You who cannot be touched in memory

My body is gradually recovering, my fingers have returned to their previous state, I can start to hold a pen, I can pick up some very light objects, I can even move my toes slightly, but only I know these, even Zhiyan, who was by my side day and night, didn't notice the fact that my body was already able to move.He still insists on helping me move my joints every day, massage me, and encourage me to feel my body.But every time I pretended not to understand.Although I could see that his heart had been shaken, and he even suspected that my brain function had regressed due to the previous high fever, he still did not give up.

I am grateful for that.But for me, "returning to the original" does not allow me to return to Qixuan's side, and every time I see Yin Fei's face looking in from the door of the ward, I am more determined in my decision.The key to everything lies in Zhiyan, only he can decide who I want to see or not, and only Zhiyan can control Yin Fei.Yin Fei didn't take me seriously, he just regarded me as a plaything to tease, as long as Zhiyan left for a while, he would silently observe me through the door.

He is probably doubting that I can understand what he said to me before?Maybe he was afraid that I would "inform" Zhiyan?

So what would he do if I really "whistle off"?

Will he kill me when no one is around?A little gangster like him can do anything as long as he is pushed... Having lived in the filthiest corners of the city, I know people like him very well.

Maybe I should act a bit later to reassure Yin Fei.

Looking at Yin Fei's gaze from outside the door, I thought so.

But will Shihiko believe it?

I still have some hesitation.

"Ling Xi, it's time to eat."

Zhiyan came back with a plate.

I sat halfway against the pillow and ignored him.

Zhiyan put the dinner plate on the head of my bed, sat next to me and gently repeated what he said just now in my ear, then picked me up again and let me lie in his arms.

"Ling Xi, come on, open your mouth..."

He lowered his head and said softly to me, but I wasn't going to do what he said.If I can't move my fingers, I shouldn't be able to open my mouth either.

Seeing that I didn't respond, Zhiyan could only rest my head on his chest, holding the spoon with food in one hand, and gently pressing down on my jaw with the other hand, allowing my mouth to open A little bit.Then he put the thickened liquid food into my mouth.The food naturally slid down my mouth, and my throat reflexively made a swallowing movement. In this way, this mouthful of "rice" was considered to be eaten.

Every time I "eat" a mouthful, he has to wait for a while to confirm that I have completely swallowed the thing before feeding the second mouthful.This is just a bowl of rice noodles, and I have to "eat" it for almost an hour.And Zhiyan insisted on feeding me like this. In fact, he could have inserted a catheter in my nasal cavity extending all the way to the stomach to drain the food. Other doctors had suggested this way, but he rejected them one by one.

Finally, after eating, Zhiyan gently rubbed my stomach again.I knew he was helping me digest, because if I couldn't digest it myself, I would have to use enemas or gastric lavages to get out the food residues deposited in my body.Fortunately, I have not had any digestive problems so far, and a large part of the credit should be attributed to him.

"Ling Xi, are you feeling better?" He lowered his head and asked me, and I responded with a slight whimper.

He immediately smiled. Obviously, he had been looking forward to this little voice for a long time.

"Ling Xi, what do you want to do this afternoon? Do you want to go outside?" He asked me, but I didn't respond.Anyway, whatever he takes me to do is a well-designed rehabilitation exercise, no matter which one is the same to me.

"Don't you want to go...Then..." He thought for a while, "Would it be good to listen to the story?"

I don't respond.

"You don't like it either..." He couldn't help feeling a little disappointed.

In fact, he didn't need to ask me at all. Anyway, no matter what he did, it was part of his rehabilitation. He just had to follow the steps.But he still spends a lot of time asking for my wishes every time, as if he is seeking my approval.Sometimes I ignore him at all, no matter what he asks, I don't make a sound, I don't look at him, and in the end he is ready to let me lie down on the bed, sit by my bed and fall into silence.I hope he can think of Qixuan at this time.If he is willing to call Qixuan to come, I would be happy to be more positive towards him.

But this day, he didn't continue to ask.Seeing that I didn't respond, he immediately picked me up from the bed, fixed me on the wheelchair with cloth straps, covered me with a thick blanket, and pushed me straight out of the ward.

He's probably about to lose his patience too, right?I thought about it silently.

This time he took me to the small garden downstairs of the hospital, and Yin Fei followed him along the way, seeing his sullen face, he didn't go up to talk to him.

