my coward

The unremarkable car is speeding along the coastal road, the sun shines on the sea like a mirror, and a layer of golden halo appears, a breeze blows and it seems to break the mirror, and the golden starlight spreads across the sea in an instant , shining so brightly that Zhuo Guangyao couldn't open his eyes.The cell phone rang in an untimely manner, Zhuo Guangyao was so frightened that he stepped on the brakes and quickly pressed it off, for fear of waking up the "meat ticket" in the back seat.Unexpectedly, the person who made the call was also persistent, and then dialed back in a second. Zhuo Guangyao was about to turn off the phone.The text messages came in at random: brother, don't do stupid things.I'm watching you!convex

Zhuo Guangyao studied the last word for a long time, and finally understood it.This kind of insulting image word can also make him laugh.He was almost flattered that his sister, who had always acted in disdain, cared so much about his every move.

Probably because he was too ecstatic to laugh, it wasn't until he accidentally glanced at the rearview mirror that he realized that Su Mi had sat up from the back seat at some point.

The laughter stopped abruptly, and the two of them stared at each other in the rearview mirror for a long time.Finally, Su Mi spoke first, "I said, can you give me some water first?"

Seeing that Zhuo Guangyao was indifferent, he continued his efforts, "Can I appeal for the human rights of the "meat ticket", so as not to die of thirst?"

Zhuo Guangyao jumped up almost instantly as if waking up from a dream, and poured out the mineral water in a hurry.Su Mi still reminded at the right time: "Slow down, hey! Be careful!"

"Ouch!" Zhuo Guangyao hugged his head and wailed for a while.

"You've hit your head. You've always liked to put things around like this. When you need to use them, you look like headless flies." Su Mi looked at him, then eased her tone, "Except for those anime peripherals."

Zhuo Guangyao didn't answer the call, turned off the ignition, and went to the back seat to untie the not-so-tight rope.He signaled Su Mi to try to move his sore arms and wrists, then handed over the bottled water he had finally found, and went outside the car door in a daze.Think about it at four o'clock in the morning, when it was just dawn, he was still hiding in the car he had just rented, waiting for an opportunity downstairs in Su Mi's company.The building administrator was already dreaming about Duke Zhou, and Su Mi didn't come out all night after working overtime yesterday, and it was just the right time for the entire floor to be empty.He has tightened the valves of the water supply pipes on the entire floor. Su Mi, a working overtime dog, must make a cup of coffee if he wants to refresh himself. When the water tank and tap water are cut off, he can only go to the water purifier to get water.In the entire building, only the administrator is still using the old-fashioned barreled water purifier... As long as a cup, a small cup of coffee, the sleeping pills in the water purifier can play a role.During this period of time, he suffered from insomnia for a long time. In addition to the portion he ate, the accumulated amount of sleeping pills was enough to make a cow sleep soundly.Even though he had rehearsed countless times by heart, when he sprinkled the sleeping pills into the water purifier, his hands were still shaking with fright.He also didn't care if there was powder scattered on the ground, he just poured out the powder in a hurry.Pity him for committing a crime for the first time, and he always has the illusion of sirens ringing in his ears.When he really acted, his palms were so slippery that he couldn't even put on gloves, and he really experienced what it means to be a guilty conscience.But there was no turning back when he opened the bow, so he had no choice but to bite the bullet, wear a mask, squeeze the peaked cap tightly, and walk through the heavily monitored corridor with his back hunched, carefully avoiding the elevator's probe, at the only office door with lights in the entire building. stop before.

"Actually, I was still struggling at that time. Even if I knew I couldn't be a good person, at least I could be a good person in this life." Zhuo Guangyao put his hands on the railing beside the road, blowing the salty sea breeze , with a relieved look on his face.

"Do you know? When I opened the door, I saw you lying there quietly. The morning sun shone in as if it was specially lighting you up. Your eyelashes were long, one by one, as if opened At that time, I knew that I was obsessed with ghosts and there was no way out." Zhuo Guangyao laughed, tears streamed into his mouth, salty.

"Even I don't know, I actually like you so much."

Su Mi sat in the car and listened to him explaining so much, but finally just smiled, "Shouldn't you have a cigarette in such a fucking life?"

Zhuo Guangyao was stunned for a moment, "You know, I don't smoke." After thinking about it, he added: "I'll find it for you."

After searching every corner of the car, I found a crumpled pack of cigarettes in the crack of the passenger seat.

"I don't know if I can still smoke it. It's probably left by the person who rented this car last time." Zhuo Guangyao handed it over, but Su Mi didn't care too much, just took out a stick and smoked it.Zhuo Guangyao was amazed to see that he took out the lighter from his jacket and lit it skillfully, the whole set of movements was so smooth and sophisticated.

"I've never seen you smoke before. I thought you didn't smoke either."

Su Mi was choked, coughed a few times, looked at him and said funnyly: "Should I say that you are so naive at this age? Sometimes I really envy you. When I am with you, I am conscious You don’t smoke. You probably don’t know how disgusted and patient you look when there are customers smoking next to you in a bar. But it’s cute.”

