You who cannot be touched in memory

In the morning, when I opened my eyes, Qixuan was sitting beside my bed and watching me tenderly.I wanted to reach out and touch his cheek, but he hugged me directly and kissed my mouth.

"Uh...ah..."

"What's the matter, Ling Xi, don't you want it?" He stopped and looked at me.

I immediately shook my head, my face flushed slightly.

"That's right~" Qi Xuan smiled and kissed him again.

He cupped my back and the nape of my neck with his hands, moving his tongue slowly in my mouth.I tried my best to reach out and hug him, but it was not enough with all my strength, my hand could only slightly touch his clothes, and then I had no strength to maintain the raised posture.

Noticing my movements, Qixuan froze for a moment, let go of me, carefully put me back on the bed, and then helped me rub my sore arms.

"Ling Xi, can you try to move your legs?"

He asked me that, and I nodded.He cast his eyes on my legs.

I tried to feel the existence of my legs and feet. After several minutes, I finally let my toes vibrate slightly, and the tiny tremors were almost invisible visually.Qixuan looked at my legs and then at me.Apparently he didn't notice my "movement", and his expression became a little lost. He stroked my forehead, trying to comfort me.

"Don't worry, Ling Xi, it will be fine in the future."

I nodded again.

In fact, I really don't really want to walk very urgently. I am used to being bedridden, and I hope that I can stay at home like this for the rest of my life and be protected by Qixuan.In fact, I am a little afraid of the outside world. I have never seen many things outside, and the city has changed so much that I can’t recognize it in just a few years. It seems that everything around me has taken many steps forward and I am still stuck. in place.And such a change, I do not want.

After that, Qixuan carried me to wash up and feed me.I started to lose interest.

"Ling Xi, why are you unhappy?"

After eating, Qixuan brought me paper and pen, and asked me softly.

(If... I can't walk in the future...)

Before I finished writing, Qixuan had already picked up my hand holding the pen from the paper and held it in his hand.

"Ling Xi, it will definitely be cured. You are just too weak now. When you get better, I will take you to do rehabilitation projects. I will always be with you. When you recover, we will Just go on a trip together, haven't you always wanted to travel?"

Qixuan looked at me earnestly, but it was difficult for me to show the same hopeful smile as he did.I shook my head and he put my hand down and let me continue writing.

(Then why... my hands have returned to normal, but my legs still can't move? If it's just that my body is weak, my legs should be able to move like my hands, but I don't have the strength, but now...)

Seeing my words, Qi Xuan's expression became serious.

(Do you... Both you and Zhiyan know why my legs can't move?) I will continue to write, (neither of you have asked me to practice moving my legs. If I can move, why didn't you let me practice? )

"Ling Xi..." Qi Xuan looked at me, his eyes suddenly became moist, he seemed to be thinking about something, he seemed to have thought of a lot, but he shook his head at me again, choking back those words.

"Ling Xi...you will recover, you will be cured."

(Cure...my legs?)

I asked back.I don't like the way he talks now, he seems to be hiding something from me.He clearly knew that I would find out, but he would rather keep it a secret.

(Why not?)

(I want to know, Qixuan.)

Qixuan stretched out his hand to caress my cheek. There were tears in his eyes, but he still shook his head at me.

"Ling Xi, don't you remember?"

"……ah…………"

What?Why did he ask?

"Ling Xi, actually..." He hesitated to speak.

"Ah...ah..."

Come on, tell me!

"Actually..." Qi Xuan seemed very hesitant, but under my urgent gaze, he finally opened his mouth.

"Ling Xi, do you still remember... the year when the incident happened?"

(...2007?)

"Yes, yes." Qi Xuan nodded.He then let out a long sigh, and I could tell he was a little nervous—he would actually be nervous in front of me...

"Ling Xi...Actually, you..." He made up his mind to say the following sentence.

"You were in a coma in the hospital for three years, but after... the time after that... Ling Xi, how long do you think it has been since you recovered and realized?"

(...half a year?)

I was a little hesitant, but thinking about it, there shouldn't be much difference in this time.

"Half a year... huh..." Qi Xuan looked at the words I wrote on the paper, his expression was almost extremely sad, and I couldn't help but put down the pen to hold his hand.Seeing his expression like this made my heart ache.

