He took Lu Leke away, like a kidnapper.

Taking advantage of the danger, he tricked the drunk Lu Leke back home and into bed.

"Lu Leke, love me!" This is the last request of a person who is so humble in the dust, please, love me.

Qin Yu knew that Lu Leke was drunk, but when he heard him say: "I love Qin Yu.", his eyes still shone brightly.

Lu Leke, love me, love me.He hugged Lu Leke even tighter, completely possessing him.

Qin Yu made many assumptions. He thought of Lu Leke crying, Lu Leke hated him, and Lu Leke walked away from him completely from then on.

But why, when Lu Leke woke up, he actually asked him: "Qin Yu, how many days are eight years?"

"More than 2000 days."

Lu Leke hugged him tremblingly, and said in a crying voice: "I'm sorry... I have never dared to tell you that Lu Leke loves you for 920 days. If you are still firm, there will be the 920th day." People, also want to be brave once, how about you?Do you dare to continue to love me?

Is this a dream? How could Lu Leke say such a thing.But it doesn't matter even if it is a dream, he is willing to live in this dream forever.

"I love you." Love you forever.

Lu Leke, you are my belated rose garden, the place where my lonely heart rests.