Zhuo Guangyao touched his face subconsciously, Su Mi deliberately teased him and blew a puff of smoke on his face.Zhuo Guangyao blushed from choking.Su Mi handed over the cigarette from her mouth, seductively like a delinquent boy in school: "Do you want to take a puff?"

Unexpectedly, Zhuo Guangyao really leaned over and took a breath, and of course he coughed earth-shatteringly.Su Mi was completely stunned, looking at Zhuo Guangyao as if she didn't know him at all.

Zhuo Guangyao managed to slow down, stared at him and said seriously: "I think it over, I really like you. You can tell me anything you want me to do, and you can ask me for something you don't like. I am willing to change for you."

Su Mi was stunned, the cigarette in his hand was burning inch by inch, getting hotter and hotter until the heat of his fingers could hardly wake him up.However, Zhuo Guangyao continued to tell his heartfelt words as if he didn't know what he had cast.

"I miss our time together very much, even though it wasn't long. I'm afraid I won't be able to find someone who can make me happy again. If it's you, I'll admit it even if I'm broken."

After finishing what he wanted to say, Zhuo Guangyao also fell silent.Su Mi raised her forehead, and suddenly laughed exaggeratedly, physical tears were squeezed out from the corners of her eyes.

"You really talk to yourself. But we can't go back anymore. I'm engaged." Su Mi flicked the ring on her left middle finger, "The other party is a rich lady, beautiful and lovely with a tutor. Huobai Fumei Yinzhi has all the chest, waist and legs, a perfect marriage partner."

"So, why should I choose you?"

Su Mi stared at him with a half-smile, and Zhuo Guangyao asked with a complicated expression: "Don't you like men? How can you get married?"

"It's very simple, it's for money! She can save me ten years of struggle and immediately reach the pinnacle of life. From now on, the beautiful scenery will be as beautiful as flowers and beautiful couples. If I'm lucky, I will have a wife and children who are hot on the bed. I will be happy just thinking about it!"

Zhuo Guangyao felt that he almost didn't know this person anymore. Could this man with a naughty smile in front of him really be Su Mi who used to hunt for treasure in that small attic with him?Where did Su Mi, who was so gentle, even pampered and loved to act like a baby, go?

"It was you who said, 'I don't want to say goodbye'." He had a sore nose, feeling really wronged.

Su Mi put away her joking expression, she probably didn't expect Zhuo Guangyao to mention this, and he couldn't deny it with words.

"Just because of this, you, a ten thousand-year-old nerd, came all the way to find me? And you made yourself look like a kidnapper?"

"I'm not a kidnapper!" Zhuo Guangyao replied stubbornly while wiping away his tears. "I just don't want you to get married. She has gone to try on the wedding dress. I'm in a hurry!"

"Oh! Terrible! You have learned to follow?!" Su Mi took his hand funny, "You are wiping more and more tears. You are crying. Come on! Let me wipe it for you."

The sleeves of the suit were rubbed into the face, Zhuo Guangyao endured the pain and heard the familiar petting voice whispering: "You! Sure enough, I can't do anything without me. Little idiot!"

"Big liar!" Zhuo Guangyao retaliated and blew his nose and rubbed it against Su Mi's expensive suit.Seeing his childish behavior, Su Mi couldn't help wrapping him in her arms, "Isn't that right! I'm a little liar born of a big liar, and I specialize in defrauding money, sex, and people."

Zhuo Guangyao was taken aback by what he said. "You mean your dad..."

"That man is a big bad wolf. He successfully tricked my mother, a lamb, and gave birth to me, a bastard. He didn't like it, and threw me into the countryside until the son his wife gave birth to was really useless. Only then did I realize that there is still my son. My mother has been with him for so many years and finally found an opportunity to let me go, and immediately took me back from my grandpa to recognize my ancestors. As a result... that man has been trying to protect his property. I didn’t divorce my wife, and my mother is still a third son, one of his many third sons. When I was young, I watched women fight, like watching a harem drama. What’s the point? I thought since I was a child, What's the point of fighting for money! I just don't like it! I just want to go out and venture into the world for everyone to see, leaving that abnormal home and the earth still spins the same!"

Su Mi's passionate voice gradually slowed down, "I started a trading company, and it was fine for the first few years. I made some money by reselling some clothes and hats. Gradually, I became more enthusiastic and started a metal bracket business with my friends. I stocked up a large amount of goods at the port, and waited for the next round of price fluctuations to sell directly at a high price. Unexpectedly, I encountered a double-reverse anti-dumping incident that has never happened in a century in the industry. I lost the right to export overnight. Even if I hurt myself and sold it to a local dealer at a discount , The dealers still have to push back and forth, for fear that they will be found out by the Ministry of Commerce and commit crimes. After that, my company's capital chain was broken, and the employees' salaries for the month could not be paid."

Zhuo Guangyao suddenly held his hand back, begging in his eyes, but Su Mi still said it out. "It was also at that time that she found me."