The Playboy's Guide

"I like you, would you like to be with me?"

Lu Zihan's body froze when he heard the words, he thought he had misheard, turned around and asked in disbelief, "What did you just say?"

Lin Jinyang regretted it as soon as he said it, not to mention what Lu Zihan thought of him, he just figured out his mind a little bit and confessed impulsively before he could completely smooth it out. This behavior can be said to be very irresponsible .

But he couldn't make Lin Jinyang deal with what he said just now as a joke.His lips moved, and under Lu Zihan's gaze, he said in a hoarse voice: "I like you."

Lu Zihan was silent for a while, staring at a certain direction with deep eyes, and said, "You are a straight man who likes me? Brother, today is Christmas, not April Fool's Day. Even if you are joking, you should pay attention to the occasion, right?"

Lin Jinyang didn't say a word, just stared at him without saying a word, but his expression was rare and serious. Lu Zihan looked at his expression, and his heart hanging in the air suddenly tightened, and an ominous premonition spread in his heart Come.

Lin Jinyang said suddenly, "I'm serious, I'm not joking."

This answer is the one Lu Zihan doesn't want to hear the most at the moment. He withdrew his gaze and looked at Lin Jinyang in silence for a long time. The milk tea in his hand had already been drunk before he knew it. He slowly clenched his hands and squeezed them tightly. Empty tea cup with milk.

After a while, he threw the crumpled cup in his hand into the trash can not far away, and a soft "boom" hit his heart.

Lu Zihan's eyelids were half-drooped and he couldn't see the look in his eyes clearly, and he said without any fluctuations in his tone: "No matter what you think, I just pretended I didn't hear what you just said."

"I..." Lin Jinyang wanted to defend himself.

Lu Zihan raised his hand and made a stop gesture, and said: "There is no need to explain anything, I don't like you, it's that simple, it's not easy to go against the secular nature these days, you better not bend yourself, it's not worth it .”

"Whether it's worth it or not should be weighed by myself." Lin Jinyang retorted.

Lu Zihan smiled inexplicably, his face looked extremely pale under the blurred light, "Okay, then I won't persuade you, but I hope you don't think of me, I can't bear it."

"This is my freedom of choice, right?" Lin Jinyang frowned.

"Yes." Lu Zihan turned his head, "It's your freedom, but it's also my freedom not to accept it."

"Why?" Lin Jinyang couldn't help asking, he only felt the overwhelming pain sweeping through his body like a tsunami, "Since you are single and I am also single, and you also like men, then even if you don't like me, feelings are okay cultivated, isn't it?"

Lu Zihan trembled when he heard the words, and all the memories that had lingered in his heart for the past few days came out. Those memories were like a pair of hands strangling his neck tightly, making him unable to breathe, his heart and lungs twitching violently, as if he would die in the next second. exploded.

He slowly adjusted his emotions, stabilized his mind a little, and said in a hoarse voice: "...Impossible, it is impossible for us now and in the future, so give up."

After finishing speaking, Lu Zihan couldn't stay any longer, turned around and wanted to leave, but before he could take a step, someone grabbed his right hand, he turned his head abruptly, and roared angrily: "Lin Jinyang, I think what I just said It's pretty clear, don't you understand?"

"No." Lin Jinyang replied.

"Then let go." Lu Zi said with a cold face.

Lin Jinyang stared at him without making a sound, neither letting go nor taking the next move. Lu Zihan tried to struggle with his left hand, but found that the hand that was restraining him was so strong that he couldn't move it a little bit.

The two were deadlocked like this.

Lu Zihan felt a bit of bitterness in his heart. He didn't know which step he made wrong that caused the situation to become like this. If he had known in advance that such a thing would happen, he would have been under the pressure of being forced by Ms. Mo to go on blind dates ten times a day. , he would not ask Lin Jinyang to act with him.

But life has no ifs.

One misstep will cause eternal hatred, which is probably his current situation.

"Let's go together, it's not easy to fight today is a holiday." Lin Jinyang said, "If you don't want to, just pretend you haven't heard what I said."

Lu Zihan was silent for a while, but after all, he still didn't want to make the relationship too tense, so he finally nodded hesitantly, "Okay."

Lin Jinyang let go of his hand when he heard his agreement. Lu Zihan's wrist was pressed with an obvious red mark by his force. Lin Jinyang stared at his wrist. The red mark made his eyes hurt, and his heart was also pierced by a pair of invisible His hands were grabbed violently.

On the way home, neither of them said a word. Lu Zihan seemed to be distracted by the scene outside the window. He turned his head and stared out of the window the whole time. He didn't even share the corner of his eyes with Lin Jinyang. The temperature suddenly dropped to freezing point.

The two of them maintained a delicate silence and returned to their own homes.

After the anti-theft door behind "Kacha" closed, Lu Zihan's tense upper body collapsed in an instant. It has been two years, two full years.