It was a sunny day, and Zhiyan pushed me to a gazebo.He sat down on the bench in the gazebo and turned my wheelchair around so I could see him face to face.I tried not to notice the deep gaze he was looking at me, but just opened my eyes and looked at the empty place in the air.I think I must look very dull now, right?My mouth is not completely closed because I just ate, and there are still traces of saliva at the corners of my mouth.And Zhiyan just watched me silently, not even noticing that Yin Fei approached.

"That... Brother Zhiyan, he is like this now, does he know where he is?"

Yin Fei's voice brought Zhi Yan back to his senses. He was taken aback for a moment, then looked at Yin Fei, but soon returned his gaze to me.

"Ling Xi knows." Zhiyan said firmly, "He knows where he is now, and he can see us, but he can't express it."

"Oh..." Yin Fei looked at me, "Then it's like we're talking now, can he understand it?"

he asked again.And this question made my heart tighten.

"I hope he understands..."

As Zhiyan said, he smiled softly at me, and then stretched out his hand to caress my cheek.

"...What are you thinking now, Ling Xi? Tell me, please..." He begged me.

I couldn't help but smile bitterly in my heart.If he knew what I was really thinking, maybe he wouldn't be so gentle with me, right?But if Yin Fei is not around, I really want to respond to him, and I even want to be honest with him.

Yin Fei stood aside and watched, his brows almost frowning into a straight line.

"Well...Brother Zhiyan, if he's not well all the time, why don't you just keep taking care of him like this?"

Hearing this, Zhiyan not only frowned.

"If you don't want to stay here, I can go and tell Abba."

"Ah, no, no, no." Yin Fei immediately shook his head, "I'm just a little curious..."

"Curious what?"

"That's... Brother Zhiyan, do you think he can understand what we say but can't express it, or can he not understand at all?"

Ha... Sure enough, he has always cared about this, he was afraid that I would find out that he had lied to me.

"Why do you suddenly care about Ling Xi?"

"Ah...just curious." Yin Fei waved his hands quickly.

"Oh..." Zhiyan sighed, and took out my hand from under the blanket and held it in his hand.

"Ling Xi will be fine..."

The wind started to blow outside, and Zhiyan immediately got up and led me back.Back in the ward, Zhiyan began to wipe my face carefully.The next step is to take off your clothes and wipe yourself, right?Thinking of this, I saw Yin Fei standing beside me, and I couldn't help feeling disgusted in my heart. I didn't want to just be looked at by him.Helpless, I had to close my eyes and pretend to sleep.Zhiyan noticed it quickly, and he really put down the towel in his hand, and turned to help me cover the quilt.

"Yin Fei, Ling Xi has fallen asleep, please stay here and watch for me for a while, I will go to Dr Zheng to get something."

"Oh." Yin Fei responded and sat down beside my bed, and as the door opened and closed, I knew that Zhiyan had gone out.

This change caught me off guard.

I just don't want to be in the same room with Yin Fei.

After a while, I heard Yin Fei sighing beside me, and suddenly there was a touch on my face, I was startled, and my eyelids twitched involuntarily.My heart beat instantly quickened.

Was it Yin Fei who touched me just now?Did he see it?He shouldn't doubt me...

I felt a drum in my heart when I thought about it.Yin Fei's fingers resting on my cheeks really froze, and I felt the heat of his breath hitting my face.Is he looking closely at me?

"Uh..." Yin Fei seemed a little hesitant when he made such a voice.

Immediately afterwards, I felt my forehead being touched by him again, and my heart beat faster. The moment he touched me, my whole body shivered uncontrollably.

Ah...he must have found out.

I was so nervous that I broke out in a cold sweat.But I dare not open my eyes, dare not look at him.He must be suspicious of me now, what if he told Zhiyan before me?What if he told Zhiyan that the things I did before were all fakes?How did Zhiyan treat me?

No, it can't be like this.The initiative of the matter should still be in my hands, I have to let Zhiyan completely stand by my side.Ahhh... go all out!

I opened my eyes and saw Yin Fei was looking at me in surprise.His mouth was slightly open, as if digesting what he saw in front of him.

"You...couldn't be pretending to sleep?"

He asked me this, and beads of sweat were already dripping down my cheeks from my forehead.

How to do--