"Ling Xi..." Qi Xuan pulled me into his arms and hugged me tightly.

"Ling Xi, I promise you, I will always be by your side, and I will take you to cure your illness, you trust me, okay?"

he asked suddenly.

"what……"

I respond with an affirmative tone.What happened to him?Why did he become so sentimental all of a sudden...does it have something to do with time?Has something else happened in the past six months that I don't know about?Or……

Qixuan let go of me, but looked at me with more and more sad eyes.

He's still hesitating—

"Ah...ah..."

I urged him aloud.

Come on, it’s all over—

"Ling Xi... Let me tell you, don't be afraid." Qi Xuan looked at me and his expression became gentle, he held my hand and opened his mouth slowly.

"Actually, the time is not half a year, Ling Xi...is one year and five months."

? !

I opened my eyes wide and looked at him in bewilderment.

"But...you don't remember many things in the past two years." Qixuan held my hand tightly and continued, "Actually, it's not that you haven't done rehabilitation for the recovery of walking ability. At that time, I took you I practiced for a month, but there was no progress at all. Later, I invited several foreign brain surgery experts to come over to examine you, and later found that the root cause of the disease has always been in the brain, and the remaining congestion that has not dissipated oppresses a large part of the body. The nerves that control movement are the reason you can only move your hands and your head now... and the memory problem that happens every time you get sick. You don't remember it and why we don't ask for it You, in fact, are all because you are afraid of having that kind of problem again. At that time, you were exhausted because of those forced activities every day, and finally developed a high fever and pneumonia... It took the doctor nearly three months to recover. Getting your sickness under control and then waking up and forgetting why you were sick was the worst. Then we gradually realized that every time you get sick, you forget things, sometimes just little things that don't matter, But sometimes, you will forget the memories of the past few months. Actually... Ling Xi, you lived with Guan Zhiyan for two months... But Guan Zhiyan said that you had a very serious high fever during the period, and in the end you only remembered the last ten days. A few days..."

"..."

My whole body froze.

What the hell is Qixuan talking about?How is this possible...

I will forget so many things?

Impossible, except that the memory of half a year before fully waking up has not recovered, my memory should have almost recovered...

Probably seeing my bewildered expression, Qi Xuan became nervous again.

"Ling Xi, don't be like this...Ling Xi, look at me, you look at me."

He suddenly ordered me.

I looked up and saw that his eyes had become very determined.

"Ling Xi, your illness will be cured. I have asked many doctors. As long as your physical fitness returns to normal, the incidence of memory impairment will decrease, and the congestion in your brain will gradually disappear. Now You have recovered so much from five years ago, when you couldn't even breathe on your own, but now you can understand what I say, and you can respond to me. So if you can do it then, now Will definitely do better!"

(But... what if the bruise doesn't go away, what if I forget more?)

I looked at him hopelessly, still not recovering from the shock just now.

Losing my memory is not a terrible thing, but the scary thing is that I didn't realize that I had lost my memory for nearly a year!

"I'm here, Ling Xi..." Qi Xuan's expression softened, he hugged me tenderly, and said firmly in my ear: "Didn't I just say that I will always be by your side , I will write down everything you forgot. Just now you clearly promised to believe me, why did you change your mind now?"

I was dumbfounded.

That's true...for me, Qixuan is enough...as long as I believe in Qixuan.

This time, I gathered all my strength and raised my arms to hug Qixuan's back.

Feeling the strength in my hand, Qi Xuan smiled knowingly at me.

"Okay, let's not get tired after so much effort."

He let go of me and carefully carried me back to the bed.

"Well, then... what do you want to do today?"

(watch the news.)

"Eh? Why do you suddenly want to watch the news?" Qi Xuan couldn't help frowning.

(Want to learn about...the changes outside.)

"Oh——" Qi Xuan elongated his voice, "Okay! But you can't watch it for too long, and spend the rest of the time with me."

(What does Qixuan want to do?)

"I...I want to take you out for a walk. If you want to understand the changes outside, wouldn't it be better to go outside and have a look?"

(Then...don't go to crowded places.)

"it is good."

Qixuan came up and kissed me on the face again.

"I will listen to you from now on."

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