But the pain that penetrated deep into the bone marrow still hasn't disappeared, no, rather than saying that it hasn't disappeared, it's because he doesn't want to forget it.He still firmly believes that as long as he still remembers this pain, that person will still exist in this world and never leave.

He dare not forget or try, what will happen if he forgets?But people's memory is always short, he doesn't know how long he can remember, how many years?Over ten years?Or decades?

Lu Zihan leaned softly against the door panel. There was no light in the house and he could barely see through the bright moonlight coming in from the window. This feeling of being shrouded in darkness made him feel very relaxed.

He stared out of the window in a daze, he should avoid it for a while, Lin Jinyang should figure it out after he distanced himself, knowing that his liking was just an illusion.

......

Lin Jinyang closed the file folder in his hand, stretched his waist and raised his head to stare at the incandescent lamp above his head in a daze. Suddenly, someone knocked hard on his head with a file folder, and Chen Guangzhi's calm but prestige voice rang in his ears. Sounded: "What are you thinking, kid?"

Lin Jinyang snapped back to his senses, sat up straight and turned his head to look, and said, "Captain Chen!"

"As soon as I came back, I saw you in a daze. Have you finished reading the materials?" Chen Guangzhi said.

Lin Jinyang touched his painful head, frowned and complained: "After reading it, why do you always do it when you disagree, it hurts me to death."

Chen Guangzhi threw the folder in his hand onto the desktop, "Here is an important document, please take a good look and see if you can find more detailed clues." He paused and continued, "Hurry up, line The news sent back by people shows that the gang will take action again in the near future, trying to kill them in the cradle when the losses expand."

"Yes." Lin Jinyang put away his laughing expression and replied seriously.

Chen Guangzhi didn't speak, he raised his hand and patted his shoulder, got up and left.

Team Chen is already 60 years old, and there are only five years left before he retires. The entire city bureau knows that Chen Guangzhi wants to hand over the burden to Lin Jinyang, so he will spare no effort to train him now, as long as Lin Jinyang can mention it one day in advance. He can safely hand over this position to him.

However, although Lin Jinyang is very capable at work, he is very glib, which really can't make people feel at ease.

Lin Jinyang pinched the bridge of his nose, picked up the water glass and took a sip of ice water. After drinking the ice water, he shivered and his mind cleared up a lot. Then he began to look through the file folder that Team Chen brought.

"Tick tock tick tock" time passed bit by bit, and an hour passed unconsciously. Lin Jinyang finally read the information in his hand for the first time.

He looked up at the wall clock on the wall. It was already nine o'clock in the evening. He moved his stiff neck, and his cervical spine made a soft "click".

Lin Jinyang pondered for a moment, reached out his hand to find a pack of cigarettes and a lighter from his jacket pocket, then stood up abruptly and strode out of the office.

He walked to the end of the corridor where he usually went to rest. There was a window on the wall at the end. Today is No. 17 of the lunar calendar, and the moon is still as bright as it was in the middle of the month. spread all over the floor.

Lin Jinyang leaned against the window, staring up at the bright moon outside the window, took out a cigarette from the cigarette box, put it in his mouth, and lit the cigarette end casually with the lighter in his hand.

He shook the cigarette butt and took a deep breath. The white smoke rolled with choking nicotine into his mouth, and was pushed out by the gas from his throat.

Memories of Christmas Eve last night came to mind. All the scenes were repeated frame after frame like a painting. Lu Zihan's side face shrouded in fireworks was frozen in his memory, and it became clearer when he recalled it after one night. .

The original vague feelings in his heart became clearer, but... the pain in the eyes of the man when he refused in the dark made him have countless guesses in his heart.

There was a sound of footsteps behind "Da Da", Lin Jinyang withdrew his thoughts and looked back, it turned out that the person who came was Cheng Yuan.

Cheng Yuan waved at him, then stopped beside him, "Deputy Lin."

"En." Lin Jinyang responded, took off the cigarette in his mouth and shook it, and the excess ash was shaken off, "Come out for a breath?"

"Well, it's too stuffy inside, and I'm a little dizzy." Cheng Yuan leaned against the wall on the other side while talking, "Can I have a cigarette, Deputy Lin."

Lin Jinyang took out the cigarette box and was about to hand it over, when he suddenly remembered something, and took it back after a pause, "You can ask for cigarettes, but you have to answer me a question."

"Ah!" Cheng Yuan saw his movements stretching and shrinking, and the cigarettes that should have been taken away were taken away again. He wailed in his heart but felt helpless, so he had no choice but to say, "Okay, Deputy Lin...you ask Bar"

"How did you know you liked men?" Lin Jinyang let out a thunderbolt calmly.

Cheng Yuan: "..."

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Mao Mao picked up the pot and ran away.